Friday, November 28, 2014

Look Over The Fence

I like to thank you for the second encounter!!! You did not know what effect it had on me!!!

Previously, as I looked to self, looking at my history, many a time, when I was letting my mind wonder and thinking about my future, I was thinking that of all situations, going back to ex and let the family reunited again might be the best solution!!!

As by this decision I won't have a bad record as everything is back to previous.

The image of being divorced and having a daughter, even though she is not under my care and control is not easy to carry!!!

Each time I walked up the counter, being addressed as my girl's mother, and knowing you were watching me from behind, it was like all the bad feelings I had for being a divorcée, was washed away layers by layers!!!

It was like the lady whom laid on her back to earn her 1 year salary to buy that perfume to pour on Lord Jesus!!! As she anointed Lord Jesus for His Eventual Burial, her sins were being washed away!!!

It has a purifying effect on me!!! All my guilt of the divorce status was eventually cleared away fully!!! Glory Glory!!!

Based on the service guy asking me to stand on a certain position and even when I sent only my daughter but he wanted me to be there, I know he got his instructions from someone behind me.

The fact that you enjoyed me gives me the confidence I need to walk out of that fence that trapped me!!! That's why I said it's not about what others mind or not. But if you mind!!!

I don't know eventually we will be together or not, but at this point in time, I just want to say, Thank you!!!

That Look

Two Sunday ago, the man that freezed into eternity, looking at me for about a good 10 seconds of his precious time, I was clueless and my mind was blank as I looked at him.

It was not exactly anger nor unhappy!!! But that look produced lots of question marks in me. What have I done???

If I by not doing anything consciously can caused something to happen, was it my fault???

I had been clueless and cast it aside as I don't understand.

Today, Lord revealed the behind scenes to me!!!

Frankly, looking at them from afar, they and me are world apart!!! We have no business with each other at all!!!

But, this man from their brotherhood, has an effect on me. That could only happens by the Grace of The Lord!!! Nothing I do can cause anything!!! It's All His Plan, not me!!! I don't even know him!!!

By giving me that look, in a way he is Honouring me unintentionally!!! But it is not a welcome thingy!!! I do not appreciate it!!! The fault is not mine to pick!!!

But I appreciate the man for thinking highly of me!!! This also by the Grace of The Lord!!! Not that I deserve it!!!

It could only happen when The Lord lifts me up and give me a new Platform to stand on and restored my Youth to that of compatibility. Even so it is still by the Grace of The Lord.

For it is true I was married once and I do have a daughter!!! This is part of the History of my Life and it cannot be deny!!!

It's just like Ruth and Boaz, everything is permissible but if it is Good? This, Time will tell!!!

At this point, I am not making any decision how the 2 Paths ahead of me, which would I take in the End!!! Even though Lord has point the Way!

When the Time is ripe, we shall see!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Filth

I was just into finding out what Jolien Blanc and the like was doing out there that I watch a few of the YouTube videos on this topic.

God commanded man to have fun, reproduce and fill the world but looking at what they did is down right ugly and filthy!!!

They are rise by the devil to confuse girl's intellectual and to talk their talk so as to get them at themselves and make a fool out of them either emotionally or physically!!! It is down right from the pit of hell!!!

As the End Time is almost here, devil is trying all sorts of ways to destroy the concept of couples, family unit!!! Their aim is to destroy girls in their game and supremacy!!! And they called that their achievements and even took video of them doing it to show to people that pay to listen to their filth!!!

There are YouTube videos that shows young man going out to play a trick and get a kiss from girls but at least they asked the girls and it's a more straight forward request!!!

But what JB and the likes are doing is about stealing a physical connection from the girls without their consent!!! It's a disrespect to the female spies!!!

Jesus is returning and I hope all these evil will come to an end!!!

Good that Singapore and other countries are blocking them from entering the country!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Love

No wonder Lord, The God of Love, told me that I do not know what is True Love!!!

Based on the 2 encounters I had with him, it is definitely a total different kind of feeling!!!

The initial meeting of ex, there won't even have the slightness of Shyness in me at all!!! It was like a pretty normal meeting with someone that I could get along. There was happiness but not a bit of excitement at all. Pretty normal!!!

But the first meeting with him, where out of sudden Lord mentioned 'Your Husband', I was so embarrassed that I hope to find a place to hide and immediately after service I tried to run.

The 2nd meeting, there was an element of excitement or anxiety that I suppressed so as to behave normal. It a knowing that someone is looking but at the same time tried to ignore it!!!

Somehow what transmitted from his heart led me to react in that way emotionally!!! Even physically no visual impact for me!!!

It is so different when someone express the feeling from the heart that talks!!! No wonder in Heaven the talking is heart to heart with a knowing and not from opening the mouth from those who visited.

A heart who talks differs from one that is dead and void, which talked nothing!!!

Interesting!!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Wealth

When I checked my most viewed posting, it is the post on Blessing of Deuteronomy 28 that got the highest view, about 1000 more views on it than the next popular post!

So I guess a lot of people wants to be wealthy!!! Especially Lord has given King Solomon so much till he said they are chaff in the wind!!! Meaningless!!!

My Beloved Father in Heaven is a very rich God!!! The path in Heaven is built with Gold and the river is Crystal River!!! He planted diamonds, precious stones, gold and silver and all kinds of treasure for us to seek, He is rich!!!

If He is so rich, why Christians are not as rich as Abraham or even Isaac and so on?

You just need to go to the bible to find the answer!!!

Did King Solomon, Abraham or even Isaac looking for wealth??? No, they won't!!! Their heart is with God and God blessed them!!!

We see that wherever Lord Jesus went, plentiful is created!!! So Lord Jesus is the Miracle Creator through the Holy Spirit in Unlimited!!!

How can we be like Him???

It's very simple! Get to know Jesus through sermons revealing Him and get to know how Good God is!!!

When you have Good Opinion of Him and want to know Him, Lord, the Holy Spirit will lead you through a journey to know Him!!!

Just like the journey to Emmaus,
Luke 24:27
'And Beginning with Moses and with All the Prophets, He explained to them with All the Writings concerning Himself.'

I was just an ordinary housewife when I heard about Lord want to bless us. We are to walk with Him and to agree with Him on His Plan to Glorify His Son Lord Jesus!!!

So I prayed for the Name of Jesus to be Glorified to the 4 corners of the World, North, South, East West!!!

I just agreed with What was preached through Pastor Prince and Lord blessed me sermons from last 14 years for me to swallow all of them and believe fully.

Then when He knows my belly is full from the consumption of Him, He asked me to finish the bible and then to meditate verse by verse, the full bible.

As I obey His Commandment and by His Grace empowerment, I finished reading The Bible and got to know Him better. Then I started this Personal relationship with Him through meditating the bible and let Him train me step by step.

The building up of me is to letting go of me step by step till He take over Me and Be Me!!!!

Just like the River as you get deeper, you could only trust The Lord to finish the walk for you!!! As the current that come against is just too much to handle!!!

But He promise end of the path is the pot of Gold that many hope to get Without the training!!!

Why Lord need me to be nothingness in Him? Many things in the world wants self, ego, pride to go for it but it is empty promises!!!!

Even if one landed with large amount of money but without training, this amount come easy and go easy!!! Proven by the British girl that inherit millions from her parents!!! It was gone in a couple of years!!!

We cannot afford to go crazy with money!!!

The only way is to be humbled in The Lord and let Him shines and leads. As money has no hold on you, no matter how big the amount is, you won't have much concern and money loose it control over you!!!

It is with this that one can remain cool and collect, as normal as one is. And live a blessed life with nothing to hold you hostage and be free and Peaceful!!! Glory Glory!!!

Ambition

Man with ego and pride would like their Name to reign even after they are gone. But, in God's economy, it's the simple things that speaks for ages!!!

Who would think by sitting at Jesus feet listening to Him would let Mary be praised by Lord Jesus and be written in the bible that every nations that got the bible will read about SHE, did the One Thing needful!!!!

It's the Grace and Mercy of God that her Praises was recorded as an Honour of Lord Jesus!!! As she Honour Him, she was Honoured by Him forever!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The old lady that gave all that she had, the one coin, was used to challenge everyone of us who is proud of own effort, would you do any better than her? The 100% tithing.

Even the 10%, there are those who would use the bible to say not applicable to Today's World or in the Old but not in the New Testament!!!

I, myself, was once convicted by her to open my heart and be willing and gladly tithe!!!!

Lord has been Faithful in return!!!

There are men and women of God ever since Christianity is started with the Crucifixion of Jesus at the Cross, throughout the centuries! Those who dare to trust in The Lord and let Him used their body as His Temple of God, till today church history, their life story still the talk of churches!!!

People can tried to make a Name for themselves, but it those who trust in The Lord and let the Holy Spirit lead them to do the Work of The Lord by His Supply of Abundance of Grace, are those that remain in the mouth of preachers even after they were long gone!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Salvation

Many a time, I do hope Lord Jesus will show to those who disbelieve that He is real but I guess, He knows who needs what to bring them close to Him!!!

Lord led me to watch Kim Clement service, which they did flashback on prophesies he had done on the past months!!!

I am glad the 7 years of lack is ending on Thanks Giving 2014. He said next will be the 7 years of Harvest, just like Joseph story in Egypt in the bible!!!

Another interest phophesy by him is ISIS. He said they are going to have a Darmascus experience just like Paul in the Bible.

Paul went around Ancient Israel killing Christians and jailing them. He was on his Way to capture more Christian when Lord Jesus appeared to question him why he was killing His People!!! Lord promised to do the same to ISIS and I am happy.

I also watched Perry Stone Blood Moon sermon that he said what to look out to see if this is a normal cycle or there is more to it!!! Supposed to have water from the sea and from the sky aka disasters to know it is the pain of the final moment of the pregnancy and if signs is happening frequently, then it is about Jesus returning!!! Glory Glory!!' Amen Amen!!!

After these 2 sermons, I am sure Lord Jesus coming again is very near!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, November 24, 2014

Peace!

Glory Glory!!! Hallelujah!!!! All these confessing here is good to my soul!!!

I am now at peace with myself and not looking for any man to fill my soul anymore!!! What I let go Lord really removed from my heart and it is Peace in my Heart!!!

All the Turmoil of who should I have eventually is thrown away for good!!! Hallelujah!!!!

The disposal that I did here for both, really good to me internally!!! I don't care if I will be alone or not!!! Practically I am comfortable with myself just as I am now. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

All the excess baggage Lord totally cleared fully off my Head and my Mind that I am at Peace with Him!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I will concentrate on doing His Will and that's all I will focus from now on. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Abused?

This evening mediate is the saddest for me.

There was once my mum ever told me, "you were the happiest kid when you were young, but now it's not with you anymore!!!" After I heard it, I didn't know how to answer her too!!!

I looked at my younger days photo and I always had a smile on my face but looking at myself, that smile is gone!!!

Tonight, Lord reveal the years of tolerating to ex, has mould me down to nothingness!!! It's like for the sake of peace, I let him had his way and in the process, I lost myself till I don't know how to get that smile back to my life!!!

Tonight, Lord reveal that even his mum he also took advantage, other woman, he won't respect much, too selfish for me to take him back!

Yes, in this quietness of living for 10 months, without Jc coming here and thus not seeing him and talking to him, I found stressed and super negative feeling when I encountered him at his home and the recent 2 communications. It was so negative that I felt like vomit blood talking to him!!!

This quietness let me experience the difference!!! Previously I was so used to the way he talk that I did not feel so!!!

It seem like a lot undoing need to be done!!! Oh My Abba!!!!!

In this end of test, Lord is finally talking about my life more clearly!!!

He said He will send a man to lead me back to my natural self again!!!

I thank Abba is such a Kind and Loving God!!! Without Him, I don't know how lost I am. I thank Holy Spirit for taking Good Care of me!!! I thank Lord Jesus for the Finished Work that surely through Him, all my lacks will be fully be restored again!!! Amen Amen!!!

I thank Lord for letting me think He is reconciling me with ex to surface all those negative feeling out from the deepest of my heart!!! Glory to Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, November 21, 2014

Reconcilation

After a Big Hoo Haa of I am with who and who, the High Wave of excitement, all for the purpose of test, Holy Spirit finally quiet down to tell me that He is bringing me back to ex!!!

I was looking for someone who could really love me and Holy Spirit is saying back to P, My Grace is enough to make it work!!!

Without all those curses and women, the relationship with him is already bad enough. With those added things, his heart automatically discard me for others!!! I experienced that when a man doesn't love anymore, no amount of words can convince him.

But Lord, My Father in Heaven, is saying go back to him, thing will work out for you!!! Even though I know His Miracle Hand, somehow, I am not interested!!! But if He said so, I will not say no!!!

In a way, it was a disappointed answer I had, trusting Him for a Fresh New Life, away from him but in the end, no more hope to hold on. That's how disappointed I am.

Especially after what I had been through with him, is like Lord must do a 180 deg change in P that he will become so in love with me!!!

What Holy Spirit holds me to him is a feeling I had for his mother, his family!!! This is the part Lord never let me let go!!!

Every time he went back, his mum will let him have her bed and her room. She herself slept by the sofa chair!!! This is her love for this precious son that hardly visited her!!! But he does call her a couple of times around the year.

He knows she loves him but he planned for university in the far north and told her only a day before departure!!!

She continued to show love by sending his Favourite meatballs to him. Then he move further East ward and eventually to Singapore!!! He said Sweden too cold!!! Zero deg Celcius is normal day and winter is harshest  -40 deg.

Lord said He is going to redeem all these situation that the mum will get to see him more!!!

He impressed me to build a house, when I am blessed so eventual return need not take her room anymore!!!

I like his mum in a weird way! Maybe because she never interfere in her sons relationships!!! She has enough respect to their life that this is not seen here!!! Where wife complaints about mother-in-law problem!!!

Being a mother, I understands her better and could understand why she loves her son so much!!!

Anyway, I look forward to meeting her again. Surely things will work out and everything will be good again!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

An Apology

This post is an apology to all the men I wrote in this blog!!! I sincerely apologise to the emotional ups and downs you went through while reading this blog!!! I am Sorry!!!

Lord Knows that I trusted Him fully and He has used various persons to test me to my core limits!!! And this is possible only with man if it is to affect my emotional level to the core of it all!!!

At the point of Tests, I really really believed He was pairing me with someone out there!!! Even in the reality of the persons to make the story believeable by me!!! I was so convinced and thus have to make a decision of myself. This is the part of the test that He, My Lord, is aiming!!!

With each Tests, my life is refined to be more Nothingness of myself and Full of Trusting to Him alone!!! He is Pleasing that I Listened to His Commandment and Believe in All that He had for me and my Willingness to accomplish the given task!!!

In the process, I guess you saw it and you believe too!!! Especially you have seen me, many of you!!! Will think what craziness gone through this plain, nothing to talk about lady!!! I apologized that your emotion was affected!!! I pray for the Shalom Peace that comes from the Prince of Peace to be with you in the Name of Jesus!!!

At each stage of the turn of the River, I just walk in Faith and let Him Light the Way for me.

I am at this point, every Glory I give to Him and I do not partake of the Glory!!! It belongs to the Lamb of God and His Grace and Mercy pushing me along!!!

It had many hard decisions to make especially the most trying test and I did stress over the decision I have to make even it was a clear path to choose!!!

That's why you saw a humble me walking around most of the time!!! I am without self but Full of The Lord that in that condition you touches me, a shudder happened because it was The Lord you are touching!!!

Well, tests is never easy but it wasn't that difficult too!!! Most of the time is a decision to make and a willingness to commit!!!

At this point of emptiness, I like to thank you all who walk with me through the test!!! Many of you I know by sight but I don't know who you are!!! But you played a great part in my tests and I thank you very much!!!!

Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

I Let Go

Regarding the double-focus man, I decided to let go forever!!!

If really he is keen, he would appear long ago and since now almost end of 2014, I decided to let it go forever!!! Hallelujah!!!

After letting go yesterday, I have a Peace in Heart and my Mind!!! Glory Glory!!!

For things that is mystery, it is better forever let it be a Mystery!!! I am not waiting nor thinking of this arrangement anymore!!!

When I heard that Holy Spirit is a Drama King from Kat Kerr, I didn't know He really is a Drama King till this episode!!! But He knows I could take it!!! I am fine!!!! Glory Glory!!!

It's more stressed going through such testing then total let go!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

I am finally cleared of any thought of such and it is good!!!

Now is a quiet in the soul and I am happy!!!

And if you are wondering how I can be happy, it's called Rejoice in Tribulation!!! Haha!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, November 17, 2014

A Moment in Time

At this point in time, I am just waiting for the day to come, where my body is renewed by the Resurrection Power of the Holy Spirit that raised Lord Jesus Christ alive on the 3rd day of His Death!!!

Lord promised me this morning that I will have the Beauty of Jesus that no woman has and no man could resist!!!!

Previously, He promised me baby skin and all my sexual points opened!!!

And even long ago, He promised that I will be tall, slim, sexy and renewed in youth at 20 and strength at 16.

What a Great Promise for a simple lady like me that have nothing to offer Him but just a Heart for the Name of JESUS to be spread to the 4 corners of the World!!!

I am Greatly Humbled by Him, His Willingness to bless me so much!!!

I am waiting patiently for the Day to come!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Sunday, November 16, 2014

The Good about Being Lowly

Long time ago, while I was addicted to internet chatting, Lord used a long time Christian, whom He sent to lead me in the initial years, as she chatted with me to get the solution on the vision Lord gave her, Lord used her to chat with me a few times. Those were the precious moment I had with Him.

In one such chat, He told me to Open my Eyes and see, not all Pastors were called by Him!!! At that time, I wondered how am I to tell the different!!!

Lord has such a Good Way about me being put Lowly!!! As those really called by Him would be humble of themselves in the Presence of Him in them. I saw a few not pleased face the moment they saw me over time.

Lord revealed to me that He purposely let me be so that I can see people clearly!!! Surely their smile are all false and not sincere!!! They are into pride, He said!!!

Why I am not as opened to making friends as long ago?? I used to send Jc to school in her younger days. Whoever I friend and told Lord they were humbled and not materialistic, Lord always showed me they are till the last mum I trusted also failed!!!

There was one mum I held in high regard but she is the most disappointing of all!!! Every point of her talk is to extract why I do certain thing certain way so that She could do her reporting!!! She is whom hurt me the most that whatever Lord wanted to bless her so so life, Lord told me to cancel it!!!

She is the Hypocrite that trying to do Lord's work and yet sin between her teeth!!! I thought after some time of blocking I should talk to her again. But the moment she spoke, I know it's a gone case for good!!!

Lord let me recalled the story of Lucifer thought God is ignorance of his Doing of gathering angles to come against God!!! Lord just want to see who is really Faithful and put them through the test!!!

He is doing the same with me for me to see clearly!!! Surely, when the time for Him to shine, His Glory will speaks for Himselves!!!

I am just letting my body to be used by Him for His Glory!!!

Whatever He said I just obey and let Him decide when is the best time for Him to shine!!! Especially He specialise in doing the lease expect thing for His Greater Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! Hallelujah!!!

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Pleasure

Genesis 18:12
'Therefore Sarah laughed within herself saying,
"After I have Grown Old
Will I have Pleasure, my lord being Old also?"'

Sarah was thinking aloud at 90 years old and her husband, Abraham is 100 years old!!!!

I think this world has gone loped-sided that devil made man to think of themselves only!!!

Genesis 2:15
'And The Lord God took man and put him into the Garden of Eden to Till it and to keep it.'

Genesis 2:18
'And The Lord God said,
"It is Not Good that man should be alone. 
I shall Make a Helper for him,
To Corresponding (Hewbrew - Keneged, with a root meaning of being equal to and adequate for) to Him."'

Lord God Almighty job for man to till the ground and to keep it!!! Even in his own personal pleasure He is saying Till the Ground and Keep it!!! Lord gives me a song to go with it!!! A children song!!!

Instead of planting rice is never fun, bend from the Morn till set of sun.

He is saying serving the wife is very fun, work for the minutes to seconds!!!

In the Pleasure of Man, is about seeing the woman enjoy the Pleasure of what the man work his Love for her on her Body!!! It is not just down south!!!!

This Pleasure will make the wife wet for him down south if he work the field of Love diligently!!! That's why Lord put Pleasure Points in her body for you, the Husband to explore!!!

Why wife is a corresponding to man? She is to tell him if he had found the Pleasure Point for in that, he stimulates and she groan in Pleasure and he get more excited by His Effort, when he finally headed down south, the ultimate result is a Climax, where a chemical in the body is released that leads to the overall Goodness!!!

However, man nowadays did not till the field of love!!! They just want their release!!! No wonder Mark Gungor said what is that to an ejacution!!! The way he said it was great displeasure!!!

As many wives were dry and thus penetration is about PAIN, they rejected their men!!! And men could not get wife to give them the access, went to other woman for the area of the south and the sex trade and the sex trafficking is created!!!

All because man refused to till their field of love and keep it!!! Where is the Pleasure Sarah thought so happily about??? Lord knows such a day would come and keep Sarah's thought for all to see!!! Abraham did his duty!!! If she at 90 can be so happy about Abraham service on her, many men missed it nowadays!!!

Otherwise, the wife will be like Sarah, so pleasing about the Pleasure!!!

Why even in a loveless marriage my heart took so long to depart from ex??? There might not be love, but there was pleasure!!! I could not complaint anything about him in this area!!! That's why you see me talk much of what I missed!!!

In a way, going through this marriage is good, even though it was heart empty and void to numbness!!! Because if under such condition he did something right, at least life is not so bad to live!!!

That is why I need Lord to tell me that I don't know what is True Love and for God the Father to Hug and Kiss me to know what is the feeling of Love so that I know void when I could not sense it.

Lord let me experienced it so that I could share with others what is lacking in the society!!!

It is also this lacking that babies is not forth coming!!! Many forgot about what is Pleasure!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

The Tithe

7 years ago, Lord revealed to Ps Prince He is going to do lots of Shaking so that those of man made will be shaken off and only those of God through Jesus Christ will remain.

At that time, I was wondering how He is going to do it!!!

Man in His Smartness, has tried all ways to gather money but only through Jesus Christ, The Seed, and The Promise, God the Father promised Father Abraham, that his children will be bless to be Heir of the World!!!

We will told of the Tithe through the bible and in

Malachi‬ ‭3‬:‭8-12‬ 
'Will a man rob or defraud God? 
Yet you rob and defraud Me. 
But you say, 
In what way do we rob or defraud You? 
[You have withheld your] tithes and offerings. 

You are cursed with the curse, for you are robbing Me, 
even this whole nation. [Lev. 26:14-17.] 

Bring all the tithes (the whole tenth of your income) into the storehouse, 
that there may be food in My house, 
and prove Me now by it, says the Lord of hosts, 

if I will not open the windows of heaven 
for you and pour you out a blessing, 
that there shall not be room enough to receive it. [Mal. 2:2.] 

And I will rebuke the devourer [insects and plagues] for your sakes 
and he shall not destroy the fruits of your ground, 
neither shall your vine drop its fruit before the time in the field, says the Lord of hosts. 

And all nations shall call you happy and blessed, 
for you shall be a land of delight, says the Lord of hosts.'

Previously when I read that we, man, Rob and Defraud God, I wondered how we did it?

After all, we worked for our income!!! It's our Hard-Earned Money, lots of sweats and headache!!!

But when I saw what Lord revealed in the previous post, I realised everything is from Him, even the investment to be established and jobs to be created so that we can work and earn a living!!! Glory Glory!!!

Lord used this end time when weather is hay wired and crops is affected, when man thought they can manufacture and manufacture and think if they create more products or opportunities, they will gather money!!!

Lord is showing without Him blessing the Favour and the keen interest, etc, nothing is going to work!!!

He wants man to look back to Him again; to trust Him to bless instead of self made money!!! He is letting many see WithOut Him it is Not Possible!!!

And countries that ignore Him, He is going to let them see it won't work!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Next Year 2015 is the Year of Shemitah, where all wealth will align to be stored to His People and All Blessedness restored!!!

Interesting that I was eating my brunch when He downloaded the last post and while I was bathing He downloaded this post!!! Praise Jesus!!!

Where Jesus is Honoured

I was watching YouTube on social issues, and looking at the Honouring of Jesus Christ in those countries!!!

Have you ever think why we, people of Singapore, are so blessed that no matter how bad life is, we have work to do that we need not be exported oversea, leaving our family behind to be somebody's home helper or to the extend of no schooling that even closed family, like father, like grandma, selling young girls to sex trade.

As I watched such documentaries, I asked why their government can't find investments for them to have work like what our government do???

I could not understand why that I asked ex about it, ex said Singapore is small so easier to manage than other countries.

But I see South Korea is so blessed that their Samsung brand goes around the world and even Apple is wary of them eating their pie!!! Their Korea drama also export to many places and many wants to go Korea to shop and sight-see.

In South Korea is one of the largest church in the world!!!

Back to Singapore, even we faced global economy changes, but some how Lord gives our Government wisdom and instead of getting worst, overall Singapore is on a better side that many wants to come here to live and to earn more money!!!

I look at our nearby countries who didn't Honour Jesus much, some how, I still see lots of suffering, big family and lack of work and money!!!

But for Singapore, this tiny country, even USA, Israel and even UK pastors, man of God, know about Singapore!!!

USA used to be a strong country, but I recently watched that due to poor economy, there are jobless and homeless and even homeless being round up!!!

As the country is discarding Jesus Christ and come against Israel and Christians, school told pupil they cannot pray before eating their food!!! As they are discarding Jesus, they are experiencing very horrible weather and life getting more insecure!!!

With the national debts so much, they are no more strong in any sense!!!

As I was posting this post, Lord reminded me of China. China has been expanding and lots of buildings but no souls. Previously I have no clue why so. As I ending this post, Lord reminding me of the authority in China removing the Cross from the Churches around the country and even want to close churches down. No wonder the ghost towns!!! Now I know the reason behind it!!! It's all about Honouring Jesus!!!

I Thank Father God, my Abba, who is looking after this country and giving Great Favour to our Government with the Leaders around the World!!! I thank You for bringing businesses here!!! I thank You for blessing my Government and the People here!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, November 10, 2014

The Life of Irony

At this point in time, looking back and looking forth!!!! I wonder what My Lord has in His Mind when He pulled me out of a loveless marriage that the man would rather I am dead than alive; to another man whom is from the system whom rather I am dead than alive!!!

I am like living in the book of the bible, Lord let them made me so old so that when His Undeserving Glory Light shine on me, I will be better than Sarah in the bible!!! Lord talked about the baby skin, the sexual point all come alive, all the sensually I am going to enjoy!!!

He also made the situation like Joseph, like Jesus, 1st encounter with the Man he is not keen and 2nd encounter will be a different story!!!

I also feel like Esther in the bible, but instead of soak in perfume water to purify her for the King enjoyment, but I am made to trust The Lord deeply for all these trials that He told me I would go through!!!

At the time He told me, I was thinking haven't I gone through enough testing in my life that I need to go through more!!!

This trip back to marital home to bless Jc the phone cover she has asked for, confirmed to me, ex is not the man to go for!!! Really have no more hope in all that who he is!!!

I don't really know why must I be put with one from the system, only thing I could think is as this job Lord rising me is going places eventually, having someone from the system is like telling them all these places I will be going is for Lord's Glory and nothing about them!!!!

Maybe that's why Lord placed me with one of them since, I saw them so curious about me that wanted me to go care group or to the Praise and Healing Team to talk or even Taxi driver to talk when I had nothing much to talk about!!! Their curiosity amazed me!!!

All I am saying is I respect the Authority that Lord placed to look after this country. I remembered mum told me when I was a lot younger that another party ever in government and they sold Christmas Island, which belongs to Singapore to Australia!!! I did not verify the truth of it but it is a wary to me if ever they have the power to do such again. This disclosure to me by mum keep popping up lately!!!

At least, this government still guarding this homeland and I respect them for it!!!

It is not easy to be up there and be the scrutiny of everyone!!! Easy to say than done!!! After all, the economy still have to go on to prosper all of us who live in it!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I am glad they know the formula!!! Just like this trip back to that new town that they are developing; it used to hardly any taxi around there but now, there are plenty that even ex and Jc told me by going to the street, there will be plenty of cabs!!!

What I heard from another country in YouTube is they built a lot of ghost town, nobody shop there nor work there!!! It basically lots of buildings but no souls!!! And they are not the only country that did that!!!

But what our government do, I guess the prayer by Church for Abba to bless them with Wisdom do works!!!!

Only thing is they worry too much about the Role God has given to them and instead of resting in Peace of the Blessed Role, they are doing the opposite that hurts their ratings!!!

And since they don't have Christ, I assumed, any trigger got them into anxiety mode to stop whatsoever they thought might hurt them!!! This is the only problem between them and the people!!!

It's not about control but about love.

Just like Jc, when I show true love to her and no condemnation, even when at time she did not do as I expected, but the fact I give her no condemnation, at least I finally managed to get a hug from her today!!!

I used to place a lot of what she supposed to do and it stressed her so much that she did not like me!!! But by moving away, I am not checking on her and she is able to be happy with me over what I do to love her!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Just Sharing

Well, regarding the 2 men post that I removed, I am not talking about the present me.

If this old, fat appearance that for the 7 years my youth was suck out of me and they tried to put on fresh to make me look huge, if I myself also feel sad about this appearance, if someone really like me, it must be the personality and not the appearance!!!

Don't get wrong, I do saw loving couple out there where their figure is way out but their husbands still love them.

I am talking those men that mind their spouse look good always. Lord told me the future man mind this too. That's why I am not talking the current me, who would like this current look when I myself don't like the work of the devil on me daily!!!

I am talking about the tall, young, sexy appearance that Lord would restored me. It's that time the confusion will happen. Currently very clear!!! Whatever Lord promised, he disbelieve!!! But Lord said the day will come when he is keen again.

I am asking Lord is when my body changed from corruptible become incorruptible and mortal become immortality. It is that day that I will have the headache, currently no problem!!!

Basically ex left me for younger and fun version. If after the transformation, whatever Lord promise is I will be hot and erotic!!! By then which man don't want? Basically all men want their wives to be so, who like a dull one???

This is why based on Lord's reveal, I will be headache then. As whoever taste the renewed me first would want to claim me and so, I am asking The Lord who should I choose and thus allowed to taste me!!! Understand now???

At this moment, I am just waiting for that transformed body first before finding a love one. I know what the devil has added to me and I am not happy!!! Suck my youth and dump those growth on me, how to like this kind of imperfection? I don't know too!!!

I only know men like any kings, they like what they see is beautiful in their eyes!!!

And I am looking forward to the Day of Transformation and I will have the youth of Sarah that 2 kings love!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Saturday, November 8, 2014

Why?

I was just asking Lord why they who come against me hate me so much that practically wanted me death.

Lord told me that they looked at my past and think that I could harm them. They could not believe Lord has done a Great Transformation in me to change my opinion on them!!!

If only they know the Almighty God loves them and wanted them to come back to Him!!!

I asked Lord what could be done for them to believe I won't harm them because I have to Honour them if I ever want to do the work of The Lord!!!

Lord said only a Big Blessing that only Him could give can convince them that I have no ill intention of any sorts!!! Not even when I know all that I know but I believe the Blood of Jesus could and will wash them whiter than snow once they accepted Christ and He had been judged of all their sins and they are forgiven and love by the Almighty God!!!

So I have to wait patiently for the Big Blessing to come so that Through Christ, all they headache will not be a headache anymore that they will then believe!!!

At the mean time, even Lord used the most incredible story to test me on success test and I passed them all!!! Lord is happy with me.

But for men, have to wait for the Great Blessing to convince them as money can talks wonders too!!! Especially it's an amount that even one worked many lives over also have no power to make such amount!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Mind of Christ

Lord put this encounter in my almost wake up stage to share what I had encountered lately!!! Glory Glory!!!

In the natural, when we see a situation or faced a problem, the self-righteous mind will form an opinion to for or against the situation. That was me previously!!!

But to walk with Lord and to let Him takes over me, Glory Glory!!! There is no more such expression!!!!

Instead, I saw Lost Sheep at both end, the Accused and the Accuser!!! What I see is they both need the Saving Hand of Lord Jesus. I don't see them in their fire!!!! Glory Glory!!!!

As Lord leads me to grow in His Glory, from Glory to Glory, I am seeing this transformation happening in me.

Even my encounter with the taxi driver, this thought that he need Christ always appear in my mind!!! Hallelujah!!! Glory Glory!!!

The old self is getting lesser and lesser and the New Creation in Christ Jesus is forming more and more to me!!! Hallelujah!!! This is the effect of soaking myself in the Glory, talking to The Lord daily!!! I didn't notice the change but it did change me!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Guess Lord is leading me to change that eventually, when He manifest through me, there won't be a me or Him but He has become me!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

This is the walk The Lord wants us, His Children to walk like Him!!! Glory Glory!!!

No wonder Lord wants us to go for His Kingdom and His Righteousness as once one become like Jesus, Lord promises what the world have, He will Given onto you!!!

If you read the bible, where Jesus is, blessing happens, water become wine, 5 loaves 2 fish to feed 5000 and their family till they are satisfied and with 12 baskets left over and all the funeral He attended the Dead become Life!!!!

So definitely, blessings will come chasing after me as Psalm 23 said so!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, November 7, 2014

Not so Near

Hiaz, it's another hoodwink by the devil again.

Lord just explained those 2 men is not His Story for me and He gave me more scenario as check point of His Coming!!!

Basically the war to conquer Israel again will happen and Lord will come to save them. So currently the situation is still building up so not time of His Manifestation yet!!!

He will come to sozo Israel out of all Her Trouble as mentioned in the book of Revelation before the thousand year reign of Jesus. So things are still in the process of building up!!! Glory Glory!!!

Lord said the man He bless me is according to my wish so it's not what devil tried to put forth!!! But it's still good that due to it, I found the secret to good sex from the bible!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord really knows how to stretch thin people's expectation. It is about patiently wait and wait while continue to spend time with Him!!!

I am glad that Israel and Singapore are within His Radar and both will be highly blessed in the end!!! That's why the foreground Morning Glory for Singapore and back ground the tiny yellow flower for Israel!!! Glory Glory!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

I do hope this apartment will hold me till the time of Jesus manifestation so that I will need not bother about finding an alternative location!!! I thank You, Father that You will take Good care of me!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

The Ship of Heaven

Do you know that when an Ocean Liner is to change course, it's little by little that part controlling the whole ship moves.

As close to heart as the Most Intermost of the Soul of Life is to change Course, Lord, the Holy Spirit, must through the years implant the ideas and slowly remove the fence and pump in new ideas to let the Soul of Life to slowly change it Course to move to the Plan of God, Almighty has for each individual person.

Our Part is to Listen and Listen to Him till it make sense to us and agreeable to walk with Him.

Whatever Mountains along the way will become plain and things that are Not will become that as it should be!!! The Glory of God will shines Through in the End!!!

What I am supposed to walk through is nothing short of a Miracle!!! It is a Life of not Supposed but Lord the Almighty One likes to use small, insignificant one to show His Glory!!!

Men could only Awe in His Goodness!!! Glory Glory!!!

I might not know what is good but Lord showed me it is Good!!!

I might not know how to walk but He said His Grace is Enough!!!

I know I have to walk His Way out even though I feel so stressed out!!! A sleep is all I need and it is work out nicely as He reveal new idea, well old idea make new, to think it is possible!!!

Lord is Good, My Abba Father!!! He is such a Loving God!!! And I love Him for who He is!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

The Field of Flowers

Last Sunday as I walked towards the SMRT station, I saw the field in front of Star Vista grow with Purple Morning Glory in the foreground and tiny yellow flowers in the back ground!!! This is of Great significant to me.

When I was young, living in a rented land property, this Morning Glory was the 1st flower that I ever know and took notice. Then ever since my family shifted because of one of my uncle, there wasn't any of such flowers anymore.

Even the flowers grown at my previous marital home, the joy of seeing the flower didn't bring me as much a joy as to see a big area of the field covers with it and somehow it brought joy to me.

In the back ground I saw the yellow flower, it reminded me of Israel. I was complaining to Lord of why He did not bless me with beautifully blossom big flowers but those tiny yellow one!!!

I was there early of Spring years ago!!! But now I saw it again, it brought me joy of my Israel trip years ago!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I guess the time of manifestation is ripe and even the flowers smiles!!!

I was so joyful that I shared a little blessing with the old lady sitting by the path selling tissue!!!

I used to like yellow rose years ago. But guess it means my relationship with ex didn't last!!!

Now my mood has shifted and I like the lilies more now!!!

It's 6:07am now. I have been awoken since 3:30am by all those things that disturb my sleep!!! But Lord is Faithful!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I know my life will turn for the better!!! Be it whichever ways it turns!!!

Life is good!!! I am a sheep and my shepherd will leads me. I am the Glory of the man that will have me!!! I come from man, his rib, with the connection it will be home again!!!

I miss the hugs on the side of man. Ex used to give good comforting one even though his heart might be far far away!!! He sees signs of unhappiness he will get me to his side and give a tight warming hugs that quiet down the soul!

He knows how to calm his woman down to submit to him!!! He never let an unhappiness stays in argument !!! He will always end with a love making to show he is still in power!!!

One thing, for him who do not believe in Jesus, he reject condemnation as the bible said. There is therefore now no condemnation in Christ Jesus!!!

I guess this is a good point for men to pick up even in disagreement!!! Whatever unhappiness will be gone after the makeout!!!

That's why even in this loveless marriage, that's how he kept me in my place!!!

Why Sex is important to me is because of him!!! Even though I didn't get the fully enjoyment that I crave for, be it I horny or not, or feel like it or not, he used his god given authority to take on me and give me pleasure that I will not deny him.

Even those years the relationship breaking down, he will surely take me on at least once a month. That's why I took 2-3 yrs to finally let go of him fully!!! For he knows how to hug to give comfort even when facing divorce and I was in great unhappiness.

That's why I said he played his game well!!! That's why I need a God to tell me I did not experience true love!!! And need to have His Great Hugs to know ex emptiness.

It was a great learning journey for me!!! From the Great Pretender!!!

I would turn back to him as I know all these comforts but all the rest of what he had done is putting the stop. Yes, with the new body if he happy with it, and change his mind to wanting me, I need strong open eyes of The Lord to lead me away. Otherwise, I would be suck right back to him again.

As he knows how to comfort woman!!!! And I am craving for it!!!

Monday, November 3, 2014

Love of Money

I remember long time ago, Lord led me into this test that revealed to me my love of money!!! Many people walks in life without realizing their emotions are controlled by the Love of Money!!!

You may ask what's wrong with this. But to become a servant, chained by money, to have or not have, is a torture to life!!! God wants to set us free fully, so He don't want man to be in bondage!!!

How did I know I was in bondage by the Love of Money? For me, by Feeling Poor, I might be more stingy and nastier to people I that are closed to me, I am in bondage!!! To feel a pinch to give away money, you are in bondage!!! God want us, His Children to be free of it!!!

Rich is not defined by how much you have!!! Rich is defined by no matter how much you have, you think you are rich and you happily bless those that have not enough!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Whatever goods and services we receive, we can view the goods and services with nasty feelings or you can be happy that you are able to pay for it and with a thankful heart!!!

There is no life or death in using money to get good and services. But when one feel bad of paying for a good and services, the Love of Money tight you down!!!

And we want a joyful life and not a daily dwell in unhappiness. That's why Lord wants us to forgive our Enemy!!!! Be it whatever we encounter, that cause the heart to feel bad, Lord want us to let go!!!

I could quote example in my life to show you the drastic change of price in wide ranges that I might encounter, or the availability or not available to me of goods and services. I don't take it personal and just let it go. It has no hold on me!!!

As nastiness begets nastiness and I rather sow Peace!!!

Just like yesterday or any other Sunday that I am out of this house, I know I am being Traced and I saw those, who Traced me feel nasty about it!!!

I won't even care about it as it was beyond my control but at the same time, I know Lord is training me that this is normal as when Jesus walked on earth, many followed Him too!!! Lord preparing me for His Manifestation!!!

But I care about their hearts of anger and feeling bad that they must come out on a Sunday to follow my routine movement!!! Bondages by the bad feelings manifest badness somewhere down the path of their health!!!

All these come about of a presumed nastiness that me or those related to me might do something bad to those who believe so. But this end nobody cares about anything about it!!!

It's the heart and the imaginary mind that always think towards negative as this is a fallen world.

But God, the Father, wants His Children to walk in Love in Goodness so that Goodness will manifest and Happiness and Joy might be the result!!! Amen Amen!!

It's not about money but it's about the Health of the Heart and the Mind!!!

That's why Christianity, about Hope is to expecting something Good is happening and Faith is about believe what you have not seen but believe it is there!!! To walk by Faith and not by Sight!!! Glory Glory!!!

That's why Lord must pause me to look back and recall. For by nature, I walk in Peace and taking back ex is not an issue when Peacefulness is in me. But whether he, without Jesus, could walk the same way is questionable!!!

As those spirits of nastiness are real spirits, without Jesus, there is no way to cast them out!!! But with a Christian, one could always look to Jesus Finished Work to get the Deliverance!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS: If this post is about God, the Father of Jesus Christ and those who believe in Jesus, wants to bless you an adnormous amount of Money that you could ever have and need you to get rid of the Love of Money, what would you say?
What I could disclose is you are on the Top of the list of people whom Shall be blessed!!!

I was asking Lord why He blessed you higher than His Chosen Country, but I guess you Honour His Son, Lord Jesus, in this country. You know whom you are, as I had been disclosing to you these 2 weeks!!!

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Jesus, The Redeemer

Today sermon by Pastor Lawrence at first I thought what a Joker he is. But when he really launched into preaching, then I heard a good message!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

The first deadly situation is no matter who come against us, children of God, the end result for them is dead!!! As dead as it can be when Lord sent an angel to help the King I respected in Ancient Israel. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The second death was when this same King is facing his own death and cried to Lord for mercy!!! Lord extended his life for another 15 years.

This when I heard this, my spirit was telling me that those who harmed my family tree, if they accept Jesus and repent of all their sinful act, Lord would forgives them and the sentences that is God Wrath will be counted on Jesus at the Cross and will not fall on them. God Heart is Heart of Mercy after all!!!

As for me, I don't have any bad feeling too!!! I am glad that my parents are enjoying life in Heaven. Each time I think of mum, she always thank me for leading her and dad to Christ. They are happy up there!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I enjoyed the worship and the Time is near as I see!!!

Glory Glory!!!

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Man

Man, this species of the human race, it got me wonder why they like certain woman and their need that got so many of them unfaithful just for the only thing that connect them to the joy of Heaven.

Lord gives me an interest to satisfy my man and thus a quest in how to satisfy them and why many goes to the professional providers or cheat their ways with women or girls just for that need!!!

I also wonder why Lord wants husband to love his wife like Him loving His Bride at the Cross; the slow form of torturing death.

He even say the body of husband belongs to wife and body of wife belongs to husband. As married couple, we do not have authority over our body!!! But our spouse have!!!!

He even said in the bible we are to be together and the short period of time of away from each other is to spend time with The Lord!!!

You see the wisdom of God? Why He said body instead of mind, feelings or even mood!!!

I don't understand till my ex condemn I was a log and he rather go for younger versions and even this Malay lady that made him wanted her much!!!

All I wonder what in them that got the man to open their wallet.

Then Lord revealed in the last test that my man will be 50 plus man that I wonder what could man of this age provide that I went to the website to search for clues.

Then I realise why Lord wants man to love wife like He hung on the cross for 6 hours!!! Slow and loving!!!

50 plus man was saying when he tasted young girl, those in 20 plus, due to their age and they slow down, they could slowly tasting the whole body of the young girl and worked her so up that she almost going to blow up. The build up is so much that she will be all wet that KY Gel will lose it sales.

Then read from the same thread that woman whom tasted both their age man and older man, said the same age group men are too hurry to get their need satisfy that they didn't work their partner body up and the girl was still dry and gel was needed for the process!!!

I realise Lord is teaching His Children to be patiently loving their wife's body, like their own, showing Great Love to the body and slowly stimulate her up!!!

What man wants to see and get excited is how their partner respond to their stimulation in the process!!! But most young man don't have the patient and on their selfish needs.

If they work the body of their woman slowly, to stir up the sleeping giant, she is going to beg for Mercy and Pray that you enter to finish the job.

When she reach such a stage of begging the husband to enter, the Honour of Man position in the couple is restored!!!

Currently, man just cares about themselves and their hormones running wild and just need a release. Wife does not get much fun out of it that many man found their wives rejecting them!!!

Each woman is different and some reacted faster than others!!!

Also, when Love is involved, there is a Heart to Heart communication that cheaters cannot pretend. They only could pretend to those that don't know this True Love!!!

Another area of man's concern is the aging texture of human. That's why they say man don't want woman to change but we did!!! When Jesus return, youth renewal will get husband happy again!!!

This, I finally understand and realise devil has cheated many men to abort their wives and go for younger version.

If one follow what the bible teaches and man do a good job on loving their wife's body, couple will be happily living together with each other and woman will have high regard for their man!!!

I praise Jesus for revealing all these to me!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!