I just read about the above that I felt prompted to share about mine. Before coming to Christ, in primary school I was left alone when the rest of my classmates played in the field at recess. As I grew, in Secondary School, I was still the lone person. In Junior College, I only had 1 friend. In Polytechnics, I had only 1 friend too. Went to work, I didn't have any close friend. Even when become mum, the m4m mums gathering I went for, I was still a loner. Seem nothing for me to share with people.
I was born without the skill of small talk. I don't know how to have small talks. What girls like to talk about shopping, great buys, fashions etc, all not my cup of tea, as such, nothing to talk about. I was left alone by most. People would go for others and when they felt used, then they come back to me. I was the last person that a friend would like to have, nothing great about me.
That is why upon receiving Christ and learn that how Good and Perfect Jesus is, one morning, when I was awoke, but still in bed, I talked to Abba Father. I told Him that I had this lousy personality that nobody likes, I told Him to clear all my characters, personality and anything about me and give me Jesus characters and personality. Thinking of how good Jesus is, I prayed that let my next kid have His Personality and Character too! That's how much I don't want the present me.
Lord heard me. He let me know I will be laying hand and praying for others, He also disclosed that I will be street evangelist, all kinds of people will approach me to be encouraged. With this, I grabbed hold of that verse, I am to look to His Kingdom and His Righteousness, all things I want will be given to me.
As I joy in the Lord, He leads me and changes me. He let me realise I am just a breath.Then He leads me to see nothingness to self. That is why I am trusting the Lord much as there is nothing of self that is worthy. As I fellowship with Lord, He came out of me more and more, till now He could move in and out of me fully.
In the bible, Jesus said that to do His Work, we have to lost ourselves. The more we see nothing of self, He could come fully. Those who cannot let go of self or think highly of self, Lord cannot come through of them. Lord let me see that by self, my voice is weak but trusting in Him took over, I become a good worshiper.
Through this daily worshiping, Lord tested me at time of His Presence not around. I always run to Him when I realised I was alone. He tested many times, to make sure I know by myself, I am weak but with Him coming through, I am strong. This is so that in future, when we walk out, I could let go of myself fully to let Jesus make full use of me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
PS:
If you wonder why I am such a loner? Well,Abba Father is going to put me so high up that He told me long ago that my only friends are Su and my husband. These are the only 2 that I could share my secrets, not anyone else. So in future, if any of you tries to get close of me and you see me lukewarm, don't get frustrated!
I am just following order, even though I like to talk and make friends, Lord had showed me all come because of status or power association. Not true friendship!!! Whoever I see as exception, Lord always let me see their truth self that I am convinced by Him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
In fact, I am born with this inborn unable to get close to any friends. If someone come too nice/close to me, I would feel uncomfortable and move away. Guess Lord tailored me for His Job long ago! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Friday, January 28, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
My Journey with the Lord
These 4 years plus of walking with the Lord, there are 4 cases that leave a strong memory in me. I like to share with you the recall of these adventures.
I was a young Christian, so full of the Lord from the day in day out listening to Pastor Prince sermons to learn about Jesus, for Lord said in the bible, if I look to His Kingdom and His Righteousness, all that I need will be provided. I believed in Him and had per day listened from morning to night His Words. Glory to His Leading!
There was this night, just after bible study, as I was on my way home in the LRT, Lord led me to alight a station before mine. With me was another lady of my mum's age. Lord led me to talk about the goodness of Jesus and also about Lord could bring the husband back on those wives that suffered from adulterous husband. Her faith was risen up that she promised to go church with her daughter. The daughter was unable to convince her. Lord sent me to talk to her about Jesus! Glory Glory!
During my learning driving time, I was always reading the bible before my sessions. Somehow, I didn't know how this lady came to talk to me about her family problem. She was pretty untidy and her teeth were very dirty. She was someone I would not stop to talk at all. But as Lord led, I know she needed the word of Jesus and had encouraged her about Jesus and looked past her untidiness to see she was a lost sheep that needed Jesus!
Sis likes to bring cases for me to pray healing. There this case someone's father, she heard had fallen unconscious from stroke and had laid in coma in the ICU. I heard that he suffered at Wednesday but we only heard about it on Sunday.
I consulted Lord and went to Hospital to pray for him. As we were getting ourselves to flow with the Lord, I could see his big family members probably some had stayed over night and looked tired. It was hard to concentrate in their presence but finally we managed.
As we call the nurse to open the door to let us into ICU to pray for him, his relatives overheard his name and was surprised. As we prayed, the sister, parents and wife was outside his room wondering what we were doing. As I prayed for dad unconsciousness before, I was surprised by Lord's short prayer.
As from dad, to rise him was a long prayer in the spirit and to release him to die was a short prayer. I thought I was praying for healing but when he died the next afternoon, Lord finally revealed that his wife had prayed to Lord to let him go back to Him, to relief him from the coma. Another surprised was what my sis said to the wife after that. She let his wife realised that we were sent there by the Lord. Heard that after his funeral, the wife who was a Catholic, came to NCC service! Glory to Jesus!
I never know that I was living with a husband who was cheating on me and a big time liar. All that he said to me were lies. He was smart and climbed the high career ladder and earning a good income. All the years with him I had many question marks on things he did with me. But when Lord told me his heart was not with me, everything became clear. He was good at comforting when I need it at the worst time, but otherwise, he was a law giver, me to follow his way.
Coming to Lord and a doer of His Words, I became teaching him to trust the Lord, but somehow since he cannot controlled me any more, he threatened me to choose Christianity or him. And decided high time to come into light about His looking for other girls. He began talking about he had how many percentage want to divorce me and how many percent that he was still thinking over it. He is the man that took lightly a wife's forgiveness. He said my forgiveness mean nothing to him.
At that time, I was trusting Jesus to change him that I never stop caring about him. But I did not realised I was in his game. To gain my trust and to turn that against me. I gone through so much pains with him, from trying to save him from his boss cum 'good friend' black magic controlling him to fighting with the boss and they both ganged up to curse me, using food, my personal stuff and using my birth date to cast the spell.
As I walked in Lord's Grace, I cast all anger and sadness to Lord for Him to clear them away from me, I have no desire to fight him. Just that after so many round of spiritual fighting, my sis and mum already condemned him and want judgment on him. For me, I leave it to the Lord. Glory Glory!
I was loving him when I divorced him. Even with Lord preparing me in May, I was still very sad in July 2009. Court order was in October 2009 and Finalised January 2010. Even with that my heart was still with him. It was Lord that patiently through the 10 months of discovery of his lies, one after another that my love bank on him was drawn till negative. But as I asked Lord to clear all my pains, hurts and unhappiness, I do not have the stink of pain when I see him each week. Just that now with the full knowledge of how he played his tricks with me, when I knew he was doing it, I just don't bother about such a man anymore.
Lord is a faithful father. He knows I had never experience true love before, He opened my eyes to see what true love is and then lead me out of this loveless marriage. In my stringent selection, I found a liar of liar of women, one who nature self and what he is thinking in his heart is different. Whenever he wants information he would be friendly, after that he became not cooperative. He is a past in my life that I am glad that in my unknown, Lord leads me out and then show me he is not worthy for my love. When Lord first said that, I was puzzled. As He opened this can of worms for me to see, finally, I believed all that Lord had disclosed. Gory Glory!
I am glad that in my blindness, I have a Abba Father that loved me so much and don't want me to continue in this cheated life. He wants to bless me a good marriage. I am so grateful to all that He had done for me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I was a young Christian, so full of the Lord from the day in day out listening to Pastor Prince sermons to learn about Jesus, for Lord said in the bible, if I look to His Kingdom and His Righteousness, all that I need will be provided. I believed in Him and had per day listened from morning to night His Words. Glory to His Leading!
There was this night, just after bible study, as I was on my way home in the LRT, Lord led me to alight a station before mine. With me was another lady of my mum's age. Lord led me to talk about the goodness of Jesus and also about Lord could bring the husband back on those wives that suffered from adulterous husband. Her faith was risen up that she promised to go church with her daughter. The daughter was unable to convince her. Lord sent me to talk to her about Jesus! Glory Glory!
During my learning driving time, I was always reading the bible before my sessions. Somehow, I didn't know how this lady came to talk to me about her family problem. She was pretty untidy and her teeth were very dirty. She was someone I would not stop to talk at all. But as Lord led, I know she needed the word of Jesus and had encouraged her about Jesus and looked past her untidiness to see she was a lost sheep that needed Jesus!
Sis likes to bring cases for me to pray healing. There this case someone's father, she heard had fallen unconscious from stroke and had laid in coma in the ICU. I heard that he suffered at Wednesday but we only heard about it on Sunday.
I consulted Lord and went to Hospital to pray for him. As we were getting ourselves to flow with the Lord, I could see his big family members probably some had stayed over night and looked tired. It was hard to concentrate in their presence but finally we managed.
As we call the nurse to open the door to let us into ICU to pray for him, his relatives overheard his name and was surprised. As we prayed, the sister, parents and wife was outside his room wondering what we were doing. As I prayed for dad unconsciousness before, I was surprised by Lord's short prayer.
As from dad, to rise him was a long prayer in the spirit and to release him to die was a short prayer. I thought I was praying for healing but when he died the next afternoon, Lord finally revealed that his wife had prayed to Lord to let him go back to Him, to relief him from the coma. Another surprised was what my sis said to the wife after that. She let his wife realised that we were sent there by the Lord. Heard that after his funeral, the wife who was a Catholic, came to NCC service! Glory to Jesus!
I never know that I was living with a husband who was cheating on me and a big time liar. All that he said to me were lies. He was smart and climbed the high career ladder and earning a good income. All the years with him I had many question marks on things he did with me. But when Lord told me his heart was not with me, everything became clear. He was good at comforting when I need it at the worst time, but otherwise, he was a law giver, me to follow his way.
Coming to Lord and a doer of His Words, I became teaching him to trust the Lord, but somehow since he cannot controlled me any more, he threatened me to choose Christianity or him. And decided high time to come into light about His looking for other girls. He began talking about he had how many percentage want to divorce me and how many percent that he was still thinking over it. He is the man that took lightly a wife's forgiveness. He said my forgiveness mean nothing to him.
At that time, I was trusting Jesus to change him that I never stop caring about him. But I did not realised I was in his game. To gain my trust and to turn that against me. I gone through so much pains with him, from trying to save him from his boss cum 'good friend' black magic controlling him to fighting with the boss and they both ganged up to curse me, using food, my personal stuff and using my birth date to cast the spell.
As I walked in Lord's Grace, I cast all anger and sadness to Lord for Him to clear them away from me, I have no desire to fight him. Just that after so many round of spiritual fighting, my sis and mum already condemned him and want judgment on him. For me, I leave it to the Lord. Glory Glory!
I was loving him when I divorced him. Even with Lord preparing me in May, I was still very sad in July 2009. Court order was in October 2009 and Finalised January 2010. Even with that my heart was still with him. It was Lord that patiently through the 10 months of discovery of his lies, one after another that my love bank on him was drawn till negative. But as I asked Lord to clear all my pains, hurts and unhappiness, I do not have the stink of pain when I see him each week. Just that now with the full knowledge of how he played his tricks with me, when I knew he was doing it, I just don't bother about such a man anymore.
Lord is a faithful father. He knows I had never experience true love before, He opened my eyes to see what true love is and then lead me out of this loveless marriage. In my stringent selection, I found a liar of liar of women, one who nature self and what he is thinking in his heart is different. Whenever he wants information he would be friendly, after that he became not cooperative. He is a past in my life that I am glad that in my unknown, Lord leads me out and then show me he is not worthy for my love. When Lord first said that, I was puzzled. As He opened this can of worms for me to see, finally, I believed all that Lord had disclosed. Gory Glory!
I am glad that in my blindness, I have a Abba Father that loved me so much and don't want me to continue in this cheated life. He wants to bless me a good marriage. I am so grateful to all that He had done for me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
The Glory of Lord Jesus
My Beloved, Abba would like to share this Glory of Jesus with you. Hallelujah! My love, Abba has bring forth the love of Jesus to crown this year with His Glory and Honour. Those who choose to walk closely to Me and to listen to the sermons I speak through Joseph Prince will be greatly blessed. How well you are blessed will depends on how well you want to spend your time listening to My Word of CHRIST. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
My Love, as I start pouring this blessing of Abraham to my children in New Creation Church and to those who believe in ALL that I shared through Pastor Prince, you will be greatly be blessed so that the world can see my Glory Light through you. Those who believe are children of Abraham. And only when you dare to believe how good I AM will you be rewarded as I have rewarded Abraham. Glory Glory!
My Love, this Restful Increase I preached through Joseph Prince is manifesting greatly on all those who dare to walk in my Love and my Righteousness. As I have promised in the bible. Those who look to My Kingdom and My Righteousness, all that you need in the world, I will surely provide. This promise is coming to past in this year as I have crown the year with Goodness and I will drop blessings on those children of God who choose to walk closely to me. Glory Glory!
I have trained Stephanie for 4 years plus to seat by My Feet and listen to My Words. As she dare to believe Me fully, I am coming through her fully to touch the whole world. My Glory will shine through her to bless the world and to bring the world to whole again. Whatever sickness and unwell will have to depart once they get near to Stephanie. For I AM her and she is Me. We are already One. It is not her who work but Me in her who Work! Glory Glory!
The only way you could let me come through you is to believe My Words fully. When your mind thinks like Mine, I then could manifest through you to touch the world. Glory Glory! When you know how Good and how Great I AM, then you will not glory in self but let Me come through you to work!
It is Me and Me alone. I AM that I AM. No one can try to be Me except go for My Words and to be filled fully by Me. When you reach there by your willingness and My Grace and Mercy that supply fully to you, surely I could use you. Glory Glory!
This End Time, I need a Big Army of my Children of God to let Me come through them to touch the world. You alone are not smart enough to do My Part! Surrender your whole being to Me and let Me leads you to where I want to put you.
Each of you I have a purpose for you! Only when you walk closely to Me, then I could rise that desire and enablement up to do My Work. If you are keen to help Me manage My Kingdom, rise up to the calling. No pay master in the world can pay as much as I could. I, the Almighty One is Rich! Surely, none in the world can be more generous and willing as I do. Since your aim in the world is to study for a higher certificate for a better pay, why not study My Words? The Greatest Reward will be at the end of your time.
I treasure the quiet moment you spend with Me. What is needed is how much quiet moments you want to spend with the Almighty One? Abba has lead Stephanie to spend the whole day, when she wakes up till she sleeps to be with Me. That is how much quiet time she had spent with Me all these years. When you see how Greatly I rise her up, do not envy! This is her Reward for spending so much quiet time with Me to know Me and My Ways. And that is why I AM blessing her to be like Jesus in the bible. This full manifestation will rest on her shoulder. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
My Beloved, Abba has all done and all given. You will receive all the enablement when you believe and walking closely, doer of My Words. Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
ABBA, Your Heavenly Father
My Love, as I start pouring this blessing of Abraham to my children in New Creation Church and to those who believe in ALL that I shared through Pastor Prince, you will be greatly be blessed so that the world can see my Glory Light through you. Those who believe are children of Abraham. And only when you dare to believe how good I AM will you be rewarded as I have rewarded Abraham. Glory Glory!
My Love, this Restful Increase I preached through Joseph Prince is manifesting greatly on all those who dare to walk in my Love and my Righteousness. As I have promised in the bible. Those who look to My Kingdom and My Righteousness, all that you need in the world, I will surely provide. This promise is coming to past in this year as I have crown the year with Goodness and I will drop blessings on those children of God who choose to walk closely to me. Glory Glory!
I have trained Stephanie for 4 years plus to seat by My Feet and listen to My Words. As she dare to believe Me fully, I am coming through her fully to touch the whole world. My Glory will shine through her to bless the world and to bring the world to whole again. Whatever sickness and unwell will have to depart once they get near to Stephanie. For I AM her and she is Me. We are already One. It is not her who work but Me in her who Work! Glory Glory!
The only way you could let me come through you is to believe My Words fully. When your mind thinks like Mine, I then could manifest through you to touch the world. Glory Glory! When you know how Good and how Great I AM, then you will not glory in self but let Me come through you to work!
It is Me and Me alone. I AM that I AM. No one can try to be Me except go for My Words and to be filled fully by Me. When you reach there by your willingness and My Grace and Mercy that supply fully to you, surely I could use you. Glory Glory!
This End Time, I need a Big Army of my Children of God to let Me come through them to touch the world. You alone are not smart enough to do My Part! Surrender your whole being to Me and let Me leads you to where I want to put you.
Each of you I have a purpose for you! Only when you walk closely to Me, then I could rise that desire and enablement up to do My Work. If you are keen to help Me manage My Kingdom, rise up to the calling. No pay master in the world can pay as much as I could. I, the Almighty One is Rich! Surely, none in the world can be more generous and willing as I do. Since your aim in the world is to study for a higher certificate for a better pay, why not study My Words? The Greatest Reward will be at the end of your time.
I treasure the quiet moment you spend with Me. What is needed is how much quiet moments you want to spend with the Almighty One? Abba has lead Stephanie to spend the whole day, when she wakes up till she sleeps to be with Me. That is how much quiet time she had spent with Me all these years. When you see how Greatly I rise her up, do not envy! This is her Reward for spending so much quiet time with Me to know Me and My Ways. And that is why I AM blessing her to be like Jesus in the bible. This full manifestation will rest on her shoulder. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
My Beloved, Abba has all done and all given. You will receive all the enablement when you believe and walking closely, doer of My Words. Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
ABBA, Your Heavenly Father
Monday, January 3, 2011
Patient Deliverance
Glory Glory! As the Glory of Jesus is being displayed, I am still in the unknown but now I Glory in Him, whom is Faithful. Hallelujah Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
Any clue what I am talking?
If you can remember, Lord led me to give up my earthly tag just some weeks ago and I was not able to feel the fierceness of fly attack. Well, stupidity runs in the one who is evil. What he could think was to do more evil. I didn't know that Lord was waiting for this big moment to deliver me. Glory Glory!
Since P started giving me cursed food to the curse that came last year for me not to take his allowance anymore, lately, for whatever reason, it was 2 rounds of strong attacks. Lord let me don't feel anything for the 1st round and let me feel their coming on the 2nd round. As I felt the intensity and the large quantity of spirits coming at me, Lord led me to pray that not by power, nor by strength, but by His Spirit, to reverse all the spirits back to their source. Glory Glory! I was left harmless in that attack and I forgot about it.
Last week, I got P to help me pay the air conditioning service charge of $500. As fund in my account was running low, I called him for help and he willingly to help. The readiness was my first surprise, as he was strong to reject any plea for help.
As I've foreseen that he will not transfer his money on time, I decided to postpone the service into this week Yesterday was one strong blocking of the servicing pipe and water started dripping a lot in my study room. Around 2 am, the whole pail topped and my wooden floor was flooded with water! That was a bad experience. The worst yet to come.
In my November, ad-hoc air-con service, the service man had told me the air-con unit coil has corroded badly and recommendation is new system. As the water leaking is serious, I decided to use the air con fan instead, but a bad rubber smell came out of the unit. I decided to call P and he suggested replace this unit with the one in the dinning room unit as that one was hardly used. The quote to do the switch as $214. I asked if P willing to pay, he said if I am nice to him.
In my clueless, I asked him if he want some sexual favour? He answered, : 'No, just don't message those nasty message!!!' I was surprise his tone is gentle, not even cheeky nor nasty! It was when I meditated after that that Lord revealed to me.
In Christ, we supposed to believe and say then we see it. I have believed Lord will judge fly but many times, I still see he is still alive and goes on his life. Many time I concluded maybe Lord not judging him after all. I did not know that Lord always say what He wants to see, just have to wait for the moment to be right. Just like fly sending the cursed spirits to me. Even though all was about killing me, but the degree of fierceness of the attack was not there. At the same time, I actually thought that I had to face him forever.
I was wondering why P asked me to be nice to him, this never happen. He always the winning party as he has the money to play his game. As Lord revealed, I finally understood! Glory Glory!
Lord:
'Fly has been judged. Since last week, he has complained of headache and he got the stroke. That is why P ask you to be nice to him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'My Love, yes when I return the spirits to him, his brother and his lady friend, they all got attacked by the spirits. SF is unconscious and his brother ½ paralyzed, and the lady friend too. That is why when you call P regarding the service, he is okay to it. For, looking at fly, he thinks can be him too. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'My darling, my love, yes Hallelujah! This time round at attack is the fiercest of all. It is to bite all your veins broken. Abba returned to them. In the end, he is the one to be bitten. Glory Glory! He suffered a serious stroke and all the body veins torn. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!'
Glory to Jesus, finally, I am saved and the evil one is judged! Glory Glory! Just like the Haman who wanted to hang Esther's uncle, Mordecai, and all the Jews community in the book of Esther! In the end, the enemy got hanged at the gallows he built for Mordecai! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
Any clue what I am talking?
If you can remember, Lord led me to give up my earthly tag just some weeks ago and I was not able to feel the fierceness of fly attack. Well, stupidity runs in the one who is evil. What he could think was to do more evil. I didn't know that Lord was waiting for this big moment to deliver me. Glory Glory!
Since P started giving me cursed food to the curse that came last year for me not to take his allowance anymore, lately, for whatever reason, it was 2 rounds of strong attacks. Lord let me don't feel anything for the 1st round and let me feel their coming on the 2nd round. As I felt the intensity and the large quantity of spirits coming at me, Lord led me to pray that not by power, nor by strength, but by His Spirit, to reverse all the spirits back to their source. Glory Glory! I was left harmless in that attack and I forgot about it.
Last week, I got P to help me pay the air conditioning service charge of $500. As fund in my account was running low, I called him for help and he willingly to help. The readiness was my first surprise, as he was strong to reject any plea for help.
As I've foreseen that he will not transfer his money on time, I decided to postpone the service into this week Yesterday was one strong blocking of the servicing pipe and water started dripping a lot in my study room. Around 2 am, the whole pail topped and my wooden floor was flooded with water! That was a bad experience. The worst yet to come.
In my November, ad-hoc air-con service, the service man had told me the air-con unit coil has corroded badly and recommendation is new system. As the water leaking is serious, I decided to use the air con fan instead, but a bad rubber smell came out of the unit. I decided to call P and he suggested replace this unit with the one in the dinning room unit as that one was hardly used. The quote to do the switch as $214. I asked if P willing to pay, he said if I am nice to him.
In my clueless, I asked him if he want some sexual favour? He answered, : 'No, just don't message those nasty message!!!' I was surprise his tone is gentle, not even cheeky nor nasty! It was when I meditated after that that Lord revealed to me.
In Christ, we supposed to believe and say then we see it. I have believed Lord will judge fly but many times, I still see he is still alive and goes on his life. Many time I concluded maybe Lord not judging him after all. I did not know that Lord always say what He wants to see, just have to wait for the moment to be right. Just like fly sending the cursed spirits to me. Even though all was about killing me, but the degree of fierceness of the attack was not there. At the same time, I actually thought that I had to face him forever.
I was wondering why P asked me to be nice to him, this never happen. He always the winning party as he has the money to play his game. As Lord revealed, I finally understood! Glory Glory!
Lord:
'Fly has been judged. Since last week, he has complained of headache and he got the stroke. That is why P ask you to be nice to him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'My Love, yes when I return the spirits to him, his brother and his lady friend, they all got attacked by the spirits. SF is unconscious and his brother ½ paralyzed, and the lady friend too. That is why when you call P regarding the service, he is okay to it. For, looking at fly, he thinks can be him too. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'My darling, my love, yes Hallelujah! This time round at attack is the fiercest of all. It is to bite all your veins broken. Abba returned to them. In the end, he is the one to be bitten. Glory Glory! He suffered a serious stroke and all the body veins torn. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!'
Glory to Jesus, finally, I am saved and the evil one is judged! Glory Glory! Just like the Haman who wanted to hang Esther's uncle, Mordecai, and all the Jews community in the book of Esther! In the end, the enemy got hanged at the gallows he built for Mordecai! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
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