Understanding my Ancestors

Today I called my aunt to have a better understanding of my ancestors.

4 generations ago, my great great grandfather was an official in the Qing Dynasty. My aunt shared that my great great grandpa had a very squarish property that the around the squarish compound were houses. It's called shi he yuan. That's a pretty big house I guess!!!

Then 3 generation ago my great grandfather was a businessman and open supermarket selling western food etc in China and Singapore. As he was rich, my grand father was a scholar and didn't do any hardwork nor learn from his dad the business.

That time great grandfather did donate to Shun Zhong San and was a tong zhi! What that means I no clue!!!

When he died in China, grandfather, from his first wife of 2 girls 2 boys; he was the youngest son, came to Singapore with his wife, my grandma. But as he didn't know how to handle the supermarket, his staff took over and he spent too much time in the political meeting that he lost his business.

My Great Grandpa did had another wife here whom had bored him 7 children, in the ratio 3:4. But no clue girl more or boy. Anyway, all lost contact! During my younger days did visit one of them but now don't know where they are.

My grandfather is just a member in there and after Japanese war, he no more participated in the meeting as livelihood affected.

According to my aunt, she said her dad told them Shun Zhong San had died and someone else took over!!!

From this generation on, they were poor!!!

Around 1960, grandfather passed away!!! He wasn't involved in any political meeting since after the Japanese war!!!

So my ancestors were not in the communist party during Mr Lee KY time!!! He was only a member in China and before Japanese war. By then life was too poor!!!

My aunt shared that my grandpa wrote books about his grandpa time.

And when the book was published, then they would have money. So she said the book was published 100s of times and she said they did managed to sell even the dynasty was no more!!!

I just want to know if my ancestors have any involvement in Mr Lee KY time but no. Only my great grandfather name is in Wan Qing Yuan due to his active participation!!!

My aunt shared that my great grandpa time was during the colonial rule! They were not involved in the new political scene. Aunt said it's 100 of years ago, the olden days!

That's how my ancestor political career ended at grandfather's life and he died 2 years before my dad married my mum.

I don't know why we were under tracking as it was great grandfather time that he was super rich and super active in it to contribute money to help China end.

With business gone, poor, everything come to an end!!!

(PS: One piece of information that Su reminded me was they offered my grandma a bungalow but grandma rejected the gift!!!! I respected my grandma for rejected it as they were not desirable people to be associated with nor indebted to!!! Grandma might be lacking but she had her integrity intact!!!)

So yes, there is some royal blood in me from 4th generation up but 2 generations on, no more!!!

I guess, thanks to my great grandpa name that was still around, we were linked by the tracking group to put us under track as if we are from those that come against them!!!

As the cab driver talked about the communist as if it is related to me but now I can gladly rejected it!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

God Anointing on Mr Lee KY

I could see Lord's anointing on Mr Lee Kuan Yew clearly.

His Grandma wanted him to pick up the Chinese Culture and wanted his mum to send him to a Chinese School.

But he could not understand and begged his mum to sent him to Public school.

Japanese conquered Singapore and killing tall guys and he almost got pick but Lord gave him idea to excused himself to take his coat and the fact the Japanese soldier agreed was the Favour of God and the soldier was changed the next day and he passed through the test!!!

Lord gave him Favour to continued his study and to go UK to study and observed the society. He also led him to study Law so as to path his political way.

Lead Lim Chin Siong to his PAP party and let Mr Lee be made known by the Hokkien and Chinese community!!!

Lead Lim Chin Siong out of PAP and led PAP members to out flow till PAP left few people.

Let UK and Malaysia did not Favour the Chinese Group!!! They saw PAP weakened and wanted to kept it, so Malaysia offered Merger.

Meanwhile the some Chinese Group people were being jailed under ISD.

Then Malaysia could not handle a strong Mr Lee and cancel the Merger.

First time went UK to ask for Independent faced closed door.

2nd time went UK to ask for Independent and door was opened.

Lim Chin Siong went through a few ISD and when release flew to London but eventually still returned to Singapore. He died at age 63.

While Mr Lee Kwan Yew and Goh Keng Swee and team lead Singapore to Shines!!!

It's all the work of God!!!

Btw, this Amos Yee, Lord knew where he is heading and led many Christian friends to him!!!

But he made fun of God Word, he made fun of JESUS, The Word of God and he made fun of God's Anointed people!!!!

I wonder if you come across God Word that Promised Father Abraham; you curse my people you will be curse!!!

I don't know what you went through in your 16 years of life that you celebrated death!!! The Jews, so many of them died so horribly and you took the talent God give you to fry them in your Christmas joke!!

Now His Blessing Hand is off you. Let see how you are being fry!!! But you need help on why you get joy on seeing death!!! Sick joke!!!! Was it the 3 movies you watched per day or the computer game you played?

May God have lots of Mercy for you!!!

Understanding Singapore

I had a glimpse of the History of the Past and I thank God that He lead Singapore to be uniquely Singapore for His Glory!!

One might argue what happened to the past was unfair. But without the Anointing of GOD Almighty, one cannot argued that piece of History is his to keep!!!

Lord purposely let British colonial this Nation previously. When Singapore getting Independent, He let UK and Malaysia worried about the Chinese Strong influence and led Singapore into merger with Malaysia to avoid it.

By the time of the kick out from Malaysia, the problem was well taken care of. It could be said there were different ways thing could go, but without the Anointing of God, Nothing could go where it should go!!!!

Singapore path could be linked to China and its closed door to the World and remained stagnant or it could linked to UK and got its Independence!!! And a chance to flourish as a demonstration to the World!!!

It's all the movements of God as I see!!!

One can pity on the fallen but if the path was not light up by God, no matter how one lamented, it is useless!!!

So, depends you are on which school of thoughts, one has to know the Ways of God!!!

I thank God's Anointing on this Nation to use it to show His Glory!!! It's no incidents that Mr Lee Kwan Yew was used by God for the moment!!!

One can disagree to the Calling and Chosen by God and when He says so, who can say no???

Now I see things clearer than before!!! Glory Glory!!!

No wonder Lord gave Mr Lee Kwan Yew all aspects of Wisdom to care for Singapore and her people in every way you turn it, I see His Wisdom following through him!!!

One can lamented the fallen people but what meant not to be, no matter how you lament, it is still not to be!!!

(PS: My aunt told me, whom that were in the opposite camp that fighting Mr Lee, were hooligans; Lord revealed they were secret societies. She said my ancestors were not linked to them at all!!!

No wonder when I heard Mr Lee KY talked about this past, there was some undisclosed fear. And also Malaysia and the colonial government didn't like them!!!

No wonder the ex PM of UK said they gave false economy prosperity while Mr Lee KY created the real economy prosperity in his Tribute to Mr Lee KY!!!)

So one cannot fault Mr Lee Kwan Yew really!!! It's God wanting to use Singapore to show His Grace that He allows Singapore to go this way!!!

Imagine if we go the other path. Think we will not learn English and the Social cohesiveness could not be done as we will be speaking each other dialects or Malay as the known language of that time!!!

So overall, it is still what it should be!!!

So, even though life is important to each and everyone of us.

But to walk in God's Plan is blessed and the other way that come against it is cursed, even though at the moment of shine, one thought one is the Rising Star!!!

I have been wanting to know the past since WP talked about this part of the History!

I won't call them communist but that their hearts never left China even though their body had!!!

I thank Lord Jesus for all the leading that let me to have a good understanding of the past!!!

When Lord wanted to do something, devil could come to almost kill him in Japanese war and even let him be the head with few supporters, but with God around, no matter the way is bad or good, eventually, all would turn well indeed!!!

I see the Hand of God in Singapore!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Btw, can someone please tell me how my family tree is being linked to all these history that our existence is being traced???

A New Era

Yesterday Ends the week long following involving in all the bits and pieces of the death of Mr Lee Kwan Yew!!!

I realised many of us the hearts were all linked to his making of Singapore!!! This death magnified all that he had done and the impact he had on each of our life.

I can't help noticing that in 1968, the spirit of the people, were fully filled with him that the resounded total agreement to that National Day Parade and the firmness of carrying it out showed the spirit of Mr Lee Kwan Yew of never say die to the fullness.

His motto is always look for solution and as he always focus on solution, he talked the non existent into the air and by the power of the spoken word, the Nation is built!!!

What we say of the situation we face daily in our walks of life is important!!! It is not just about in Christ!!! As demonstrated by Mr Lee Kwan Yew!!!

What you speak into the air affect your life. We are quite loose in speaking problems. 

If we just change our focus to speak solutions, surely the whole new surrounding will change for the better!!!

The generation that walks with Mr Lee Kwan Yew closely all spoke the same and believed in their hearts as they spoke.

From the spirit, the spoken word become realistic physically and the New Singapore was created!!!

If each of us, collectively speak the same goodness, the whole environment will change for the better!!!

If each of us instead of focusing on problem and whine, start looking to solution and speak!!! Surely things will turn around for all of us. 

United we rise!!! As what Mr Lee Kwan Yew had done!!! He believes in the goodness of his people and together, a better Singapore will be created and the dream of government loves the people and the people loves the government will come into place again. 

Let us All look to a better Singapore and not to focus on problem but look to solution!!!

Mr Lee went to the opposite camp to convince people to believe in him. He did not look at them like enemy!!! He demonstrated JESUS command to love your enemy to the fullness and even made an effort to learn Chinese so as to convince them!!!

Those were the goodness of his building of Singapore!!!

Moses 10 spies went into the blessed land and said, 'There is Giants in there and we are like grasshoppers!'

Caleb and Joshua had a different spirit and say, 'They are Bread for us and we are well able to take it!!!'

The generations of the 10 spies died in the lacks but Lord preserved Joshua and Caleb. They did not need to fight but keep quite instead of complaining and on the 7th day, they spoke and the land is theirs!!!!

JESUS says, whoever is not against us is for us!!! This is easier to accept than love thy enemy.

I do hope for a better Singapore where all walks in the unity for the betterment of Singapore!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Will Singapore Glow?

I just saw this SR EM Goh testified in yahoo news that with Mr Lee KY now in Heaven, will Singapore still glow Internationally!!!

MM Lee was risen by God to shine for Him. He was looking at a small region of Malaysian Malaysia but God gave him the Whole Wide World as his platform!!! And he shines for God!!!

Pastor Prince is also called by God and he thought he will be preaching to the poor but Lord placed him in a large church and also Internationally that Christians around the world who know him through any of Christian networks all wanted him to go to them!!!

I am called by God and I just want to be a housewife but Lord is going to put me in such a Glorious Platform for Him that till now I am still waiting upon Him.

What I see around MM Lee KY death is not about International Glow, but negative voice to put him down is starting. Those that were away because of fearful of him is thinking their chance is here!!!

Even my Sharing on how the current ruling should follow MM Lee's way from learning from him, the evening program, last evening they sent sleepy spirit to make me sleepy to watch. And when I tried to post, they attacked me sleepy spirit again that I only to write half of that post!!!

For some reason, I felt that the one who used spirit to block me from getting the ruling party to walk MM Lee's way, want them to continue falling!!! And I don't understand why??? He even appeared before me twice this week as I paid respect and write tribute to MM Lee, to check my reaction on seeing him!!! I just don't understand!!!

Lord, I pray that You send Warrior Angels to protect PM Lee. Give a Fresh Anointing of Wisdom and Understanding and Boldness to PM Lee so that he could continue to keep Singapore safe and sound and continue to prosper for Singapore forever and ever. I pray on behalf of them in the Name of JESUS!!! Amen Amen!!!

The Missing Link

Through the telecast of bits and pieces of Mr Lee KY speeches, I am intrigued by the intricate History of the Pre-Independent of Singapore!!!

I think this part will be able to answer the critics accusation of the ruthlessness of the treatment of the oppositions aka the communist of that time!!!

Bec The Late Mr Lee had many times leaks bits and pieces of that History!!! I could felt the severity of that powerful communist party as the cab driver that used another curse to lead me to talk, emphasized it!!! It was so real!!!

I heard they had guns, it was the darkest moment of his political life, they left that no. of people at fought and won and they just ignore each other's weakness and formed the first team that built Singapore!!!

Dr Mahathir of Malaysia was quoted saying something about those who knew the past and treasured the independent of Singapore!!!

That struggle that Mr Lee KY and team went through is a History that cannot be hidden!!!!

We, the children of Singapore, have to know this part of the History so that the focus on the treatment of those who sacrificed, for the success of building Singapore must be answered and supported by hard facts so that all could come to a consensus end to agree what he did is necessary!!!

I don't know which part my ancestor was involved!!!

I do not care about who was more right but for this small country, like someone from USA said yesterday, Big Countries like USA, China can afford to make mistake but not a small country like Singapore as he said 1 small mistake is all it takes to wipe all the efforts and fall forever!!!!

What I know is I probably descents from the opposite camp offsprings that my family tree were traced and they know bits and pieces of our lives!!!

It was under such circumstances that Seng got to know me but I am totally clueless of him!!!

It is this History, an important part of Nation Building, have to pass down in History Books so that the efforts and what Mr Lee KY and his Team had gone through will be made known so that future generations don't walk wrongly!!!!

We will never know what went through, the severity of the battle that led to Singapore to be Independent and progress!!!!

We cannot be an ignorant Singaporean that don't know how this country is formed by the hardship and lives were lost that Mr Lee said what left was formed into the first team of government!!!

All these intricated pass is a History that must be kept for generations and forgiveness of descendants that didn't mean harm should be given!!!! How can we be responsible for the past that is not our doing???

It's like after divorce, ex put the extreme dislike of me into Jc as part of her blood is mine!!!

Every week, he would come and spoke in a threatening voice asking Jc if she wanted to go with him. If she still did not move, he would just walked away!!!

It was after I told him to look at Jc as an individual of her own personality, not about part my blood and part his blood and tore her apart!!!! How to divide her??? Impossible!!!!

It was when he finally realise and accepted Jc as a whole that the Father-Daughter relationship was restored!!!!

So, I asked, is it fair to treat me and my family tree like enemy just because ancestors on different camp??? Are we responsible for their actions!!!

We don't even know who are our ancestors in China. It was when news about Mr Lee ancestor home was preserved that I realised we didn't have any link to any ancestors in China.

But it is not important as in Christ, God is my Father, Abba, and His Heaven is my home!!!!

I am not out to create trouble and I just want the Shalom Peace of JESUS!!! Glory Glory!!!

Oppositions

I grew up from feeding on Mr Lee KY teaching about what we must do, but at a forum, some posted what belongs to them and this was where my feeling was turned negative in those years.

Then I was exposed to those that were captured under ISA and their talk in YouTube. I found them speaking frankly and nothing to double about and my heart went to them.

But as those who stand in my voting area were not 'up to standard' in my eyes, I rather void the vote!!

My heart then looked to the opposition parties around and looked to them.

But as a Christian, I must Honoured the calling and anionting of God on the ruling party!!! But somehow, I could not feel anything for them.

It was this Seng, showing of love and touching me that I started to 'feel' for them and eventually, this led to prayers for the leaders.

And as this love for them grows, when I read Mr Lee KY was very sicked, I wanted to pray on the spot for him but was not given the chance and out of desperation and frustration, I cast the situation to Lord and told Him to Handle for me!!!

Praise Jesus, Lord Jesus approached him in the last moment of life and he accepted Christ as he eventually see Him as God!!!

Through this few days of watching about what Mr Lee went through in the 2012 documentary, then I changed my opinion of him and recognized his contributions.

People still asked why he locked the opposing voices up or exiled them.

Just now, I watched the interview on Bangladesh and the talk was about a strong opposition party that refused to talk to the ruling party and the problems the country faced on disruption of work, affecting transport and social unrest!!!

It gives me an understanding why Mr Lee needed to block strong opposition from rising and why it is necessary!!!

The Peace that we took for granted because of the effect of his decisions is what most, who saw his action against them, will not understand!!!

It is with this Peace that investors still looking to Singapore!!!

Also, if one wants to be an opposition, do what Mr LKY had done years ago, go source for solution for the very problem you saw!!!

It's easy to look at problems and said there is a problem. But, be proactive!!! Show how you can solve the problem and use your results to convince the people!!!

Who don't know how to complain??? Even babies knows!!!

But, it's when one could see a problem and find a solution to show to people that your proposal works!!!

Talks is easy but it's the one that show the action done that people can see and will then support!!!

It's about bringing goodness to Singapore and her people!!! The purpose is not to knock the other party down. It's proactive in provide solution that eventual Singapore and her people benefit!!!

Just my two cents from the recently understanding!!! Hope you see light in the tunnel!!!

Thank You, Lord

Abba Father,

I thank You for the Comforter You have given to me!!! Hallelujah!!!

Each step of my moments are guided by you. Looking at the crowds that pay respect these few days, I thank You for asking me to go Wednesday and give me Grace to have a private moment with Mr Lee to pay a proper respect to him and let him talked to me these few days!!!

He said the greatest gift he received is the gift of Salvation and he thanked me a lot for the prayer!!! It's actually a moment of helplessness that I cast him to the Lord and asked Lord Jesus to take over!!!

He is happy to be with JESUS!!! I know that as wherever you are in Heaven, GOD's Love surrounding you that it is a very good sensation to be with Him!!!

I am glad for all the Wisdom you put in me to see things clearly. Glory Glory!!!

Thank You, Lord!!!

Words of Wisdom from MR LKY

I was reading Mr Lee Kwan Yew 2010 interview by a USA journalist.

He was asked about if can relax his policy of tight control. And his Explanation was, if relax, the whole thing will just disintegrated and lost control!!!

His main focus was for the Good of Singapore and her people!!!

If relax about loving people, it's about don't care how the policies affects their lives.

If relax about for the Goodness of Singapore, it's about bringing or doing things that eventually harm the unity of the people, and the society.

Just read Vietnam leader said, 'only friend will corrects the mistake of the other!'

As Mr Lee KY let go of his constant care for the countrymen, the next generation thought that's the peak for caring about the goodness of his people!!!

Country wise overall still good but social cohesive was eroding!!!

A Promise that went the opposite direction.
Another urge for further gain of knowledge saw jobs taken away.
And now another urge to keep on and keeping on study...

The heart of people getting colder and colder!!!

Then their future hope of seeing their hard earned money again were further added to the disappointment.

For the goodness of her people? Mr Lee KY was able to show results in his Promises that people looked up to him that in his Death, people Honoured him.

Some said because of What he had done, people should Honour the party.

But how to restore all these hearts is still a big outstanding issue!!!

That's why fulfil their pockets is very important for the healing process!!!

It's just like my girl, when her heart of hoping her parents was dashed as she finally see no more hope in it! Now, she just care about her own happiness and hack care what we do to our own lives!!! She is not even care about how we had love her as a family previously!!!

It's about turning back to love your people again. Not about standing in past Glory to shine!!!

I hope through my sharing, you could understand better and turn your heart to love All your people and improves their lives!!!

PS:
Mr LKY's motto: under promise, Over Provide!!!

And if you can just follow his way of life, you need not hunt down opposing voices!!! Just concentrating on loving people. Not about being nice to people but about having a heart for people!!! How you react to your love one? That's the way needed, just like a father or mother to their children.

Is your job just a job or it's about your life? How passion are you for them??? This is the missing ingredient.

It's not just about giving things!!!! This ex also good in it. But it is empty!!! No love!!!
(PS: I thank you for understanding love for the people and walking this love out!!!! Singapore has hope!!!)

Even about the goody bags you promised, it's not about Santa Clause but about relevant from the heart that what this SG50 really means!!!

Hand Over of Mantle

Lord give me impression to go pay respect to Mr Lee KY today!!!

I called a friend, but she said she been to Istana and don't want to go see dead body and Su told me her husband told her to wait for him and they in the end rejected me.

So I decided to go myself!!!

My original plan was to pay my respect first than go for my 1st meal of the day but Lord told me to eat first. So I obeyed and went to where He told me to eat!!!

My original plan was to take MRT but Lord told me to take cab. So I did!!!

Thank God that I followed His Advise as I was in the queue for 5 hours. My whole face, my arm length and my neck suffered Sunburnt!!! They are red now!!!

I was so dehydrated that I drank 2 bowls of soup and 1 glass of soybean drink!!!

When I reached home, I drank 6.5 glass of drinks before all the thirst gone!!!

This 5 hours of climbing up and down and going 2 big round and some hours of standing, really drained me and the Philippino friend I made while in the queue!!!

She came with her husband for a no. of years. She preferred to stay here but her husband prefer their homeland!!!

The Paying Respect to Mr Lee was just a few short moments. Waited for the turn, walked up and bow to him.

At that moment, I felt some strong force contacted me on the chest region and as I got out of the door, my face was grinning and I was feeling joyful!!! While my friend felt the sadness!!!

On return home from a expensive taxi ride, I felt so drained even though I did took my dinner before returning!!!

It seem like instead of a short road I requested, I was given another merry go round!!!

Did some talk about my girl, ex and him with the taxi driver!!!

As I was super tired, I had a few hours nap and woke up around 11pm!!!

Someone recognized me in the Parliament House!!! I heard some said loudly, 'This is the Christian that prayed for him!!!'

As I am used to people talking about me, I did not bother to check who is the one talking while I am bowing down!!!

By the way, the force around my chest is the passing of his mantle of gut and strength to me.

Lord said it will make me stronger to take the heat in my job in the future!!!

Yes, I no more fearful of whatever they, whom always complained abou me, downstairs but had chosen to ignore them instead!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Mr Lee Kwan Yew, I thank you forever for having the guts to fight the communist and forced yourself to learn Mandarin to penetrate those people under them. It took a moment of need to rise up to the calling of God.

I thank you and Mr Goh KS for being the principal team and the rest of your team to come together for the betterment of Singapore!!!

Thank you for the Peace and Security that you blessed this country with the no nonsense policy!!!

I thank you for your efforts to source for business and made sure that employer don't exploit workers!!!

I thank you for putting Singapore in the world map that this red dot is very visible!!!

Thank you very much!!!

A Better Understanding of Myself

Growing up in a average family, even we didn't have much, but life was happy even though there was fear from the 6th uncle of mine but I thought nothing great about the family past, just had bits and pieces of it and an unknown enemy that keep bringing sickness to me!!

Lord has a big plan for me. I was born with the seed Holy Spirit given to my mum. Not from my dad!!! But Holy Spirit always with me since young. 

I was clueless of this curses that comes daily without fail and they now even hear my thoughts to know my prayers and my thought etc. 

But it was the feeling sad for Mr Lee KY that I watched more of TV about him that Know how he and Goh KS were anointed by God for the time to lead Singapore to what it is in today's World!!!

I don't know much about the past only know all those I shared. But it was watching the replay of the 2012 about Mr Lee KY and how he rise up and who was his contender that finally I have a better picture of who my ancestor could be!!!

No wonder so many camps of people so uneasy about this blessing and this rising up for Lord's purpose!!!

I am glad that God gives Mr Lee KY the wisdom and the fearlessness to lead Singapore out of setbacks and to create something out of nothing!!! Praise Jesus for all the Favours working for them!!!

I thank Lord that even in the most impossible situations, He could make things beautiful!!!

I guess it took great guts to fight the communist that those that left lost their rights to return and all were taken prisoners under ISA. But why they fearful of me???

I thank God, my Father-in-Heaven knows everything that were committed but His Plan is not to destroy but to bless!!!

Interestingly, Mr Lee KY carried the first wave for people around the world to know Singapore!!!

Pastor Joseph Prince of NCC, Singapore, carries the 2nd wave of GOD' love through Grace and Truth that comes through Christ JESUS.

And He let me be the 3rd waves to bring Healing and Blessings to the Nations!!!

What a Great Grace Lord is using Singapore as demonstration of His Grace!!! I am Honoured!!!

To them, communists is bad, and I agree too!!! I won't want to live in such a society!!! But why my family are traced is what I don't understand.

Do you mean just because the ancestors believe in certain ideology all the descendants have to be so??? To see most of us having the gentle personality, had to fit the bill of one that could do something out of nothing!!!

No wonder in younger days have neighbour checking on us, even shift here also have and in the marital home also have!!! If nothing about communist is passed down and all that about communist rule we know about is in China, what is the fear???

Irrational!!!

But Lord is good, instead of being set as fear, even when we have no clue, even if realise now also mean nothing, not that I want that kind of life!!! But God is Good!!!!

Instead of a fearful opponent, Lord is rising me up as a blessing!!!

Glad that even Mr Lee KY didn't believe in any of the spiritual books, he said they are just books!!! But Glad that he Meet the Saviour in the last moment of his Life that now he is Alive in Heaven!!!

I thank Lord for the reconciliation!!! For him to encounter Lord Jesus and had his whole life of unbelieve erased off to accept a Loving God!!! This is the Greatest Comfort I have.

And to have me so down and lifeless just because he was passing was just extraordinary!!! 

I, who knew his time is coming and desperately trying to counter it but to no avail that out of frustration of unable to help that Lord used me to pray Salvation for him unknowingly!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! 

Those who prayed after his death is too late!!! 

It's all about sitting at the Feet of JESUS and doing the Right Thing on the Right Time!!! Glory Glory!!!

The Ballot Box

If I tell you the exchange I had with ex just before I brought the curry to Jc, it might surprised you!!!

I actually wanted either Jc or ex to come to take but both were pure lazy to move. In the end, I told Jc that her daddy was 'bloodly shit' and ex replied, 'I don't care a shit!'

But at the door was a grinning ex stretching his hand out for the curry while Jc quietly standing by the side.

Love is not about weakening but it is about power!!!

Just look at Mr Lee KY!!! In his years of reigning, just by thinking how to make Singapore better and how to let his people have better lives, his popularity rises so much as people felt his love, they voted for him. That's why he always highly regarded in people's heart!!!

Don't just look at the material things that is being set up but look into people's heart and love them, the common people.

When one can lower himself to love the common, the broken, then truly he is a great leader.

Just look at JESUS, he loves the poor, the destitute, the lax collector. Whomever the rich and powerful looked down on them, He loved them. He is highly respected by them even though they might not know him!!!

I do hope from these revealing of who Mr Lee KY was, his good governing style should be carry out and less of gather of wealth for self. People have eyes to see and hearts to feel.

To be like by 80% of the population, you do need to have a great, forgiving heart, to love those who turn away too!!! It's with a forgiving heart and asking for forgiveness for the long run, not just for election, then one can be successful!!!!

As whatsoever you say, the people will see if you carry through or just a gimmick for the election. People can be cheat a few times but their hearts will harden if whatever promises were just empty promises!!!

This is why currently, you are clueless where you stand in people's heart!!!

This is why, you have to return to where Mr Lee KY begins!!! To have the heart for the common man.

I finally see everything clearly!!!

It's not about sitting on Mr Lee KY success and enjoy life but continue his way of life, loving Singapore and loving her people!!!

A Visionary

What strike me when Education Minister talked about Mr Lee Kuan Yew.

He shared that when he ate, exercise etc, his mind was always thinking about how to make Singapore and Singaporean lives better!!!

This is the core value that is missing currently!!!

Nowadays the vision are totally gone that there is a certain clueless being displayed. What ever that need to be done, it's about ask the people through the media.

Mr Lee Kwan Yew was able to prevent problem from happening by having a foresight but current team is catching fire as it comes, be it Singapore in general or the various core company!!!

I guess, when one love someone, ideas automatically flows!!!

But if one looks to gather of unlimited wants, they lost their focus on empathy for man and faults surface!!!

It about one cares more for self or others!!!

As one can see from Mr Lee Kuan Yew. When he cares for others, all felt his love!!! He was able to do much more and command respect from different levels of people all the way to International level.

And the posture he held on was humble but he command respect from others!!!

This is the missing ingredient from the current team. Only with Love then they are able to go back to where Mr Lee KY left!!!

As he sat humbled and passed the baton to his successor, I saw in His Eyes the control, the let go. But I looked at the successor, I saw pride!!!

That's how the ballot box pattern changed as the heart of the politicians changed!!!

To pick up from where he left, is there anything of him that is still held in high regards?

How to make Singapore and it's people life better!!! This is what people around the world is thirsting for politicians to have the heart for a common man!!!

Mr Lee KY lost it when he looked away for a short few years but he returned his heart to the common men again is what touching hearts and turning me to look at him with respect again!!!

As each of us walks our lives, always remembers how you want people around you to remember you!!! Do you prefer they talk about your Great Love for them or that you didn't have a heart!!!

Heart is where love flows and Holy Spirit dwells in our hearts to lead us to do goodness for mankind!!!

Also, Former Minister George Yeo shared a important point of Mr Lee KY. He shared that Mr Lee always make Singapore useful and open an area of to be of use to other countries!!!

It's when love is shown that people run to love when they face a problem.

Like my 2nd sis, she always of good nature that when one faced an issue, she never condemn but always love and talks solutions!!! So it's comfortable to talk to her when facing issue!!!

When one show love, people respond to love.

When I give ex no condemnation and recently free him from the guilt of the dismissal, when I delivered curry to Jc, he came to the door grinning happily.

It's about forgiving and more forgiving!!! Why ex, who was so proud of letting me go and had girls, can at this stage happy and welcoming???

When one forgives and love the enemy, one command respect from them too!!!

This is why those, who are proud, don't understand how can I forgive Seng. It's about you like to create an enemy or a friend to your life!!!

It's all what you sow for your own life!!! You want people to like you or hate you? It's just a flip of a coin.

I choose to love those that had nothing left to defend themselves but to give love so that life may spring up from the deadly situation!!!

What can anger, hurting, or pushing people down result? A few second of evil happiness but without love, it's emptiness!!!

Only love can gives everlasting happiness!!!

Why I didn't see it coming

Yesterday, as I aimlessly walking and saw a new seafood shop and walked in to look see,

It's a shop my mum bought before. As I saw the salmon I used to buy, it was packed with half a head. I actually felt keen to buy that salmon. But because of that head, in the end I aimlessly walked off!!!

Now think back, it's another sign Lord had tell me!!!

Actually Lord had told me that Sunday was his last day, I was worried but I dare not write here just in case!!!

When I see no news of the passing when I woke up in the early morning, I kind of feeling relieved!!! But was put to sleep again till 7 plus am and saw the news!!!

He was part of my growing up that I didn't know I love him so much to feel so sad for him and yesterday was an aimless walking day!!!

But I am glad that Lord crowned him with His freely given Gift of Righteouness!!! It's a better crown that allows him the path of Righteousness to Heaven.

So even Johor crowned their King and happy over it, I am happy that Mr Lee Kwan Yew is now Crowned with God's Righteouness!!! Glory Glory!!!

This is the most important choice to return to God through finished work of JESUS that makes the way possible!!! Glad that he chose it!!!

Even though his family blocked the healing, due to different God and don't want to owe me a Favour aka his teaching, I am glad Lord JESUS went to meet him Himself!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

It just like long ago Su blocked her husband from coming to Christ 3 times!!! In the end, Lord went to talk to him personally and got him to come back to Him. Glory Glory!!!

A Tribute to Mr Lee Kwan Yew

The time I grew up, was the prime time of Mr Lee Kwan Yew.

At that time, life was simple and there wasn't much control as is now and the sensitivity of if you are for PAP or Opposition. 

Mr Lee concentrated on Nation Building for a better tomorrow and he stressed on education for all. We even had our cereal drink as the saying is our daily food intake wasn't enough. 

Study had it good and bad and teacher were allowed to cane pupils even though it wasn't a great fault!! Forgotten the word to write on the board!!!

But life were simpler and whatever he said for the good of us, we took in and remembered. And we were always happy to see the Chingay and always rejoice in the great showing of the election results that was around the 80+ percent region.

He had done a great job housing Singaporean and give us education and work. 

He had done good for Singapore and around the world that many countries know Singapore!!!

Now Singapore is even more prosperous but now so much loyalty and who belongs to who come into definition that Singapore at this stage, how to be united if one want to segregate???

Sometime, a moment of speech become a life long sentence, how the different hearts can function as one!!! How to get back all the supports that once upon a time Mr Lee Kuan Yew enjoyed???

He truly love his people and we all felt his love!!! That today his passing, I will cry the moment I read anything about him. 

He is so much in our lives that even in his death, we can't help but cry!!!

This is the love of His People, I hope the current government will grab hold of what is it!!!

Just like Pastor Prince said, just guard our heart to JESUS love and the rest, will fall into place. And that include money too!!!

PS (5:35pm 23/3/2015):
As I was brushing my teeth, Lord JESUS showed me He approached Mr LKY, who sat up, 30yrs young and turned to look at JESUS. He was looking at Him with curious eyes and asked, 'are you God?'

Lord Jesus answered, 'Yes, do you want to accept Christ?'

Mr LKY answered, 'Yes'

Lord JESUS then said, 'then Come With Me!'

I saw he moving off his bed and end of vision!!! Praise JESUS!!!!

Thank You, Lord

Lord, Abba,

I thank You for Anointing Great Man to lead Singapore and to build Singapore!!!

Thank You that the Great Man You put here in Singapore did a fantastic work that bring Singapore from being standalone to flourish beyond all measures!!!

When stagnation was encountered, You gave him ideas on how to move Singapore to the next level!!!

Lord oh Lord, thank You for all that was done in Singapore and through Singapore!!!

I guess the passing of the first batch of leader means the end of the first phase and next will be even better!!!

I trust You will take good care of Singapore and let this Nation shines for Your Glory!!! I proclaim in the Name of JESUS!!!

Lord, may Your Abundance of Grace and Free Gift of Righteouness reign in Singapore freely and in abundance and lead us to shine for Your Glory!!! I pray in the Name of JESUS!!!

PS:
Yesterday, I was sharing with the tissue lady that when a person died, no matter how old the body is, the spirit man is 30 years old. I didn't realise Lord had already disclosed to me the coming depart of Mr Lee Kuan Yew!!! I was still thinking in my heart that 30 yrs young is man. Woman should be 20 yrs young!!!

I am so sad

I didn't know he was so much in my life and my growing up!!! I am the 1968 batch that grows up in his Teachings!!!

Many of all that he said is deep bury in my heart.

Yesterday my usually shopping was gone totally, life just departed that I looked at those things I usually get and somehow I just didn't feel like buying!!!

I didn't know Why I was down, I was so down that that I just walked aimlessly!!!

I was so down that when the tissue lady wanted to talk to me I was glad but after that the down still continued and I didn't feel like taking Mrt home that I took cab instead.

I just don't feel good and I drown myself with lime drink and even century egg to counter this down mood.

This morning news leads me to cry much. I don't know why, my dad and my mum sleeping I didn't even cry!!! I don't know why I cry much for Mr LKY.

The Sun eclipse was supposed to mean something but I didn't know it would relate to his passing!!!

I suddenly feel like what now, where to move from here!!!

I am just so so sad!

Lord showed me he lying flat in bright light and he was surrounded by light. I do not understand and Lord didn't explain.

After writing this out I feel Lord shalom peace.

Lord, I pray that Your Shalom Peace be with all of Mr Lee Family!!! Let them have Your Shalom Peace through the whole process and Lord, may Your Shalom Peace reign in all Singaporeans that going through grief now!!! I pray in the Name of JESUS!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS:
I am surprised Mr LKY speaks to me from the cloud of Witness. He thanked me for the prayers and said that JESUS approached him to accept Christ and he did. He asked me to tell PM Lee.

Lord, I Pray for Mr LKY to go into the sleep of LHL and tell him himself as my words might be hard to believe for them, who is grieving now!!! Lord, thank You!!! I am comforted though!!!

PS2:
For the past 1 week, the 1st thing I did when I woke up was to check the news on ST n Channelnewsasia FB to check if Mr LKY is still alive and another day of hope of praying for him but this morning, all the hope was gone!!!

But I thank Lord that in my frustration of not able to pray for him, I cast his body, soul and spirit for Lord to handle and He asked him if he wanted JESUS. This the greatest comfort that he could go Heaven!!!

I am sad

Many a time, when Lord lead me to do something, it is usually the last Resort!!!

I didn't know for Mr Lee Kwan Yew, it was the last too!!! 

I had many meditations, but all didn't come true!!! But Lord told me in a voice about his last day is Sunday, I felt hopeless and yesterday at church I passed him to JESUS and saw a bright light around his body and I don't understand why!!!

When I woke up, I still hopefully to have a chance to pray for him but was made to sleep again and was so surprise to see he actually was gone before that!!!!

I had bad dreams. And woke up to this news!!!!

Hiaz!!!! He could live much longer if anointing prayer was given!!!

This is the 2nd case!!! I was asking my cousin that if my first prayer on her mum worked, why didn't she told me about the recurrence!!!

Devil could attack but prayer is the only way to counter each time!!!

But lives are lost just because prayer wasn't ministered. I am sad of the lost!!!

Lord Lord, why why???

Freely Take, Freely Give

Till today, regarding the offering of Healing, even approach life or death, I still heard we are not the same God!!!

What I have, what I give. As it come to me freely, I cannot charge a cent on it or a favour!!! As it comes freely!!!

Can anyone force anyone to accept JESUS? If really can, JESUS would be able to convince His Chosen Nation to accept Him as their Savior!!! But many till today still did not accept him.

Did JESUS force them to accept Him? No!!!

But those who coming to Him for healing, He always healed!!!

Regarding Seng, someone said I must be angry with him for doing all that to get me!!!

Well, after trained by Lord for so long. Few things can get me angry.

When Lord first let me know, I did ask Lord, 'Are You sure this is the man You want me to marry?'

If consider sin, ex just did 1 unfaithful sin while Seng did many!!!

But Seng's sin is washed away by the blood of Jesus whiter than snow if he has really accepted Christ. Ex yet to accept Christ so still outstanding.

But Lord had trained me long ago not to look at sin but to look at them as washed whiter than snow as under Grace!!!

But did it had a effect on me, yes, it did!!! It troubled me that I got two persons to talk about it!!! But I still have the frustration. Want to drink the white wine I bought for cooking but it didn't taste good, so cook a beef curry out of it and me and Jc were happy eating the curry!!!

I told ex that his dismissals were none of his problem and he was so happy that he came to meet me at the door when I delivered the curry to them!!!

After yesterday I am fine again. I just need a few days to sort it out!!!

Lord told me early to settle the emotional issue first, as settle now is a lot easier than later when the choice is not available!!!

But now sorted out my emotion, then I can freely accept him without him hiding anything from me!!! Glory Glory!!!

As for the healing, it's in the Heart of God whom want him well, no strings attached.

I know Chinese way is if you receive a gift, you must pay!!!

But Christ way is He Freely Give, we Freely Take!!! If really want to pay, just thank JESUS will do, I need not receive anything from you!!! As it is not me who heal but God in me who do it!!! How can I claim when it's not me who do it!!!

Who am I to do that? No, I Don't Deserve it at all!!! As long as he is healed and you all plus those who cares for him is happy, I am happy!!! It is just that simple!!!

As for Seng, now I know why you love me so much to get me no matter what. It's okay, just don't do it again!!! If you in Christ, learn to love your enemy!!! You will be happier than to let people suffer!!! I still believe you are a good man!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

JESUS Grace

That Chinese New Year many years ago, dad was unconscious and was sent to hospital!

As we visited mum and then she suggested we visited dad, and we all went.

Mum at the hospital told me that everytime I prayed, it worked, she suggested me and Su prayed for dad and they, the disbelieved, went to the rest room to wait as if disbeliever around, prayer don't work!!!

So we anointed dad and began prayer in English and in the spirit, heavenly language. After a long prayer, dad awoke and was discharged that day!!!

Basically, they only accepted Christ one Sunday and never want Christ anymore!!!

But Lord is kind and His Grace is Enough.

What hindered dad was he didn't want to offend his god and just want to get a healing from Lord. His Pride was in the way when he was strong but when he was weak, he chose death and wanted to return to his god.

As he proclaimed so, he gave devil a right to his soul but Lord blocked, and asked me to pray for dad to free him from the devil!!! In the end, Angel of Death brought him to the tunnel of light and up to Heaven!!!

Mum, even she denied she accepted Christ, Christ did not forget. Each time in her weakness, Lord brought her back to life again.

But me against my siblings, I could do nothing!!! So I told mum to go to JESUS for help as I alone cannot help her. She prayed to JESUS to take her to my dad. Su and I agreed with her!!! The Power of 2 or more!!!

Dad came down to welcome her home!!! Mum and dad were happy and they returned to Lord. Mum last moment came back to Lord!!!

But no matter she wanted Him or not, Lord healed!!!

You remember I wrote in this blog years ago, when ex was facing death and hand was cold, I prayed in the spirit for him while darkness came to claim his life, I could not see him nor my hand that was place around his neck but I continued to pray.

After a while, death left and ex just had enough strength to push my hand off. After he dosed off, I placed my hand on his head and continued pray. And pray to Lord to pump His Blood into him as he was depleted of blood. Lord restored him.

He woke up and went to work per normal. Till today, he yet to accept Christ nor did he thank Him about the healing, as he was near death and no knowledge of it. But Lord healed him anyway!!!

All of us are ignorant that He is a Real Living God!!! It's when His Grace is shown, then people will know he is a real God.

Lord is not a stubborn God that just because you don't know Him, He won't heal. When He blessed Peter a boat sinking loads of fish, Peter don't know Him too!!! But He love surprise His Children, to let them know He is God!!!

Evil spirits has no power over Him.

He is Lord God Almighty!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

MM Lee Kuan Yew

Reading news of MM Lee so critically ill and my remote prayer didn't work,

I thought of going to Anoint his body and pray for His Whole Body. 

But after I returned from shopping, the witch voice said, 'I spoiled their plan!'

Moments ago, they keep saying it's others problem, ask me not to bother!'

Now they are asking why I like to care about others problem!!!

After all he is our Previous Prime Minister and in the Singapore rising up from a village to now, he did play a part in emphasized the importance of Education and build many schools to get us educated. 

He might have made some wrong choice in life but we are human after all, imperfect being!!!

I did grow up with him and many of his advice still in my heart!!!

Now that he was made so critically ill, as long as there is a hope, it should be tried!!!

Now the witches are saying he is not Christian!!! But during JESUS time, many He healed also not Christian but He healed them anyway!!!

His Loving Heart cannot turn away from suffering!!!

The witches are angry now!!! They know what I wrote!!!

It's their wish against the Wish of JESUS Love!!!

Of course I am answerable to JESUS not to them.

They are saying I deserve a beating, being killed also well deserved!!!

They don't like I expose them. The last time they told the one hiring them that the affected one won't believe in me, so no worry!!!

I cannot not pray but I feel the heat!!!

They said I am not young and yet cannot think!!!

Basically, What I found is many people, the more prominent one, surfacing and talk in food court as I queue to buy my food, saying how can I say so?

I reported as I heard and see!!!

I know I am touching an untouchable ground. Each movement generate some uneasiness, just because I pray for 1 family!!!

Well, MM Lee, may you long live!!! Longer than those who wish you dead!!! Let you have the last laugh over them!!! I pray in the Name of JESUS!!! You shall live and not die to demonstrate the Goodness of Jesus in your life!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS:
Just in case someone think It's all imagination, let me talk about what they did to me n Jc.

My iPhone charging cable they want to destroy, so I carry them whenever I go. But Jc left hers at home, they destroyed 3 of hers!!! Mind you, still under 1 year of warranty. And the last one, even the contact point to insert into the phone, they pulled it out that last night, ex had to get a new one for her!!!

Finally Jc agreed with me that she could not leave the cable at home!!!

If you look at my home clothes, they cut so many big cuts around the shoulder, neck area and smaller holes all over!!! Till now I headache what to wear at home!!!

They also started cutting holes on my shorts!!! All these are pretty good quality shorts and they cut!!!

And my notebook password, I have a very simple password but they changed it so that I cannot use it anymore!

I wonder how they get the keys to enter this house and ex house!!!!

But that's what they did!!!

Jealousy and Love

In the bible, when Love turns to Jealousy, Great Destruction could be done as the opposite of Love is Hate!!!

I won't know what went through his mind when he found me so like him, a local Chinese girl in the arm of an Ang Moh. Was it pride of Chinese and don't like local girl to be with westerner or he just want me so much that the Love turned to Hate the One having me!!!

Ex first job in Singapore was a small IT firm and ex worked there with the Employment Pass that the company applied for him.

He was dismissed in the excuse of restructure!!! The company was doing well and suddenly faced financial problem.

We had to go Malaysia evey few weeks to renew ex passport!!! I advised him to apply for PR under me but he refused!!! So no choice had to go with him when the visa given was expiring!!!

Pastor said man don't listen to wife, who has God's wisdom, this is a classic case!!! After his male colleague advised him about applying PR, that he finally did it!!!!

This also showed that he don't love me, everything was about him!!!

Ex found a new job and things were good till he was fired again and another project manager called to tell him it was not about his work!!! His work is good!!!!

He went through a 3rd and his skill set was well appreciated but eventually he was let go again. It happened too often, 3 times in those short few years but we did't question why.

But after 3 employments, he had difficulty finding jobs!!!

Then I asked friend to recommend.

He saw that I did not give up ex nor quarrel with him!!!

He finally sent a man to lead ex down and a new department was created for them to work together!!!

This was where the nightmares started!!!

Ex was first intoxicated with liquor from those easy on alcohol to those high in it!!! Ex brain was much affected but it did not kill him!!!

As intoxication did not kill him, then they control him by spirit and all the hanky panky started!!!

But I prayed to Lord to free him from Spirit!!!

Then women was the last of last and he succeeded in removing him from my life!!!!

Then he sent men to test if I fool around!!!

After all those test, then he tested if I had anything against the government and before he finally showed that he loves me!!!

Jealousy and Love cannot mix, else man go insane and did the unthinkable!!!

I must be crazy to accept him, right???

Yesterday, after Lord revealed the previous post, my emotions was so confused!!! I didn't know I should cry or laugh!!!! It so mixed of the two!!!

If Lord did not give me Great Grace to understand his Love for me, if Lord did not clear me of all that he did! How am I to accept him.

(PS: All I can conclude about all these is about God Timming!!! For I got to know ex virtually when I was sub-contract to PMO for quite a period of time testing the system and provide some IT support! Yet, I didn't get to meet him at all!!! Even at their D&D, a fortune teller was telling me my man had appeared!!! Maybe it planned for me to know Law and then Grace!!! Maybe...)

Those downstairs keep saying is his wealth. They said if he is poor I would not have accepted. Have they think if he is poor and no ability and authority, I would still be in that loveless marriage???

I am one who thirst for love. I could see love and I want love!!! If I love money, ex gave me enough that I need not leave him for that!!! Duh!!!

It's because of the man, whom I was with, was void of love that I could forgive him for breaking it. If ex was loving me and he did that, I would never forgive him. Even in Christ, I have to forgive, but I will never want one that broke a loving relationship!!!

But it's due to a bad marriage, that I was so so tired of it all, that his actions is a welcome move!!! I accepted his love as he freed me from a suffering that I just bared upon myself, for the longevity of it!!!

Divorce is never in my mind!!! I want to hold my beloved hand forever!!!

As ex could not be that guy, I thank him for tearing the marriage apart, for me to see clearly. I was so soaked in it that I just survived for survival sake!!!

His this free me from hell let me wonder why I married ex in the first place!!! That's why I wary about not seeing and knowing a person well.

It was I am glad to be freed from ex that I am not blaming him at all!!!

Ex is a person I have seen through and through. I know I can never find love in him, only favour!!!

It is with this that I could be free of all emotions, to accept his pure love! But please, pray to Lord to remove your jealousy love and progessive love!!! All these are harmful for a normal relationship!!!

Thank you!

The Man Who Walks My Life

When a man loves a woman. A man that has the ability to initiate change. What would happen???

According to Lord this morning, He said he found me just a few years after my marriage!!!

I talked uniquely like him that from masses, he could pick me out!!!

It was a shocking experience for him but I was just pretty new into marriage!!!

He secretly followed me and Lord gave him ideas to check on ex.

The 3 dismisses from work were initiated by him as he saw ex pumping the colleagues!!!

But ex told me it's about finding the right job and not about finger pointing. So I let him took his time looking!!! The last job was the one that killed the marriage!!!

He found that we didn't quarrel even in our lack of income!!! He was amazed!!!

Then he provided the man that lead ex really into sin; drinking and womanizing. The fact that I forgave ex shocked him to the core!!!

That he arranged a lot of young girls even as young as 28 to ex. Then the heart of ex changed!!!

He arranged for a quick divorce, ours were the last of that day and each of the case on that morning took 5-10mins only; according to ex!!! So much so his lawyer must rush from another court case to handle our divorce as judge rushing off!!!

He let me cool off for 2 years and appeared before me!!!

All these years he let me cool off part by part!!!

He went through so much and know me so well!!!

So much so I wondered if things will be different without his interference!!!

Maybe I might tolerate ex much longer and don't know divorce will ever happen as it was the taste of young skin that led him to change his mind on me!!!

It might takes longer, as it depends on whom that he tasted!!!

But surely his interference quicken the overall process!!!

I won't know if I will just tolerate ex and wait for him to come to his senses!!!

This divorce leads me to let go all the hurts. It also changed Jc's outlook to hope and life!!!

I don't know what course will it be if I remain with a unfaithful husband and remain not a priority in ex!!!

In a way, I should thank him for leading me out to breath some fresh air!!!

But a broken marriage the most affected is Jc; from Hope to hopeless, to give up and not care what we, her parents messes with our lives. She just lives her life!!!

I don't know how this part will pick up in the end. Provide through our union can give Jc some hope!!!

When a man loves a woman...

PS:
From that short moment of he crossing me to sit next to me, I did feel that he is exactly like I am. That's what I told my family then!!! So much alike!!! I should say!!!

The man that grows with me

I am just floored by what Lord revealed to me!!! Oh, my God!!!

When Jc was around 3-4 years old, someone based on what I said, got agents to trace me to my home. That day, I called the police about it!!!

By then, he already know me for sometime!!!

Lord said he knows me from a forum I used to visit long ago!!! And when the forum was shutting down, he got me traced as I informed Jc kindergarten about I baking a cake for her birthday celebration!!!

That trace never leave me since then!!! I didn't know why I was traced. But he knew me since then!!!

Lord said he found himself in me!!! But I was married!!! So he stayed sideline.

Then he spotted ex unfaithfulness and used that to tempt him away!!!

That's from Jc 3-4 to 8yrs old!!!

He patiently waited for the divorce to go through and for my heart to be healed. For me to want another man again!!!!

That's another wait from Jc 8 to current 14 years old!!!!

This man followed me so long and I don't know his existence at all!!!

Lord said he periodically tested my heart to see if I am set free!!!

And finally, he made an effort for me to know he loves me!!!

The rest noticed of his love for me but don't know why he love me. They tried to shake me off without success for he has me in his heart for so long!!!

Lord said that's why He trained me to accept him from day 1 as he already know me for Soooo long!!!

I am floored!!!! Really I am!!!

I know he has the abilities to do it!!! So I don't doubt about it!!!

But, patiently waited for me to be his???!!!! That is a very long wait!!!!

Oh, my God!!!

Love

Why Lord JESUS went to the Cross to be judged and to die for all Human Race? He is saying all that you need I had provided. Come back to Me to receive and enjoy.

Is it a easy process for people to believe in Him?

Just look at the world and the no. of Christians around. One would know it wasn't a easy process to convince other JESUS loves them!!!

The Rule of the Law of Love is continue giving and patiently waiting!!!

Each of us knows that to impress someone, we have to know what is in their heart that they want. It's when this turn of event happens that one view of you will change!!!

Just like Seng provision of cab, I never take it as anything. Just glad that I have my cab. Even he used a story to convince me, I still think it's a joke; as he had done so much acts periodically!!!

But it was in that lack that I was very grateful that I then discover his care for me!!! This was the story some time ago. I used this just as a demonstration only!!!

Love is not about providing and demanding something back!!! 

It's about waiting for the day that the other hearts are touched.

Currently, the hurts is deeper than a simple act of kindness can change it!!!

The drastic action is about their pockets and this only JESUS could help in due time!!!

The blessing that I talked about sometime back!!!

It is also the one I am waiting for my transformation!!!

Till that day come, hard to see their turn around as it is about life or death!!!

The critical of the issue will affect you, that's why Lord is rescuing you with the blessing.

It is then that their hearts are happy and you will be happy too. 

Hope you understand!!! I thank you for believing in me and continue walking in Love!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS:
Seng, the one, who don't want me to like you had played the song Dn Matthew likes to remind me that for one plus year, you didn't appear. In CNY sermon n played it here!!!

He also get the witch to impersonate HS n told me I am meeting you but always disappointment. But now I choose not to believe.

He also give me thoughts how weird in mental health etc to me.

So I choose to stay calm and wait for the day I meet you than I will decide if you really love me or just a joke! Till then we'll see!

Proverb 31 Woman

I just realised my mum was a Proverb 31 virtues woman!!!

My dad might not earn much to feed the 5 of us. But my mum is the Resourceful one!!! We never lack in food nor clothing nor all that we need to study!!!

She is good in sewing, cooking and earning income to supplement my dad's income!!!

There were time the taxi he drove had problem and needed money to repair but somehow, it always enough!!!

She knew how to gather and she was hardworking!!!

Whatever problem we faced she always have a solution monetary too!!!

I like her rice dumbing, her curry and her dark sauce chicken!!!

She made beautiful dresses, school bag and pencil case for me!!!

I remembered she was so resourceful that we were never that poor!!!

There was always have enough for all of us to remain happy as a family!!!

I thank the Lord for blessing us as He promised Father Abraham that in him, his descendants shall be blessed and indeed, we were!!!

I thank the Lord for His Grace and Mercy!!!!

I thought, leading the Government to love her people would lead to peacefulness for all. But seem like someone is not happy. As he talk not good and make fun of something and some people!!!

Based on whom that talked to me late last night at the wake that makes me don't feel like turning up anymore!

Action Speaks Louder than Voice

That night, after bible study, the 3 of us were so happy in the Lord!!!

WK had been impressed about lay hand on the sick. I had been impressed to be like Kathryn Kuhlman prayer of healing while nothing for Su.

As we pondered and wondered, I prayed to Lord for Mercy and eventually Lord said Children Ministry.

But as Lord rising me up and revealed much to me, Su wanted to tag along and did as the Lord reveal to me!!!

At that time Lord used her to test me much!!! My 1 year of being tested by The Lord!!! But when it's time to test her, she shy away!!!

This the First Step of her fall away from walking closely with God!!!!

JESUS said in the bible that if you know the truth and turned away, it would be better you don't know!!! As it is a purposely sin and greater judgment!!!

All these years I had been complaining how she fall but the latest one is she is being used to spy on me and the family!!!

As most time is through the phone, I cannot fully pin point her as neighbour, witch, or even government all could be the retrieval of the information!!!

And she always denied!!!

But yesterday, by herself, her action, her spoken words, she exposed to me what I had suspected become the truth!!! Lord said she moved from bad to worse and it was beyond my disappointment till no more grief for her anymore!!! It is more of a write off from the trusting list!!!

I know friends, siblings, all have been forced to give the information but the degree of the heart is what I see. If they still have a conscience with them!!! For Su, it was almost like a 2nd nature!!!

No wonder that night Lord paused a long while before answering!!! He knows!!!

Just like many would love to have a share of the Great Blessing, but He knows who is sincere in Heart!!!

This walk in Love He leads me to see the Heart of people!!! That's why, I could see their pretendance!!! I could see the motive behind what is being revealed!!!

And I just feel sad for them!!!

There is a Great God, who love them so much and want to hug and kisses them to wholeness but they come in Pretendance and this is what JESUS hate!!!

He hate Hippocrate!!!

The woman, that called Him, Son of David was ignored!!! It was when she humbled and come as a puppy that she could also get the crumbs of bread that fallen from the Children of God's table!!!

Lord said that she has Great Faith and healed her daughter that same moment of sickness!!!

At this End Time, Lord wants His Children to come boldly to Him to receive All that He had provided!!! Glory Glory!!!

Amen Amen!!!

My Word did not Fall!!!

Praise JESUS!!! Today I am very glad spiritually!!!! I am Redeemed!!!!

Years ago, I told Su that Lord want her to stop work and let the husband work to train him to be the man in the house.

But Su did not listen and go her way of looking for a job and work to supply the family while the husband could not hold his job long enough!!!

Today, finally the husband is learning even though he is still not comfortable with it. He is still looking at his wife to find a job but she faced closed door!!!

Today, I told her she has this love of money and finally she agrees!!! Love of money is not worship of money but rather the use of money caused you to have certain change of emotions!!!

If money could affect your emotion, you have the love of money spirit in you and need to cast to JESUS!!!

I am glad all those she proclaimed that I speak nonsense or I am from the devil, finally fell to the ground!!!

Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Also, the one, who don't want me and the one who love me to be together come stronger against me!!! They have a group sat in the front tent and another group of the regular speaker to say whatever I type or think or speak!!!

Basically they are condemning everything. Main aim is to say I not qualified for such a role/position. But more like a maid!!! It's their pride from whom they come from!!!

Who they are? Why they care so much if this relationship is going to be established or not. And am I going to be greatly bless or not.

Am I going to renew in youth or not. And the relationship between me and my siblings and even my girl and that man.

They could go on talking and talking and as if I care!!!

The dogs can keep on barking but the moon still shining as Pastor said!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

By the way, I am glad that my mum is still a blessing to us and to my relatives even in her death!!! What a Greater Glory to her!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

A Somber Day

Out of the blue, my 2nd uncle called to inform my 3rd aunt had passed away yesterday morning over a choking of her vomit in the hospital, at the age of 75.

They were the only Christian family in the few families that lived together in the younger days in a big house!!!

We were never close although their room was just next to ours!!! Those were the younger days!!!

What surprised me was even she had a stage 3-4 cancer, she did not die because of it!!! They don't know how to take their authority in Christ and lived a defeated life.

I was not aware of her sickness as last year when I first heard about her sickness and offered to pray for her, the daughter made a mockery out of it by having 2 persons in each of the room to listen to me preaching JESUS to her!!! They were dead bored!!!

And because of this, I did wonder if 3rd aunt really is sick!!!

But Lord is faithful in that after the prayer, the cancer count stabilized! But it reoccurrence again and led her to need to pump water out of the stomach and she was in hospital for that but that unexpected choke killed her!!!

I thought Christian whom died should look like sleep as death was taken by Christ at the Cross!!! But apparently, a good heart plays apart in it too, as I seen in both my parents!!!

But thank God the Salvation of Christ is done and she did go to meet JESUS and talked to me to tell her husband that she is happy up there and told him not to be sad!!!

I was talking to my friend happily and in the midst of it my girl and her Mense became a topic. As I wondered, Lord told me of an arrangement and I did a age calculation and the gap is far too wide!!!

I prayed to Lord for a restoration for this person concerned so that he could find one closer his age after the restoration!!!

I can't imagine my girl is just a teen and yet to be fully grown and the idea just blow my mind!!!

Hopefully the restoration is done so that the colour pigments are restored so that his choice are now open wider. Thank JESUS!!!

My cousin said of his mum, when His Time to take her, she goes!!! I asked him if he ever read Psalm 91!!!!

Which church Children of God attended really is about life and death at time!!!

I thank Lord for sending me to NCC.

His Restoration

I listened to the first sermon of 2015 again and in it Lord's plan for me is revealed!!!

In the natural, ex door is shut!!! Whatever I speak to him about me, it's about 'move on' and whatever I speak to him about the loving one, he said, 'good for you'!

As for the one loving me, even though I have not seen him, just like Lord long ago said he is a prince, he does behave like one.

When he needs to show his love or check me out, usually he will order someone else to show or check for him!!!

Lord said I will move from a dumpster to one that do not dump!!! And I will realise His Goodness!!!

Lord also said that if they say I am above the age and no longer young to do the thing, I am to call for His Restoration!!!

He will then do His Part!!! Glory Glory!!!

I understand from story of Ruth there is a legality before Boaz! It's only when this legality let go that Boaz will then pick up.

It tally with all the opposing voices and curses!!!

Ruth 3:18
'Then she said, "Sit still, my Daughter, until you know How the Matter will fall, for the Man will not Rest until He has Finished the Thing this day."

So I will wait for the Fullness of His Grace where Jerusalem is not trampled by Gentile anymore!!! And the Fullness of the LORD fully Return to Reign!!!

Surely by then, everything will clear up!!!

I will wait upon the Lord for His Manifestation!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Understanding Myself

After so much encounters and been through so much, I finally understands myself!!! Glory Glory!!!

Flow into my mind was my first encounter with the outside world when I followed my eldest sis to her kindergarten in the neighbourhood that I became frightened as sis had to go to her class and I was left alone with the adults!

The teacher told my sister to bring me home!!!

My journey started as I entered kindergarten and colour pencils were so precious to me. As we played in the nature at home and only had a skipping rope and the 5 of us.

My first doll was winning a colour contest and sis brought me to collect it from the newspaper office. My prize was a box of color pencil but the man gave me a doll too!!!

It was so precious that I kept it in the cupboard and only take out to admire once a while through the years!!! This precious doll was one of my girl's many dolls!!!

Lord gives me a lowly spirit that has no pride but with a innocent mind to enquire the nature of things!!!

As I grow, this simple nature did not leave me. The smart and those thinks highly of themselves will think I am boring, nothing interesting!!! But those that are simple or need someone easy to love them come to me instead!!!

So in my starting to reach 20s, I had different guys of different nature that approached me! But as I see myself of lowly, I need someone who is able to lead me to be with me.

So those that didn't have that quality was out of my selection. Also, that was why I like ex, as he has a mind of his own!!! Only problem was he has too much of self that destroyed the marriage!!! But I think the demands of strong women has worked him down somewhat!

Why many likes me partly of that sexy body I had. At one stage, as I was getting married to ex and happy and appetite opened, I ate and gained quite much.

Then 2 of my guy colleagues told me to be careful least I got out of shape!!!

I had never realised I was their feast!!!

Anyway having Jc was the destruction of this body as somehow it grew so big and never came down even with delivery!!!

But Praise the Lord, after trusting him much, it was not so big now!!!

Lord give me a pair of eagle eyes that could pierced the soul of man.

In primary school, there was a girl that always bullied my cousin, a boy of 2 years older than me. But as I looked into her eyes, she backed off!!!

As I was growing, at time I want to understand a person, I looked into their eyes to know their real emotions but many a time, the person was shocked!!!

This happens not often though!!!

But now with Lord's Decerning Power, I could tell the sincerity behind the person!!! Praise JESUS!!!!

Life is such that the plan is set and both guys I more or least have an idea of them.

It is with this, each have the capacity of being the man in my life, the leadership quality that I will respect!!! It is with this that with the blessing, I will know whom will I have!!!

This is just as it is so!!!

This is also why Lord uses me for His Manifestation, as I am just a sheep that need a Shepherd!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

6 Years Late

Yesterday in church, 2 church connectors was sent to talk to me. Main thing is to know where I get my bible knowledge from.

6 years ago, when curses first came, Lord had to get me out of the house to avoid it!!!

Today, even the Spirit of Death came for me, it could not defeat me!!! The evil one is in more urgency to find out how to defeat me!

Lord already leading me to walk in Love!!!

The story about why JESUS, when He first arose from death, why didn't he go to show off to non-believer about the holes created in His Nail-Pierced hands but to His Own.

It's with the Heart of Love that one understands. When One is full of Love, He only wants to pour Love on those who has an Open Heart to receive.

Of the 2 connectors, one with pride in Her Abilities and Lord has nothing to share!!! The other more humble and Lord opened up to share with her!!!

It's not about who I go to receive, but more of the hidden emotional wound that was hidden.

As you could see, it's when I went into a certain stage of emotions, as he make me to believe, the lack in that emotion arose and I then, with the knowledge of its presence in me, could pray for deliverance!!!

I have known my Father in Heaven close enough that no amount of removal of the function of my mental health or shut my prayer mouth nor the listening ears nor seeing eyes could bring me down!!!

The Spirit Man is sown these 8 years so much that even my brain can't, my Spirit Man can!!!

And compare my Spirit Man with the spirits of darkness that you trusted much to attack me,

God Word says that Greater is He in me than he that is in this World!!! He will not fail me and He will not shame me!!!

He is a Faithful God!!!

And He Loves me!!! If God is for me, Who can come against me?

Even children of Darkness don't know the Goodness of God and would only laugh at God's Word!!!

There is no one I could trust, not even friends, not even siblings!!! No wonder Lord long time told me the one whom I can trust is Only the One loving me!!!

Today I see the Reality of His Advice!!!

I walk by Faith and Not by Sight!!! I see the Faithful One!!!

I shall Live and Not Die! To Speak His Good News, to Show His Miracle!!!

The Prince of Peace my Shalom!!!

I walk in His Love, showing Love as He leads and not as the world wants.

Rest is Holy Spirit leads Activities!!!

Glory Glory!!!! Amen Amen!!!

This Morning

This morning I saw the motorcycle again and he talked to me, phew!

After ding dong so long about Seng and no sight, I am started thinking if I should start looking around. 

Basically, all the bad from the divorce are gone! All thanks to the different staging by Seng to get my attention!!!

The last was the last post on the hope of working effort in a marriage. I felt the tiredness (心酸) so much that I cast it to the Lord to clear it.

After clearing, now I am confident to look for one again.

Everytime I mention Seng, there sure opposing voices talking loudly about me, even to the extent of laughing at me!!! And other areas opposing too!!!

I can sense all the close doors to this direction. As such I am dropping it!!!

As I think how to start looking around, Lord told me that if I want to find new, go back to ex instead.

And the sermon today is Lord's restoration!!!

All seem in line with my thoughts!!!

I will let the blessing speaks for itself to convince ex that I am still good enough to be his wife again.

He has been giving me the allowance and even answer most of my questions, even those that is for Jc. So overall communication has not broken with him even though I emotionally has nothing intact.

I will let the Lord restore both our hearts and make it good again.

No wonder Lord said if wait till blessedness, I won't want to try new but go back to familiar when he change his heart when things become reality!!!

Overall, I think this way might be better and I let the other path that has lots of opposition come to rest!!!

It shall be!!! Glory Glory!! Amen Amen!!

A Melting Pot

When Two different people come together, it's not about you nor about me!!! It's a inbetween!!!

Lord led me to listen to Beth Moore and Joyce Meyer dialogue about unity!!!

It led me recall my High Hope to make the marriage worked Long Ago, but it ended lopsided as one selfishly wanted his way!!!

It was not supposed to be so if the marriage is supposed to work!!! Both have to have a mindset to keep the other happy, then it is more likely to work!!!

When differences arise, there are 3 ways to handle the situation: agree to the suggestion and go with it, or each give half way and meet at mid point, or agree to disagree and respect the differences.

There is no such things as perfect match but there is different degree of love of something.

Each of us comes from different backgrounds and walk through different paths of experience!!!

There sure to be one is hot on something and the other party cool about it.

So it's about striking a inbetween and respect for each other that one would grow to be together!!!

Life is about change!!! It's about constant communication with each other that one would able to hold on to each other and be unity in soul and heart.

I thank Lord for bringing this topic to mind again!!! Otherwise, it was buried somewhere for good as the hopeless is buried!!! Shalom!!!

My Father, Thy God, has Long Foresight!!!

I did not know, long before I know Him, God, My Father in Heaven, has already path out the plan He want me to walk!!!

Till today, all the training He has given me, it's all for a purpose even though out of Honouring me, He said give me a choice to choose!!!!

After He tells me the end from the beginning, then I Realise the necessity of all the training all these years!!!

All happened for a purpose and nothing is coincidental!!!

What He is leading me through, if by myself, I would have hit the wall with my head many, many times!!!

My Emotions was flying in all directions as He revealed!!!

It's really like a step forward or backward is all not my choice!!!

Except now tasted the sweetness of Honey, I don't know if the going for the honey in the bee hive is a good idea. But the Sweetness lingers!!!

I am one who run away but Lord wants me to face my Himalaya mountain!!!

Now I have a better understand of him, why he could not find one to his interest in his pack but have to go to the wilderness to look for me!!!

It's a wholesome matching he is looking for; for emotional, for physical and for overall well being he is looking into!!!

I just understand it fully yesterday!!!!

Oh God, Abba, I need Much More Abundance of Grace and lots of Free Gift of Righteouness to reign in You through Christ JESUS!!! Amen Amen!!!!

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I can't imagine at this day and age, this topic of comparative status, power, wealth is still the option some families used for their sons' and daughters' selection of spouse!!!

I heard this comment of why I don't understand!!!

I am born with a mindset of I bring Nothing into this World and I would exit with Nothing, except now I have the Holy Spirit with me.

So, whatever rises in a man's life, be it wealth, power or status, I don't care!!!

They can't bring happiness in life!!! No matter how much ones have, it just a poor rich man if he did not have the love of Christ!!!

But with the love of Christ, no matter how little I have, as long as my life can goes on with The Lord, I am still at Peace! As I have Him!!!

Regarding the man whom love me might be a rich man son or whatever wealth, or power or status, it is really not my business!!!

If he loves me, at most what I get to enjoy is his love and his standard of living!!! The rest doesn't matter!!! As it is a source of Pride and in Christ, I know this Pride is the Greatest sin and I will not go there!!!

If he does not love me, no matter how much wealth, power or status, it lagi not my concern!!!

But if really want to talk 门当户对, 3 generations ago, probably was, and when Lord rise me up and bless me richly, probably is. Just at this point, it isn't!!!

But all this matching in family status etc, the main thing is to derive Favour out of it as we always read in history and watch on TV. But the Greatest Favour of All Favour, is to have Favour in the Eyes of God!!!

One touch of His Favour can last a lifetime!!!

So, why don't I care about this 门当户对, I hope I give a good enough explanation and you need not scratched your head and wonder why???

Child Training

God being our Father in Christ, do put us through Mishaps to train us our spiritual muscle aka grow in Faith in Him and learn through experiences!!!

Many years I am put through the curse and many a time I wondered in Christ, why am I suffering much!!!

But it is when I walk through it that I recognize the nature of God and also the devil!!!

Armed with this knowledge, when I see things happening in others, in places, I know it's the doing of the evil one to create hip up to let people puzzle and to rise their emotions up from rest!!!

That's why Smith Wigglesworth only read the bible and nothing else!!! And God the Father used him greatly during his time that the nature of him is still talked and read till today!!!

It's the hardship we went through that we will appreciate good when it comes. Surely it is good!!!

The Fruit of the Spirit is producing after a long trust in the Lord!!!

Many a time, when the River is to the neck or nearly to submerge in it, the only cry is to Lord and to submit to His Almighty, to His Cross where all Answers are!!!

I didn't know the subconscious of prayers as led by Him are all The Fruit of The Spirit!!!

Guess I am moving towards readiness to be use by Him on a Greater Measure. This is just the start of it!!!

The Sweetness of His Spiritual Work!!!

Praise JESUS!!!

I am looking to be like the wise men in Church of All Nations in Nigeria!!!

The man, whom was delivered, said of the wise men that they looked like man from afar!!! But when they moved near they are Consuming Fire that devil fear!!!

Pastor TB Joshua flow in such Strong Anionting that demon had tried even to seduce him or attack him. But he is no effect to their evil power!!! He flow so strongly that evil spirit have to leave!!!

I want to flow in Greater Measure like JESUS that evil spirit recognize who He is and fear came on them as He moved near!!!

Surely I want to be this Fullness of Holy Spirit in Unlimited Measure that no evilness can come near but love the poor in Spirit and hunger for the Spirit of Love!!!

Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit pour in me the Fullness of You!!! I pray in The Name of JESUS!!! Amen Amen!!!

Welcome to Death

For some reason, SMRT was plagued with train breakdown as the up their signboard to be friendly!!!

It was only recent when the breakdown was in the online news in Facebook that someone from Croatia said that the word 'SMRT' in their language and in Bosnia language means Death!!!

This person was commenting it sounded weird to them that the train would give a message about 'Welcome to Death'.

This is what I found in web: ('Death to Fascism' in Croatian is 'Smrt Fasizmu')

Yes, I did a English translation to Croatian the word 'Death' and I got 'SMRT'!

Maybe, this caused the company to suffer more breakdown as compared to the purple line.

As in Christ, I learnt that whatever you say it long enough, it would happen! You will get what you say!!!

I keep have this float it in my mind, so guess Lord want me to share it!!!

Nobody welcome curse on oneself be it person or company.

But since it is made known, I do hope the awareness is bring to the company to change this word to something not representing Death!!! Maybe to Singapore MRT instead!

I pray in the Name of Jesus! Amen Amen!!!

To the one who get so excited about Seng and me

I don't know why you care so much about Seng and me that you have to send people to talk about me from a short distant away and even have a concert downstairs to talk about such topic!!!

Just look at the past 1 year, did Seng appear? NO!!!

So don't react so much on any 风吹草动! It's a waste of effort!!!

For the past 1 year what ever the not matching etc etc I heard and now I don't care!!!

I mean, if really mean to be, Perfect Love cast out all fears!!! There is nothing to worry about!!!

But if it not mean to be, all your talks and talks just a waste of saliva paying so much attention to me!!!

If you think I could cause harm to you, I am just a woman for God sake!!! You can mobilize so many people in church, in train and even when I shop!!!

What harm could I cause???

Maybe the only thing is prayer of healing as and when the Lord leads!!! But this is dependable on Him, not me!!!

I know most healing He wants to wait for His Manifestation, so no hurry!!!

Whatever it is, I am not bothered by all these; as used to it already!!!

God Bless, know that JESUS loves you and hope you can come back to His Love one day!!!