Monday, December 31, 2012

The Glorious Thing that God Did

Hallelujah!!! Glory Glory!!! With today's call forth of life in my mum's body as what Frances had taught, mum is healed. She could bent her right leg unconsciously, I also saw the right palm moves!!! Glory Glory!!!

Over twice she gave me a certain stare that I don't know what she is thinking in her mind. But I trusted Lord that it will be good in the end. Abba has led me to watch Charles and Frances Hunter 'How to Heal the Sick - Hour 1' and with the anointing that came through, Lord led me to pray for mum and moments later, her right palm and right leg shifted. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! I give all the Glory to Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!

Today sermon I got my answer on how God, my Abba Father, do not see those 93years in the Israeli life in Judges. Plus these full 93 years into the 480 years in Kings 2, it, the 573years that Paul talked about in Acts. Glory Glory!!! Lord do not look to those days when we do not look to Him. He is always there for us when we looked to Him. Glory Glory!

Pastor also preached about the miracle that when the disciples Willingly invited Jesus into their boat, it immediately reached land. Before that they had been fighting the wind for a few hours into the night in the middle of the lake!!!

Pastor told us that we must invite Jesus willingly into our situations if we want to see miracle in our issues. Glory Glory!!! I have done so for my marriage and my parenting of Jc. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

After 3 weeks with her daddy, Jc is coming home tomorrow. Her daddy had enough of her and is not willing to take a 'No' for an answer! It is good to let him handle some of the responsibility to know what was it like in my end. 3 weeks with him and he is pushing her back! Haha...even though in the natural, Jc prefers him than me.

As for me, I used to push her to study. But this 3 weeks at the hospital and see how the doctors make their observation and recommendation, I don't want my girl to be like them. I rather she be what she likes to be herself. I will let her figure out in due time. Teaching her to trust the Lord is more important as it's a need for our daily life. I can't imagine a day without Him. His Wisdom is greatly appreciated and I conquered greater ground with His Wisdom. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I like the verse that King David said that 1 day with the Lord redeemed 1000 days in our life. I greatly appreciates this Truth as Lord blessing me to live that long is a proof of the Truth of this verse. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

There are greater push by Lord to us, the children of God to walk with Him this new year calling. Guess Lord is urgently wanting to bless His Children that He is calling us to wake up to walk with Him. He even got Ps Prince to show how much days we have lived without walking close to Lord and these are considered wasted years!!!

Lord through Pastor revealed the boat that was found was the boat used by Jesus long ago. As what used by Him won't be lost!!! Glory Glory!!! There is redemptive power walking with Him! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Even though Lord has healed mum mentally, He is not giving her much strength yet. Lord wants mum to learn to trust Him! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

After me and Su had been letting mum listening to worship song, be it English or Chinese, brother thought of copy us and from YouTube found a olden days singer that mum might like but mum did not like it. She preferred our worship songs!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord has been good to me. He even planned everything for me and knows how things works and how should I approach each step of my life. He said He is the Light! He really is the Light. He only shine forth what is needed for the next step of my need or my mum's need. Each day His leading is different. I had been praying in the spirit for 3 weeks for mum each day I visited her and today, Lord said call forth what is not there to be there! That is all that is needed. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

It's good to walk with Jesus!!! His Way is easy and His Wisdom is great. I am never good in argument and when I last cross sword with Rosy over Jc, the Wisdom of God gave me victory and coolness while she was hot on fire!!! Really, each step I walk, He showed forth; the last few days of praying in the spirit, He knew I needed that assurance and He was there and showed me He was praying with me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

He is such a Cool God!!! Nothing is beyond Him! He knows it all and when we look to Him, His Glorious Light just shine forth and we walk in His Path of Righteousness and everything is made Good in His Presence!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

GOD is GOOD

Each week comes and goes so fast. Abba is good! He let me had a chance to participate in the opening of the Star PAC, NCC new building for our church service. Glory Glory! Lord timing is really good!

I didn't know that NCC was told to vacant their occupancy in Rock, Suntec City above Carrefour by the end of the year!!! But Lord knows, he impressed NCC to bid for this land in near Buona Vista MRT in 2007!

It took 5 years to be completed in  25th October 2012 5:55pm, they got their TOP approval! Glory Glory!!! It's all about Grace of Jesus! Amen Amen!!! Who can plan better than Lord, Himself? He knows all things and knows of the things to come and had got everything ready. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

I also don't know His Timing but I just purely trusted His Grace is on everything I do. Glory Glory! After sleeping for 11 days, my mum woke up and on the 2nd day of wake up, she was pushed to the normal ward. She got better and more alert on the 3rd day, but I don't know what they did to her that she fallen back to sleepiness.

Lord promised to resurrect her and yesterday, as I was about to start praying in the spirit by her left side of her bed, I saw Lord, a huge white robe in brightness of the light standing at the opposite side of the bed, also stretching His Hand to pray for mum. He leads me in a long prayer and told me mum will be resurrected. Glory to Jesus!!!

After prayer, I could see mum was more alert again. Glory Glory!!! The hospital sent a teenage boy, who was in patches of red and cough and pretty sick to be placed next to her. I was into coughing and brother too, and I prayed to Lord to clear it. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Jc is with her daddy for 2 weeks. This will be the 3rd week! She is happy to be with him and feel that coming back is of no choice, because school is starting in January. Under such situation, I could see her heart is not with me anymore. But Lord give me peacefulness, so I am okay with it. After all, daily going to hospital is taking its toll on me. Lord impressed me to buy 100 plus drink to drink a cup daily. It goes helps somewhat! Glory Glory!!!

Life is still normal, I am trusting Jesus to resurrect mum fully. After all, all that she needs already done 2000 years ago by Jesus at the Cross! He proclaimed it is Finished! It is completed! Surely it is Done in the Name of Jesus! Surely, the Name of Jesus is above my mum bedridden and her unsoundness. I claim full recovery by the stripes of Jesus and His Finished Work at the Cross! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, thank You for taking good care of me and my mum. Glory Glory to You. Thank You for leading me in each stage of prayer for my mum. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Between Death and Life

Now I know why Lord leads my mum through such a sicknesses. Glory Glory! After less than 2 weeks, my mum finally wakes up. Glory to Jesus!!! Thanks to all the prayer warriors that helped me pray for my mums. She moved out of NICU 3 nights ago. Glory Glory!!!

She had been through the worst CT Scan that her skin and her was so full of radiation that I was praying for her 10-15cm away from her body and I could feel the radiations!!! In their evilness, Lord woke mum up to their surprise. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

She was shifted to a ward share with 5 other beds. Today, an 80+ year old lady was pushed into the ward and put on oxygen immediately. I looked at her but she looked weird. I could not explain the weird feeling I had for her.

At evening, nurse told her family members that she was in critical situation. My heard was pumping hard for some reason and I decided to ask them if ok for me to pray for their mum. They were not Christian. She had a fall and knocked her head. It was bleeding internally but doctor said her heart too weak to be operate on.

Her heart beat and breathing was falling. It was at a critical low of 10 when I started my prayer. Lord told me spirit of death want to claim her and I bind them out twice and plea the blood of Jesus over her life.

The indicator for dunno breathing or heart beat rose to 65. I called the family to thank Jesus for saving and asked for her name and asked her to call for Jesus to save her. Glory Glory!!!

Suddenly, there is an error shown on the machine and they called the nurse in. The son told me she was dead. The moment she called on the Lord, Jesus brought her up to heaven and she died. Her family were all in shock as she was brought to hospital at around 3-4pm and by 7+pm, she was gone!!! I was in great shock to go through such too!!! Lord had told me her head flood with blood and no way to save her.

On the way home, as my heart was not settled over such a quick death. I had heard of people fall and died before. I used to wonder how they could die from 1 fall and I finally understood!!! Lord let her talked to me and she told me she saw hell and now in heaven. She said heaven is very beautiful and is happy that I led her to the Lord. She said she never know Jesus beforehand!!!

Lord said she will be in the dream of her family members to let them know she is in good hand. I am happy for her that she got to meet Jesus at the nick of time. It was so critical and fighting with devil but Lord win the battle. Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!!

Yes, from her case could see life is so fragile but at the same time, I am glad that because I have Lord in my life, Lord never let me go through such trauma, even dad gone through half a year or more of lingering to wait for him to receive the healing before finally he call it quit. But dad was with Jesus nevertheless! Glory Glory!!!

As for mum, she is recovering well in the ward. Lord is protecting and blessing her! Hallelujah!!! Even though her right body faced a bit challenge in moving, I am trusting Lord for a full recovery. Her memory is recovering too. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

What a memorable moment at the ward today!!! The cute thing is the bed opposite this lady saw the lady as she was pushed in from A&E and saw her scary look and pulled the curtain to enclose her bed. But as the woman died, she was there and she covered herself with bed sheet so as not to look at her. Hahaha...

Death, where is your stink!!! Glory to Jesus for His Finished Work!!! Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen!!! Amen!!!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

A Point in Time

I am sad....very sad....from what I learnt from my mum entered into hospital to now in NICU. I used to be a very hack care person. I don't bother about tradition, I don't bother about people, I also don't bother about how the people run my country, I just want to be myself and my family safe. Just a simple wish from a simple lady.

But Life is not so simple as it is. Sometime, it's not about what I want. It's more about what others want based on their perception. Just like the other day, I was under great attack that when my girl called me, my tone to her wasn't sweet. She perceived that I am angry with her and was happy that she need not stay here with me. I always have to emphasize that I am her mother, my love for her is because she is my daughter!!! And not because she did something pleasing to me or not etc...

My mother is such a person to. She rather have her own life and enjoy her life to the fullness without touching material nor power. Yet through this sickness, I realised there are people that rather she sleeps and rather she get worsen than she is currently is. For what? The insecurity of the mind of that pitiful self.

I thought only God, My Abba Father cares about blood linkage. Seem like another group of people also keen! Through mum, I know I have such a relative who are now opposition minister of Parliament. When I heard about him, I care less who he is. Even when I know him from the news, I also don't bother about him.

But, someone cares. Cousin and uncle told us of how they received treatment to their mum and ownself. And from what the doctor keen proposal of what my mum should go through, and the what not they are feeding her through those tube that are connected to her and from they trying to expose her to warm air and then the aircon and with fan blowing. I wonder what are they doing to my mum. They even suggested to open my mum's head from a child fist size to a 8-10cm by 5cm big hole on her head!!!!

It's really mind blowing!!! I am glad that I have Lord! Whatever they tried, Lord have been keeping me and my mum alive!!! Glory Glory!!! I could only thank Him that He is a Real and Truth God!!! As I used to say and still saying, without Him, I would be long gone, but with Him, Hallelujah!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Just imagine what they exposed mum to, the hospital sent to her room HIV infected man that they must changed the curtain and mop the wall beside the normal cleansing they did to the previous infected person. Currently, to convince us to let mum go for operation, they last night brought a middle aged woman with head operation to share the same room as mum.

Things are getting weird, but only Lord knows and only Lord could protects and only Lord could healed. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

With this the darkest moment in my life and mum's life, I know our blessedness will soon be with us. As in the darkest hour of the night, Jesus came to the boat of his disciple. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Abba, not by power, not by might, but by your Spirits, you handle all things that come to me and my mum. Glory to you!!! Amen Amen!!!May the Name of Jesus be Glorify through our midst!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

The Turn of Event

It's amazing that what Lord had been speaking through my mouth. It's as if I am speaking but actually, it was Lord, even it's nothing about Jesus!!! The latest development of event has turned to what we least expected.

Weeks ago, Su called for one of us, siblings to take mum in. Then I became aware of her symptom and started to call someone to take mum in, as mum did not want to come to my home because of the curse.

I have posted a few times on this subjects and finally, whatever that we did not foresee happened!

On Sunday, while I was heading towards church, mum was supposed to participate in a community opening funfair. But instead of enjoying the even, her body broke down and she could not support herself and the urine run down her and she had no clue about it.

Her neighbour called brother and he went down and together, mum was sent to the hospital. After 1 CT scan and 2 MRI, the doctor still could not know what she was suffering from. There was a big white spot on the front left brain with bleeding in it and there was another white spot with bleeding within that was on the right back part of her brain. They don't look like normal stroke nor tumor. Doctors are clueless!!! Only Lord knows...

I and Su has been praying for her and take holy comm for her and anointed her with oil. Her first day was unconscious most of the time, but she was alert this morning. But her memory totally gone.

Lord knows what is coming on her and keep calling for her to be moved away from her house but fallen on deaf ear till things turned pretty bad. That stupid curse had come so strongly on me that I was busy praying for myself and no time to pray for mum and she got it.

Ex was happy that it works and even checked if I am dead after that. He hopes it works on me. They even sent stronger these 2 days but Lord is faithful!!!

Even mum has 2 unknown white masses in her brain, she is functioning perfectly. Fully alert this early morning but fallen unconscious in the late afternoon. After looking at the 1st MRI, Su and me prayed for the swelling in her brain to be normal again and pray to Lord to remove the bleeding. Doctor told Su and Brother that blood might had dried on the memory and causes mum to lose her m
memory.

I was wondering how to get her fully healed and even called the emergency no provided by church. As I pondered how to get Lord healing to be effective and Lord Jesus healing from reaching mum, Lord led me to listen to a sermon on the Wine, Grain and the Oil.

Then I realised I had not give mum any Wine yet. I had used the oil but yet to let her take the healing of Lord Jesus! After the sermon, I realised what I missed and will minister that tomorrow!!! Thank You, Lord, for reminding me. Glory Glory!!!

Lord, I commit my mum's brain left frontal and right back white spot to you! No matter what is it, Lord, at the Cross in Calvary, you have done a Perfect Work and You proclaimed it is done. I believe so and agree that it shall be!

Thank You, Jesus for you are mum's healing and health and wholeness. I thank You in Jesus Name! Amen Amen!!!

Saturday, December 8, 2012

The Heart is Pure

Lord sent me to talk to my eldest sis, Ad, last night. As they were out, I waited for 2 hours for them. Lord knows I do not like to go out late of the night so let me get off by 8pm. But as they were out doing their traveling laudatory out there, I wait till 10pm for their return. Praise Jesus that He was with me. Glory Glory!

As usual, the heart is not willing to receive. I should know husband and wife are on the same thinking after marrying for so long. What I didn't know is their previous talking of taking care of mum is more of a verbal talk only. I prayed to Lord that they will have favour with mum in their house. I also prayed for Lord to give them wisdom to accommodate mum.

Even though there were slight hostility, I managed to get the message through. Lord knows that as long as mum is well, they will not receive mum. He knows mum have to have some incapability before they are willing to take her in. Glory Glory!

Last week, mum so signs of could not cook her own food or buy her own food well. I described what I saw about how mum reacted to my packet of rice for her dinner. The way she sat and the way she ate. The action did worry me and she was touched and willing to take mum in. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord is good! He let my eldest sister family to have mum so that their relationship with mum will grow. Lord let them grow their love for mum from smallest to biggest. It's the same when mum was here previously. Her stay here let me and Jc had a better understanding of her! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Lord said that with sis willing to receive mum, the rotation of responsibility of taking care of mum will happen next year. He is getting me, Su and Ad ready to receive mum into our house. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

I am pleased with what Lord has done in my family! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Last night, on checking the letter box, CDC & CCC, our grass root level of government for the society, had sent a letter to Jc. Her improvement in the 2nd half of the year over the very lousy 1st half of the year are being recognised and they are going to give her a certificate and a award voucher!!! Surely, this is a good boost for Jc! I called her last night and she and her dad were happy!!

Glory to all that Lord has done in the family! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

The Grace that Never Ends...

Writing this blog for so many years, this is the first time I don't know what to write. At this point of time, what affected me is my memory, my thoughts, my blood and my body fluid. Each day that I am alive, all is by the Grace of Jesus that never ends. Glory Glory!!!

I don't know about the darkness out there, but here with me is the worst of all at the same time, the Glory of Jesus in my life is the only hope that keeps me alive daily!!! Without Lord, I will be long gone! Imagine I turned white and have to pray to Lord to pump blood into me again!!! Even when I go to sleep I have to ask for His Great Protection!!! When time to awake I need Him to wake me up and whatever that is lacking in me He gives...Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

This is my life as at these few weeks. That is why I don't know what else I could write except Lord is very Faithful in my life. Beside weekly encouraging me through the sermons, He is daily my Saviour night and day!!! Glory to Jesus that He had done His Finished Work at the Cross so that I could receive all that I lack!!! Hallelujah to His Goodness!!!!

Lord promised to shift me out of here! I believe He will as He is always Faithful!!! My girl's heart is with the daddy and not me. But Lord told me how she would turn back to me again, so I rest in His Promises!

This End Time of my old life, means the old chapter of my life, not old age, as in Christ there is no old age!!!:P Abba is being very Good to me! He encourages me, show me my future is bright, very bright! He show me new paths when it's the end of road ahead. He opens the door of Hope for me so that I will not be despair! Glory Glory!!!

Just look at my life, husband has long gone and now happy with a woman that is good in spending his money and he is glad to pay!!! A daughter that prefers life with daddy and the new woman, every weekends are always fun fun time.

All these are end of road for me! From ex first taste of abundance of women to scare to let me know, to dare to challenge me to hack care about me to show off his new woman in my presence to bringing her into my house to tramp all over my place and touch all my things including checking my ward robe.

From a daughter I have cared all these years to one that prefer the fun life instead of the calm life here. Whatsoever I said fallen on deaf ears, whatever her dad said weigh a bit more in her heart. But she is like a wild ox that anyhow push ahead and I looking at all these happening I am wary.

However, Lord told me to rest in Him and see His Manifestation. There is no way I could change her, only Lord could!!! I am trusting Him to do the transformation. I could do nothing to change her a bit!!! But Lord promised that He could and told me His Plan!!! Glory Glory!! Amen Amen!!!

As my saving is going on a gentle down slope, I am looking forward to the blessed life to handle the coming year financial melt down. Well, not exactly a melt down, I do have another reservoir I could tap into but at this moment I am not looking for that!!!

Life in Christ is not just bearable, it is still good!! Despite all the above problem, life is still normal! Whatever I needed daily I am still going ahead and doing it. There is no lack in my life presently. All are well taken care of by the Lord!!! Glory Glory!!!

Currently, I am at Song of Songs and it's good to flow in the Love in the Song of Songs than the negativeness of the book of Job!!! Lord promises are being revealed much more in this Song of Songs! I could see my paths ahead are getting better!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I left 93 pages more before I complete the meditation. Lord is revealing much more and I am taking a longer time but still, I am filling my inner Man daily!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, thank You for fellowshipping with me in the Holy of Holy!!! I greatly appreciates Your Promises! When man encourage, nothing much is done beside feel better. But when Almighty God, my Abba Father encourages me, I know work is done for the new path He lay ahead for me to walk. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

The Glory Still Shines

It is amazing at what I am going through each day and it is even more amazing that I am still alive by the Grace of Jesus! It is a sure thing when Lord promised to use me. No one nor angles could pull me out of His Breath!!!

He gave me His Breath long ago that darkness tried to prevent. I did not know what happen but I know my mum was near death for 2 full years that I did not have any baby photo. What devil tried to do did not work! I was born and mum was miraculously risen up again! I only have photos of age 3-4!!!

Through the years I remembered a few times I was blurred and in the path of on coming car but as Lord's Hand was with me, the car always stopped and I was not harmed.

Even through a 20s years of empty relationship and end of it, to meet the most undesirable man, it was a maturing of him to the area of darkness. When I met him, he was not that bad a man. But through his constant looking at porn and naked girls in the web and hanky panky out of my view and notice, he gone deeper and deeper to now used by devil to give the authority to them to take my life.

Even with my birth datetime being exposed, they even tried getting my NRIC, my Signature etc, to pin point the curse on me. But they could not be accurate, my immediate neighbour could not stand the years of disturbance and her 'god' could not protect her and her family and they had moved out!!! The next one that was still around set a curse on Deepavali, laid the common corridor with shining bits of silver paper and I got the curse when she told me it's okay to walk on it to my main door!!!

 However, Lord is good!!! He helped me to clear all that of hers!!! It's interesting that those who played with the devil do not talk with each other! Each has their own secret plan to harm people!!!

Ever since ex returned, the curse from his end got even more intense. He feel the previous attempt did not work so more should be done. But, He did not know I have a Most High God and He has sent His Son, Lord Jesus Christ to the earth to die my death and to take all my illnesses and all my curses!!! Psalm 103 said so, Lord even do more than that!!! He even crown me with His Loving Kindness and Tender Mercy. He satisfy me with GOOD Things that my Youth will renew like the eagle!!!

Lord said that I am going to live longer than Methuselah. He lived 969 years and Lord promised me that I will live 1500 years. When Methuselah died, the flood came, when I die, the whole earth will burnt off, that is why Children of God will have to be rapture by then. Glory Glory!!!

If Lord set me up as a marker, how could I die? By man, by the curse of this world??? Surely, nothing could move me away from the Hand of the LORD!!!!

It's the Mercy and Grace of God for this world, this sick and darken world that I am kept alive!!! For if I died, the earth will burn up, judgement is not happening so soon. Lord wants to save as many people as possible before this Great Judgement happens. Glory to His Goodness!!!

The rising up of the Son of God is near. His Trumpet will surely be blown Loud and Clear!!! All the people of the world will see and known Him. The time is near. Why American Christian tried to fight for a president that holds some biblical principle then one that support the Middle East failed?

This is because, this End Time movement is by the LORD and the LORD Alone. Nobody is going to snatch or share His Glory! Surely by His Almighty Hand, Israel will be miraculously save, just like my mum, for 2 years, the more blood, the doctor drew from her, made her got weaker but miraculously, she was healed!!!

She used to have fainting spell when I was young but now, she is strong and healthy!!! Surely, Israel will be save and come to know His Goodness!!! When the world failed her, the God of Abraham, Issac and Jacob did not fail her and will not fail her!!

The END TIME is near and surely, The GLORY of the LORD will shine High! It's His Time and His Miracle to works wonder in the life of people!!! Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, November 26, 2012

Beloved Lord

Walking with Lord for so long, He is being very good! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

If you have followed me long enough, you would have seen I have mentioned blessing of Abraham a few times. Lord had tested me for many, many times that even if He is really bringing the blessing I would not bother much.

But, out of His Grace, weekly, He is getting me to look to Him for His Protection and for His Blessing. Today was preached by Pastor Lawrence. At first I was wondering why sent him as he is one that hardly preached. Pastor Prince was praising him last week and this week, he became the one preaching.

But actually Lord led him to lead me to Look upon Jesus for the blessing. This is the first time I saw that the blessing is sealed in the blood of Jesus and it is a surety. Then Lord led me to see that the blessing was with Jesus resurrection. It is a surety that could not be deny! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Pastor Lawrence kept calling to look to Jesus and to sing worship song. This is the only way to win our battle with those that is blocking us from receiving! Glory to Jesus!!! He showed that when we praise Jesus, Lord goes to fight our battle and we just need to go collect the spoils!!! Glory Glory!!!

This sermon is really Lord asking me to Look to Jesus and surely the blessing will come through. I have been through all kinds of despised disbelieve that Lord will bless me by people around me. When they see that what I proclaimed did not come to pass yet, they flowed into thinking I am lying.

However, as I am coming to the closure of meditation soon, Lord is leading me to rejoice in His Goodness so that I could receive His Goodness. Even ex was complaining to Jc along the way driving her to her gym class. He said I had proclaimed for 4-5 years and yet, nothing is seen!!!

Small blessing, the plant grow faster, but to get big blessing, have to let the tree mature before fruits could be seen. Lord put my 2 seeds that was planted long ago and many small seeds along the way to slowly working its way to the big trees that bears many fruits. All these takes time. For me to finish reading the bible and meditate the bible verse by verse. Surely, as I chewed the Words of God is approaching the end, He could bring it through! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

It's not about me working for my blessing, but more of Lord need to train me to maturity to handle all that He is giving me so that I would not be crazy by all that He is pouring onto me. All these takes time to mold me into strong rooted in Him that I will not wavier at the next wave of wind that blows to unstable me.

There are many temptations to pull me away from Lord, even from friendly people. But as I walked so long with Lord, all the pull away I could see clearly. Even to the extend of having someone tempting me with one night stand just by I helping mum to look for new bed for her tenants!!!

At each temptation, I see that I will dishonor Lord or be away from Him. With this long period of time spending by His Side, each temptation could be easily identify. This come with many practice of important events that I had to attend and the effect I saw on my staying close to Lord. That when friend called me to spend more time away, I could spot the devil way of tempting me away.

Lord led me to go through difference scenario so that I could have a sharper discerning ability to spot the pitfalls. With all in place, He could then bring this Great Honour to me!!! Glory Glory!!!

It's when I walked with Him for so long and seen all the pitfalls of others and the tiny one of my walk that I know I have to always be deeply rooted in Him. One thing for sure, when one thought that he would only take a little detour with Lord, but devil will let him fall deeper into sin, fallen from Grace far away!

Looking at Su, whom once was closed to Lord to now looking for different avenue to prosper themselves is just pure amazing!!! She did not even realise that she had moved far away from Lord to look to money, how to grow money from different ways of labouring! Even when I met her on Saturday at mum place and prompting her to combine prayer fall on deafen ears!!! She was in her pride!!!

Lord had told me even when in future, she look to me for the money source and come with her promise of obedience, Lord said it is just an act to secure the money and thus I am to ignore. He said if without blessing she could not obey, with blessing, it is not the real sincerity that is coming through. That is why what little Lord has given to her, will be taken away too!!!

Really, when one is called by Lord, Lord will built their personality to handle the job!!! Those that joined the fun could not last. At pressure, they go for their first exits!!! Su was holding so strong to Lord but she always look to her husband!!!

At his command, she shifted looking to Lord to what her husband told her. Her focus has been shifted even without her noticing. To such an extend she felt she was also listening to Lord that whatever Lord is trying to pull her back has fallen on deaf ears!!!

Lord even teaches me how to answer her in the future questioning on her share of the great blessing. It is sad that a big slice of the cake was cut off from her!!! From a high calling to be just a normal Christian. She saw the good and taste the good has moved away, Frances Hunter had a vision that saw all these being sucked into deep darkness!!! I saw it happening on her!!!

No wonder Lord in our early days said that she will help in the Children Ministry. He saw it all even before it began!!! Whatever Lord let her handle was given to me. This is scripture too! Those that had more, more will be given to them!!! I used to not understand this scripture of why when one had more, more will pour into them till this experience I had with Su!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The Lion is roaring to remove Children of God from getting close to Lord to receive the Heaven on Earth blessing. As a child of God, we do have to be wary!!! Through sitting down and resting in Lord, it's amazing how He led me to learn all these even when I hardly move out of the house, only to buy my groceries and weekly going to church to listen to His Words for me!!!

Abba Father, thank You for all Your Leading. In You is the Fountain of Renewal of Youth, the Treasure floodgate, the Good Fortune!!! Those who find Him found them!!!

Many are still toiling between Law and Grace cum Truth, others are focusing on the theory of the bible! Another are Disbelieving believer of God Goodness!!! Many are looking to Money, to the Great Darkness, to their own self. Many are just happy to be just the Sunday or Saturday fellowship with Lord and the rest of the day, worldly events. All these are ways how darkness led them away. Let them feel they are still somewhat with the Lord but actually, the focus are away from Jesus and His Goodness!!!

King Jesus said that there are many ways to the way to the world, but He is the only way to Heaven, to His Great Blessing. His Door is narrow!!! He is the one and only way!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

The Heart of Woman

In this world of the attraction of the sexes, usually I would like to think of the prettiest, the youngest get it all in the heart of man if he is of certain status and power.

Even in my own situation, I saw a loveless 10 years of marriage but now ex with his current girl is totally another story, he openly pampered her weekly to my amazement, as if he is a totally changed man with her!

This story in the bible about Jacob loving Rachel and sacrificed 7 years to work for her father, Laban, but was tricked by Laban to marry Leah, and had to work another 7 years for Rachel, this story drew me in. Especially Rachel died after giving birth to Benjamin. I felt somewhat unfair to her!

On the other hand, Leah was weak in eyes but had great favour with God that she was blessed with many kids. In the end of life of Jacob, he even wanted to bury by her side!

Looking at myself, a plain Jane, I see nothing good about myself in any way or sense. So much so that I rather hide myself than post photos here or in Facebook!!!

But Lord is good. Out of so many people in this world, He zeroed in on me. He put me through 6-7 years of training. Many times I ran out of energy but He boost me up with new hopes and carried on. The verse by verse meditation of the whole bible takes time but I just stepped on the last 100th page. Glory Glory!!!

Lord promises to bless me greatly for all these years of walking with Him is purely an unmerited favour and honour! He even devise of ways to bring back the love of my life that was plucked out of me under my nose. He promised to pull Jc out of the pit and put her in His Throne to be Glory by His Wisdom and understanding.

I really appreciated much and felt so honor to have Him with me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

I do not understand how things change, but ex from not paying for Jc expenses on my end to lately started paying again. Lord said that He will bring him back to me. I am appreciative. It would be a miracle for this to happen. Why?

I bought Jc to pick him up at the airport. He gave Jc little attention and me zero attention. But go straight to his girlfriend and stick to her. Previously he would send us home in the cab. This time round he rejected, even I propose he sent Jc back and I would take public bus. He just took out $5 for Jc as she had forgotten to bring her ezlink card!

Anyway, praise the Lord, Jc had great fun in Terminal 3. We took some noodle soup for dinner to gather $10 receipt for the long slide at Terminal 3 of Changi Airport. Jc managed to find another receipt to gather some more points. On the way out, I saw a table got a recipt and took it, totally we had about $30+ and this could exchanged into slide coupon to go for the taller slides. The shorter one is free!

After her 3 slides, Jc was sliding down the shorter one and after a while, there is a woman who blessed her a stacks of coupons to slide a lot more. She had a fun time and decided to keep the last 14 coupons for another day. Glory to Jesus for providing the coupons for Jc to enjoy!!!

I could only thank Jesus for His Finished Work at the Cross!!! In the natural, nothing could help me get my family together again. Even Jc study also need lots of Grace from Jesus!

But with His Abundance of Grace and Sure Mercy of David, everything is Possible! With His Intervention, I could get a blessed family and flow in His Peace. I could only thankful for all that was done at the Cross to make it fully available to me. Glory Glory!!!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Divine Agreement

Abba Father has been a Faithful God in looking after me. Lately, even though I am too lazy to pray, He is always there to ensure my safety. Lately, every Sunday, He is giving me comforts and leads me into Hopes!!! Glory to Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!

From years of meditation, finally, I left 100 pages! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!! Father God has promised Great Blessing going to pour onto me and after some disbelieve, this morning, finally I agree with Him on His Goodness. It's an undeserving favour that I cannot merit it on anything except His Goodness, His Abundance of Grace and His Free Gift of Righteousness and His Sure Mercy of David!!! Glory to His Goodness!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Surely, personal life is in great darkness, but Lord in His Words in Isaiah 60 has Great Promise! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Isaiah 60:1-5
'1 Arise, shine, for your Light has come, and the Glory of the Lord rises upon you.

2 See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples,
But LORD rises upon you and His Glory appears over you!

3 Nations will come to your Light, and kings to the brightness of your Dawn.

4 Lift up your eyes and look about you;
your sons come from afar, and your daughters are carried on Arm.

5 Then you will look and be radiant, your heart will throb and swell with Joy;
the wealth on the seas will be brought to you,
to you the Riches of the nations will come.'

I am looking forward to this Blessedness and the end of all the darkness attacks!!! Surely such a day is coming!!! I am happy!!! Lord said He will restore my family and I am looking forward to it!!!

Finally, after so many disagreement, there is surely 1 agreement between ex and me on Jc study. We are displeased with her results that has been affected by the divorce and ex different relationships that from P2 to now P5, it was a down hill slope. Her unwillingness to study is under pressure from both of us to break free and to concentrate! Lord promised to lift her up! I am trusting her to Him!!!

Recently, her IPhone 3GS was stolen from her bicycle basket while she was nearby with her friend doing some gymnastic stunts. This stealing humbles her down so much that her pride was gone! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Her daddy only bought a new sim card for her to use on his old Nokia phone. Hehe..Jc after using IPhone for such a long time, she is finding the drag in using this ancient Nokia phone, but out of no choice, as mummy and daddy not willing to pay for another smart phone, she has to use this old phone!!!

Praise the Lord, ex today blessed me $100 for Jc holiday maths lesson enhancement and crack into next year learning. P6 is a compressed time table. The whole year lessons going to teach in half year and then will be the prelim exam and after that will be the P6 PSLE, Primary School Leaving Examination! She does need Lord's Wisdom, Understanding, Logical Thinking, Reasoning and Memory to do a great job! Lord has promised to prosper her! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord has told me how He is going to restore my family and I trust in His Goodness to do a complete job. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I am glad that I have Lord as my Saviour, Redeemer and Friend. With my siblings shutting their doors, only 2nd sis still on the same flow. Su supposed to have a combined prayer with me for mum.

It was the last Grace given to test her. She came for a while and I woke up at 11:20am to see her sms of leaving at 12 noon. I called her and that sent a panick to her, I guess. Mum said she only came a short while and then left home!!! With that, the last Grace to obey Lord went down the drain. I saw her husband today on the way to the washroom after church, another total ignorance from him!!!

Mum was facing slight senile problem and I had asked 1st sis to take her in. Her flat is the biggest and more rooms than all the rest, but she claimed her home has no place for mum!!! I am disappointed in her selfishness. Brother would not pass his keys to mum, so it was inconvenient for mum to stay there. 2nd sis has her in-law with her, so no more room. Su rented flat too small and old and limited rooms and space to accommodate mum.

I really thank Lord for all these shaking using long period of time. The heart of men are being revealed over time when the promise of blessing has yet to manifest!!! Money can hide the real intention of man and the absent of it reveals their hearts!!! I am sad for mum. Among the 5 of her kids, Su pity from a distant and 2nd sis could not do much with her limitation and mum after all the curses encountered here dare not come anymore!!!

With Lord's blessing, I will bring her to Lord's new house! This is the Grace Lord put in my heart to let her stay with me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! You know, eldest sister put mum's investments under her name without mum's knowledge. It was when mum showed me the documents that I saw that and told mum about it. She is so wary about mum remove those moneys out of her grab!!! Sad Sad Sad on how she has changed!!!

But Lord is good! He will restore mum into healthy again and surely all greediness will be judged!!! Abba is so good that He revealed all their hearts to me. From the amount of blessing to be given to each of them, I could see Lord's indication of their heart clearly. Whatever is hidden, Lord exposed it that the greed is stopped!!!

With all shaking done, Lord promised to manifest the blessing to me. I am so happy! Even though I don't know the exact time, I just trust in what He revealed and look to His Goodness and believe it! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Divine Appointment

Lately, I went to Supernatural site to watch the weekly update of Sid Roth interviewing his guests, I had seen Joan Hunter before, but the previous encounter Lord did not impress me with anything. Last week, Sid Roth talked about her parents, Charles and Frances, and my antenna was up. :)

Lord led me to search for Joan Hunter in YouTube and from there He got me connected to 'Charles and Frances How to heal the sick!' I watched all of them and the 14hrs video had Jesus taking about His Last Words through the mouth of Frances Hunter!!! Praise Jesus!!!

Lately, no matter whom Lord led me to watch and learn, somehow, in the end, I found out these men and women had gone back to be with Jesus! Lord led me to watch the videos that they had recorded in their younger days.

As you know, I was reborn straight into New Creation Church that I do not know most Man and Woman of God that are/were in the world. Lord promised that after learning from Pastor Prince, He would led me to learn from other teachers. I am glad that He has been faithful so far!

I am curious about Frances Hunter if she was still around as she had simple faith that I am one too. But from different Supernatural videos that was post in YouTube, I saw the 90 years old Frances Hunter and then another one where Joan Hunter said she has gone back to Lord! Glory Glory! Hallelujah!

Glad that Lord impressed them to post their videos in Youtube! Otherwise, I would not be able to learn from them! Hallelujah! I even got my pubic bone healed in the process. Charles and Frances Hunter were giving lesson on how to heal the pubic bone and I stand in faith to receive the same healing. I heard a click sound from the back of my bone, in the middle portion and I found I could stand without problem.

Previously, I could not stand for long. I will always look for a seat to sit down anywhere I go. There was a curve up of my back when I lay flat on my back. But Glory to Lord, with this adjustment, I could lay flat on my bed and there isn't a wanting to rest anymore! I even found my curved toes straightened!!! Glory to Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!

Sunday, I went to the Prayer & Healing Room after service. I actually wanted to go off after the service!!! But the moment the last worship song was sounded as we walked out, Lord convicted me and tears came falling down. I asked Lord if He wanted me to go to the Prayer & Healing Room, He said 'Yes!'

In fact, Lord had lifted me high by His Last verse, Hosea 2:17 'And I shall give her vineyards to her from there, and the Valley of Achor (trouble) for a Door of HOPE and she will SING there, as in the days of her youth and as in the day when she came up out of the land of Egypt.'

He sent me to the Prayer and Healing Room to let go of my vent up and to tell me His Promise will soon be with me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!! I was so full of joy after the prayer! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

As if every good, devil wants to block, I saw the devil himself in full of youth and energy, but I remembered Lord's Promise in Psalm 92:8-16,

'When the wicked spring like the grass and when all the workers of wickedness flourish, it is that they will be destroyed forever, but You, LORD, are Most High forevermore.

For, Lo, Your enemies, LORD, for, behold, Your enemies will perish! All the workers of wickedness will be scattered.

But You will exalt my horn like horn of a wild ox: I be anointed with fresh oil.
My eye will look on my enermies, my ears will hear the wicked who rise up against me.

The Righteous one will flourish like the date-palm: he will grow like a cedar in Lebanon.

Those who are planted in the House of the LORD will flourish in the courts of our God.

They will bring forth fruit in old age, they will be flourishing and invigorated to show that the LORD is Upright, Just. He is my ROCK (Sheer Cliff), and there is no unrighteousness in Him.'

Charles and Frances Healing videos are really anointed. I could receive the healing and flow in the anointing even though they are years ago. Glory to all that Lord had done in their lives! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!

LORD through the care leader's mouth promised that I have walked through the Door of Hope and have invited Jesus into my valley and my new life has started! He told me to look ahead and not to look back! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Looking at what Jc had sms with her daddy, who is in Osaka currently, he is also looking forward to move back here! Jc wanted to spend more time with him and is happy with the news of he moving back here. Lord promised to move me out early. Let see how early will I move out!!! Glory to His Provision in the coming year of Great Changes.

I am walking into the blessing of Abraham and will have a blessed life and bye bye to the old life. I asked Lord to tell me who will be my man. He said He is giving me to choose between the 2 of them. Whoever I pick will be good. Let see when the time comes. Glory to His Goodness!!!

I am glad that LORD is always with me and has been a very Faithful God! Even when I could not pray at time, He will come through to help me pray. There is no way devil could shut my mouth for Lord is with me. Glory Glory!!!

Surely Surely, Lord will be with me forever! I am glad that He promised an everlasting life that I need not face decay nor old age. I could remain young and beautiful forever. I am glad He choose me to walk in His Anointing! It's about Him and Nothing about me! Glory Glory! This make walking with Him a lot easier then base on my own effort, which I have none to speak of! His Grace and Mercy is so Almighty that no matter what valley He put me to rough up, I could still come out alive and healthy!

He just want this girl, that don't like to fight, to be His Mighty Warrior! I learnt from Charles Hunter that it's not about rising our voice but to command the Truth of His Words! He is soft spoken but Lord's Almighty Power came through with his believe that He will do it. Glory Glory! They had such simple faith that healing become easy. Jesus Yoke is surely Light! Glory Glory!

I will remain with Him forever by His Grace and Mercy. What made Lord used me, He said many looks to their abilities while I look to my disabilities and want Him to be Full in me. As I see nothing of myself, He could be Everything in me.

Yesterday, watched a video that Frances Hunter said anything could be anointed to bless those who used it. I put my phone, my wallet, Jc's correction pen and her pencil case! I found that after anointing, I am more focus in using the online version of the bible in my phone. I even become wiser in smsing with ex and Su!

I could not understand Su. She could see my mum lonely in her own house and wanted one of us to get mum to our house. I told her mum has the senile problem that Lord disclosed to me and wanted me and her to pray for mum. However, she just plainly refuse to agree with me for this combined prayer! She even suggested that mum and me could agree and we have the power of 2. Her faith level is a lot higher than mum's but she just refuse!!! I just could not understand what's in her mind.

I could only agree with the vision that Lord gave to Frances Hunter. She said that for those called by Lord, when they turned away, they will be sucked away by the devil into darkness! Ever since Su agreed with her husband and turned away, her pride is up and she even run away from me and treated me as invisible!!! That is how much she has moved away!!!

Lord used a small blessing to test their hearts, they failed miserably! They flowed into pride and ignored my presence when Lord let us met outside the washroom previous Sunday. To be sure, I even smsed her to ask if she saw me, for she did not return my greeting. She just happily talked to her husband while the husband turned to look and turn away again in a no emotional face.

They failed the success test miserably!!! In my heart, I asked Lord for more Grace for them but today sms with her, she still rejected me flatly!!! Whatever to bless her, Lord removed a big part of it and Lord said they will only be normal Christian. Even the shop that was previously given to Su was removed from the years of calling her husband to go back to flower business to using small blessing to test their heart. Their rejection failed the test from Lord!

Lord's Holiness is not just to stand upright in the presence of Lord during test, but in all time too. They only obey if they know is a test, otherwise, they go by their ways. As her sis, even the Grace given to her for so long, she took it as nuisance and always said that she could hear from Lord Himself! The further she walked away, Lord finally dropped her and give me no more desire to call her and him to come in line with Lord's provision.

Am I sad? Of course, I am, but what to do? Already prayed to Lord for more Grace and even told her to agree for once, but no reply from her!!!

Lord is Good, through time, the heart of man is revealed. He uses time and patience to test man's heart! Really, this verse from King Solomon, Psalm 127:1 'Unless the Lord build the house, they labour in vain who build it.'

It is not that no Grace is given, Su's husband has the talent in flower as Lord has given for him to prosper but he hang it up for another area of interest, so failed in the calling. As he failed, what little is given to him will be taken away. Lord said he will lost his skills!!!

Lord seem to transfer their calling to my 2nd sis. Her heart is pure and always have a patient ear for anyone who is in sadness and she will not condemn. She has the heart of Gold. Lord is waiting for her to come fully to Him and He will surely use her for His Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The only barrier, I guess, is to see what I proclaimed all these years to come to past. When they see Jesus is real, I guess they will be more willing to accept Him. 2nd sister is just waiting for her husband to come to Jesus before she will come personally!!! Glory Glory!!!

As the time of His Coming is nearer and nearer, the shaking of my life and my family, things are falling into place. Surely, it will come a day when all my family members are saved and gladly come to Him!

Jc wants me to be able to fly to Sweden to pray for her granny of her pain. Let see how things move in future. Even though I know ex was affected by the devil to walk away from me and even to prefer other woman than me, I still wonder if he could be a loving husband. I know Lord could change his heart, but I wonder if I still want him back!

After so long, after seeing all that I could see about him inside out, I really questioned myself if he really suits me. I am willing to go ahead for a new life with someone new and let him be in the dark as he is now. That's how much my heart has been moving into.

However, H, the 60+ year old that looked 40, that I long ago talked about, her husband of old, whom she has separated, he has cancer last stage and she came back from USA to look after him. She told me that since I have a kid with ex and he had none with the girls, she said it's better to look through all the bad, and just accept him back as what she has done currently.

I will let Lord lead my heart. I know if for Jc sake, of course it's better for her! But do I really want to eventually, I don't know. At this point, after seeing the devil himself, I know for sure ex also suffer somehow. I will let time tells. So far time has done a good job in all the shaking. I will let things fall into place again. How it turns out, through time, when the sand settles, things will be clearer! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Grace of God

For all these year of being toil in the sea of curses and fighting to come back to Rest of God, I finally understand this one thing. All that I have been writing about me and ex and even the curses that comes upon, all is for the Glory of Jesus!

Lord wants those evil one to see their trust in the devil is fruitless. He let me goes through them to demonstrate to them His Grace is greater than their evilness. This could only be seen through time when all their weapons are fully used and I am still standing alive! Glory Glory! Amen Amen! Whatever Lord plan there is a purpose for it.

At the same time, He is also trained me to look to Him even more! Without all these attacks, I won't be bother to look to Him. But when each attacks come, I am forced to run to Him for Protection! He is my City of Refuge and He is the Everlasting High Priest in it! Glory Glory!

Devil though he could split my family and create a mess out of it, but in all these, the Grace of Lord Jesus will be Fully Manifested and the family will be whole again! Glory Glory! Through the recent attack, Jc eyes is opened to see who is the one cursing the family. She even told me about it. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Lord's Glory could not be suppressed. The 4 days of Jc's SA2 exam finally over. Initially waking up was the problem. When such could not stop Lord's Glory from showing through Jc, Jc was cursed with stomach flu before the last paper, Science.

But Lord be her alertness and wisdom and even strength that she could walked to school and climbed 4 level to her class. After the test, on the way down, her friend had to support her from falling down the stairs but she made it!

I brought her to see the doctor and got a medical certificate for 2 days of rest. By Friday she was almost fully healed. The devil wanted to block God's Glory from manifesting through her didn't work! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Through this, she recognised the devil fully! At the same time, her trust of Jesus grows! She on herself have been praying for favour for herself. Glory Glory! Amen Amen! Hallelujah!

I bought a children bible for her, she had not been reading much! So, I bought a bible storybook. From there she learnt of how the world begin and was even enjoying the book that she told me she is finishing it and wanted me to get a new one for her!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!

The next one to touch by His Grace will be Peter! This hard stone will be dissolved by His Grace to see all that he strives to get come to an end. He is currently paying for Rosy 4 kids expenditure! Rosy's ex had pushed the responsibility to Rosy and she in turn look to Peter for provision. So much so that he previously promised me about he had the care and control of Jc and would pay for all things about her. But recently, as Jc grows, she needs some inner clothes and he refused to pay for them!!! He pushed the responsibility to me!!!

Even when I showed him verses about supporting other man family and toiled uselessly just for them, as in Proverb 5, he accepted and even told me that he should cut the child allowance that he had installed previously!!!

From talking to him lately, I realised that as he walks in this adultery curse, his reasoning and logical thinking is gone!!! This is what I could not pin point years back when he seem different from who he used to be, the man I know. This week, Lord opened my eyes to see his reasoning and logical thinking were gone and he failed in these areas and talked things that didn't flow with logic!!!

That is why for men, who strayed, wives and relatives found that they could not talk sense into the men!!! Thank You, Lord for letting me to know this truth!!! That is why affairs and adultery don't gain. They lost more than what they could handle! God Words is the Truth!!!!

It seems that whatever sins man goes for, they fall further then they could handle! And worst, they, who are in it, do not know!!! Usually when they awakes, they had hit the valley of their sins!!! Blessed that even in the valley, as long as man looks to Jesus, He still could Sozo them to health and wholeness again! Glory to the Abundance of Grace of Jesus and the Sure Mercy of David! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord, thank You for teaching me this secret that man who was led by the woman of darkness thought they are enjoying the luxury of this world. But that's how devil shows to man in all these sinful nature of enjoyment, death is waiting at the end!!!

The body that God blesses, how much junk you want to dump into, Lord give you the freedom of choice! But His Grace is always there to Sozo you when you tell Him that you have enough!!! Glory Glory!!! That is why the son in the pig farm, looking at the pig food and found tempting, that's the end men could go before heading back to Lord!

He opened His Arm in wideness and was nailed at the Cross to take all our sins and lawlessness and even the Heavenly Law that man was unable to fulfilled and was nailed there from 9am to 3pm. The darkness of these 6 hours of eternity, He finally proclaimed Ít is finished'!!!

With this, sinful man just have to turn to Him and they will be washed whiter than snow by the Blood of Jesus! This is how Lord, the Father, standing at the Gate of Heaven, looking afar for sight of you! The moment you said, 'Jesus! Save me!!!' and you shall be saved!!! His Grace is just so Abundance that Nothing could stop Him from loving you!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, October 29, 2012

Blessedness continue...

I am so pleased with Lord lately. I have been aiming at iphone 5 and was wishing for louder voice, and have a flash light and better picture quality. I am so happy that Lord fulfilled my wish even though I did not ask him for them. :)

Another area I wish for was for New Creation Church website to display all the testimonies people wrote in and don't erase any of the old testimonies. I am glad that in this new website update, Lord got them to do just that!!! Glory Glory!!!

I am staying at home most of the time, so, how to go sign up a new mobile phone I am totally clueless. I called Singtel customer care and the first lady suggested that since my old iphone 3 was drowned by Jc, maybe I should get it repair or get a new one but with the original plan, that would cost me S$800+.

When I meditated, Lord told me not to waste that kind of money so I did not act on that day. The next day, I was still wondering what would happen to my broadband that I put on the old phone if I got a new phone plan.

Lord send someone who knew to teach me to go upgrade my plan and based on my needs, to buy the broadband need. In the end, I paid S$308 for the iphone 5. My monthly rate will increase by a bit more and Lord said I still could afford it, so I sign that up and got a new phone. Praise Jesus!!!

Been trained with the Lord for 6 years and mainly listen to Christian song, recently, NCC newly invested shopping center is up and functioning. It will open to secular performance first. Originally I wanted to attend the opening but after listening to the singers, their songs, I decided they are no more my cup of tea, so I give up going.

All servers in church are given tickets to go watch the performance! Yes, Su is going and so is her husband. They and their eldest son are serving in church.

Actually waiting for the Lord for 6 years, I am a bit tired of it and thought of start serving too. But Lord wants me to hold another year to finish my bible meditation. So I will obey Him for 1 more year. I really need His Grace in Abundance to carry on for another year!

At time I do feel like throwing my towel and turn my back to Him. But where could I go? No where! He is my life line and the Only Hope to a Glorious future and a Comfort family life. How could I turn my back on Him?

Sometime, the thing He wants me to do, it's easier to escape then face the battle. But because He said so, I just obey. Now that Peter knows that I knew he is the one who send those curses, he saw my unhappy face and quickly made his exit after sending Jc home.

I just could not understand this...I had forgiven him countless time and even I am pretty sure of he doing it before devil told me it's him, I still give him lots of Grace and didn't show him any anger but forgiven him time and time again. But he still carries on his curses!

After so many years of fighting, he still refuses to give up!!! This kind of man, only Rosy who wants his money would want such a man!!! I am just sick of him!!! Will I pick him up again after all the dust settle, in my soft heart, I might, but, for my sake, I would not want him in my life anymore!!! No More!!!

The only good thing is I have Lord Almighty with me and He is my Abba!!! Without His Love for me, I don't know how will I live. But He wants to bless me 1500 years of life, when He said so, so be it!!!

They thought they could snap me off!!! Fat Hope!!! The blood of Jesus had washed them down from Heaven to earth and in the name of Jesus, they shall fall from earth to hell and forever burn in the Lake of Fire!!! Glory Glory to the Name of Jesus!!!

The curser thought they have the authority, they still don't know they are stepping into hell!!!

This is what Psalm 92:6-7 say about them:

'6 A man in his rude and uncultivated state knows not, 
neither does a [self-confident] fool understand this:  
7 That though the wicked spring up like grass and all evildoers flourish
they are doomed to be destroyed forever.'

This is what Proverbs 4:14-17, 19 say:

'14 Enter not into the path of the wicked, 
and go not in the way of evil men. 
15 Avoid it, do not go on it; turn from it and pass on.  
16 For they cannot sleep unless they have caused trouble or vexation; 
their sleep is taken away unless they have caused someone to fall.  
17 For they eat the bread of wickedness and drink the wine of violence.  
19 The way of the wicked is like deep darkness; 
they do not know over what they stumble.'

The day will come when they have to pay with their lives, devil let them use it for a purpose, it's selling their soul to him and they knows not!!!

Only the way to Jesus is the one and only way!!! Where there is Confident Expectation of Good!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

The Effect of Sin in our Body

As I was looking at the Book of Proverbs as impressed by the Lord, I had a new learning on the verse that previously I did not see! Guess, the lesson on Di Zhi Gui had opened my curiosity of this area that for the first time, I saw how it affects the body.

As I was reading the God Words on Adulterer, Lord opened this verse to me that I asked Lord to explain in detail. Here is His explanation:

Proverb 5:11
'At the end of your life you will groan, when your fresh and body are spent'

Lord:
'My Beloved, when people who goes for adultery, what they did from that one act of intercourse, their overall body decay by a few percent of wasting away!

It is not just the brain and the spinal cord fluid drain down, it's the overall physical body could not take this Sin and started the break down!!!

Physically, they will become weaker and mentally, the memory, the sense of things in life, the decisions, overall judgment will deteriorate! That is why they die earlier and overall the organs break down that the natural body protection is eventually gone!

Those who are active in sex, between 50-100 partners, they are likely to die in their 40s to 50s. This also depends when they start their loose life.

My Love, you read about the piercing of liver, yes liver is the most affected one beside the brain. This weakening of the liver will affect the overall performance of the body as the liver produce blood and wash blood clean!!!

That is why you heard of testimonies about their body weak. The itchiness is from what they eat that toxic their system. That is why such a high lives in the pub and playing with sex freely is such a danger on human's body!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!'

Small Blessedness

I have not been giving much Glory to Lord for His Faithfulness is my daily life that I shall share some here.

In September 21st, I, my mum and Jc went to attend a wedding dinner host by the parents of the son my mum looked after in his young years. After the dinner, mum and me had gone to the washroom but Jc didn't want to.

However, when we were just to cross the overhead bridge, she said she was pretty urgent. I didn't feel like going back up to the restaurant again as there might be lots of people trying to get down the lift. I was thinking either we travel 2 bus-stop to the MRT station to find a washroom or took at taxi home and told her to hold on.

Mum had wanted to take the bus home as it would bring her to her door step even though I told her to take the cab. Her bus came when we were above the bridge and had no time to run for it. Mum proclaimed that the next bus will come quickly but it never did.

No matter how I flagged for a cab, none stop even though they were empty!!! Then Lord led me to see behind me was a hotel and I decided to bring Jc to the washroom there. As she finished and we were almost there at the road side where mum was waiting for us, a taxi turned up and stopped just as we reached the road!!! Glory to Jesus!

Lord knew Jc's urgency better then this ignorance mum and did not want my mum to take the 1 hour journey home! He made everything perfect that Jc was happy and we all had peace in taking the cab. The taxi-driver wanted to take a longer road but Lord led me to recall another expressway I had taken long ago when I was living in the city. He also blessed green lights at all traffic junctions that we had ease sending mum home and reached our home before midnight!!! Glory to Jesus!!!

Last Sunday, Lord told me to tithe $10 during the service. I faithfully obeyed. I went to make a new pair of spectacle as my degree had changed. There were 2 kinds of transition lens that one is like my old spec, which had not so dark colour in sunlight and another more expensive one was darker. But as I am not working, I do not want to spend that much on the lens! The difference between the 2 was $62. In the end, the man, also a Christian, blessed me half the price of the difference and I agreed. That was a blessing around $30, 3 times the money I tithed the same day!!! Glory to Jesus!!!

This 2 weeks, I faced 2 death threats on the intensity of the black magic attack. The first one, as I was sensing life getting off me, I prayed to Lord that if He is using me for His Glory, then fully healed me as Christ had done it all at the Cross and He proclaimed, 'It is finished!', and by the stripes of Jesus, I am fully healed. I also told Him that otherwise, take my life away as I also knows the glory in heaven that I don't mind go back there to enjoy!!! hehe...

But Lord knows better! He fully healed me and brought me back to life again! Then He let Perry Stone preached that when one think about death, it's the spirit of hopelessness had attacked them! Perry Stone also taught about the different devilish agents that I could have a more effective prayer! Glory Glory! Lord led me to gain new knowledge for each dispensation! Hallelujah!!!!

Then the weekends that just passed, Lord let me experience another form of attack and my prayer as if not working! Actually, Lord purposely let me be in the loosing end so that devil would come to talk to me this, 'Don't fight with me and give Peter the flat. Otherwise, I will kill you!'

Lord let me found out about who is placing this curse and after that I was well again. Glory to Jesus! Whatever I didn't know, He find a way to show me and let me be equiped to handle each new level of attack!Glory Glory! Amen Amen! He even tricked the devil to disclose to me the information. Haha...

So you see, why I didn't post that much! But now I am fully back to health again! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Jc SA2 exam is starting, but on the listening comprehension, the curse made her sleep through that she could not wake up. I woke up at 8:30am and was able to get her to school by 9am.

In the SA1 exam middle of the year, the curse did the same thing and Peter got them not to lock us into deep sleep to let Jc able to go take the rest of the papers in time.

This time round, he is suggesting Jc to go to his house every night so that he could drive her to school every morning for the next 4 days of exam next week! He don't want to slow down his attack on me. Lord told me to hold on another year to fully finish the bible meditation. I have about 100+ pages to meditate before the whole bible I had walked through all these years, reading it and then meditating verse by verse!

Now that I learnt the new way of praying, even the intensity of the attack become peace. Glory to Jesus!!! Ex thought last 2 weeks of intensity he got me, he thought of an overall killing field. But he did not know it's Lord purposely let me went through it to learn new commandments! He let me learn how to pray in the new way!!! With each new assault, new Grace is given to me that I could walk above and not below!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

This round, Jc finally see all that her dad is doing to me. After so many weeks of preferring him to me, she is currently sick of how he treated me! This also is the 1st time Rosy scolded Jc strongly and even threaten legal on her!!! She let Jc see how nasty she could be!!! Actually Rosy no clue that it was really Jc and not me. She thought she was fighting me. haha.... why would I want to fight with her a man that is a can of yucky worms?

They rejoiced in each other lies but I know they are just lying to each other!!! Anyway Lord revealed that I will not get him back but the new man. Jc was jumping with great joy after suffering the nastiness with her dad and Rosy!!!

Thing had turned out better than expected! I did not know that this 1 sleep late will affect Jc's view of her dad and Rosy that much that their usual nicety on her is not really real. She saw for herself that Rosy is as nasty as daddy!!! Even though she had asked for forgiveness from Rosy, she wasn't keen to meet them this weekends! That was how much they had pressured her!!!

I doesn't know how will things turn out. But I told her whatever she said about her daddy, he is still her daddy and this cannot be change. Lord led me to send some verses in Psalms and in Proverbs for him to see but he was vexed by it that he changed Jc's facebook so that me and Jc had no access.

Since Jc phone had lots of money left before expiring a week time, I used it to send some more verses as I was impressed! I saw new lights on verse on adultery that I asked Lord to explained to me the consequences! Lord told me to meditate the verse and I had a better understanding how this great sin is affecting the body. I will write another post on it as this is getting too long. Glory Glory! All thanks to Jesus and His Finished Work at the Cross! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, October 15, 2012

When Abba Opens His Heaven

Lord Jesus loves me so much!!! I asked Lord to speak to me yesterday. At worship, I saw a Lamb slained at foundation seated at the throne looking at me. Next moment the bloody Lamb moved towards me and I had received with my arms. Lord led me to bow down my body to accept it fully into me. At that moment, I realised whatever I suffered, Lord was slained for it and I was being set free. I cried as all these happened and all that pen up in me was released! Glory Glory!

Today as I prayed Psalm 103, I finally understood Psalm 103:11

'For as the Heavens are high above the Earth,
so Great are His Mercy and Loving-Kindness towards
those who reverently and worshipfully fear Him. Psalm 103:11 AMP)

Many years ago, as I was yielding for His Love, Lord opened His Heaven to show me this realm of Love that was so Powerful and Colourful!!! I was wowed by this Love for a long time. I thought Lord showed me because of my yielding for His Love but today I understand because I accepted His Calling!

Su had finally accepted her calling into the Children Ministry and Lord is happy with her. He recently opens His Heavenly Love realm to her too. In her calling, she was telling me that she had tried many new areas of responsibilities as she was called to do. Each area of responsibilities, she trusted to the Lord and her fellow volunteers teacher told her she was amazing. But she didn't feel so as it was the Lord doing it!

Today, Lord let me realise, just like Jesus, He accepted Abba Father's Calling on His Life and Lord was Happy and opened His Heavenly Realm to tell tell Him, Matthew 3:17, 'This is My Son, whom I love, with Him I am well Pleased.'

Both Su and me are now walking in our calling and Lord really very happy with us! Glory Glory! Lord let me see that like Joseph, as we prosper in each assignment that Lord place in our path, we prosper in it as the doing part is the Lord, outside people could see the Glory and claim the amazing. I know like Joseph, we would move to our respective place of responsibilities!

Many children of God want to aim for the high places and do not like the small things. But Lord prosper us in the little things and as we move into each path of His Righteousness, more of the good will move into our way! This is how we move up the ladder from small to big! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Yesterday, the 2nd service was anointed and Pastor Prince even pray for us to receive the blessing! Su asked her husband, who went to the first service if his service have such prayer or Ps Prince talking about the sure blessing, he said no!

You see, I was supposed to go to the 1st service but Lord let me overslept to go to the 2nd service with Su and we both receive into our spirit that we surely are highly blessed. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

I am so happy with Lord's leading and talking to me! Finally I see where I have walked wrongly and I repent my ways of looking at things. Surely Lord is happy and give me the approval of confirmation! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

It is good to live with Lord! I might not know how things are flowing but in him I am fully blessed! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!


Monday, October 8, 2012

The Grace of Jesus

The Right hand of God, the Father, is a hand of Love. He came down to earth to save, to serve. He even walked a Perfect Path for us, His Body, and then let us know after He was judged and had died for our sake that He is going up to prepare Mansions for us. Plenty is laid ahead for us to walk to Him to enjoy His Abundant Life! Glory Glory! Hallelujah!!!

For me, this 6 years of walking with Jesus, I used to think by walking close to Jesus I would be greatly blessed. I looked to this abundant life and with great boast in the Lord, I am happy. Glory Glory!

Even this divorce, my main aim is not myself. My main aim is Jc is in peace. All that I do I want her to be in peace. Based on what is given to me, I live my life. Basically I am not one who like to fight! Mainly if trouble comes, my part is restored. That's all. I do not even want any part of it to glorify me. But even that, the concern is still me and I wonder how can I do Lord's duty? He is the God of Love, how can I show love to people! This is not me. I am a selfish and self-centered being!!!

But Lord did not give up on me. This latest learning of Di Zhi Gui is growing in my life. It's the Proverb in the bible that Ancient Chinese had interpreted into understandable code of life for Chinese! Through it, way of life becomes more understandable for me. After all, Di Zhi Gui is also about Love!!! Glory Glory! It's about caring for people around you and nothing about self. Sound familiar?!

You know, for this divorce, the main area of fight is Jc and this apartment only. Even though, through the spirit disturbance, I had foolishly given to ex, and from outside this apartment, he is using spirits to pull Jc over and then tried to scare or kill me, so as to get me out of this house. In the surface, he seems doing good but in the dark, it's the opposite!

Even with all these happening, my heart has grown soft with the Grace of Jesus growing stronger in me! At time, I do think by the Grace of good deeds, I actually don't mind move out of this apartment to let them have it for their joy sake!

Many a time, I do think of such. I reckon he that is evil is also using such to get me to give up. But I have Lord with me closely, any moment, whether it's Him or not, He let me know. Glory Glory! You see, in the world, the poor is aplenty, even showing good deeds are good, but we still need the wisdom of God!

Unwise giving will let the receiver party goes into pride that they have 'achieved' such and give not glory to Lord! When we are led by the Lord and give to one whose heart is ready to accept Him, His Glory will shine!!! Hallelujah!!!

That is why my dad years ago, having the intention to steal a healing from Jesus and return to his idol. Lord do not mind his bad intention, He still led him to accept Christ, don't we come to Him with some selfish reason too? :D Even though I did not know his intention, Lord's know! Subsequent leading to walk close to Lord, dad did not want, he even play his chanting song near the end of his life!!!

Even with that, Lord's Grace is still greater than his turning away. Doctor said he had headache and would lost conscious till he died off. Lord preserve his life that he had very mild headache and he never lost conscious!!! He was able to eat till the last day of life!!! He could recognised us till the last moment of life! Even his wish was to go back to his idol, Lord protected him and he walked with the angel of Death to heaven! Glory Glory!! Amen Amen!!! It was recent years that mum talked about he came to Jesus just for the purpose of healing with the intention to turn back!!! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

As for me, ex uses black magic to gain access to this apartment. If I by the good of my heart given to him, it would means his black magic is stronger than Lord. Also, his claim of Jesus is not a living God would become more convincing in his heart.

Therefore, as long as I am alive and still living here as the original agreement, it would mean Lord is a Living God in me and His Healing and Savior ways is alive and kicking!!! His Kingdom is real and is Mighty!!! Glory Glory!!!

By hard knock and by persuasive, devil is still the same serpent that tricked Eve to bite that first bite on the fruit from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil and Adam, just followed his wife, and led the whole human race to be fallen.

But Jesus, the Grace and Truth, the Tree of Life, has come! He is the last Adam that restored us to our original place of fellowship with God, the Father, through the Grace of the Finished Work of Lord Jesus at the Cross!

Through believing He is the Son of God and has come down to earth to bring us back, we are saved. Through Him, all condemnation ceased. For the law of the Spirit, has set me freed from the law of Sin and of death! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Against all Hope, there is Bible Hope!

Praise the Lord for He is Good and His Mercy indwells forever! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Tomorrow is Hoshana Raba, Succot Day 7, Feast of Tabernacles and I am expecting my blessing to come to past but in the end was nothing. After so many years of waiting, my engine is running dry again. I need a fresh dose of hope to continue holding to this Truth!

Lord finally led me to listen to Pastor Prince 19/03/2006 'Why you can Hope against all Hope' I was touched by the last verse he shared about Abraham. It really blessed me and renew my faith a lot! Glory Glory!

Look at the timeline, Abraham was 100 and Sarah was 90. They had heard that Lord is blessing them a child! But imagine have to go through almost 100 years for Abraham and 90 years for Sarah, to hear from people about they too old to produce or they are gone case!

Against all Hope, Abraham has faith in Lord and it is accounted to him as Righteousness in Christ! I thank You, Lord, for letting them hold on to faith and had this bible Hope of Expectation of Good! He could hold for 100 years, my 5-6 years mean nothing! My Faith is renewed!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

With ex forming a family unit that Jc likes, this is her hope all these while and she is happy to live in that family unit. She do not like my lonely figure. To such an extend that she started disregard me totally since a few weeks ago. Yes, the picture do look bleak on my end.

But I am holding to Jesus promise that my marriage will be restored. I believe such a day will come. Thank You Lord Jesus for Your Finished Work at the Cross! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

No matter what lemon darkness is throwing at me, I am going to make lemonade out of it and believe in My Abba Father is a Good Father and He will take good care of me and the Completed Work at the Cross by Lord Jesus is His Promise to me that I surely am blessed in family life, in financial life, in healing ministry life and in reproduction life and of course my health and wholeness in Christ Jesus too. I claim them in the Name of Jesus and by His Authority! Amen Amen!

I am thinking why Jc's phone have contact of police, the ambulance and the fire services. Then I know why, ex is expecting me to be gone from this earth but too bad, Lord has long planned to keep me alive for 1500 years! Who will win this fight over my body? Of course it is Jesus Finished Work, by His Blood! He has made me Righteousness of God in Christ Jesus! Amen Amen!!!

I shall look to Christ and Christ alone! Surely I am fully redeemed by Lord Jesus at the Cross of All destruction and I am healed of all sicknesses! If Psalm 103 says so, so be it! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Lord, You had paid an over payment ransom for me and my life is Yours to keep! Not by Power, not by Might but by Your Spirit, through Christ Jesus, the Law of the Spirit of Life has set me free from the Law of Sin and Death! Greater is He in me than he that is in this world! Lord, as You are in Heaven, so am I in this world! I shall not die but live to proclaim the Goodness of the Lord! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

Surely, as You are right now, sitting at the Right hand side of Abba Father, I am seated with You there, far above all Principality, Power and Might and dominions and every name that is named and not only in this age but also in that which is to come!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

It is written Romans 8:37 'Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him who loved us.' Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, October 5, 2012

Grace Favoured Ground

'Through Christ Jesus, the Law of the Spirit of Life set me Free from the Law of Sin and Death! Through meditation of this verse years ago, Lord showed me all sins and deaths was sucked into Lord Jesus and fully cleansed, no more darkness left on Him. When that happened, I prayed for my girl's back pain from a fall at the play ground and she was healed! Glory to Jesus!'

I am listening to Pastor Prince short sermon clip in YouTube and noticed that I had posted the above 5 months ago. I then realise that I had fallen from Grace and need a reminder from the videos of Pastor Prince in YouTube to lift myself up. The moment I saw that, I quoted Psalm 23

'Though I walk into the valley of the Shadow of death,
Lord, I shall not fear, Your Rod and Your Staff, they comfort me.
You set a table before me, in the presence of my enemy,
You anoint my head with Oil; my cup brimming cup runs over.

Surely or only goodness,
mercy and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life,
and through the length of my days
the house of the Lord [and His Presence]
shall be my dwelling place.'

Abba Father, I thank You that when everything fails, even relationships and family, You are with me, I shall not lack!!! I walked in Your Favour Ground and I am Highly Blessed!

Moments ago, I was telling Lord, if You really want to use me then rise me up, if not let me die. I know the Glorious of the Kingdom that I don't mind die, but for His Kingdom sake, I have to remain alive. Not for my sake but for His Sake!

In my silly moment, I even asked Him why He let this curse come to me when Lord Jesus at the Cross had fully redeemed me completed! He healed the brain attack at that moment. Lord is Good!

Ex is mad with me for disclosing his unfaithfulness to his gf"s ex. Actually I was shocked that they are both cheaters! Yet, they are angry that I opened their can of dark secret! But as they both are good lier, they managed to convince each other and are still together. But in the process, I had upset their whatever plan that they are both angry with me. Anyway, not my problem!

If they even plan on this house on which room who is going to stay, am I suppose to smile and let things be? I know Lord will provide me new homes but the only problem is I don't know when. Actually I didn't have this idea but Lord put me to talk with her ex. He said I will discover some secret that she is hiding. I was thinking of character defect, I didn't expect to hear what I heard!!! Her ex don't want her to take away his kids, especially he is concerned that ex is not a Muslim and might erode his kids religious knowledge.

Guess on hearing his kids liked Jc and on good term with ex, he did the inevitable of blocking her access. Between them I heard he was a violent man, but if a wife that had cheated more than once and was caught by his relatives and friends, who won't be mad? Especially he loved her and had written in his Facebook that if he cannot stop loving, must know that she doesn't love him!

Unfaithfulness is just like a death sentence handed to the spouse. Whatever the reason, be it a sickness or through the strife of life, life had drifted apart, this who to blame? The only way is to let this love bank get zero again so that don't dwell in the problem.

For me, I am glad that I have Lord leading in me that in the end of path, He always opens new path for me to walk on. He let me have hope, have path to walk on even though the current situation see not way. He lay an abundance path, a path of success and a path of victory for me to walk on! How can I not be thankful to Him! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Matthew 19:26 says that:
'But Jesus looked at them and said, "With men this is impossible, but All Things are Possible with God!!!"'

Romans 5:1-2:
'Therefore, Since we are justified through faith,
let us have [the peace of reconciliation to hold and to enjoy] peace with God
through our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One).

Through Him also we have access by faith into this Grace (state of God's Favour)
in which we [firmly and safely] stand.
And let us rejoice and exult in our hope of experiencing and enjoying the Glory of God.'

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Jesus is the Way!

Recently, things are getting bad for me as ex had formed a family unit and the kids are having fun together, especially Jc and Dina. They are the only daughter in both families and it's good to find a partner that can be called sisters, be it step-sisters, they don't care, their only concern is they are not alone anymore!

Face with such a setup, Jc automatically preferred this new family unit and rejected me who is a lonely figure! This has been more and more obvious on the way she treated me, especially these 2 weeks. Each time she returns from her daddy, I need a new talk around and show her enough love for her to turnover.

This was especially had when Rosy and her 3 sons and 1 daughter came to sleepover with Jc and her daddy. Even though Jc was the only one who was left to sleep on the platform floor, she was okay with it!!! She has great joy in the process that she and Dina asked for more or weekly sleepover!!!

Even I pep talk to Jc, her mouth agrees but her heart rejected me out right!!! Even her mathematics problem she rather ask someone else than me, who was good with my maths in my school days!

Last night, miracle happened!!! Jc lost her book mark, a pretty book mark given by her daddy. No matter how she turn the house around, she could not find it! I was down with her rejecting of me and did not want to help her anymore. But in the end I still pray to Lord for wisdom and understanding and memory to find that book mark!

Lord didn't give me any clue, so there was no way I could help! After a helpless search, Jc decided to seek comfort from me. When she sat on my lap, Lord wisdom touched her and she looked into a bag behind my chair and found her book mark!!!

Lord's Wisdom touched her that she realised her mummy has Jesus and thus, when she came close to her mummy, Jesus Wisdom touched her! Glory Glory!!! With this knowledge, she was no more rejecting me as her mummy! Glory Glory!

For last week, it was her fear of lizard that made her run back to me again. Glory Glory!

Lord is so good that when nothing in the natural works, His Way is greater and a solution is found! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, October 1, 2012

Prophesy Fulfilled

I am glad to watch this video in ITBN that shows the prophesy seen in the year 1855 is being fulfilled currently! It's great that how the Glory of Lord Jesus are being shift from one country to another for the fulfillment of the bible prophesy! Glory Glory!

This morning, as I was meditating the bible on the book of Job,  this thought came to my mind. Years ago, the Twin Towers in USA was under attack on Sept 11. Years later in 2012, the Gospel returns to Israel, Jerusalem on September 11 too, but as the preaching started after 6pm, in Israel time, it is considered the 12th. Glory Glory!

God's time table are able to move things into the right place at the right time. Bible used to taught in school when Dr Paul Crouch was in school long ago, but now it was prohibited. Whereas now, in Russia, Christianity can be talk anywhere and TBN has 6 satellite just in this country!

Looking at what Lord is doing in this end time, and I am amazed! Hearing Dr Paul talked with his son, Matt, on what his dad could or could not do, and what Dr Paul could do and see and Matt is the next generation to carry the torch of TBN, it is just so amazing how Lord speed things up in the short period of time!!!

When I was young, there is no such thing as internet but during growing up years in junior college, internet was the in thing to do and during my working in IT software area, internet became more and more advance till now it is so common.

Lord is building the whole world to be connected so that his Glory could be seen around the world! He got TBN to build up the satellite and then Pastor Prince to reveal about Jesus, the Grace and the Truth, and then, He will get me to show His Healing in Abundance! The last 2nd angels that save large no of souls before the last that come with the wrath. Lord is on time in His Timetable!!! Glory Glory!!!

Till now, I don't know when I will be shining in His Glory in the fulness so, I just continue to wait upon Him and to talk to Him in my meditation. Glory Glory! I am being amazed by all that is happening in this end time! Glory Glory! Lord is rising His Army up!!! Glory Glory!!!

For WK, after so many years of pulling her up, Lord recently told me that He is dropping her as she did not pick up His Calling! Sometime, man could be hard to respond to the Lord! Guess they let the cares of the world take over!!! WK only wants to walk close to me when she heard some of Lord's movement in my life. But herself, after so many years of calling, since I accepted Christ till now, the lift up in her only warmth her for a short moment before she fallen back to her usual life again.

Now I realised that if small thing Lord ask you to do, you don't respond, you are unlikely to do big things too!!! For WK, Lord started by asking her give some thing to her ex for 3 times and for her to sign up Chinese worship team for 1 time. Lord also did get her to set up a shop but she questioned her own ability. So, she respond with disbelieve on all the previous calling.

The last one was laying hand on people for healing. This one I received my calling together with hers during that bible study years ago. I responded to Lord by believing and what Lord prompted me, I followed. She was joyful each time I talk about what Jesus wanted to do with her life but after that, she always fall back to her own life. Lord give her enough time to respond but nothing in the end. After so many tries, Lord finally said it's enough!!!

As I looked to what Lord is doing, whatever He called us, He will make it come to past! Our Part is to believe and respond to His Calling by walking closely with Him! As ones walks, Lord will put things in our path to test obedience and faithfulness to the calling. Each yoke of test is not difficult, it is shaping of personality to walk with Him! Not about life or death, nor was it about traveling afar! Each is about faithfully believing in Him and He test our faith in Him!!! In the process, we see His Faithfulness too!!! Glory Glory!!! It's about a knowing Him process!!! Glory Glory!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, thank You for the leading so far! I will wait upon You for Your Glory to be shown! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!