Glory Glory! Lord Jesus delivery can come in any form and any ways. Glory Glory! If you remember my post about what ex had said about me, I ever mentioned that he commented that I am a dead log in love making.
With this remark, he being the only man that I ever make love with, I have no clue if I really is or not. I have received this condemnation unknowingly. Even when Lord promised to bring a new man to me, I worry about this love making and on what my part in it have to be so as not to be a dead log. Glory Glory!
Lord in me knows about it and His delivery system is great. I did not buy any newspaper to read as most talk about what Satan has done in the world and I am not keen to read his deeds. But I do read some news in channelnewsasia and some Israel news from their end.
I guess, from the news, you should have read about this Singaporean guy by the name of Gary Ng, whom had post his sexual experience with various females. Lord led me to read about it from channelnewsasia that I go search his name in Goggle and had managed to watch some of his experiences and what others commented about him.
He is known as a great teacher in this area of sex and many give high regards to him. What I want to thank Lord is with what I have seen, there are nothing special about all that Kamasutra style that I have not known.
With this revelation, finally, I realise that this condemnation of ex that I was a dead log come to an end. To justify all that he had done, he condemned on 'my disable'. Justifying his rights to move to greener grass. This is only about what I had known about what he has done. It was Lord who leads me to discover he is always doing it. So, it's not about me. No wonder he said that if there is no such Christianity that I embrace fully, he and me could still be husband and wife! Now I know why.
I have given him full freedom to do all that he wants. I did not question him as long as no suspicious action that arose in me. Man thought they could hide, but Abba father created Woman to be sensitive emotionally. Each facial expression, each body language, women reads into them. This six sense, whom now I know is Lord's blessing, never ever gone wrong. Man by nature reacts the way one thinks and feels. Glory Glory!
Yes, as long as I am a sleeping tiger, he could roam all that he could. I thank Lord that wakes me up fully to see his dirt and his filthiness. Lord leads me walk out of this unworthy man. He is unworthy for my love this 10 years. He said he has no regret for this marriage but I regretted big time!
I used to read about those Aunty Agony column and read about relationship issues and tried my best to find a man that could live happily ever after...the fairy tales walking lovingly by the seaside was my dream for sunset years of my life. The greatest joke I tell my family members is, in my great discovery, I found the greatest shit that is available, that shows that no matter how smart we are, it's nothing. We really need the Great Mighty One, Jesus Christ!
Only He, Abba Father has the greatest and best Wisdom of all. Only He knows our hearts, our needs and our wants. Only he could bring 2 persons of different lifestyle to come together and pour abundantly His Grace and Mercy and lots of His Favour that man and woman can life happily ever after.
All we need to do is continue to know about His Great Love. With the fullness of His Love, go love our spouse. We really cannot draw any love from man. The more we draw, the man who naturally cannot produce it will go into strife, demands(law) leads to sin arise! By looking to Jesus, we are fed full and the living water of the Holy Spirit will lead us to love our beloved and life would be good. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba father, thank you for leading me out of my darkness. Clouded with blind love, I did not see the speck of dirt in him. You lead me out even though I don't know why. As I obey you and walk each step with you, you lead me out of my Egypt and lead me to the green green grass of Jesus. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Friday, October 29, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
My Girl
Looking at my girl, Jc, these 2 days, it's really make my feel betrayal. Ever since the daddy told me to get my CPF statement, she has become secretive somewhat. Even longing more for daddy and cried so sadly when daddy brought her back to me. It pains me to see she behaved in such ways.
Two weeks before the SA2, she had been fighting me and it was so hard to get her to do her homework and study. At time, my temper was boiling and I scolded her bad. She remembered and reported to her dad. According to Lord, daddy asked her if okay to stay alone with maid. If yes, he will take over this house, chase mummy out and daddy come back to stay with her. This sound good to her.
The thing is, during weekdays, I tried to get her to do her school work and tuition work, which is manageable, not taxing. But it was a toll getting her to move. Lord changed her after the September term holiday that she is able to finish all that is demands from school just two weeks before the SA2 starts. Glory Glory!
This ex, who told me not to use daughter against him, is using her against me. He is so scared that I might take the care and control of Jc back that he wanted her to delete my sms with him. He even wanted her to set passwords on my iphone that now I don't know what's the sim card password is.
He got my girl wondering how to split her time so that she could enjoy maximum time with her mummy and daddy. He always play with her on Sunday that Jc prefers him than me who always get her to focus in school work. I did let her go playground daily though.
Come to think of Jc position in this broken marriage, I really pity her. She loves her mummy and daddy so much but yet, things didn't work out as it should. I thought by carefully choosing my partner, I could find a good man to last my marriage. I even practised no quarrel in heat of moments but to talk heart to heart after that to know this man better. But, no amount of trying with a man that didn't take relationship seriously, work.
He is such a skillful woman talker. He knows how to talk what a woman likes to hear. He could even talk nice friendly way while behind that person scheme something against him/her. My mum has been staying here these few months that even she was amazed by how friendly he could be but could scheme something bad on me.
I thank Lord that I have Lord to disclose all his evil ideas to me so that I will not be a fool taking for a ride. I have been fooled for 10 years and now Lord is opening my eyes to see him clearly. Well, I wish his next lady good luck but I don't envy her.
I have asked Jc if she prefers to go with me to my blessed land or stay here with maid during the day and see when daddy returns at night to accompany her. It is a big headache for her. Now, I told her I am okay with whatever decision she wants. I told her that she need not do something behind my back in order to stay with daddy. I told her it's okay whatever decision she wants. I don't envy Jc being split between mummy and daddy for she loves me and him much.
At the meantime, I cast her to Jesus' nail pierced hand to guide and lead her. My part in this brokerage is easier to handle than Jc's. But, I know Lord will bring something good out of this temporal upset and unhappiness. I am glad that Lord is leading me to my blessed man and blessed life. I know my future and Jc's future is good. After all, in Christ, we ride above the current and not under the sun. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Two weeks before the SA2, she had been fighting me and it was so hard to get her to do her homework and study. At time, my temper was boiling and I scolded her bad. She remembered and reported to her dad. According to Lord, daddy asked her if okay to stay alone with maid. If yes, he will take over this house, chase mummy out and daddy come back to stay with her. This sound good to her.
The thing is, during weekdays, I tried to get her to do her school work and tuition work, which is manageable, not taxing. But it was a toll getting her to move. Lord changed her after the September term holiday that she is able to finish all that is demands from school just two weeks before the SA2 starts. Glory Glory!
This ex, who told me not to use daughter against him, is using her against me. He is so scared that I might take the care and control of Jc back that he wanted her to delete my sms with him. He even wanted her to set passwords on my iphone that now I don't know what's the sim card password is.
He got my girl wondering how to split her time so that she could enjoy maximum time with her mummy and daddy. He always play with her on Sunday that Jc prefers him than me who always get her to focus in school work. I did let her go playground daily though.
Come to think of Jc position in this broken marriage, I really pity her. She loves her mummy and daddy so much but yet, things didn't work out as it should. I thought by carefully choosing my partner, I could find a good man to last my marriage. I even practised no quarrel in heat of moments but to talk heart to heart after that to know this man better. But, no amount of trying with a man that didn't take relationship seriously, work.
He is such a skillful woman talker. He knows how to talk what a woman likes to hear. He could even talk nice friendly way while behind that person scheme something against him/her. My mum has been staying here these few months that even she was amazed by how friendly he could be but could scheme something bad on me.
I thank Lord that I have Lord to disclose all his evil ideas to me so that I will not be a fool taking for a ride. I have been fooled for 10 years and now Lord is opening my eyes to see him clearly. Well, I wish his next lady good luck but I don't envy her.
I have asked Jc if she prefers to go with me to my blessed land or stay here with maid during the day and see when daddy returns at night to accompany her. It is a big headache for her. Now, I told her I am okay with whatever decision she wants. I told her that she need not do something behind my back in order to stay with daddy. I told her it's okay whatever decision she wants. I don't envy Jc being split between mummy and daddy for she loves me and him much.
At the meantime, I cast her to Jesus' nail pierced hand to guide and lead her. My part in this brokerage is easier to handle than Jc's. But, I know Lord will bring something good out of this temporal upset and unhappiness. I am glad that Lord is leading me to my blessed man and blessed life. I know my future and Jc's future is good. After all, in Christ, we ride above the current and not under the sun. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Sunday, October 24, 2010
The Cross Point of My Life
Today's sermon by Pastor Prince about the goodness of Jesus and what Abba father has blessed us as described in Rom 5:1-5, I am greatly touched by His Goodness. Glory Glory!
In my initial years as a Christian, a beloved child of the God Most High, the God of Love, the God of Life and the God of Hope, I learned that I must walk with Jesus to receive His Blessings, some take 3 years, some take 10 years. It all depends on how closely one believe in all that is said about Jesus by the Holy Spirit in the preacher. I told myself I don't want to be one that takes so long.
As I emailed church to check how to walk with Jesus, I was invited to attend the Discovery Class. In there, I learned a different aspect of my beloved Abba. As Holy Spirit leads this blur daughter to discover the Goodness of Abba Father and the perfect work of Jesus, each time I thought that I have learned all that is needed, Lord revealed something more for me to continue to graze the green green grass of the bible, His Words.
I was led step by step up the hill of His Glory. As each stage I grazed, Lord Jesus revealed more and more of His Glory to me. As I feed in His Glory, I am transformed unknowingly into His Glory! That is why the bible said we grow from Glory to Glory! Glory to Jesus!
Some 3 years ago, Lord gave me an inner feeling of jealousy that I, the chief healer, is only staying HDB apartment (even though I like this apartment so much and had told Lord that I have nothing more to let Him bless.), while Su is going to live in His blessed condo. I like the current apartment so much that Lord had to change my view of this apartment to drag it much for that short moment. Then He told me that I could live here till I get the house or choose to shift to the condo first then the house.
That late morning, He got me wanting a condo from Him. Yes, whatever Lord wants to bless, we have to ask Him for it so that He has the right to bring it to earth to bless us, be it in thoughts or in verbal speaking. Glory to Jesus, Lord had opened the way for this possibility 2000 years ago when He did a perfect work for us at the Cross! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
January 2010 was the month that my divorce was finalised. He moved out in April. This change of life even though have much impact legally, emotionally, I was pretty stable because Lord is with me and assuring me. Praise the Lord!
Yesterday, after much delay in the process of the HDB flat, and after not giving me any wife maintenance for 2 months, he had informed me to get my CPF statement to show what I have to contributed to this apartment. So far, even when he said this apartment is his, without the transfer of me out, I can still claim on it if he tried to chase me out.
Now that he wanted to start this process, suddenly, I feel this house is no more mine. The reality is sinking in. Even though Lord had 3 years ago prepared a new apartment for me, even though I know I am getting this blessed gift soon, I still can't help having this lost feeling of not having this house, everything about this marriage, finally coming to an end.
I know what Lord provides for me is a bright and prosperous future. All the good is coming to my life. But at this moment, detaching myself from this apartment, finally the old life is coming to an end.
Lord the other day told me that He is moving me out of my Egypt into His blessed land. I didn't realise we are all in 'our Egypt', like the children of Israel, in the strife of this world! I am looking towards the blessed land, the bible hope that Pastor Prince preached, the confident expectation of Good! Glory Glory!
I know Lord will bring it to past. I have meditated the whole of the New Testament and now finished the book of Genesis and has proceeded to the book of Exodus. Su had just finished meditated the New Testament. I know Lord surely will bring this blessing to me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
In my initial years as a Christian, a beloved child of the God Most High, the God of Love, the God of Life and the God of Hope, I learned that I must walk with Jesus to receive His Blessings, some take 3 years, some take 10 years. It all depends on how closely one believe in all that is said about Jesus by the Holy Spirit in the preacher. I told myself I don't want to be one that takes so long.
As I emailed church to check how to walk with Jesus, I was invited to attend the Discovery Class. In there, I learned a different aspect of my beloved Abba. As Holy Spirit leads this blur daughter to discover the Goodness of Abba Father and the perfect work of Jesus, each time I thought that I have learned all that is needed, Lord revealed something more for me to continue to graze the green green grass of the bible, His Words.
I was led step by step up the hill of His Glory. As each stage I grazed, Lord Jesus revealed more and more of His Glory to me. As I feed in His Glory, I am transformed unknowingly into His Glory! That is why the bible said we grow from Glory to Glory! Glory to Jesus!
Some 3 years ago, Lord gave me an inner feeling of jealousy that I, the chief healer, is only staying HDB apartment (even though I like this apartment so much and had told Lord that I have nothing more to let Him bless.), while Su is going to live in His blessed condo. I like the current apartment so much that Lord had to change my view of this apartment to drag it much for that short moment. Then He told me that I could live here till I get the house or choose to shift to the condo first then the house.
That late morning, He got me wanting a condo from Him. Yes, whatever Lord wants to bless, we have to ask Him for it so that He has the right to bring it to earth to bless us, be it in thoughts or in verbal speaking. Glory to Jesus, Lord had opened the way for this possibility 2000 years ago when He did a perfect work for us at the Cross! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
January 2010 was the month that my divorce was finalised. He moved out in April. This change of life even though have much impact legally, emotionally, I was pretty stable because Lord is with me and assuring me. Praise the Lord!
Yesterday, after much delay in the process of the HDB flat, and after not giving me any wife maintenance for 2 months, he had informed me to get my CPF statement to show what I have to contributed to this apartment. So far, even when he said this apartment is his, without the transfer of me out, I can still claim on it if he tried to chase me out.
Now that he wanted to start this process, suddenly, I feel this house is no more mine. The reality is sinking in. Even though Lord had 3 years ago prepared a new apartment for me, even though I know I am getting this blessed gift soon, I still can't help having this lost feeling of not having this house, everything about this marriage, finally coming to an end.
I know what Lord provides for me is a bright and prosperous future. All the good is coming to my life. But at this moment, detaching myself from this apartment, finally the old life is coming to an end.
Lord the other day told me that He is moving me out of my Egypt into His blessed land. I didn't realise we are all in 'our Egypt', like the children of Israel, in the strife of this world! I am looking towards the blessed land, the bible hope that Pastor Prince preached, the confident expectation of Good! Glory Glory!
I know Lord will bring it to past. I have meditated the whole of the New Testament and now finished the book of Genesis and has proceeded to the book of Exodus. Su had just finished meditated the New Testament. I know Lord surely will bring this blessing to me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
The Glory of Jesus II
After so many days of not writing blog, I am wondering what to write here. Glory Glory! I am being glad at what Lord is doing in this end time. Glory Glory!
As revealed from the meditation, Lord revealed that there will be an attack in Israel and around the world by the terrorist that had done one spectacular job in 911 in USA. This time, it's going to an orchestra bombing in many countries including Singapore. But not to worry, Lord is monitoring there movement and will act when the time is ripe. Lord has lead Su and I to pray for His Protection, killing of those involved, planner and executor included and their family members. Glory Glory!
Lord has also revealed that He is going to take back those lands that He had blessed the Israeli. At present, if you have been to Israel, you will see that many of the land that was previously given by Lord to His Covenant with Abraham, is currently not with Israel anymore. In fact, the occupiers want more land from the Israeli to give them unreal peace. Abba Father is not tolerating this kind of nonsense any longer. Glory Glory!
When He kills the terrorist that is harming Israel and the world, He will kill those that occupy nearest to the current Israel first. He will take 3 days to clear all the aliens from His blessed land. Whosoever wants to fight Lord, he and his family will face death. This is what Lord promised.
In bible time, Moses bringing out the Israeli, who were put to slave in Egypt, when Lord killed all the first born of the Egyptian families and animals. In this 2nd coming, He is doing a mightier work! Surely, as He had promised, the whole family will face death if they stay put on the blessed land that is meant for His Covenant people. Glory Glory!
Lord Jesus is also coming out mightily to heal the sick and chase the devil. He just revealed to me in tonight meditation that when Su and I pray in hospital, depend which level we go to pray, Lord will bring the sick of that floor to full health. Glory Glory!
I praise Jesus for coming fully to save Israel, the world and to bring us back to full health. Glory Glory! I am just a delivery girl for my beloved Abba and Lord Jesus. I am glad that I am chosen to let Lord come in full to do His Work. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
As revealed from the meditation, Lord revealed that there will be an attack in Israel and around the world by the terrorist that had done one spectacular job in 911 in USA. This time, it's going to an orchestra bombing in many countries including Singapore. But not to worry, Lord is monitoring there movement and will act when the time is ripe. Lord has lead Su and I to pray for His Protection, killing of those involved, planner and executor included and their family members. Glory Glory!
Lord has also revealed that He is going to take back those lands that He had blessed the Israeli. At present, if you have been to Israel, you will see that many of the land that was previously given by Lord to His Covenant with Abraham, is currently not with Israel anymore. In fact, the occupiers want more land from the Israeli to give them unreal peace. Abba Father is not tolerating this kind of nonsense any longer. Glory Glory!
When He kills the terrorist that is harming Israel and the world, He will kill those that occupy nearest to the current Israel first. He will take 3 days to clear all the aliens from His blessed land. Whosoever wants to fight Lord, he and his family will face death. This is what Lord promised.
In bible time, Moses bringing out the Israeli, who were put to slave in Egypt, when Lord killed all the first born of the Egyptian families and animals. In this 2nd coming, He is doing a mightier work! Surely, as He had promised, the whole family will face death if they stay put on the blessed land that is meant for His Covenant people. Glory Glory!
Lord Jesus is also coming out mightily to heal the sick and chase the devil. He just revealed to me in tonight meditation that when Su and I pray in hospital, depend which level we go to pray, Lord will bring the sick of that floor to full health. Glory Glory!
I praise Jesus for coming fully to save Israel, the world and to bring us back to full health. Glory Glory! I am just a delivery girl for my beloved Abba and Lord Jesus. I am glad that I am chosen to let Lord come in full to do His Work. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
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