Saturday, January 31, 2015

Understanding to the Situation

One complaint I always heard was she kept saying about blessing and where is it? She has nothing!

Also, I was thinking where this favour of cab provision come from and why?

Also about my future roof, my intention is to continue here but seem like Lord has another door opens and want to tempt and push me through!!!

I also think of who would fight over living with me in the blessed life!!!

Lord led me to listen to a sermon where Joseph was a slave in Egypt but he had Favour with whatever he did!!!

Lord showed me even in my nothingness, it is a set up for the blessed life!!! The Revealing about Seng is to set him up as the other man for my consideration in the near future!!!

I was thinking why would men bother about my blessing and Lord reveal King Solomon had 700 women agreed to spend their lives with him!!!

Imagine everyday for 2 years, he could sleep with a different woman!!! And imagine 700 women wanted his attention!!! It's hell of a job for him and his Emotion!!! No wonder he left God to please his women's god!!!

Lord showed to me it never pays to have more than one partner!!! To treat all fairly, it's hard work!!! Imagine the man with 5 wives had to sleep a portion of his sleep with each woman each night. And the lady having 2 husbands had to cater for both their needs!!!

Lord wanted me to experience Seng so that eventually he will auto pilot in to be the one to share my blessed life!!! I have to know him to make the right decision!!!

All is according to His Plan!!! He know I might not pick up as it is not my nature to do it!!! So He uses temptation and pushing at the same time so that His Plan may flows through!!!

I mean, in the nature, don't think Joseph likes to be sold as slave!!! But out of no choice, he had to go that way, trusting The Lord and after so many years, he finally stood as the second man in the land!!!

I am being put in the same predicament too. Lord wanted me to move that way!!!

He promised good will come out of it and I just have to believe!!!

Seeding and Harvest

In the Principle of GOD Seeding and Harvest, He says you plant till the 6th year, then you rest from labouring in the 7th year as a Sabbath year for the Lord. Plant in the 8th year while continue to eat old produce till the Harvest in the 9th year!!!

I didn't know I am walking in this principle too!!!

I didn't know when you meet me was the 6th year and now is the 8th year!!!

The cycle of the month is also Begining! All pointers point to this happening!!!!

Lord wanted me to enter the Tiger den to seek my man to know him well.

He said eventually I will come to a point of selection, him or ex. With the understanding of both personality, select one to be my long term partner!!!

Ironically, he is Born in the Year of the Tiger!!! The Master of the Plan!!! Be it the activator or the responder, he covers well!!! I admit he is a very detailed planner!!! No wonder he holds that Role!!!

I bow down to such an amazing opponent!!!!

No matter Left or Right, he covers well!!!

He is the shepherd that directing this sheep to the sheep fold!!! And Lord says walk in!!!

Lord want me to know him well and let him know me well!!!

He said my lock yet to open and he is the one that could do it for the greatest pleasure!!! His Temptation!!!

The Prize is eventually I will know who is best to share my blessed life!!!

He put it simply that we could be happy with each other!!!

I don't know to laugh or to cry!!!

My Lord, My God, He more Chinese than me!!! He said if I don't go to the Tiger den, how am I to get the kid!!!

It was an unconventional move of my Lord!!! All His Paths of Righteouness!!! Be it good or bad, it is Good in Him!!!

I submit to the Greatest Planner of All, my Lord!!! My life belongs to Him, if He says so, so be it as He has trained!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, January 30, 2015

Look Forward to the Future

Yesterday is the end of whatever links I had with ex and Jc.

I passed the Bank book of Jc to her as a form of I wash my hand of any control over her!!!

It took me 5 years to see things clearly and let go of whatever past that was holding. Even what Jc said did not hurt me anymore!!! Glory Glory!!!

As I knew ex was coming to get my signature for his loan to go through, I know Jc loves Japanese curry that I cooked that for her even though I had planned another dish for myself!!!

As each time the cooking did not taste the same, I had to adust till it is the same old taste!!! As usual, I would check with her if it's good enough. She answered, "Mummy, why you always ask the same thing?"

Somehow, I don't feel anything on her lack of love for me!!! It is as if a close door on my heart!!!

Ex was even more like a stranger!!! When need my signature then friendly a bit, else he is like a total stranger!!!!

It was not even weird!!! It was like it's a matter of fact that time for me to move on. 

I am not even counting on the unknown linking to this Seng. If he come, good, but if he does not, I won't loss sleep over it!!! As there is nothing for me to grap hold to say he is mine, so till that day come, I would still consider him as none existent!!!

Future for me is relationship with the Lord and wait for His Manifestation.

And the siblings that I have!!!

More than that, I am not thinking!!!

What need to come to past, the step is ordered by The Lord and I let Him do His Part and smooth the Path of Righteousness for me!!!

This is a New Beginning for me!!! 2015 as The Lord reveal that This Year is His Year of Restoration!!!

Proverbs 6:30-31
'Men Do Not despise a Thief
If he steals to Satisfy his Body
When he is hungry,

But if he is found,
He will Restore SevenFold. 

He will give All the Substance 
Of His House"

I don't know how true is that spirit whom imposed as Seng, but if it is true, Seng, you have to restore 7 fold of love to me and you cannot run away from it!!! I proclaim in the Name of JESUS!!! Amen Amen!!!

Today's NCC meditation verses speak in agreement with me!!!

Philippians 3:13-14
'..but One Thing, 
That indeed forgetting what lies behind,
And Stretching myself out towards
The goal that Lies before me,

I Press On towards that Goal,
The Prize that is 
The Object of the Upward Call of GOD 
In Christ JESUS.'

Thursday, January 29, 2015

The block

This evening ex brought a letter for me to sight, as after 5 years, they, HDB and the bank where he applied the loan, almost don't want to recognize the divorce agreement.

According to ex, it as if they want us to go for another round of divorce!!! After ex talked to them, they wanted me to sign that I agree to the sale of the apartment!!!

Well, whatever they did won't affect the divorce that was over long ago. My heart has departed!!!

If Seng didn't appear, maybe there might be a string of hope for me to turn back!!! But Seng personality compared to ex, one from heaven and one from hell, one from Grace of God and the other from the deadness of the Law!!!

How can I who taste the goodness of his provision and turn back? I can't!!!

No man has love me so much and even he might be shy or what, he still remotely taking good care of me!!!

One who yet to get close to me, provided such an attention to one whom I lived 10 years never ever did such an attention to me!!! The contrast is too great for me to turn blind eyes to his love!!!

I don't know how real is the person behind all these provision of cabs!!!

But from what they want to push me back to that marriage, I guess there is a reality of a man behind all these!!!

My heart is with him. I long to see him!!! I want a real relationship with him. His love is so sweet that I cannot take as if nothing has happened even though he has not appear!!!

I hope he is bold enough to meet me!!! I am not satisfied with the cab provision!!! It only make me sad that he did not come!!! But with the provision is better than nothing at all!!!

If he could wait for me to divorce and for my heart to turn to him, another divorce procedure won't affect anything!!! At most just longer time of waiting that's all!!! I won't turn back anymore!!!

I am just waiting for him to appear, just like I am waiting for JESUS to manifest in me!!! Why he walk so much like Christ in loving me?

How can I turn away?

God is Flexible

Lately, as Chinese New Year is approaching, I am thinking of my mum's steamboat dinner for reunion!!!

Sis said she is thinking of inviting all of us over to gather and have a lunch treat by her. As I missed my mum steamboat, I am asking her if she could do one!!!

But yesterday talked to her, she said don't expect her to provide as good as mum!!!

For years, she had has reunion with her husband side of families that she never come to mum for the reunion. So she has no clue what mum provided!!!

As I missed the soup, I decided to cook it yesterday!!! But it was tired eating alone, I am sick and tired and asked Lord what should I eat with the soup!!! Even though I know rice is the better choice, but I don't feel like cooking it!!!

Lord gave me an idea to create a dipping sauce that I took some fishballs to soak in it!!! Lord said after eating I would know what I want to eat it with!!!

Yes, after tasting the saltines of the dipping sauce, I decided plain rice would be a better choice!!!

So I had that for lunch and dinner and another bowl of the soup after finishing dinner!!!! Satisfied!!!

Regarding him, I thought I will never know him without seeing, but I was wrong!!!

In the cab provision, I could see he is a determined and into detailed person. Recently, even I revealed my heart, he did not come but sent his friend!!! He is one who is focused on what he want but upon having the door opened, he tracked carefully!!! 

He does not trust himself only but get others opinions from testers to friend!!! He is not proud but willing to listen to opinions to make his decision!!! He is a man with far sight!!! If he knew me from the early posting to now, he has great patience!!!!

And he has compassion for me!!!

Wow!!!! Too good for me to have!!! Undeserved, unearned and unmerited Favour if it really realised!!!

Thank You, JESUS for Your Finished Work at the Cross that make everything possible!!!

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

A Step Towards Closure!!!

Praise Jesus!!! Ex finally submitted to HDB to transfer my Name out of his home!!! Hallelujah!!!

I practically have to push him to start the process!!! After getting him to HDB branch to clear the area that he had doubts, finally he did the necessary and submitted into the system today!!! Glory Glory!!!

No wonder man without a woman, God said in Genesis, it is not good!!!

He made woman the emotion needed to get things done and to sense things out!!! He make woman to compliment man. Thus, a family if both husband and wife work together, God says in bible man obtained Favour!!!

Woman is the encouragement needed for man.

As man has many compartment in their being and most time, they could park themselves in their nothingness and nothing is being done!!!

Woman being the energy supply have to add oil of encouragement and praises to get that engine moving!!! Glory Glory!!!

So, a man, who love his wife, has more advantage over one that trust in his own will!!!

That's why our 1st Prime Minister, Mr LKY was very successful because he loves his wife!!!

As in the Chinese, wife can 旺夫, which means prosperous the husband!!! That is why bible says a man who got a wife get Favour!!! When the cycle of husband and wife is moving in the correct position, the man is prosperous!!!

In the little of getting ex to commit a day and a time, the wheel of motion is created and the process move towards getting the application done!!! Hallelujah!!!

What more if husband and wife work together instead of husband thinks wife too naggy and do not like her!!! It's wisdom that man listens!!!

Woman holds the supporting role and woman that supports their beloved to let him shine is the smartest!!!

God has a good connection with woman and it's the smartness of man if they listen to the wisdom that God deposited in woman in her creation!!!

Hallelujah!!! Amen!!! Amen!!!

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Obedient

Sunday in church, sitting next to me was a girl, whom have accepted Christ for 8 years and I asked her did Lord called on her!!!

She answered yes, but she has her own commitment!!!

During Moses time, when the Law was given and On Sabbath day, one was Not Supposed to work, but a man, his house run out of burning wood, so he went out gathering wood!!! For that, he was stoned to death!!!

This was how serious Lord takes His Commandments!!!

However, as Lord JESUS had gone to the Cross and being Judged for our Sin, judgment do not come down on mankind but it's by the degree of blessedness when one Needed the Lord to answer especially what the Wisdom of God carries Blessing and Honor on the His Left Hand and on His Right Hand,

Proverb 3:1-6
'My son, 
Do Not forget my Teaching!
Let your Heart Keep My Commandments,

For they will add Length of Days
And Years of Life
And Peace to you.

Do Not let Loving Kindness 
And Truth forsake you!

Bind them about your Neck!
Write them upon the Tablet of your Heart,

So you will find Favour
And Good Understanding 
In the Sight of God and man. 

Trust in The LORD with All your Heart
And lean Not on your Own Understanding. 

In All your Ways Know Him
And He will make your Paths smooth.'

With all these temptations of Goodness, I can't understand why would people choose Not to Obey His Prompting???!!!

Walking 8 years, Lord lead me to forgo my pride and dignity!!! In this process, I need not defend myself anymore due to no self-righteous acts to fight about!!

Also, the story of a master went to JESUS to ask for forgiveness of his debt!!! But when he left JESUS presence, he went to condemn a servant, who owed him much lesser debt!!!

When news got into JESUS's ear, the master was judged for his unforgiveness to others!!!

Lord always reminded me this story to give forgiveness to whomsoever who sin against me!!! I would never want to be caught in the master's shoes as it affects the blessedness!!!

But it is by Grace that I walk in Forgiveness, it's not by self effort!!! For only the Lord could take away the injustice and give Shalom Peace!!!

All these testing I went through, 1-2 was in great terror initially!!! But by walking in loving kindness, there is no fuse to fire their terror and they calm down to talk more tone down teaching way!!!

In All Encounters, Lord give me Grace and talk as needed for the particular situation and Peace reign!!!

So my Paths were made smooth as His Word Promises!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, January 26, 2015

Man of Authority

I really curious of this man in the background. He is in the dark while I am in the open being tested!!!

Heaven says, "yes", mum and dad looks from the throne room, Cloud of Witness, and both agree to the arrangement!!! Mum told me so!!!

For me, with ex, just 2 dimensions contacted before marrying him, I got one that could live with me to my misery.

This one is remotely contact from what he did, I am actually wary of what he would turn out to be!!!

Especially those men of great wisdom in testing and questioning could be moved by him to drive and test me!!!

Recently was a scholarly man that drove to pick me!!! He looked into my eyes from the back mirror but I could not decern what he was looking!!! But after looking at me, he looked far far right into the open space in the last 2 traffic stops!!!

He showed a sign of tiredness and I asked. He explained in a gentle calm voice that he supposed to do something for friend but slept at midnight and thus the tiredness!!!

I prayed a blessing of strength and energy from the Lord for him and got off the cab!!!

It was the quality of the people he could get Favour from to drive me that made me wonder about the Authority he carries!!!

But I do not want this same Authority to be use on me!!!

As man Supposed to love his wife like JESUS who sacrificed on the Cross for me, it is a sacrificing, selfless love!!!

Dominion is supposed to be of the animals in the sea, in the land and in the air!!!

Also, dominion is also for the position blessed by the Lord at work, but it is not supposed to use on the beloved!!!

I thank Abba that He is God Almighty!!!

I am alive by the Grace of JESUS!!!

Thank You, Abba Father!!! Thank You, Lord JESUS, and thank You, Holy Spirit!!!

Love

Yesterday at church, I cast whatSoever feeling I had for this man to the Lord as man, no matter what their intentions is, is never as pure as Christ whom died to love me!!!

He did not leave me orphan but send the Holy Spirit to be my Comforter!!!

Man cannot be as faithful as God who never forsaken me!!!

I rest in the Beauty of His Shalom Peace!!!

Many years ago, I read about the goodness of breastfeeding and had breastfed my girl for 3.5 years!!!

I read about I will have special feeling from that bonding but I did not find so.

It was much much later in those private moment with my husband then that my desire arose and I wanted him to suck my Breasts, as he was not into it, he did not give me a satisfactory service!!!

His expertise was in fingering the G-Spot and used gentle to harder strokes of the tongue to get woman into her passion and cum!!!

As I did enjoyed it, I never asked him to suck me anymore!!! But there always was a feeling of my upper body being neglected!!!

In this reveal of the man that will marry me, Lord told me I will be fulfilled!!!

Lord Jesus, Abba Father is good!!!

Just by walking close to Him, whatever I lacks He will fill it up for me!!! He know whom on earth suits me the most!!!

I was into western and even fair shinned Indians, I like Turkish man and Israeli man. But lately I am looking into local Chinese man!!!

I am not trusting to self in this seeking, but rather trusting the Lord will bring the right person to cross my path!!! He promises a man for me and I know He will be Faithful!!!

My Heart desires is to have Him forever in my heart!!! With His Love, then I will be able to love him whom He brought forth, and not look to him to draw the emptiness out of him!!! Sure the Grace is enough!!!

I do Realise man n wife demands from each other in normal marriages is killing the relationship!!!

If man would realise, the initial of attraction is about giving love and this took a turn to be drawing love that kills many relationships as man by himself, is empty!!!

It's only when we continue to draw the Love of JESUS and with the fullness of this love, go love our spouses that the relationship could last!!!

The Lord Way always works and man way always lead to negativeness!!!

So, I will always draw from Him, who is Very Full!!! 

Hallelujah!!!! Amen Amen!!!

Sunday, January 25, 2015

God Does Not Forsake Jc

I want to praise Jesus for His Goodness.

Last Thursday, I received a call from ex asking which hospital or clinic could he brought Jc for a checkup!!! She has a sever fall; she slipped while walking down the stairs and landed on her lower back on the edge of the stairs!!!

She was in pain!!! At first she told me whatever she did is painful and I asked could she still breath!!! Then she told me was her lower back!!! Standing, sitting, relaxing, walking, all painful!!!

It was a pretty serious case!!! Lord told me if angel didn't cushion her fall, she might not be able to walk again!!! That's the degree of seriousness!!!!

The school called ex and he had to rush down from one end of Singapore to the other end!!!

After his call, I called Jc and told her to place her hand on the area of pain and got Holy Spirit to pray for her!!! I also plea the blood of Jesus over the various muscle, vertebrates, spine and whatever I could think of at that moment!!!

After prayer, as Jc focused on her pain, JESUS could not do anything.

But at that moment, her dad arrived and she was happy and forgot about the pain.

Next couple of minutes later, I called ex and she could walked!!! No more pain. Only bending down still painful!!!

When I next called her, she was home and could even joke, so the pain left her!!!

Next morning, she did not have any problem carrying her school bag to school!!!

Lord showed me a vision of a muscle connecting the pubic bone to the back still inflamed!!! After prayer, the pain departed!!!

It supposed to be a very serious back injury but with Lord, nothing is impossible!!!! It's like the Water Into Wine Miracle where things look so normal but the supernatural had happened!!!

What more, Jc had not been attending church for many months but Lord is still faithful and those prayer of protection Ps Prince pray for us and our family come into place for such a bad fall to cushion the effects to become nothingness!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, January 23, 2015

The Scroll

This is the Song sang after Lord Jesus finished His Work at the Cross 2000 years ago!

Revelation 5:5-10
'And one of the Elders said to me,
"Stop weeping! Look!
He was Victorious, 
The Lion of The Tribe of Judah, 
The Root of David,
So He Can Open 
The Scroll and its Seven Seals."

And I saw in Midst of the Throne 
The Four Living Creatures and
In Midst of the Elders 

A LAMB Standing as having Slain,
Having 7 Horns and 7 Eyes
Which are the 7 Spirits of GOD
That were Sent into All the Earth. 

And He Came and Took the Scroll 
from The Right Hand of the ONE
Who Sits on The Throne.
And when He Took the Scroll,

The 4 Living Creature and the 24 Elders
Fell before the Lamb,
Each having a Harp and 
A Bowl filled with Incense,
Which are the Prayers of the Saints,

And they were singing a New Song saying,
"Worthly are You to take the Scroll
And to Open it Seals

Because You were Slain and
You Purchased mankind for God
By means of Your Blood
From every Tribe and Tongue
And People and Nation

And You Made them
A Kingdom and Priests for God
And they will Reign upon Earth."'

Revelation 20:12-15
'Then I saw the Dead,
The Great and Small,
Standing before the Throne. 

And the Scrolls were Opened,
And another Scroll was Opened,
Which is of Life,

And the Dead were judged
According to their Deeds,
By What had been Written
In the Scrolls.

Then the Sea gave up the Dead
That were in it and

Death and Hades gave up the Dead,
Those in them,

And Each was judged 
According to his works.

Then Death and Hades
Were thrown Violently into
The Lake of Fire!

This is the Second Death,
The Lake of Fire

And if Someone was Not Found written
In the Book of Life,
He was cast into
The Lake of Fire.'

The only Sin left is the sin of Disbelieved in Christ Jesus!!!

Those who accepted Christ Jesus, will have their sin washed by the blood of Jesus, whiter than snow!!! They were go Heaven upon their sleep!!!

For those who did not accept JESUS Salvation, the Sea, Death and Hades will take them.

On Judgement Day, Lord JESUS will open their Scroll!!! Only those whom has rejected JESUS and thus not Found in the Book of Life will be cast to the Lake of Fire with all the darkness!!!

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Men's Fantasy

I think my early 20s exposure to different men fantasy in women during those icq years served a purpose for me!!! Glory Glory!!!

I was young and innocent and without any sexual experience that I decided to learn from other men what they like about women!!!

One US Marine whom married a Korean wife told me he likes to put his little brother between his wife's mountains and cum that way!!!

One Turkey man told me he liked girls with Big thighs! Well I was surprised as I thought guys like skinny legs!!!

One man in USA showed me his wife, who was so fat that the fat skin overlapped each other and he had to help her to clean herself as she was too big to do that!!! I was wondering how was he going to make love to his wife but he said possible!!!

Another German man told me that he had beautiful wife and daughter but during those 7 year crisis, he had another exotic lady by the side that they both had families but still met each other to make out!!! He said she was not happy in her own marriage!!!

These were the few I could recall and they gave me a glimpse that men, even they love women, each of them are wired uniquely individual!!! There is no right or wrong but just that they like women in a certain way that not all think and like the so called "normal" way that our unexposed mind thought so!!!

Nowadays there were even men that went for women that were older than their parents and one as old as his granny age!!!

This was how my knowledge about men interest in women was widen beyond imagination!!! So what our society norm might not be the norm to some men at all!!!

Like this lady that disclosed her school days oversea, the doctor friend, whom was a local too, like to bring her to different public place that was deserted, put her in bondage and have sex with her that way. It was thrilling and frightening at the same time!!! But married to a normal local guy and have the basic come together with her husband, she said it was boring!!!

So, we cannot box people up in their choice of life partner!!! We are not their mind and heart and we don't know their personal interest!!! To say a man should go for only a sweet young lady only might not be all men cup of tea. Surely, from what was exposed to me, each has their own taste!!!

I write all this to tell you that no worries!!! I am not that narrow in thoughts in this area!!! As long as no bondage and no pain, I am okay with most ideas!!!

PS: Lord disclosed your fetish to me and it's within my comfortable zone!!!

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

God's Way

I am wondering this trusting my life to a man I barely know is it a good idea???

Lord led me to watch Kenneth Coperland Eve of 2015 preaching and he was talking about his marriage with Gloria Coperland.

He was saying that he was in a hall and Gloria had just walked in through the door. Lord gave him the good opinion on Gloria Coperland and so he just asked for her hand in marriage. She just okay it and walked out and shut the door behind!!!

Kenneth Coperland was saying she didn't even kiss him on the cheeks!!! Coming April will be their 53 years of marriage!!! What a simple faith and Lord blessed them so much!!!

I feel more comfortable that if they could do it, I could too!!!!

As you know, it's a new area of faith I am standing on. Not trusting by self evaluation but just purely by the arrangement of God!!!

Lord do knows how to answer my worries!!!

I was put to sleep inbetween the sermon and when I woke up, he was talking about Honouring the Ministry of Government that Lord has put in place that is missing in the young generation, who is so much into themselves!!!

Have to teach them about Honouring the Authority!!!

He ended the sermon with 'All is Well' and the answer of God is 'Yes' and 'Amen'.

Thank You, Abba, for Your Assurance!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Feeling so Loved

I was thinking of you and looking at the date of your proposal and I looked at the date of apartment transferred to sis name and the negotiations I had with sis and her SMS to the rest.

Oooooo, a sense of love came upon me.

You know I am facing housing problem and even the proposal to siblings they not exactly have a conclusion and in the tension of Su want to bring agent here and to bring buyer here.

In all that mess happening, that Sunday, you proposed to me!!!

I did not associated that story and those cabs, the seriousness of you want to provide a solution to me that I took it as a joke!!!

It was Lord telling me to go ahead with the shopping I needed that I was thinking no one would know where I was and no cab will be provided!!!

As I didn't see anyone tracing me as I went to the supermarket that I need to go!!!

I was looking at the deserted road and wonder if any cab would come by. But you did have someone stationed even at that exit!!!

To hear from the cab driver that they were on the other 2 roads, I know you might think I went ex place and would go that road!!!

But to get a cab on that deserted road, I am glad you got me well covered!!!

It was this supply that touched my heart but the seriousness of you love me is seen in the proposal story that met the mess of what I had!!!

With the flat have to be sold by 21/6/2015, and don't know if I will be able to stay any longer?

And with siblings no confirmed answer of if I could take over this apartment temporary?

Everything is a big Question Mark!!! And I do not want to bother and just believe Lord will open a way for me.

I didn't know the answer was already given!!!

It was just now Lord lead me to see the different dates that I saw you really care for me!!!

I don't know how everything pan out, but I am going to rest like Ruth and see the path be straighten up for me!!!

Thank you very much!!!

PS:
I didn't know in 2012, when Lord last min changed the sermon to Ruth and Boaz, that time mum was still a strong woman and my stay with her wouldn't be a problem!!!

But Lord knows what is happening down the route in 2015 that I have to depend on you like my Boaz!!!

No wonder Lord trained me to cast off my dignity to be like a sheep!!!

May the Lord Blessed you Richly!!!

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

The Situation

For a man that I caught a glimpse only in 2012, it seems like the whole situation has now blow big by his 10 cows story!!!

Sunday when I took a cab home after my weekly marketing, the driver checked with me how the Miracle Seed Sundays happened to collect so much fund to pay for the Star. He also asked about how Ps Prince get his income. He also keep insisting The Star belongs to the government!!!

Jc cable to charge her phone kept being destroyed.

The curse on me is even manifested stronger and tried to bring my mobility down. They even changed the keeping me in sleep to block my church booking and accessibility to Noah site. Keep complaining poxy problem!!!

Today, when I read the news on facebook sites, I read about they thinking of doing away with street flagging of cab to change it to booking instead!!!

And I almost could not publish my post!!! Have to click a few times before it responded!!!

To block any form of signal between him and me, they are doing a full set of blocks!!!

It seem like this man to them and with me is practically an impossible thought/ situation!!!

It seem like it is a No, No, else all hell broke loose!!!

And the funny thing is, I do not have a clear picture of who he really is. What is his family background. What I could derive is from the information they throw to me in questioning me and the persons that come forth to see me, to test me!!!

Otherwise, I am clueless!!!

For a person that I don't know much and the blocking is so much, I wonder what is the implication of me and him together might bring??? It is something they are well aware of but for me, and anybody related, we have no clue!!!

Lord Jesus, Abba Father, You said that I called upon Your Name and You will Honour me and Deliver me!!!

Lord JESUS, You are the Burning Bush that says I Am that I Am!!! You are The Lamb at the Center of The Throne is shepherding me. I am a pillar in The Sanctuary of My God. Righteous and True are Your Ways!

O King of the Nations, help me!!! I rest in Your Shalom Peace!!!

PS: Lord has been talking to me from other female preachers, He want me to arise to claim my meat like the lioness in the Lioness Anointing and He want me to be bold!!!

Okay, I speak my heart, Seng, I want you in my life!!! I don't know how it will work out, but I want you and I need you!!! Thank you!!!!

Monday, January 19, 2015

Chinese New Year

Lately, the few cab drivers I had conversations with since the turn of the year is always about Chinese New Year!!!

Don't know, maybe being married to a westerner for about 10 year previously, Chinese New Year was not a big thing in our lives then.

It always an argument about he had to pay my parents a visit as a respect of Elders and he stubbornly rejected it. To the point that I gave up convincing him and just went with Jc in those years!!!

It was the most lonely time for me being a married woman in those years!!! Having Jc with me was a comfort, but this year Jc not even keen to come for reunion dinner nor the CNY meet up if any. So it's nothing for me to look forward to!!!

It's more of an obligation rather than an enjoyment. Also, as I only have one kid and my siblings more than 1, so it's about I giving out more red packets to them!!! So it's about blessing them!!!

So not really fun event for me!!!

Generally I just bought those seasonal cookies and fruit that ex, me and Jc would enjoy!!!

But this divorce did change a lot!!! Not just for me, but for ex too!!! We didn't enjoy the food as much as previous. That ex also didn't enjoy his Christmas, his must have food items too!!!

But for my siblings and me, we are more fond of the Christmas get-together. It's a happy time with food and weird Christmas songs and the big Christmas Tree and the presents for the children!!! Opening the presents were an fun event!!!

Mum tried to do a get together for Chinese New Year but somehow, it wasn't fun, more of an obligation!!! Mum want us to stay in touch even when they are not around!!! She is a woman that think far ahead!!!

Now, being alone, only have the Lord with me, yet to work for Him, and His Blessing is still not in the Horizon, Chinese New Year is not a look forward day for me, as being single again but if anything left, it's about digging my saving for those Red Packets!!!

I know it's about returning to the Chinese Roots again. It an area I have to re-adapt to again in future!!! At this point, I am not thinking!!!

Plus I know blessing is from the Lord, so looking for a new blessed year in a Chinese New Year mean nothing to me!!!

It's not about the year of the animal nor the birth date!!! But it's about the blessedness that came from the Finished Work of JESUS Christ 2000 years ago!!!

Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

The Mystery Man

The Mystery man actually I have no clue about him. Just that he let his team knew about his emotion is triggered on me.

Then come the accusation test and I found out his name!!!

Then the one testing thought we are together and had been trying to find out and my previous post about yet to meet him got them Realise we yet to meet!!!

But this Jonny Lingo and the 10 cows and the cab demonstration got them thinking we know each other and planning a marriage that I was asked yesterday if I am shifting to the West of Singapore!!! So I guess he live somewhere there!!!

It's his heart against their will!!!! They respected each other that the whatsoever checking, cursing is directed at this end that I from a clueless recipent become waken up. And trying to find who is the one raining all these 'suffering' on me!!!

But the one with feeling don't want me to let go that he demonstrated that he is marrying me!!!

Now I know his love is real, by the effort he put in, in love of me!!!

The scenario he covers thinking what I would do is purely amazing!!!! It is with this that I salute to his love for me!!! The detail one would do for a love had convinced me!!!

But I know he is still thinking of my heart for ex as from the cab provision!!! He didn't know that since the Heavenly ship, when I said I shifted, I really has shifted my heart!!!

But whom I eventually be with is still unknown. But definitely it is not ex!!!
I need to respect a man if I really want him!!!

Life still goes on, the Sun still shines and it's a Great New Day!!!

May The Lord with His Abundance Grace and Free Gift of Righteouness bless both of you, the one with the Heart and the team that is blocking, may His Grace rain on you all and keep all the hearts involved in Shalom Peace!!!

Things is not as bad as one sees!!! It just a wrong belief of things that's all!!! You heard the Hisss of the Serpent and believe him!!!

Revelation 12:9-10
'And the Great Dragon, the Old Serpent
the one called Devil and Satan
the One who Deceived 
the Entire Inhabited World, 
Was Cast to The Earth, and
his Angels were Cast with him. 

And I heard a Loud Voice in Heaven saying,

NOW has come The Salvation and The Power
And The Kingdom of Our GOD
And The Authority of His Messiah,

Because the Accuser of our brothers
Has been Thrown down,
The one who Had Accused them
Before GOD Day and Night.'

Hehe, if only one know, about this serpent has no Authority to talk bad about the people to God anymore, the offering of prayer of sweet soup and candy etc on the eve of Chinese New Year is not needed anymore!!!

But he, the serpent, is still lying to many!!! According to the bible scriptures!!!

PS: From all these episodes, I am glad to be shown what a Great Love could be!!! Even in the hostile environment, such Loving Kindness could come out to bless me, I am very touched!!!

It's not important if eventually we come together or not!!! To be shown such Great a Love could be after 10years of loveless marriage, I am contented. I am not looking for the Impossible!!! And I am not looking for a stone to bang my head!!! God Bless!!!

May you and the one opposing can relax and be happy!!! Life as it is, we face things each day, so, need not have extra stress to keep the hearts unhappy!!!

As I learn long ago, whether one choose to be happy or not, the sun still rise and fall. Night come and go and let the Light be!!! End of one life, it all about if one know the Heart of the Saviour and His Love for each of you!!! And if you are willing to receive His Saving Grace!!!

Sunday, January 18, 2015

God's Favour

Today on the cab home, I was questioned how did church manage to rise so much money for His Building in Star Vista.

This is what people who don't believe JESUS cannot understand by reasoning from the understanding of their own god!!!

I was previously believing one of such idol till spiritual disturbance happen to me and I questioned the existence of that god!!!

Bible said those man made idol have hand that cannot do, have eyes that cannot see and it is there and it cannot help!!!! Well, that is why people whom believe in them don't know the nature of God at all.

As the bible said when you accept JESUS, you will have the Son and the Father. Those that don't have Jesus, they don't have the Father God so they thought they are praying to God but it is at most an fallen angel or no spirit at all!!!

This was my journey of discovery to finally have a relationship with Lord that those who don't know Him will not know His Goodness!!!

And it is also that they thought they need to do something to move God!!! But the only thing God wants man to do, is to accept His Son work at the Cross!!! The rest is just rest in His Finished Work!!!

In a way, they are wondering why no matter how much things they took from me to do curses, why I am still alive!!!

Even darkness is created by God and JESUS, is the Word of the Creation. By the blood of JESUS, Lucifer fallen from Heaven and be the darkness of this world. But as he has no power over God, he come for the children of God instead.

But we, children of Light, have a Blood covenant with God by the blood of Jesus that He said His Hand carry us and Abba Father's Hand covers us, there is no way darkness can take the life of a child of Light!!!

The fact that my parents could died was they choose to die. Psalm 91 said that He satisfied us long life and show us our Salvation. So we have the power to say how long we want to live!!!

Also, there are things that prolong life while sin reduced life.

But for me who has a calling by God, it's His Job to keep me alive!!! Even I pray for death He also denied me!!!

Just look at Jonah that has a calling from God, even he moved away, the calling is still on him till he did his part!!! Even when he offered himself to be thrown overboard a ship, he did not die!!! God sent a whale to rescue him!!! And when he changed his mind to do God's order, then the fish split him out at destination!!!

Regarding this Star Vista, as it was God Himself whom want it to be built, of course, he prepared his son 10 years before to build this building and He prosper His Children and impressed them to bring in the seed to pay for the building!!!

He is capable of doing all that!!! Otherwise, how did He brought the children of Israel out of Egypt, how He let King David always win his war and blessed King Solomon with so much wealth and wisdom to build all that man could dream and in the end of his life, realised all these man wants are just chaff in the wind and happiness and joy can only come from the Lord!!!

He did so much in the bible and going to do much more when He returns!!!

If only one has eyes to see!!! It's about Him and Him alone!!!

His Favour can easily move the heart of man but one need to know and experience Him to know Him!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Longing Hearts

Yesterday I went to website to search for the story of Jonny Lingo!!! Then I realised it is not a real life story but a story penned by a writer in 1969.

I didn't know that in order to tell me he really loves me, he got Church to tell that story and use some real life plot added to it!!!

And to make a double confirmation, he even used the cabs to represent the cows!!! Innovative idea!!!

I thought I could just let go after that emotional roller coaster up and down. But it was not flatten out!!!

Especially after that deserted road and after a long dry spell, it's like seeing water in the desert!!!

You let me feel the realistic of JESUS love, that no matter how I disbelieve and turn away, your love still could find me out and bless me a cab!!!

You are someone I could not hide and at the same time, afraid that you might go away!!!

I am so used to your supply!!!

Today afternoon I like cannot sense you anymore and I am wondering if you still there!!!!

Yes, I do not want to lose you!!! I want your love!!!

PS: even though my emotion is involved but I am still having a wait and see if really such a man exist!!!

The fullness of a relationship can only established with a man and not with multiple men as cab driver!!!

And I do have a threshold to how long I would wait as the different between him and ex, ex exist while the other one is just a made believe so far!!!

And btw, I am not a looser nor a out cast!!! Just for whatever reason one see me as not desirable for existing does not mean I have to be so!!! I did not do anything wrong to deserve such.

I know it's a prosecution by the devil Bec he is afraid of my rising up!!! When the day come by, I will command respect as one should as given by My Father, The God Almighty!!!

Thursday, January 15, 2015

God's Glory Revealed in the Last Days

Lord led me to listen to the above sermon preached in 2012, the Year of Crown Glory!!!

I am amazed the year of 2012 is a prophetic sermon for 2012-2015!!!!

The dreams given to Ps Prince on the mice aka lack of food, crocodiles in water aka tsunami and terrorists have all come to past!!!

However, his dream on the terrorist shooting at him has not come to past!!! But he said no harm will come to him. I wondered is it the local terrorist that TB Joshua mentioned in his new year sermon???

(PS: During the 2 Christmas Sunday, Lord let me take note of this big sized Malay lady. One time up the escalator and another time sitting near the walk-in queue! But the weird thing was when I spoke to her that morning!!!

She was startled and answered, "Huh??!!" And I told her I saw her the previous week and she quickly walked off!!! I was just asking her, she also come so early for church!!!

Her answer not like normal Christian I met and talked!!! That morning I was puzzled why a Malay middle age woman come to church!!! Don't know why Lord like to lead me to meet all these terrorist minded people!!!)

Even on his return from Turkey, in the coffee shop where a mad man hit a green beer bottles on the wall near him and his wife, just a table away, has come to past.

Green represent government body and church have many of them like the broken glasses. But Lord said no harm will come to church!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

The last one on earthquake on massive scale that shock people has yet to happen.

Lord give me an impression of a few tribes of leaders went to challenge Moses and the earth opens up to swallow them and their families!!!

This will be the next Great Move of God for the brothers are challenging Israel, His Rightful Authority given by God to have Jerusalem!!!

The talk on Nucear reactors, we see Iran and even Syria also talking of having them!!!

But good thing this Great Darkness of the people is a Strong Ray of His Glory is going to Shine in the Rising Sun.

Location wise Ps Prince guess it in Japan but in Joke, He mentioned NCC being Greatly Blessed and He is right on spot!!!

In the sermon he mentioned food being altered and we need to take Holy Communion to off set the curse has come to past!!! There are more altered food around nowadays!!!!

He said the Children of God will manifest in His Glory and the body Salvation, yes, this Year of His Restoration is going to see such Manifestation!!! Glory Glory!!!

He said we need to manifest in His Glory so that people of the World may know JESUS!!!

And we are to ask for more Blessing like David and this is the Year of Unseen Blessing!!! The richest man has wealth of US$76bil and in Singapore, the richest man has wealth of S$12. Let see the Blessing of God as compared to the hardworks of men!!!

In the sermon, Ps Prince sermon is translated to other languages and more of such will happen!!! And it's happening!!!

This manifested of His Glory is the world get darker!!! Next time when JESUS Fully Return, the Whole Sky will be Dark so that He will shine in His Glory!!!

Interesting Time we live in!!! Glory Glory!!!

PS:
I was wondering why Lord gave Ps Prince dream of terrorist shot at him. Lord led me to recall a sharing I heard of many younger generation in Saudi believed in JESUS and had contacted the broadcast in Israel. And the number is great!!!

Ps Prince also said his congregation not just those in church but greater than that!!! Guess this preaching of Grace led many parents to be headache of their children running away from their religion. Law prosecute Grace!!!

The Finished Work of JESUS

Revelation 5:9-14
'And they were singing a New Song saying,

"Worthy are You to Take the Scroll
And to Open the Seals,
Because You were Slain
And You Purchased for GOD

By Means of Your Blood
From every Tribe and Tongue
And People and Nation

And You made Them
A Kingdom and Priests
For GOD
And They will Reign
Upon the Earth."

And I looked, and I Heard
A Sound of Many Angels 
Surrounding the Throne

And the Living Creatures and the Elders,
And the Numbers of Them was
Many Millions saying in a Loud Voice,

Worthy is The Lamb
That was Slain to Take
The Power and Wealth and
Wisdom and Strength and
Honour and Glory and Blessing."

And Every Living Thing that is 
In the Sky and On the Earth and
Under the Earth and In the Sea
And I heard them All Saying,

"To the ONE who Sits upon The Throne
And to The Lamb
Blessing and Honour and
Glory and Power
Forever and Ever."

And the Four Living Creatures 
were saying, "Amen."

And the Elders Fell Down and Worshipped.'

Such a Worthy God, forever I am His and His alone!!! No one could snatch my Life from Him as it is given to Him alone!!!

The Kingdom of Darkness has no Authority as Lord JESUS Christ Hold the Keys to Hades and Death. He holds the Key of David and He is in the Valley of Hope!!! No one shall Snatch my Life away from His Hand and Our Father's Hand!!!

Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Why cannot Take Goodness to Heart

You might ask, why you give lots of Favour on Taxi and why my heart is not touch!!!

I have learnt my lesson from the Lord and am weary of them. I enjoyed the Free Favour and am thankful but I don't see it as deserving!!!

Matthew 21:7-11
'They led the donkey and the colt
And they placed their cloaks upon them
And He sat on them. 

And the Very Large Crowd spread out 
Their Cloaks on the Road, and others
Were cutting off branches from the Trees
And were Strewing them on the Road. 

And the Large Crowd going before Him
And Those who were Following 
Were Crying out saying,

"Hoshea-na Son of David:
Blessed be The One Who
Comes in the Name of The Lord:
Hoshea-na in The Highest."

Then when He entered Jerusalem 
The Whole City was Stirred up saying,
"Who is this?"

And the Crowd were saying,
"This is The Prophet JESUS,
The One from Nazareth of Galilee."'

Matthew 27:20-23
'But the High Priest and the Elders 
Persuaded the Crowd so that
They would Ask For Barabbas,
And they would Kill JESUS. 

And when he answered, 
the Governor said to them,
"Which of the Two Do You want me
To Set Free for you? 
And They said, "Barabbas," 

Pilate said to Them,
"Then What should I do with
JESUS, The One called Messiah?"

ALL said, "He Must be Crucified!"

But he said, "For What Evil did HE do?"

And They were Crying Out even More saying,
"He Must be Crucified!"'

So whatever free Favour or Praises, I do not take it in to affect me personally. 

As what people says usually just mean for that moment, just like a passing chaff!!!

To be affected by it and rise in pride is a No, No in Christ!!! So I rather humbly accept this Free Favour and Thank the Giver and praise the Lord!!!

I walk in Love by the Grace of JESUS and there is Nothing to be proud about!!! It's all by His Grace!!! So I am thankful but I will not let pride arise!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

That's why Lord Jesus do not want us to go for the Tree of Good and Evil but the Tree of Life!!!

Monday, January 12, 2015

The Rapture

Lord finally let me see the event of His Coming and the Rapture clearly!!! It's from the story of Joseph and the delivering of the Children of Israel!!!

The brothers of Joseph went to Egypt to look for food for a few times before Finally Joseph revealed about Him to them.

Israel all these years don't believe in their Israel Messiah. But one day, they will see Him in the Fullness of the Redemption, the Silver Cup, and come to know him!!!

They moved to the Land of Goshen, those in Christ, Jew and Gentile, will come to the closeness of Jesus and be blessed in those Good Years!!!

The Thousand of Years where JESUS reign and the People of God Prosper!!!

But after Thousand Year, The Kingdom Age, the beast will be released for a short moment!!!

This is the part of the story where in Noah's time and the Lot, where people whom dis-believed will go into greater harden of Hearts to the Messiah goodness.

This will happen after Lord show His Goodness on earth and evil will rise again to draw people away from God!!!

The Light of the World will then be gone. The Sun will be darken and the Moon will not give it Light and the Stars will fallen sky!!!

So it is a time of pitch Dark!!!

Matthew 24:30-31
"And Then the sign of the Son of Man will be revealed in the sky, 
and All the Tribes of the Earth will be cut off 

and they will see 'The Son of Man coming upon the Clouds of the Sky' (Dan 7:13) 
with Power and Great Glory!

Then He will send His Angels with a Great Shofar Call,

And they will Gather His Chosen Ones out of the four Winds

As Far as the Uttermost parts of Heavens"

It's when the sky is so dark that the Glory of the Lord JESUS Christ will be seen even with the naked eyes!!!

By then, it's about if you walk closely with the Lord, have extra oil for your lamp, the Light you carry in these Thousands year!!!

1 John 2:2-5
'And He is the Means by which 
our Sins are forgiven,
Not concerning ours only 
but of the whole world. 

And by this we know that 
we have known Him,
If we keep His Commandments. 

The one who says, "I have known Him," 
And Does Not keep His Commandments,
Is a Liar and the Truth is Not in him:

But whoever keeps His Word, 
Truly the Love of God
Would Have been Completed him,
Because we know that we are in Him.'

As JESUS is the Word of GOD, how can we, Children of God, accepted Him, by Grace remain in Him, not want to read His Word and Fellowship with Him!!!

JESUS in His Parable described it if Your Lamp have extra oil aka Holy Spirit!!!

Those who fellowship with Him will have stored up a good amount of His Word with his Spirit Man in you!!!

Lord said in the bible, only those brides with extra oil for their Lamp, the Glory of JESUS, will go up in this Rapture!!!

As the 5 other brides went away to look for oil aka Holy Spirit!!!! One can ignore the Lord and the heart don't bother much about Him!!!

When Rapture happens, you will ask why but for those who have the Lord, they know as Holy Spirit in them is alive to them!!!

Lord will let those with Extra Oil to be Raptured and you will ask how about me???

The rest will walk through the Judgment, like the 40 years the Children of Israel in the Desert and on Judgment Day, those Sheep that were His, will be separated from the Goat!!! He will have His Book of Life with Him!!!

Those who go through the Tribulations and humbled their hearts will remain and the rest, with all the Darkness, will then burn in the Lake of Fire!!!

New Earth and New Heaven will be created for His People to live in for Eternity!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Growth in Statue

I thank you all for following my blog!!! Hope you learn good enough of what Lord did in my life and what testing He led me through to refine the overall me!!!

I have grown in greater statue and moving on to wait upon the Lord for His Manifestation!!!

This is the Year of Greater Glory for His Manifestations!!!

When He comes, blessings and health will follow in Abundance!!! He promised renewal of youth, woman to 20 and man to 30!!!

Those who trust in Him will carry this Light to show His Glory to the dying world!!! Surely, the Lord will use you to be His Light to shine into the darkness of lives!!! To touch them to be wanting to be like you!!!

This is the Kingdom age where we, Children of God, will walk in Fullness of the Manifestation that tells the different; people of God from those of satan's!!!

No one will say anymore: your God and my gods are the same, all gods are for the good of people!!!

Surely, they will be able to see what our Abba Father could do and theirs cannot!!!

All religions, includes those from the extremists, call you to do good to the level of killing innocents for his god sake!!!

Only Christ JESUS says that His Work for us, is Finished!!! We just need to accept Him and look to Him to settle our areas of lives!!!

It's not us going out by self effort to do something. But depending on the Lord for His Strength and Power, Wisdom and Understanding, coming through us to do the Job for His Purpose!!!

It's all about Him and all about His Love for us, man!!!

Hope you walk with Him and get to know Him personally!!! Surely it is good to know the Father, whom Love is so abundant that no issues is Impossible in His Dictionary!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, January 9, 2015

Game Over

Hi the planner of this project of Seng loving me story. I thank you for walking with me through the months last 2 years!!! It's a long project indeed.

Yes, it got my emotions up as I was made to believe before crashing down when the man didn't appear!!!

Even if really there is such a person, Lord disclosed he is not meant for me.

Lord asked me to write this post to avoid the carrying on of hope in my eventual transformation and lifting up. As you are not meant for me. I need to clarify this!!!

Yes, in the process, my fear of marriage, my guilt of being a divorced woman and my fear of not being good enough as a woman was being restored to be a confident woman again!!! I thank you for the different role plays!!!

As I stepped into 2015, Lord has been clearer in revealing to me what He actually planned for me. I am glad all these emotional lifting up is gone for good!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Whatever you mean well for me or not, I thank you all for walking with me and the presenting skill you all put in!!!

It's a process in training for me and I am glad to walk through it!!!

The Path ahead still need to move from transition to Kingdom age. I am stepping ahead and let it come to past!!! The months ahead is good!!!

If we cross path again in future, may we be friends as it is always better to have a friend than a enemy!!! Anyway God bless you in the smooth career with clear mind and sound judgment with lots of mercy!!! Thank you very much!!!

Halllujah!!! Amen Amen!!!!

Thursday, January 8, 2015

The Promised Land

Lord gave Aliss Cresswell the Word for 2015!!!

I am happy to listen to it!!!

Here is it:

Prophetic Word for 2015

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Walk by Grace

For a person that does not like the unknown, Lord really knows how to push me to the Limits!!!

Each time I shift or move, it's just not my will but let His Will be done!!!

There is no argument with Him but He just bring it forth!!!

Each time, He would say blessing is on the way but instead of blessing, it's another door that I have to go through!!!

That's how it has been happening and it is going to happen again!!!

I could be unhappy or mumble somewhat and He just comforts and then move on!!!

It's already bubbling in the air and I go why oh why!!!

But I know His Coming only Him, the Father, is in Control!!! 

His Grace is enough and His Strength make Perfect All Things!!!

Do I have a Choice? No!!!

Show you something interesting about me and Israel:

Israel in the wilderness for 38yrs
I accepted Christ at 38yrs young

I will be 47 in 2015
Israel came back at 1947

2015-1947= 68 years
I born in 1968

I was concept in 1967 after Jerusalem went back to Israel 1967

I started go deeper with Lord in 2007, Jewish year 5768!!!

Lord rise me for His Time!!! I am born for such purpose!!!

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Let Go Life

I decided to live a let go life and not cares who come or not or if the sky going to fall or not!!!

Talked to sis about letting me live a couple of months in this apartment and nobody disagree!!! Hallelujah!!!

HDB give my sis 6 month to sell even their letter said a year after date of transmission, where the name was temporary transferred to sis for selling sake!!! I called up to clarify and they say it's a point they will check the status of the house!!! Sound okay to me!!!

At this point in time, I am more than a conqueror by the Grace of JESUS!!! His Grace is sufficient and His Strength restored my weakness!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I wonder how would one feel if they gather so much but only to Realise that it is used to lay the path in Heaven!!! As the path in Heaven is made of Gold and the sea is Crystal sea!!! Man can do all the hardwork to gather but at a point of life, they will ask, "What for???"

So relationionship with Loved ones is the most precious!!!

Usually the saying is life is short, treasure it!!! But Lord going to use me for such a long period of life that I could still relax under His Grace and be happy!!!

This Year of ResToration and Great Miracle will be amazement to the Max!!!

And I am looking forward to it!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

All the test of emotions had ended and I am happy!!!

I am looking forward to the 2nd Coming of JESUS and I hope everything will be fine again!!!

Monday, January 5, 2015

The Traditional Way

Long ago just as I was going to marry to ex, there was this guy from The Chinese that migrated to Indonesia. The successful business there!!!

He was the related relatives' son and their way of marriage is by arrangements among the rich and in there women held the role of the one looking after the home and kids!!!

I knew him from ICQ and he flew to Singapore to intercept me. He told me to not marry ex but to go with him to Indonesia. Partly I did not know him well. Just know he was trained by his dad at a very young age in doing business that girls his age were too childish to him.

Partly he too young, 10 years younger, also I don't like traditional family where women were of no Priority nor Honour, just the woman labouring in the background. Even the husband, she also must obey!!! I am a free spirit and I never like to be controlled, so I thank him for his interest and married ex instead.

The Joke of all Joke was I was no priority in ex eyes!!! He behaved as he has all the rights and I all the wrongs. His Demands of me to conform to his way is the very thing I want to escape!!! As such, it was a loveless and empty life!!!

But my emotion kept me looking to him as mine forever and kept satisfying him. Till even give him the whole house to him to care that he being a foreigner here, have a roof over his head. But I realised the meaningless of it to one void of emotion for me!!!

Knocking on my door is another just like the traditional way where my grandma was bought as a bride-to-be for my grandpa, who even my mum never met, he died young.

From the talk with my that friend that gave me a few days of troubled heart, he also came from the same setting as that Indonesia guy. Only that Indonesia guy, being younger and more into the Internet, he dare to pursue his love!!!

I guess this man, whom knocked at my door, saw his family and the surrounding, are all the arranged among the Rich, as my friend said, enclosed community that marry among their own!!!

He doesn't know the rest of the world has shifted to the freedom of boy go for the girl they keen on. Parents no more arrange!!!

That's why he hinted so much. But as I don't know anything about him, except what was told to me but that imposing spirit. So practically he is a stranger to me. I just know his Name just because they used it!!!

Other than this, I have no clue about him.

Lord told me they blocked the way for him to know me, but I am not sure if it is from the Lord. However, he yet to appear might tally to it!!! But he seem to know my movement and this cannot discount he totally don't know how to source for me.

Anyway, I just leave it to The Lord!!! If he really mean for me, surely  we will meet again!!! But if it didn't mean to be, then let him be gone like vapor!!!

Let see what this year of ResToration lead me into!!!

Ps Prince said I will move from one who dumped me to one who is 7 fold better!!! That when I looked back in the future, I would see the difference!!! I thank Lord Jesus for His Tresspass Offering that promised a 120% restoration and the Ox restoration that is 5 times better!!!

I claimed all that is lay out for me and I received them all in the Name of Jesus!!!

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Year of Restoration

As this year is the year of Restoration, I have decided to let go of waiting for Mr Invisible to appear!!!

I let this mystery man be gone from my mind and my heart, I shall forget about everything!!! Thanks for the wonderful cab ride!!! Thanks for the good you did for me. But I need a real man, not his shadow!!!

It's better for my emotion to stay calm than stirred up!!! If stirred up, I need a man to respond to, to love. I can't love the emptiness and the unknown!!! So that's it!!!

I am glad that whatever I am waiting from the Lord, it is finally going to happen. Confirmation from Kenneth Coperland, Ps Prince today theme of the Year 2015 and from the Lord!!!

Glory Glory!!! My days of sufferings going to be over in a couple of months!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Surely I am looking forward to Lord's manifestation!!! Surely it is good!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Teachable Heart

I was thinking, that Lord had trained me so much and change me so much, why is He not blessing me and open the door to me to start my service.

Then He got Joyce Meyer to post a sermon she did on this topic!!! Glory Glory!!!

Lord trained her for 12 years.

She said we have to be pleasant to all people before we can be of service to Him!!! Well, in this area, I can agree with her as I am not exactly that nice a girl!!!

I know my right and my authority!!! That's why ex has no choice but finally went for the name transfer out process after sitting on it for one year!!!

The HDB girl taught him how to do it online with Singpass!!!

That is why to come under a man and learn my submission is a important process to the eventual going out to serve the people!!' Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

When Lord brings a blessing, it is not just for 1 aspect of life but for many areas of blessedness!!!!

Partly, I had never been that Rich before so Lord leading me to see how to live the life. So that when He gave me much, I know how to handle it. It is a process of transition!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Surely, everything is proceeding towards where it should be and then the blessing will be here!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I just continue flow in His Plan and sure I will be useable by Him soon.

Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS: Lord impressed me to look for 2015 prophensy and this is what He said of this nation and His Glory Coming through!!! Amen Amen

My Life

I know Lord is with me since young!!! Devil came as a mad uncle to disturb the young life but we were never harm. My mum was a strong woman and the Neighbour gave Grace for us to escape to each time!!!

Growing up, I didn't have an idea what I want to be!!!

That time after 'A' level, IT was just bubbling up and I got my friend to get an application for me and I was in it!!!

Working in a IT company also was led by Lord!! It was amazed I got Favour even without realizing it!!!

At Graduation 2 classmates expressed interest in me but as I never see them as one, I just smiled and they married others!!!

When Open 'U' started, another colleague took the application form and we attended together. He was interested in me but I am not into nice guy. So totally missed 3 opportunities for a peaceful good marriage!!!

Ex-bf was never meant to be and in those 6 mths, the number of times we met can be counted with the fingers!!!

Ex came in the almost end of my IT career as after marrying him, the very feeling that got me interested in IT was gone and I was bored!!!

So after having Jc, I offered to be a housewife!!!

It was those early years, Jc was still a young toddler that Devil looked me up in a major way!!! But it's true he has no power of death!!!

Lord protected me that my life was weaken but not dead!!!

Then Lord led me back into His Arm again!!! And He slowly led me to walk closer to Him.

After the initial phase of strongly trusting Him, then He led me into the wilderness to be tested again.

In the mid of it, He got someone so interested in me that so many people came around me, some against, some for!!!

I thought I will never see my cab supply again but it still came!!! They who are good in their driving skill cannot hide no matter what they did!!! But I was in my low mood, had crashed that emotion that was risen sometime back!!!

I was thinking if I took my mum's offer to help me buy the marital home but I did not pick the offer and now I landed in this situation!!!

Ex knew he had tricked me to give him the whole house that after the HDB meeting, he was like a lost housefly, didn't know how to exit from me!!! Seeing him so, I decided to walk away!!!

At this point in time, I know what is planned for me. It's a total transformation of my life!!! It's about if I want the highly blessed life of the Lord or I want to strife for myself!!!

Su, through another source, offer 'help' to find a job so that can get a rented flat from the HDB!!!

Even if I want to buy a 2 room apartment, it was move beyond my reach as I have to go to the resale market!!!

So you see, Lord lay out His Plan and wait for me to step on!!!

If man go for the woman of the night, he sold his soul to the devil!!! And it led to Grave!!!

But this is the reverse of that!!! It's a man, whom every one in his side, knows about his love for me!!! He sent cab to pick me home, he got girl to hug me so sweetly.

Lord kept promoting him to me that at time, for those goodness He promoted, it was so good that stopped me to take a breath and so good that I don't know if I should meditate some more to continue knowing!!!

I am feeling undeserving for such goodness!!! I could not understand why it was poured onto me among the many in Singapore!!! Yes, it is precisely this undeserving feeling that keep me pondering!!!

Even the unhappy jealous voice of men was spoken in the quiet of the night, the 1-2 whom gathered there keep saying how undeserved for such Honour!!! Well, I agreed that!!! But in Christ, when one is most undeserving, Lord poured His Blessings onto!!!

You could see from Abraham, both times he got blessed by Kings was the most undeserving in His Life!!! God is Good!!!

But Abba has been Good to me!!!! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, January 2, 2015

Moving Ahead

With this moving ahead of removing my name from ex house, really it's like me and him are 2 separate individual!!! No more related in any sense!!! I really have this feeling.

For him whom have gone through a few relationships, it seem so easy to let go and move on. Or was it that he got what he wanted and no need to pretend anymore!!! It like just an official meeting!!!

I really feel so single and so alone today!!!

I called 2nd as a last resort and she told me her spouse don't want me in their house because of religion crashes. A strong objection from her side!!!

It's either in 3-4 months time when I get my Name and CPF back that I see what I could do with it!!!

Or I see if I am comfortable with Lord's Plan.

In either case, guess it's still a shifting out of here!!!

No parents to return to and no siblings to support!!! I really have to fend for myself for the first time!!!

Kind of weird feeling and kind of bored!!! I don't know where my emotion landed.

But I am chilling off first!!! Next will look at what is available!!!

Lord, lead me!!! Thank You!!!

My next roof

Do some calling to HDB to check where my footing is.

Hiaz, I need my name to be free from the marital home but ex is dragging!!! He even say if I give him my CPF that I put in that house, it would be faster!!! Praise JESUS!!! After pushing ex, finally the  2nd step of the name transfer is finally moving!!!

HDB said I cannot apply new single flat!!! The Single flat is for first time owner!!! I only can buy resale and that provided my name is out from that Marital home!!!

Otherwise, what left for me is rental flat or room!!!

Asked Lord why still don't bring the blessing even though I had followed His Promise that if I finished reading and meditate His Words, He will bless me!!!

But He said for the next location and my future sake, He is not blessing yet!!! He said if He bless I might not want the next roof and the owner!!!

My understanding is, spiritually I have learnt to submit to Him. But in reality, I have yet to submit to any man!!! He want me to learn how to submit like the blessed woman that I ever talked about here in this blog. It's easier when one have nothing to learn it than when I have abundance!!!

One side want to force me into rental market and another One want to force me into His Plan!!!

Oh my!!!! Oh my!!!

Heaven and Earth will come to past but My Words will always remain!!!

Through the Fire

When people of God see verse like you walk through the fire and get Gold, Silver or Stone, or wood, hay, straw etc, most thought eventually, that Judgment Day, you are walking through and seeing your rewards or Nothing.

But the Truth about this verse is, Lord want us to Walk Through the Fire and Speak to the Mountain that come to us and we are to Stand on His Spoken Word and Walk Through it!!!

Many times, our prayer is about Lord please deliver me but the Truth is, Lord want us to Take up His Spoken Word, aka the Double Edged Sword that divide spirit and soul, bones and marrows, thoughts and thinking!!!

Lord wants us to use the Shield of Faith and Stand on His Peace and With His SPOKEN WORD, Speak To the Mountain and Walk Through the Fire!!!

(PS: Did you notice, the different between trusting the Spoken Word of God and Self Effort?

Chinese Sword fighting of the Warriors, we saw in KongFu movie of ancient is they took their treasured sword to fight and win!!

But God's Way is by we, Speaking the Spoken Words, The Angel Hearkening to The Voice of His Spoken Word and Do the Commandment of His Spoken Word!!!

Haha, is it more fun than those computer sword fighting game???)

When you walk through by trusting His Spoken Word, He gives you a pat on your back and said, 'that's my girl/ boy!!!'

Jacob 4:4-6
'Adulterous people, 
do you Not Know that Love of the World 
is Enimity of God?

Whoever Desires to be Friend of the World
Makes Himself an Enemy of GOD.

You think it to No Purpose The Scripture says,
"The Spirit that Settled in us With ENVY,"
But He gives Greater GRACE

On this account He says,
"God Opposes the Proud
But He Gives GRACE to the Humble."'

When I walked through the above verses, Lord arrested me to know the magnitude of His Great Envy!!! If you know how extreme a girl or boy is when her/ his own go and show niceties to another of the opposite sex!!! 

God wanting us to Discard the World but Walk for Him is THAT GREAT a DESIRE!!! He created us in His Image, Remember???

He even says:

Jacob 4:8,10
'Draw near to God
And He will Draw near to you.

If you Humble yourselves before The Lord,
Then He will Lift you up.'

Do you Honour His Word or your Own Desire and Satisfaction is more important?

This is from the Heart of GOD, Your Father in the Most High Place in Heaven.

PS: My One New Man Bible has the book of Jacob but no James!!!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Understand

I think I might have guess why you are still not appearing even though you show your cares!!!

Between money, love and age catching up, guess you are toggling what should you do!!!

I don't know if you have ever gone through account being zero but I had.

At that time, my comfort level was tested many times till I left less than the required minimum that I had to Loan from ex to top up to safe level.

Even the $800 derived from the ancient coins of dad's collection did not last, the last $400, Su bought the Grace ipod and resale to me and the money was gone in no time.

At first I was desperated, but then I remembered the sermon I heard about don't look to own supply but look over the fence to Lord's provision.

I have never look back since!!!!

Lord showed me that I had a insurance policy that wasn't profitable. He gave me idea to cash it. I thought I would finish in 2 years but this was the 4th year and I still have enough!!! The Lord changed my diet. Praise Jesus!!!

As I tithed and trust in Him, my supply is always sufficient. Of course I don't anyhow spend and only buy enough to go by. As I waited for His Supply.

It's about walk in faith and not by sight!!!

After 14 years of air con, I have to adjust to fan. Food that was cursed or altered in nature I had to throw away.

Basically, I just eat whatever possible!!!

I still looking to the Lord and still walk by faith and not by sight!!!

It's how much you willing to let go!!!

You have a choice but for me, it's no choice. All my situations is being thrown in by the Lord, to be tested for a season!!! And I gladly rejoice in it even though at time is just about remain in the peace and take the situation one at a time.

Of course, I know once Lord blessed me, I would have Abundance but at this point, still swimming in the water.

I was asked about middle class being trapped by their commitments. My suggestion would be to cut lost is better than being strangled by it. Live simple!!!

As the Lord will not test one more than one can take it. If face a situation, it's likely He knows you can handle the trial by His Grace!!!

Between love and money, cast to the Lord and pray about it!!! See what direction He leads you!!!

As your age is the only one you cannot alter, so what left is love or money. The day you sleep, are you glad you have lots of money or you very glad that you have spend a good number of years with your love. The choice is up to you.

I hope this post will help you!!! Take no thought on trouble and don't be afraid!!! Lord is with you and surely He is your supply!!!

1 Peter 3:14
'But even if you might suffer because of Righteouness, you are blessed. 
And you should not be afraid of them
And you should not let yourself be intimidated,'

One principle of life I learnt is, when one face a problem, many would look at the problem to deal with it. I learnt that cast the problem to the Lord or cast aside and look for solution!!!

This leads me to walk peacefully!!!

This is what Pastor preached too!! Ignore those creating the problem and just move on.

It's about Don't pick up Trouble and do not be Afraid. Doer of the Word!!!