This afternoon, as I continue to meditate on my Psalms, this is what Daddy God revealed to me and He has impressed me to share here:
Glory to Lord Jesus! My Beloved Stephanie, Father is happy that you believe in Lord Jesus so much. Father is happy that I could come through you to heal the nations. Father is happy that Lord Jesus is coming alive through you. Father is happy that Lord Jesus can do all that he could that the bible had said and even more! Glory Glory! My heart is so fully of Joy! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Glory Glory!!!
My Beloved Stephanie, for 2000 years, I waited. I searched the whole world for one that I could dwell and manifest in full. I spotted you from a distant. Father is glad to find you. I have guided you closely. You could talk to me daily, I was happy. I lost you in your 20s. I am glad that you came back to me at the end of 30s. Those years of wondering made you want Me even more. I am glad that I could lead you close. Glory Glory!
These 2.5 years of walk, I patiently lead you to learn from different teachers. I am glad that you learn as I told you. Then I started to lead you to walk My Way. I am glad that each step I lead, you walk. You are the most obedience Child I ever encountered. Glory Glory! I know that I could come through you. I am so happy! Glory Glory!!!
This testing period, I am so afraid that you might walk away! You did not! I could bring you through the test and then to Israel for the final anointing. I could completed the full anointing today at the church, NCC. This leading super fast by Man's standard is achievable because you stay closely to let me lead and never argue with Me!
I am so glad that you let Me free use of your body! I am so happy! My love, I am glad that you believe in the life I paint for you. With the completed anointing, you are now My Chief Healer. You could heal anyone as at now on. Father will lead you each case that I want you to attend. Father will let you learn step by step, to where I am placing you in the future! I know surely, you will walk with Me. I am happy! Glory Glory to the Grace of Lord Jesus!!! Amen & Amen!!!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
The Spread of Christianity
This visit to the Holy Land, Israel, let me realized how blessed I am. Even though Christianity came from Jesus in Jerusalem, there are only around 10% of Christian in the country. Majority of them still believe in Judaism (80% of the population). According to the editor of the magazine ‘Israel Today’, they still wondered why God send them to occupied land instead of empty land. He have no clue where they are heading from there and he said that the country have no clue too. Hiaz!
I am glad that Daddy God chooses Singapore and chooses New Creation Church to reveal about Jesus. I felt so honored that Lord let Singapore know Him and be blessed by Him so much. While Israel still wonder in this 2000 years. I see Jews crying at Western Wall, they must have wishing that Daddy God hear them. I felt so much of wanting to tell them about Lord Jesus and getting help from Him is so easy. But I did not want to offend them and chose to shut my mouth.
In fact, entering the woman section of the Western Wall, an Old Jew lady told my sis to keep her cross necklace in the shirt. That’s how much they mind. Even my local guide, Moshe. Though he talked about Jesus and His time in Israel, he always used the word ‘He’ instead of Jesus or God.
Lord revealed to Su that in future, we would go with Him when Jesus come again to Israel. I know that would be in the far away future. As Lord has revealed to me that my this 100 years of life that He blessed me, Jesus will not come yet. He told me that I will go back to Him and then we will go together with the rest to Israel. Glory to Lord Jesus! Amen & Amen!
Lord has revealed through Pastor Prince sometime back that all gentiles have to know of our Righteousness in Christ first. When all gentiles knows, then Israel will be awaken to Him. Currently, more and more people are getting to know how loving Father God is through the telecast of Pastor Prince sermons internationally.
Lord is going to come through mightily in me to do healing too. He said I would go into service in May 2009. Well, I will wait and see how Lord open the door for me. Glory to Lord Jesus. Amen & Amen!
I am glad that Daddy God chooses Singapore and chooses New Creation Church to reveal about Jesus. I felt so honored that Lord let Singapore know Him and be blessed by Him so much. While Israel still wonder in this 2000 years. I see Jews crying at Western Wall, they must have wishing that Daddy God hear them. I felt so much of wanting to tell them about Lord Jesus and getting help from Him is so easy. But I did not want to offend them and chose to shut my mouth.
In fact, entering the woman section of the Western Wall, an Old Jew lady told my sis to keep her cross necklace in the shirt. That’s how much they mind. Even my local guide, Moshe. Though he talked about Jesus and His time in Israel, he always used the word ‘He’ instead of Jesus or God.
Lord revealed to Su that in future, we would go with Him when Jesus come again to Israel. I know that would be in the far away future. As Lord has revealed to me that my this 100 years of life that He blessed me, Jesus will not come yet. He told me that I will go back to Him and then we will go together with the rest to Israel. Glory to Lord Jesus! Amen & Amen!
Lord has revealed through Pastor Prince sometime back that all gentiles have to know of our Righteousness in Christ first. When all gentiles knows, then Israel will be awaken to Him. Currently, more and more people are getting to know how loving Father God is through the telecast of Pastor Prince sermons internationally.
Lord is going to come through mightily in me to do healing too. He said I would go into service in May 2009. Well, I will wait and see how Lord open the door for me. Glory to Lord Jesus. Amen & Amen!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
The Journey to the Holy Land
From March 16, I flew a 16 hours plus 3.5 hrs transit in Hong Kong flight to my Daddy’s Holy Land, Israel! With Lord in me, this flight was a bearable one. I did not have the bored dragging thought that I used to have in long flight. Praise the Lord!
This trip, Lord Jesus hand was all over, from here we flew to the security check in HKG to each destinations we went, to the road we took and the places we visited. All was directed by Lord! Hallelujah!
Israel is a mountainous country. Many of the apartments are built on the slopes of mountains, even Jerusalem is situated on a mountain top. Holy Holy, Glory Glory!
This trip, I am closely led by Lord. Places that claimed to be Jesus been there, there were 2 places that Lord said no. One good example is the Garden Tomb. Lord blessed us fine weather except the last morning. We were supposed to visit Garden Tomb and took Holy Comm and worship there. But as it was not where Lord Jesus was there for 3 days, Lord rained that morning and we were forced to head back to hotel meeting room for our worshiping, Holy Comm and marriage vows renewal for the couples in the groups.
We were going for a short cut to the Western Wall. However, the guards stopped our group from going that way. Local agent, Moshe, had a heated argument with the guards on duty. He claimed that he had brought 2 other groups through that check point before. However it was still no go for us, even we had prayed to the Lord. It was only when we diverted to the other check point that Lord revealed to me that He wanted me to walk the path that was next to the check point. He told me that Lord Jesus walked through that with His Cross! Hallelujah!!!
At the Garden of Gethsemane, Moshe let us had some quiet moment on the right side of the garden, which is quiet. Actually, this is led by Lord too. For Lord directed me to one tree at the middle of the path and told me to pray under that Olive Tree. He revealed to me that Lord Jesus was praying under that tree 2000 years ago. Can you imagine the closeness I felt for Lord Jesus? It was so real as if He was there, the presence was so strong! I asked Lord for the exact spot where Lord Jesus prayed and Lord revealed to me. I took a picture there. Praise the Lord! Glory to Lord Jesus!
Above the judgment room, Moshe told us the different equiment that was used to torture the prisoner. It was called the King’s game. While walking in the judgment room after that, I was walking pass a column with a rectangle stone stool that Lord revealed to me that was where Lord Jesus had sat to receive His humiliation and sufferings. Further ahead was the start of the street where the prisoners would start walking with the wooden tree truck on their shoulders. Lord Jesus carried the cross from that spot. I felt so much for Lord that I could not put it in word on that feeling. It so real to me!
Moshe told us that day was a Sabbath and many people were on that street! Fully crowded in fact, but as Lord Jesus walked, all the rest had turned their back to Him. Moshe said it took great courage for Simon to help Lord Jesus with the Cross.
I am thankful to Lord for leading me on this trip and open to me the feeling and telling us if a certain site is true as it claim. I was back last evening, Lord blessed me a good sleep on the El AL that I woke up only on the last 3 hrs of the 11 hrs flight, thus adjusting my body clock back to Singapore timing! Praise the Lord!
Father God, thank You for this leading! I enjoyed each day in Israel. Thank You for blessing me good pair of legs to walk those mountain road. I did not exercise before the trip and always in front of the pc, yet, Lord bless me good legs to climb up and down the mountains daily. Glory to Lord Jesus who is always faithful! Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen and Amen!!!
This trip, Lord Jesus hand was all over, from here we flew to the security check in HKG to each destinations we went, to the road we took and the places we visited. All was directed by Lord! Hallelujah!
Israel is a mountainous country. Many of the apartments are built on the slopes of mountains, even Jerusalem is situated on a mountain top. Holy Holy, Glory Glory!
This trip, I am closely led by Lord. Places that claimed to be Jesus been there, there were 2 places that Lord said no. One good example is the Garden Tomb. Lord blessed us fine weather except the last morning. We were supposed to visit Garden Tomb and took Holy Comm and worship there. But as it was not where Lord Jesus was there for 3 days, Lord rained that morning and we were forced to head back to hotel meeting room for our worshiping, Holy Comm and marriage vows renewal for the couples in the groups.
We were going for a short cut to the Western Wall. However, the guards stopped our group from going that way. Local agent, Moshe, had a heated argument with the guards on duty. He claimed that he had brought 2 other groups through that check point before. However it was still no go for us, even we had prayed to the Lord. It was only when we diverted to the other check point that Lord revealed to me that He wanted me to walk the path that was next to the check point. He told me that Lord Jesus walked through that with His Cross! Hallelujah!!!
At the Garden of Gethsemane, Moshe let us had some quiet moment on the right side of the garden, which is quiet. Actually, this is led by Lord too. For Lord directed me to one tree at the middle of the path and told me to pray under that Olive Tree. He revealed to me that Lord Jesus was praying under that tree 2000 years ago. Can you imagine the closeness I felt for Lord Jesus? It was so real as if He was there, the presence was so strong! I asked Lord for the exact spot where Lord Jesus prayed and Lord revealed to me. I took a picture there. Praise the Lord! Glory to Lord Jesus!
Above the judgment room, Moshe told us the different equiment that was used to torture the prisoner. It was called the King’s game. While walking in the judgment room after that, I was walking pass a column with a rectangle stone stool that Lord revealed to me that was where Lord Jesus had sat to receive His humiliation and sufferings. Further ahead was the start of the street where the prisoners would start walking with the wooden tree truck on their shoulders. Lord Jesus carried the cross from that spot. I felt so much for Lord that I could not put it in word on that feeling. It so real to me!
Moshe told us that day was a Sabbath and many people were on that street! Fully crowded in fact, but as Lord Jesus walked, all the rest had turned their back to Him. Moshe said it took great courage for Simon to help Lord Jesus with the Cross.
I am thankful to Lord for leading me on this trip and open to me the feeling and telling us if a certain site is true as it claim. I was back last evening, Lord blessed me a good sleep on the El AL that I woke up only on the last 3 hrs of the 11 hrs flight, thus adjusting my body clock back to Singapore timing! Praise the Lord!
Father God, thank You for this leading! I enjoyed each day in Israel. Thank You for blessing me good pair of legs to walk those mountain road. I did not exercise before the trip and always in front of the pc, yet, Lord bless me good legs to climb up and down the mountains daily. Glory to Lord Jesus who is always faithful! Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen and Amen!!!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Do You Love Me?
In this walk with Lord Jesus, it is all about Lord Jesus and nothing about us. I used to talk to Lord through worship songs, through reading bible and now through meditation.
Recently, Lord test me so much that I became so frustrated that I told Lord don't test me any longer, I trust Him to bless my family health and successful career. Even though Lord said He was shocked to hear that from me and Su, He still continued to test my emotion that last night, I questioned what kind of God He is to play with my emotion. He apologised for going overboard. But today, He tested me some more this morning...till I want to run away from Him and stop my meditation.
I was asking myself, where could I run?!!! The earth is big, but spiritually there are only 2, either stay close to God or under the mercy of darkness. I was despair, I wondered where could I hide. Then Lord told me in Jesus. I cool off a bit and decided not to run away from Lord and let Him test me some more. Before I started meditation, Lord told me that I have not answered if I want to run away from Him. I was almost stumble over His demand for an answer. Then some ding dong with the Lord, then I realised that I need to let Him know how much I trusted Him. This was what He told me through last night meditation on Psalm 63:2
Lord: 'Father want to clear with you: The Human I create, I did give them freedom to think and decide. I do not control their thoughts nor their action. As such, I won't know your thought and your action if you did not pre-think about it. The moment you think, then I know your thought.
As for the heart, I do not know what you believe. I only know what bible verses you store in your heart. Believe is a choice of action. So as long as you do not display any sign of preference, I won't know too. As such, I could only know from testing your re-action.'
This make me realised that Lord need to know my personal level if I trust Him is just like a lady wanting her husband to tell her if he love her. For a man, knowing in the heart is good enough. I thought I know myself is good enough. But Lord disclosed that He don't know me at personal level. Even though my sharing with others, He called it preaching to others. He said must directly tell Him then He knows.
I was still not happy. I told sis, His verse said that I just need to look to Jesus and His Righteousness and He will take care of all I need and wear, it did not say I must say it out!!!
Then Lord get me to meditate again on Psalm 64:10
Lord: 'Father heard you. I did not know you trust this verse so much! You might have tell others to trust me, but I need to know how you feel personally. As such, thanking Me with the verses is important. This is one way of letting me know your heart. Now that you know, I am happy. Now we both understand each other better!
Father God is now happy that all things between you and me are thrash out. I finally can feel peace in you.'
Phew! Through these 2 days of thrashing out with Lord, finally, I understand how He knows how close we are to him. Man, have you tell your wife that you love her? :D
Daddy God, thank You for letting me realise that I need to let you know how I feel for you. Glory to Lord Jesus! Amen & Amen!
Recently, Lord test me so much that I became so frustrated that I told Lord don't test me any longer, I trust Him to bless my family health and successful career. Even though Lord said He was shocked to hear that from me and Su, He still continued to test my emotion that last night, I questioned what kind of God He is to play with my emotion. He apologised for going overboard. But today, He tested me some more this morning...till I want to run away from Him and stop my meditation.
I was asking myself, where could I run?!!! The earth is big, but spiritually there are only 2, either stay close to God or under the mercy of darkness. I was despair, I wondered where could I hide. Then Lord told me in Jesus. I cool off a bit and decided not to run away from Lord and let Him test me some more. Before I started meditation, Lord told me that I have not answered if I want to run away from Him. I was almost stumble over His demand for an answer. Then some ding dong with the Lord, then I realised that I need to let Him know how much I trusted Him. This was what He told me through last night meditation on Psalm 63:2
Lord: 'Father want to clear with you: The Human I create, I did give them freedom to think and decide. I do not control their thoughts nor their action. As such, I won't know your thought and your action if you did not pre-think about it. The moment you think, then I know your thought.
As for the heart, I do not know what you believe. I only know what bible verses you store in your heart. Believe is a choice of action. So as long as you do not display any sign of preference, I won't know too. As such, I could only know from testing your re-action.'
This make me realised that Lord need to know my personal level if I trust Him is just like a lady wanting her husband to tell her if he love her. For a man, knowing in the heart is good enough. I thought I know myself is good enough. But Lord disclosed that He don't know me at personal level. Even though my sharing with others, He called it preaching to others. He said must directly tell Him then He knows.
I was still not happy. I told sis, His verse said that I just need to look to Jesus and His Righteousness and He will take care of all I need and wear, it did not say I must say it out!!!
Then Lord get me to meditate again on Psalm 64:10
Lord: 'Father heard you. I did not know you trust this verse so much! You might have tell others to trust me, but I need to know how you feel personally. As such, thanking Me with the verses is important. This is one way of letting me know your heart. Now that you know, I am happy. Now we both understand each other better!
Father God is now happy that all things between you and me are thrash out. I finally can feel peace in you.'
Phew! Through these 2 days of thrashing out with Lord, finally, I understand how He knows how close we are to him. Man, have you tell your wife that you love her? :D
Daddy God, thank You for letting me realise that I need to let you know how I feel for you. Glory to Lord Jesus! Amen & Amen!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Father God Child Training
Now that Daddy God said that I have reached the goal He set for me. I would like to share some of the training that I went through in these 2.5 years.
From the start when I was still a baby Christian, Lord led me to sit at His Feet. Each sermons I attended, He speaks through Pastors to me. My inner man, the Holy Spirit also knocked my head for things that He wants me to take note or correct my believe.
As I sit still and let Him led me, slowly, He assigned people for me to point Jesus to them. Once I got off the LRT train a stop before my actual stop, Lord actually send an auntie for me to lead. Her husband had affairs and she was separated. Her daughter was trying to bring her to Christ without success. Lord led me to tell her how Jesus could help her. She confident was boosted up and she was so determined to go accept Christ. Praise the Lord!
Around this time round, Lord also started to test my obedience. He knew that I prefer to go early to church to queue for the bible study at Rock. One day, He wanted me to go during peak period, 5:30pm to take a cab there. I was feeling 'what?!!! 5:30pm?? Taxi charge is expensive and queue would be formed longer. Even with my dislike, I obeyed Him and took the cab around that time. Lord blessed me the money for the cab fare with $2 excess. Lord through me preached to that cab driver about Jesus. Hallelujah!
I was tested to obey Him to go healing too. Once sis told me that team mate mum hospitalised and need prayer. I was telling sis I did not bring my anointed oil. Father got me to go and told me to anoint my water bottle and used that to anoint the lady and prayed over her. She was healed the next day. Glory to Lord Jesus.
Lord also tested me to go far away to pray healing. I was thinking it was too far away and wanted to pray a few days later. But Lord removed His Presence in me. I got panicked and repented. I apologised to Him and He returned to me again. It was this time I realised how Great a work Lord Jesus has done on the cross, for even sin against God was judged in Him that Daddy God can forgive me immediately. Hallelujah!!!
Lord do not wants my pride to rise above my head. Even though He anointed me as the Healer, He revealed more information to sis than to me and showed more love to Su than to me. I felt like a 2nd loved kid from Father. But this love from Daddy God is free, so I could not demand Him to love me more. I just accepted it as so, the 2nd position and continued to believe and trust all that Jesus had done for me. I accepted information about Daddy God is from Su and go to her for answer from Lord. It was now, after 1.5 yrs of training that Lord revealed this is part of the test to mold me to be humble. It was after the test that He showed me His Great Love again. Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!!
How would you feel to be on off scolded by younger sis that I am not trusting in Lord fully. It was moments of look to self to renew my thoughts and look to Jesus again. Su scolded me so often and she herself bathed in so much of Lord's Love. How would you feel, yes, it's didn't feel good. But I trust in the Lord anyway. Slowly, I moved closer and closer to Lord.
Lord also led me to be free of the love of money. First He got me to sow 2 seeds. 1st seed to see if I am willing to sow. When I looked to Him for provision and not my lack, He got me to sow the 2nd big seed. Then He got me to spent $100 on 4-Digit gambling that didn't strike and realised I was controlled by money and cast this to Him to change me. Hubby 1.5 years of restricting my allowance also see my saving going down as I continued to pay for my parent(s) allowance from my saving too.
At the 1st discomfort level, Lord impressed me to pay for Su and her husband and my own Israel trip deposit. He also give me Grace to pay for the all the travel fares. This really pulled my saving down to my 2nd uncomfortable level...personal alarming level. But instead of look to my lack, I look to Lord Jesus provision. Recent months, I and Su showed about Lord Jesus abundance to the family. We had a rich class Christmas that cost around $500. I paid most of the bills. The most recent dinner for my mother's birthday and showed Lord's abundance, I again paid for a $5000 dinner (this cost will be share by sis n me). Yes, with this 2nd discomfort level, am I not afraid that I am running out of money? I know I am but I trust that Lord would provide for me and look to Him instead of my lack. I am only left with around 10% of all my initial saving. If you wonder how lack I am.
All the test about trust, obedience, humbleness, was tested many times till I lost count of them. Till I am not sure if Daddy God really love me that much. But when all the tests are over, He consoled me and love me even more. Finally, I am bathing in His Love again. These 1.5 yrs of molding me to what He desired of me, is not exactly sweet. But it was not tough though. Just that in term of joy on the Lord was not that strong. Now that all is over, Daddy blessed me the Joy from Heaven. Hallelujah!!!
So, the route to serve Daddy God has to go through some hardship that throw away my pride, my love of money, my temper etc. Sitting at the feet of Jesus is the most blessed time. But the end result is the Sweetest time of all because all that Lord promise in the bible become accessible by me. Hallelujah!!! Thank You, Daddy God!!! Would I want to go through it again? Well, if I am back to the start, I won't exchange anything for this training. Power, Status, Fame, Wealth, are all accessible by me. But Lord take away my temptation by Money God, by Power and Fame, and remove all sexual temptation before blessing me all that. Good life? Yes it is. With Lord leading me, I am changed to be a better person then the original me. Hallelujah!!! Amen and Amen!!!
Why I am writing all these? Someone that Lord wanted to lead close choose to be in pride that Lord has to give up. I am feeling sad. This post is to show that God is surely Good. But during training time, it's not a bed of roses. How to grow in a bed of roses? I don't know. That would only produce a pampered kid. Lord won't go that way to harm His kid. Glory to Lord Jesus. Amen and Amen!!!
This is what Lord revealed to me when I meditated Psalm 136:26:
Father is happy that you stay calm with what I am giving you. Glory to Lord Jesus!!! Father God is very pleased with you.
For this 2.5 years, no matter what test I put to you, even those that make you feel that I love Su more than you, you choose to stay close to Me. Even though I let you think that I bless Su more, you gladly accept it. You did not complain to me, you still choose to trust me.
Even thou Su scold you as if it's from Me, you gladly accept it and look within yourself to change for the better. You don't mind letting Me put you down, you still trust fully in Me. Father is very happy that you always trust in Me, no matter what.
Lord is very pleased and very glad! I know you are faithful and obedience. You even don't mind I reveal more to Su than you. Father is glad that you are humble, faithful and obedience.
As such, Father is glad to bless you big big. This amount you get, no one in history ever get it. You are the one and only one who I will bless. Father loves you, very very much indeed! Glory to Lord Jesus!!! Amen & Amen!!!
From the start when I was still a baby Christian, Lord led me to sit at His Feet. Each sermons I attended, He speaks through Pastors to me. My inner man, the Holy Spirit also knocked my head for things that He wants me to take note or correct my believe.
As I sit still and let Him led me, slowly, He assigned people for me to point Jesus to them. Once I got off the LRT train a stop before my actual stop, Lord actually send an auntie for me to lead. Her husband had affairs and she was separated. Her daughter was trying to bring her to Christ without success. Lord led me to tell her how Jesus could help her. She confident was boosted up and she was so determined to go accept Christ. Praise the Lord!
Around this time round, Lord also started to test my obedience. He knew that I prefer to go early to church to queue for the bible study at Rock. One day, He wanted me to go during peak period, 5:30pm to take a cab there. I was feeling 'what?!!! 5:30pm?? Taxi charge is expensive and queue would be formed longer. Even with my dislike, I obeyed Him and took the cab around that time. Lord blessed me the money for the cab fare with $2 excess. Lord through me preached to that cab driver about Jesus. Hallelujah!
I was tested to obey Him to go healing too. Once sis told me that team mate mum hospitalised and need prayer. I was telling sis I did not bring my anointed oil. Father got me to go and told me to anoint my water bottle and used that to anoint the lady and prayed over her. She was healed the next day. Glory to Lord Jesus.
Lord also tested me to go far away to pray healing. I was thinking it was too far away and wanted to pray a few days later. But Lord removed His Presence in me. I got panicked and repented. I apologised to Him and He returned to me again. It was this time I realised how Great a work Lord Jesus has done on the cross, for even sin against God was judged in Him that Daddy God can forgive me immediately. Hallelujah!!!
Lord do not wants my pride to rise above my head. Even though He anointed me as the Healer, He revealed more information to sis than to me and showed more love to Su than to me. I felt like a 2nd loved kid from Father. But this love from Daddy God is free, so I could not demand Him to love me more. I just accepted it as so, the 2nd position and continued to believe and trust all that Jesus had done for me. I accepted information about Daddy God is from Su and go to her for answer from Lord. It was now, after 1.5 yrs of training that Lord revealed this is part of the test to mold me to be humble. It was after the test that He showed me His Great Love again. Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!!
How would you feel to be on off scolded by younger sis that I am not trusting in Lord fully. It was moments of look to self to renew my thoughts and look to Jesus again. Su scolded me so often and she herself bathed in so much of Lord's Love. How would you feel, yes, it's didn't feel good. But I trust in the Lord anyway. Slowly, I moved closer and closer to Lord.
Lord also led me to be free of the love of money. First He got me to sow 2 seeds. 1st seed to see if I am willing to sow. When I looked to Him for provision and not my lack, He got me to sow the 2nd big seed. Then He got me to spent $100 on 4-Digit gambling that didn't strike and realised I was controlled by money and cast this to Him to change me. Hubby 1.5 years of restricting my allowance also see my saving going down as I continued to pay for my parent(s) allowance from my saving too.
At the 1st discomfort level, Lord impressed me to pay for Su and her husband and my own Israel trip deposit. He also give me Grace to pay for the all the travel fares. This really pulled my saving down to my 2nd uncomfortable level...personal alarming level. But instead of look to my lack, I look to Lord Jesus provision. Recent months, I and Su showed about Lord Jesus abundance to the family. We had a rich class Christmas that cost around $500. I paid most of the bills. The most recent dinner for my mother's birthday and showed Lord's abundance, I again paid for a $5000 dinner (this cost will be share by sis n me). Yes, with this 2nd discomfort level, am I not afraid that I am running out of money? I know I am but I trust that Lord would provide for me and look to Him instead of my lack. I am only left with around 10% of all my initial saving. If you wonder how lack I am.
All the test about trust, obedience, humbleness, was tested many times till I lost count of them. Till I am not sure if Daddy God really love me that much. But when all the tests are over, He consoled me and love me even more. Finally, I am bathing in His Love again. These 1.5 yrs of molding me to what He desired of me, is not exactly sweet. But it was not tough though. Just that in term of joy on the Lord was not that strong. Now that all is over, Daddy blessed me the Joy from Heaven. Hallelujah!!!
So, the route to serve Daddy God has to go through some hardship that throw away my pride, my love of money, my temper etc. Sitting at the feet of Jesus is the most blessed time. But the end result is the Sweetest time of all because all that Lord promise in the bible become accessible by me. Hallelujah!!! Thank You, Daddy God!!! Would I want to go through it again? Well, if I am back to the start, I won't exchange anything for this training. Power, Status, Fame, Wealth, are all accessible by me. But Lord take away my temptation by Money God, by Power and Fame, and remove all sexual temptation before blessing me all that. Good life? Yes it is. With Lord leading me, I am changed to be a better person then the original me. Hallelujah!!! Amen and Amen!!!
Why I am writing all these? Someone that Lord wanted to lead close choose to be in pride that Lord has to give up. I am feeling sad. This post is to show that God is surely Good. But during training time, it's not a bed of roses. How to grow in a bed of roses? I don't know. That would only produce a pampered kid. Lord won't go that way to harm His kid. Glory to Lord Jesus. Amen and Amen!!!
This is what Lord revealed to me when I meditated Psalm 136:26:
Father is happy that you stay calm with what I am giving you. Glory to Lord Jesus!!! Father God is very pleased with you.
For this 2.5 years, no matter what test I put to you, even those that make you feel that I love Su more than you, you choose to stay close to Me. Even though I let you think that I bless Su more, you gladly accept it. You did not complain to me, you still choose to trust me.
Even thou Su scold you as if it's from Me, you gladly accept it and look within yourself to change for the better. You don't mind letting Me put you down, you still trust fully in Me. Father is very happy that you always trust in Me, no matter what.
Lord is very pleased and very glad! I know you are faithful and obedience. You even don't mind I reveal more to Su than you. Father is glad that you are humble, faithful and obedience.
As such, Father is glad to bless you big big. This amount you get, no one in history ever get it. You are the one and only one who I will bless. Father loves you, very very much indeed! Glory to Lord Jesus!!! Amen & Amen!!!
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