Saturday, December 31, 2011

The End To Be

This year 2011 is such a long year. All things bad surely have to come to an end. The Good will surely starts in 2012. The anointed 12 of the bible. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

This year I see lots of change. The patience of Su runs thin till she turns away from fellowshipping with me and told me that I am guided by the devil. I wonder which devil lead Child of God to meditate the bible and which Holy Spirit lead Child of God to get away from meditation the bible, the most intimacy one could with Lord Himself.

I am glad that after a year long of hearing No, No, No, I heard Yes, Yes, Yes from WK. It really very refreshing and I am glad that Lord leads her back to fellowship with me. Afterall, long ago, Lord had shown me and WK that we both are into praying healing, just that each have our own role to play. Glory Glory! It surely a great blessing from the Lord to lead WK back to me. Hallelujah!

On Su end, she has been trusting Lord through listening to a lot of Pastor Prince sermon, so Lord is blessing her in her life and off seting the curse that came upon them for coming against me. Glory to Jesus! Amen Amen!

It took a long 9 months for Su to grow in her faith again that Lord is now please with her. Lord is a very Forgiving God for sure! Glory Glory! His Abundance of Grace and His Sure Mercy of David enable us all chances to come back to Him again and again. Thank You, Jesus! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

After such a long walkout from my marriage to ex, finally, I could call it an end. This is the man that I never want to have in my life again. I never know a man that is used by the devil to bring so much curse into my life. He is definitely out for good! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

2012 is a new walk for me and Jc. Lord for these 4 years have lead me and Jc to be at the low end of life that people around us, be it neighbours or closed relatives, looked at us with 'special' eyes. It is as if they earn much and studied better for better school results are causing them to flow in pride and see me and Jc as nothing. But Lord do this for a purpose.

Jc has surpass all expectation that she has yet to grow in maturity like most of the 10 years old should be. She is still into play and not much into study. I am still the stay at home mum doing my daily meditation.

This is the plan of Lord. Whatever I shared about His Glory, Lord let all see nothing for so long. All has given up hope, even Su that walked so closely with me also disbelieve in what I said. But Lord plan is not over yet. When all turn their backs, He could raise me up and Jc up to show His Glory! Surely, He will prosper us so much that people could say it is God! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

No matter what Lord leads through, it's for a purpose. When the time is up, surely, His Glory Light will shine through and Him Glorified. Hallelujah! Amen Amen! I am glad that I am with Him for His Glory to shine. I do not take part in the Glory! I know it's all about Him and nothing about me. Surely Jc and me will be so highly rise up that no one can see any part of our past in us. I am looking for this to come to past, surely 2012, His Perfect governing of 12 shall works wonders. Glory Glory!

Abba Father, I have walked with You by Your Grace and let You bring the Glory of Jesus to past in me and Jc. Surely I in You are more than a conquerer and I have Your Righteousness of God with me and I will surely reign in life! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

May you be blessed by the Good God in the coming 2012. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Season of Terror

What a betrayal feeling I felt after I realised what was being done to harm me. I am really very disappointed with ex.

Remember the $500 I wrote not long ago, and the beautiful Christmas Tree and the decorations around the house that ex done up. I was wondering why he put in so much efforts and so eagered to do it. Never did I suspect anything wrong. I should have guessed, how can a man changed his pox so eaily. Hiaz....

After the decoration was up, I was fallen sick with attacks crowded the brain and coughing quite badly that on Christmas eve I was still fighting with all the spiritual attacks!

Ex had linked up the 2 fans and the dinner table light in gold and green ribbons. This cut the living room and the dinning room into 2. Initially I did not realise this was a curse. I did feel uncomfortable over this way of hanging the ribbons. He had also used green and gold strips of shinning decoration item to cover the whole tree like a net. I felt uncomfortable as it looked like a net sealing the tree. Ex was so eagered to cover the whole tree with them.

It was a day before the Christmas eve that I sensed something wrong. There seem to be something misty about the tree. Lord revealed the decoration is a formation of curse patterns. I had to remove those 2 ribbons that cut my living room and dinning room. After taken them down and throwing them away, the thick cloud around my whole brain was cleared.

The next day, Lord got me to remove the green and gold stripes on the Christmas Tree, after removing them, the thick cloud around my throat was gone. Glory to Jesus!

Ex had asked Jc to do some snow flakes paper cutting. He brought some shinning paper for Jc to work on and even put the green grass like thingy around the outer lining of my study room. Each removal of the item, I recovered better from the sickness.

I was still not fully well and Lord got me to clear the silver stripes on the tree. I was surprised to see some green and gold stripes had made it way back on the tree, no wonder Lord wanted me to do the clearing of the stripes. With all the localise curse removed, the permanent attack was removed. But remotely still fighting with SF. Till this moment, things have turn out getting lighter.

I thank Jesus is my Emmanuel! He protected me, I didn't know that ex also hanged a white paper decoration ribbon that looks like those used in funeral. I had a puzzled feeling when he first put that up. Upon removed, I felt a lot better.

He actually bought a packet of multi-packet indian titbits for me too. I used to like it but had not have it for many years. He insisted that I would take it. Lord let me know that was cursed and I throw it away too.

I am very disappointed with ex. Even in this divorce, I cares about he could have a house to call his own and making sure that I do not do anything to destroy that. But he let me lost all trust in him. To bring a long list of cursed item into this house, was his way of saying, wanting me dead directly.

Previously fighting spiritually, I won't know if he was involved or not. Even though I suspected he did. But this recent curse really confirmed of his involvement!!! All my kindness, taking him as Jc's dad and be friendly to him, so that weekly meeting could be peaceful. But he wanted me dead!

The funny thing was, tonight, when he came home with Jc after a day out at Universal Studio in Sentosa, I was on my way out to purchase some food item to cook for dinner. He was kind of shock and asked where I was going.

When I finished my shopping at the nearby supermarket, he was out there loitering and I saw that uneasy look on his face again. When I asked why he was out there, he said wanting to do a hair cut but hair salon too many people. He then followed me back!!! He, who participated in the curse, dare not even dare to stay in house when I did the shopping, which was at most 20mins or less away.

Looking at him behaved such way, I really shook my head. Was that guilt or what...I really lost all trust and all cares of him. Shit to him if I would, but in Christ, I know anger and displeasure is of the devil, so I passed all the anger and the disappointment to the Lord.

All the hoo haa was because he hoped to kill me or he and SF both hope to kill me. But Jesus is Almighty, no matter what devil planned, He always let me know so that I will not jump into the trap. I didn't know that SF would control ex to be his delivery agent. What a change of role, from my husband to now someone sent to kill me.

I am only glad that I have Jesus in me. Any form of danger He will let me know. He let me tested till I gave up, then He would pray in the spirit to bring me up so that I could pray some more deliverance. Well, another form of training, I guess. I am glad that Lord lifted me up. I am being set free. Glory to Jesus! Amen Amen!

Monday, December 26, 2011

The Arrival of King Jesus

Sunday, at the Indoor Stadium, I was feeling down from the curse that rained on me over the weekends. In the mid of worshipping Jesus, Lord showed His Big Face to me, it was so BIG that He shocked me to joy. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

As I looked towards the stage, from my end to the front of the stage, He appeared right in the middle, the whole face occupied the whole central area. It was the biggest face of Jesus that I had seen. It wasn't that I could see clearly. I could see the outline of all the features on His Face. It's like His Contenance shining upon me. Immediately, I broke into joy! Hallelujah!!!

Lord purposely wanted me to go Indoor Stadium for the service. He did not update the overflow area so I thought only the Indoor Stadium is the only place. He said I had to be there and He is coming and this is a very significant event for His Arrival. It was fully of joy throughout the service. Lord was so good! Hallelujah!!!

Actually, I wanted to date Su to go with me, but her nasty husband had prevented her from even queuing with me. She smsed to apologise to me and told me to wake up early to queue my own. Lord was so good, for the past weeks, I slept at around 5am and usually woke up near noon. Saturday night, Lord let me got tired early and slept around 2am. Praise Jesus!

I prayed to Lord to wake up me in time, I even set 3 5-min apart alarm to wake myself. I even told my mum the night before to call me at 7am, she usually left my house 6+am. Glory to Jesus, I actually heard her locking of the door and I was partially up before 6:30am. As my wake up time supposed to be 7am, I tried to took some light nap. But Lord prevented me to deep sleep and I was waken by mum at 6:57am and I could get up, fully awoke at 7am! Glory to Jesus!

I prayed to Lord to send me a cab as I reach the road the night before; I prayed for a cab without fare rise. But on Sunday morning, afraid that there is no cab, I told Lord as long as have cab, I will take any. Haha...I saw a cab coming as I was walking almost reaching the main road and I ran! But as I waited for the cab to stop, I saw Lord had send me 2 cabs!!! Praise Jesus!

There was light drizzling and Lord sent me to the stairs where the queue end was. I was there at 8:20am, even though I planned to reach there 8:45am. Su husband, whom had been nasty towards me, Lord let them be so late that when I seated in the Stadium, they have yet to arrive.

However, Lord is merciful! As Su prayed to Jesus during shower to reserve 5 seats for them, Lord got WK, who was with me, to suggest go for a seat nearer stage. I have my favourite permanent seat section, so does Su. As we sat at 2nd row, WK suggested go to first row, which have 6 empty seats. I told her the last 2nd row was better. Then Lord let her worried about her neigbour, whom she had seen queuing behind me as she left her queue further back to come up to join me in my queue.

Glory Glory, she called her neighbour but the line was off. She then called her sis, whom had gone to the overflow. Then she suggested I check with Su. Glory Glory! Lord actually let her reserved those seats for Su, I called, they yet to arrive, and confirmed needed 5 seats, so the seats were given to them. It was after that her neighbour returned her call, by then, the seats were given away. As the neighbour was on stage facing seats, it's okay too. Glory to Jesus for the arrangement!

As for Su's husband, WK saw that he was not happy! Haha...he should appreciate Lord's favour. There were 2 others who wanted to claim those seats but we told them they were reserved! Lord favours those that have faith on Him. Glory Glory! I told WK not to bother by Su's husband! He just need to humble down by the Lord!

I could sense the joyfulness in the celebration of His Coming. It was an emphasize of His coming as a Saviour, birth as a baby, but I know this coming is His Coming to heal mightily! Glory to Him! He said my ministry is to make people whole, not just healed but being made whole! Glory to Him! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

The Favour of God

It was amazing what Lord could do for a young Christian, who was blocked by her husband from coming to church! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Recently, Jc was invited to a BBQ and a fun filled Wild Wild Wet by her school mate cum International Dance Club mate. Originally, I thought I would just leave Jc there and go wait for her pickup time at my eldest sister's home, which is nearby. But Lord has other plan!!!

Through her friend, it seem like 5 boys with parents are going and Jc would be the only one without a parent. Lord led me to think so, that I decided to go with her instead. Glory Glory!

The friend also invited my 2 other nieces so that the girls will not to outnumbered. But yesterday, it was raining the whole day that eldest sis did not want her 2 daughters to go. As I went, I prayed to Lord to stop the rain but somehow, it did not happen! Lord has other plan in mind! Glory Glory!

As I reached the place, I met 1 mum, Jo, that I've ever met her as I sent my girl to school previously. Since it was raining, the kids went upstairs to play ipad and iphone instead. We the parents, were left on the 1st level of the 2 level chalet.

Jo was telling me how she was teaching her childrens through their growing year. She pampered them so much and treat them like princes and princess. I realised she ever go to church and learnt to say Hallelujah and Amen. She said that was her prayer. Even she was ignorance of what it mean, Lord knows her heart and sent me to teach her! Glory Glory!

As the rain got lighter, the kids wanted to go to the pools to swim. Jo volunteered to go with them. As the dad of the girl, B, who invited Jc, didn't not feel good with 1 parent going with the 4 kids, I went with them too. Glory Glory!

Lord came through me to teach her, told her that she is the king and priest, what she says matters. So if want things to work the way she hope to, should speak the solution and not the problem. Lord even baptise her in spirit so that she could pray for her home situation. Even on the way home, Lord was still teaching her much. Glory Glory!

She learnt so much that she was so grateful that she kept thanking me, but I told her it was not me, but the Lord! Glory Glory! I was amazed by Lord. For someone who wanted Him much, even though devil through her husband had blocked her, Lord sent me to her to teach her. To lead her to pray in the spirit and to lead her to pray Psalm 91 daily for protection. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

She let me recalls that when Jesus was just resurrected and yet to go to the Father. Mary's heart was with Him and He paused a moment to talk to her before going up. Lord loves us to have heart for Him. Even when she only know Hallelujah and Amen, Lord purposely created this bbq, for their classmates to go and to let Jc played almost most Saturday with B, so that their friendship developed and invited Jc and get me to go with Jc.

Lord did so much just that she may receive some truth about Him. It was so cute that Jo said that I like having 10-20 years of knowledge about Christ and His Righteousness, even though I told her I just had 5 years experience. Glory to Jesus that He loves her so much that sent me to her. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

Monday, December 19, 2011

The Blessing of Deutronomy 28

Praise Jesus, what a blessed day today! Since last Sunday, ex and Jc had been busying to get the Christmas tree up. It's great to see the tree again after 2 years break. Abba heard my heart wanting the tree and got Jc to want it and her daddy to satisfy her wants! Glory Glory!

Today, as ex came with some gifts for the tree, as I was filling my water bottle, he asked if I want a Christmas present, I said ok...haha...praise Jesus! I got a red packet of S$500 from him!!!! That never happen before! It must be God! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

I was thinking about in a month plus time, Chinese New Year is approaching and I need money to put into the red packets for mum, my godfather, and for the kids! That is going to cost me a few hundreds dollars but I am unwilling to dip into my saving!

Lord leads me to think of this verse again. Previously, I was trusting this verse, look to His Kingdom and His Righteousness and all things we need, God will provides. As I grow and now in maturity in Him, I have let go of this verse, but Lord leads me to think of it again. As I trusted Lord will provide me with everything I need, as He promised, Lord did the miracle!

I did not expect this ex, who is so stingy towards me, would bless me the money. Even the monthly allowance, he specifically said it was for Jc, not for me! So, I was very surprised to see that he presented a red packet to me. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

I was for a moment wondering if he gave me this and would take away from the monthly allowance, but he promised he will not! Glory to Jesus! I am so happy that now I have some extra money to buy my bbq pork from that famous stall in Singapore! I bought another kilogram of the chilli pork as mum loved it so much, I also bought another 500g of the normal one. I am so happy that the price has not increase yet. Now is just 1 month plus 1 week away from Chinese New Year! Glory Glory!

Today after movie, ex and Jc went to get some Christmas decorations that the whole living and dinning room are well decorated. The house is ready for next Saturday celebration! Glory Glory! Lord promised that I will be moving out of this apartment soon, so guess this is the last grand celebration before departing from this home. With all the decoratives up, the Xmas Tree looks wonderfully good! Amen Amen!

Surely as I am moving out, I will miss this tree that had been with us for many Christmas celebration! This is the most grand decorated tree of all the years added together. Abba really making this celebration special for me! Hallelujah! I hope to capture the grandure in photos, I do hope to capture it.

With the soon stepping out into the path of Jesus, I am looking ahead to the unknown. A new life in Christ to walk out His Fullness! Glory Glory! I am so glad to know Jesus and to come back to Daddy God. All that He had promised to me sounded wonderfully good! I am looking forward to all the fulfillment. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

Monday, December 12, 2011

A New Beginning

Today, finally I have closed the jointed account with ex. It is a closure of my life with him forever. The only leftover is moving out of this house. Once everything completed, my life will be fully stepping into a new begining lay out by Abba Father. Glory Glory!

I praise Abba Father for His Patience of leading me to see my ex months by months, from still longing for his return to now fully given him up. Hallelujah! It's only Lord that could revealed what hidden truth that had mumbed the heart for so long to see the fresh reality of it.

Years back, in 2008, Lord had told me that ex is not worthly for me. At that time, I could not understand Him at all. Even when He said I don't know what true love is, I still pretty pluzzed even though I had see how my brother-in-laws treated my sisters. It is His Patience, revealing more and more, from hard evidents of his unfaithfulness to how cold he was and then to how unhelpful he was. Step by step, Lord leads me to see his unwillingness to help, which I had taken in as norm, to now, feel the hardness of him in reality!

I could now see clearly and have a good understanding that even no matter how he masked himself sweetly in future, I will definitely not going to give him anymore chance. I know his purpose is not me, but other assets that might trigger his interest. I am not going to be a fool anymore! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

It is with this final decision that I am clearing all those areas that are still common between us. Each move, I thought I won't have any feeling anymore but somehow, the bondage to each item see trigger a melt down. I like my wedding ring but I tithed it out and now I closed the jointed a/c. With the moving out in the near future, the cleansing process will be completed. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Abba knows emotion takes time to cool down and He did not rush me. He let time speaks itself. Things gets clearer with time. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Abba Father, thank You for Your leading me out. I praise You for Your Goodness! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

Saturday, December 10, 2011

The World

It's amazing how the world has became lately. Even looking at what my daily diet food, it's amazing how it has changed. The world is surely getting darker and darker as the bible said.

Even with all the flooding that is happening around the world, the rice supply here in Singapore is till look okay, the supermarket is still selling lots of them. But the quality is different, even when price has risen to double or more.

The first I notice the difference was when I cooked rice for the family gathering each Saturday at my home. I concluded that they must have eaten more because of the yummy dish, but mum said it's the quality of the rice, even we bought a top quality brand.

Few days ago, I was cooking porriage for Jc and me. Normally, 1 cup of rice would have left over after our consumption. That evening, I was suprised that about more than 3/4 cup of the rice just could fill 1 bowl of porriage for Jc, I had to cook again for myself!!! What magic has the rice become? From 1 cup for 2 bowls and more to left just enough for slightly more than a bowl!!! It's not just price is getting costly, the quality is falling too!

I used to like going to the nearby shopping centre food court to take my salty vegetable pork soup with dark soy sauce pork sauce over my rice! That evening, I had the most plain dinner! It was almost not edible for me!

Mum said the neighbour upstairs was complaining that now money can't buy much food, the value of the money has dropped!

I watched from Sid Roth sometime back that there is another world system that is happening and many world leaders are involved, to bring all government system as 1 and to bring all religion as one, and from US side the combination, it's about preaching away from Jesus Christ, as the Son of God to a general god. Dilluting everything into a big melting pot.

The saying is when all people suffers, easier to get such a system into operation. I am seeing signs of my government speaking the same language! It's alarming how fast such pace is happening! I even see country leaders submitting to other countries leaders to manage their finances, this world system is diffinitely getting weirder...

What I know is whatever Christ and the bible is saying, devil is leading the world to duplicate a carbon copy of it. But my bible said that when earth is the darkest of ages, His Glory will shine the Brightest. I am waiting for the full manifestation of His Glory!

Abba Father promised that He knows what is happening to this world! He said in Psalm 47:6-9 'Sing praises to God, Sing praises to Our King, Sing Praises! For God is the King of All the Earth; sing praises in a skillful psalm and with understanding. God reigns over the nations; God sits upon His Holy Throne. The princes and nobles of the peoples are gathered together, a united people for the God of Abraham, for the shields of the earth belong to God; He is highly exalted'.

I had just gone through a machine gun shooting kind of attack last night, but Lord is forever faithful to me. I shall live and not die, to proclaim the Glory of Jesus! Amen Amen! I am glad that Pastor Prince pointed to himself and to worship leader, Adeline Gan, and said: 'no matter how the devil tried to knock them off, they are still alive'!

From all the rescue of me, even sometime I was made unconscious of my being, Lord is faithful to rescue me. He forever is there to protect me, He just let me have a taste of the playground to keep me alert of their works, so that I could help others in future. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Jesus said He is the First and the Last. Before His Coming, things will not get so bad that it is not withstandable, He will surely appear when it was the darkest!

Silent Night, Holy Night, He was born, a Saviour to the dying world. His Death opens the Way for man to go heaven, where there is full of His Loving Kindness in the air! Surely, His Coming will bring the joy of Heaven to Earth! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

What Lord is doing in My Life

With my enemy increased from 2 to 3 and then to all their associates etc, some days, I am like getting a rainfall of attacks raining in my life. To such a hard work of the devil to distract me, to such I am losing focus, Lord today speaks to me through Pastor Prince to bring me back to His Promise again. Glory Glory!

As Lord Jesus coming is getting closer and closer, devil do not want that and is trying all their might to kill me. But Lord is good, when I could not, He could! His Super Abounding Grace is still pouring over me. Glory Glory!

After much awaiting, I finally found my One New Man Bible in the mailbox when I went to check for snail mails. Glory Glory! It is so liberating to read this bible with a new understanding. As much as I want to grab on the old with much mistery in it and a lot of question marks and don't know what the author was translating!

But finally, from the few reading of this new bible, I am getting an insight to the event that happens of old. Previously, I would stop as Lord went to the Cross so that we could receive His Righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. But this One New Man Bible draw a deeper meaning to this Righteousness. It explains it as Loving-Kindness of Abba Father and Christ Jesus!

Yes, when I looked back on what was done for me, yes, it's the Loving-Kindness of Abba Father that sent Jesus to the Cross to be crushed for me. It's the Loving-Kindness of Lord Jesus, willingly went to the Cross to die for me that I may receive this Loving-Kindness of God, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit! Abba loves me so much that He sent Lord Jesus to death for me. I have been mediatating this Loving-Kindness of God that I felt so loved! Glory Glory!

Yes, this get devil panicky and sent lots of attack from SF, from my neighbours and even from mum's Indian neighbour. The corner neighbour has been bullying my mum and since my mum still refuse to shift out, she got the Indian neighbour living at the other end of their level to do the curse. I have been intercepting for mum and now, this also become my problem!

However, Lord Grace is super abundance. As long as I could pray, Lord let me pray, when I could not, He come in to pray for me. Yes, like Pastor Prince said, no matter how devil tried to kill me, I will live and not die, for the Glory of Jesus! Amen Amen!

I used to see what Abraham was doing up the mountain and Lord's Grace was even much Greater on the other side of the mountain, to rejoice over what devil was doing in my life. As the attacks grows strong, I lost focus of such! But Lord is a Faithful God!

Abba loves me so much that He does not want me to forget it, so today, He get Pastor Prince to tell me to look at what devil did and then I will know what Lord is doing in the opposite of the mountain. I cannot see yet but when I reach the top of mountain, surely, my provision is there in abundance. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Yes, when Jesus was born there was great darkness, when He died at the Cross, there was great fear, but be of cheers, Lord told me, through all the darkness and great attacks, a Saviour was born and my Saviour had done it all for me and now I am to claim the provision! Glory Glory!

Abba Father, thank You for pulling me back to see your provision! Hallelujah!!! I know Jesus Coming is near. I shall hold on to the promise and continue to walk in faith! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!