Lately, with the surge of gas, water and electricity into my apartment, partly due to old age of the home appliances, my toilet lamp interior need to be change and last night, the aircon die on me too. So cost is rising!!!
As I have just changed the bulb and the starter of the lamp, I am wondering why it gone off again. The new grocery shop that open here, the shop people, told me that a metal part might be faulty.
As I am not an electrician, even though I am clueless, I am trying to change it even thou it involved a few wires that is unknown to me. The man, was asking me to buy the whole new set of the lamp with everything included to save the trouble!
Well, in the process, I disclosed my divorce term and my soon to move out, as I do not want to waste too much of my limited funds on things that will soon not be mine! The man on hearing the unfair divorce term, was suggesting ways I could do to change it!
As I am not looking to what I have but to His Provision, I told him that 'it's okay as I am looking to Jesus blessing'. As he is not a believer in Christ, he swept off the idea.
On reaching home, after another trip to the shop and buying dinner, I saw a woman that looked like a casual police woman. She was asking for donation and as I am yet to start on Lord's given job, I have no income and I reject it.
Then, it occurred to me, it's another check on my income again!!! Through these 3.5 years after divorce, I do get different form of asking me about if I have any income. They are wondering how I manage to survive, I guess!!! Well, even my siblings also worry for me and had been pushing me to go find a job!!! They look to my lack and yet, have no intention to supply me that they are pushing me out.
It's not I don't want to go to look for a job, but as Lord is rising me to do His Job, I have to wait upon Him. But as God is invisible, no one could see Him and they could not believe He is so good!!!
I mean, long ago, I did feel poor due to the lack of income!!! But as I changed my opinion on myself to see over my fence to look into Lord's Provision, I see myself rich instead. The bible taught us to ask and speak before we see it!!! Opposite of what the world knows!!!
As I had disclosed here before, Lord led me to cash an insurance that He had impressed me to get when Jc was a baby and I did have a sum of money, which I thought I will spent in 2 years!!!
However, Glory to the Power of Lord 5 Loaves 2 Fish miracle!!! As I spent time on His Words, He prospered me in the fund for a few months, think about 6-8 months, He maintained the amount that I only realised of His Miracle on my saving account!!! Then about last year, I guess His Blessing manifesting soon, this fund had been declining on a gentle speed!!!
How did I survive these 3.5 years since 2010 till now without an income, I don't know!!! I just know I could buy whatever I need without going into lack!!! This Miracle on my spending is amazing. I don't bother about how it happens, but even those checking on me was wondering if I have an income!!! Glory Glory to His Provision!!! Amen Amen!!!
Even myself also wonder how I still have a comfortable amount to go by. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Recently, even though I see myself not looking great, Lord brought men to sit beside me or facing me showing interest in me!!! I am surprised by their smile or the SMRT staff that opened his legs and hands and in pretend sleep act. I was embarrassed sitting right across him in that almost empty cabin!!!
Today, the man that sat next to me was speaking to me as Ps Prince told us to speak blessing to our neighbour!!! He would turn to me to say before turning to his wife. Even when time to go off, he lingered and gave me a smile before going off with his wife!!!
Lord is showing me man of my age group is interested in me, to show me I am not as bad as I think of myself!!! Even though I felt through whatever the devil is doing, I thought I am ugly!!! But Lord told me otherwise!!! He said I am younger than most of my age group!!! Amazing!!! Amen Amen!!!
Now that my bad feeling for P is gone, He is telling me that eventually he will be tempted to move back. Lord is still on the heart of bringing him back!!!
These 2 weekends, P is starting to take picture of this apartment and designing the enhancement that he wants to put in here after I leave. The due date is end this year. But if I move off any earlier, he could start the renovation. Thus, he is finally drawing plans to improve the design of this home!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
To see he so keen on it, it also mean my due time reaching, thus I was a bit into the reality of things happening. So, I am also waiting more eagerly for Lord manifestation of His Blessing!!! Glory Glory!!!
Even though time is bad, even for me, but Lord is good in encouraging me that I could still survive each day!!! Even when I was weak, He kept me alive and to continue the next day!!! Time just runs!!! It was just the start of July and now July ending soon!!!
Many times, I prayed to die, I pray to Lord to take my spirit but Lord kept me alive!!! He let me went through so much that He is not wasting time training another to go through all these!!! So, you could understand what I went through that even death looks more attractive to me than live!!!
That's why I told you here it's not by my power nor by my strength, but by His Spirit and His Amazing Grace!!! Even when I was too tired to pray, He still kept me alive!!! So, how to die???? Not possible!!!
He just want to see if I will still look to Him even when I face such situation. Yes, I did give Him a condition. I told Him that if He really need me to stay alive for His Glory, then healed me as Christ at the Cross had finished everything!!! Otherwise, take me home!!! He always keep me alive for His Glory!!! How I get strong again, it's also His Grace!!!
Did Job die when he went to his worst state??? Even his wife told him to pray to Lord and die!!! Did David die when enemy surrounded him??? No, Lord raised them up again when they look to Him for deliverance. It's character molding that He put us through!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
It's not easy to stand on His Glory!!! He has to make sure that I don't fail in my success that He is putting me through all these!!! It's all about His Grace and nothing about me!!! Even when I become very pretty and sexy and rich, it is still His Grace and nothing about me. I must always remembers through His Grace!!! Glory Glory!!!
This is why this not look to money is important training too!!! The world will wonder why I not keen to fight for money like all of them did. This is also Lord leading me through since young so that my focus will only be on Him and Him alone!!!
One might chase the little and lost the big!!! He is the Author and the Provider of all the oils, gold, silver and minerals in the earth for His Children to find. Men don't know He is the provider and thus look to it as what they could seek themselves!!! But, the greater Glory is looking to Him as the Provider and enjoy the peace of spending whatever one need and have enough to last!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
In Christ
Isaiah :58:11
'The Lord will always lead you and satisfy your needs in dry lands.
He will give strength to your bones.
You will be like a garden that has plenty of water,
like a Spring that never goes dry.'
As my mum is down, now the concentration is on me. They who hate my family tree, has set up shop and has presence in the supermarket fully! Sunday, I was attacked with spirits that knocked my senses out that I told Lord I could not focus on Him but He could. I could not worship Him but He could!!!
Lord knew the plan of evil long before I did and had strong anointed worship songs for me to sing through Him. I was made whole and full of joy in Him. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord has gotten me ready to look to Him fully! I used to fight my battle from awake to asleep but lately, Lord get Ps Prince to preach about Job!!! The book that I first read before coming to Christ!!!
He told me it's not me but Him and Him alone in this battle! After yesterday, I finally surrender this battle for Him to take over!!!
In the book of Job, Lord called Job righteousness in Him. Even He allows satan to bring him down to nothing, as he looked to Lord eventually, Lord bless him out of the situation and he was highly blessed in animals, in beautiful children, in health and wholeness!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
King David, who was a friend of God, was kicked out of his kingdom by his son and all his friends sneered at him. When he looked to Lord, or rather Lord led he and also Job to look to Him, they were made whole and returned to better life, double or more than what they previously had!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord let me see, no matter what devil throw to me, to them, it might seem they are winning the battle but Lord surely have the final say!!!
Through all these years of many rounds of testing by the devil, no matter my knowledge is there or not, Lord let me goes through each of them as a learning curve. I am down but never out!!! Even when I am near death many times over, He resurrected me fully to continue my battle or this learning curve again and again!!!
As enemies encamps around me, Lord is telling me. 'Let not your heart be trouble nor let it afraid!' He is with me!!!
Many times, in the state of suffering and almost feel like dying, I prayed to Lord to take me home, but He never did. He always resurrect me again and push me forward to face my challenges!!!
The rewards is plenty ahead!!! More than many of you could earn in your lives. But this is the training of the Lord that let me gain more and more into what darkness could do and who they are!!!
I recently came across the aim of those on top, the various agencies around the world is to create bad food for us to eat and to send radiation to kill our brain so that we would die faster!!!
From my sis telling me more people in Singapore is getting seizure in the brain, I could see it happening here too!!!
The coins in Singapore in the recent release is able to attract to a magnate as someone tested!!! For donkey years we heard hand phone could send out radiation to harm us!!! Usually, they who make it will say it's within the limit but looking at the results that is happening as we live, I wonder!!!
My mum 2 hospitals stay I did see many healthy men and women in that department of brain sickness!!! Planner is even saying they are going to build more hospitals to cater to all these sick people!!!
At one end is about causing sickness to come about and the other end is earning lots of money from the sick!!! I see the 5 thieves talked in the Chinese Tradition learning happening in fullness of it all through my mum sickness and what others talk about their own family experiences!!!
No wonder Lord prophesy long ago through Smith Wigglesworth is about emptying patients in the hospitals in His Coming again!!!
Job 42:10-13, 15-17
'And the Lord turned the captivity of Job and restored his fortunes, when he prayed for his friends; also the Lord gave twice as much as he had before.
Then there came to him all his brothers and sisters and all who had known him before, and they ate bread with him in his house; and they sympathised with him and comforted him over all the [distressing] calamities that the Lord had brought upon him (not from Lord).
Every man also gave him a piece of money, and every man an earring of gold.
And the Lord blessed the latter days of Job more than his beginning; for he had 14,000 sheep, 6,000 camels, 1000 yoke of oxen, and 1000 female donkeys.
He had also seven sons and three daughters. And in all the land there were no women so fair as the daughters of Job, and their father gave them inheritance among their brothers.
After this, Job lived 140 years, and saw his sons and his sons' sons, even to four generations.
So Job died, an old man and full of days.'
So you see, it's better not for the satan to tempt us, to injure us. They will be judged and see how Lord restore in style!!! In health, in assets, in family and friends, in blessed children and in his life to the fullness of Joy!!!
Even King David was restored to his throne and his son, King Solomon, Lord even raise him to be the wisest King on earth and he had great wealth and great peace that till today, no one could match!!!
Job lived long before Abraham, whom Lord had a new covenant promise and was greatly blessed too. Under Law, King David and King Solomon were greatly blessed too.
God, the God Most High, My Abba Father, is the same yesterday, today and forever!!! I might be down but I won't be out!!! That is for sure!!! For I have a covenant God, who is backing me!!! Glory Glory!!!
It's not about you stopping me from praying, worshipping, nor is it about me going to church!!!
It is His Finished Work at the Cross that says all my sins are forgiven, all my sicknesses healed, all my destruction redeemed, He crowns me with Loving Kindness and Tender Mercy! He satisfies me with Good Things that my youth is renewed like an eagle!!!
For Lord Jesus is my Lamb of God. He is my Kinsman Redeemer and He has Ransomed me fully!!! He proclaimed 'It is Finished' at the Cross!!!' It is a DONE deal!!!
Lord God let Lucifer be proud, to throw his pride all over, to think God is ignorance of his deeds. When he shows his greatest evil, Lord cast him down from heaven, from His Throne and he could never go up there anymore!!!
You are using his creation to attack me and you hope I will be dead!!! In fact, you hope that each of my family Tree members will be dead!!! In due time, you shall see!!! Lord could wait for the greatest evil of Lucifer, He could wait for yours too!!!
I might not know who is involved in all these agencies but Lord knows. He knows the evil plan of man since the start of Genesis!!! If He didn't know, He won't send Jesus to redeem man at all!!! He knows each of us can't and we all need His Saving Grace!!!
In Due Time, you shall see!!! It's not by Power, it's not by Might but by the Spirit of Christ and His Finished Work 2000 years ago!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
'The Lord will always lead you and satisfy your needs in dry lands.
He will give strength to your bones.
You will be like a garden that has plenty of water,
like a Spring that never goes dry.'
As my mum is down, now the concentration is on me. They who hate my family tree, has set up shop and has presence in the supermarket fully! Sunday, I was attacked with spirits that knocked my senses out that I told Lord I could not focus on Him but He could. I could not worship Him but He could!!!
Lord knew the plan of evil long before I did and had strong anointed worship songs for me to sing through Him. I was made whole and full of joy in Him. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord has gotten me ready to look to Him fully! I used to fight my battle from awake to asleep but lately, Lord get Ps Prince to preach about Job!!! The book that I first read before coming to Christ!!!
He told me it's not me but Him and Him alone in this battle! After yesterday, I finally surrender this battle for Him to take over!!!
In the book of Job, Lord called Job righteousness in Him. Even He allows satan to bring him down to nothing, as he looked to Lord eventually, Lord bless him out of the situation and he was highly blessed in animals, in beautiful children, in health and wholeness!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
King David, who was a friend of God, was kicked out of his kingdom by his son and all his friends sneered at him. When he looked to Lord, or rather Lord led he and also Job to look to Him, they were made whole and returned to better life, double or more than what they previously had!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord let me see, no matter what devil throw to me, to them, it might seem they are winning the battle but Lord surely have the final say!!!
Through all these years of many rounds of testing by the devil, no matter my knowledge is there or not, Lord let me goes through each of them as a learning curve. I am down but never out!!! Even when I am near death many times over, He resurrected me fully to continue my battle or this learning curve again and again!!!
As enemies encamps around me, Lord is telling me. 'Let not your heart be trouble nor let it afraid!' He is with me!!!
Many times, in the state of suffering and almost feel like dying, I prayed to Lord to take me home, but He never did. He always resurrect me again and push me forward to face my challenges!!!
The rewards is plenty ahead!!! More than many of you could earn in your lives. But this is the training of the Lord that let me gain more and more into what darkness could do and who they are!!!
I recently came across the aim of those on top, the various agencies around the world is to create bad food for us to eat and to send radiation to kill our brain so that we would die faster!!!
From my sis telling me more people in Singapore is getting seizure in the brain, I could see it happening here too!!!
The coins in Singapore in the recent release is able to attract to a magnate as someone tested!!! For donkey years we heard hand phone could send out radiation to harm us!!! Usually, they who make it will say it's within the limit but looking at the results that is happening as we live, I wonder!!!
My mum 2 hospitals stay I did see many healthy men and women in that department of brain sickness!!! Planner is even saying they are going to build more hospitals to cater to all these sick people!!!
At one end is about causing sickness to come about and the other end is earning lots of money from the sick!!! I see the 5 thieves talked in the Chinese Tradition learning happening in fullness of it all through my mum sickness and what others talk about their own family experiences!!!
No wonder Lord prophesy long ago through Smith Wigglesworth is about emptying patients in the hospitals in His Coming again!!!
Job 42:10-13, 15-17
'And the Lord turned the captivity of Job and restored his fortunes, when he prayed for his friends; also the Lord gave twice as much as he had before.
Then there came to him all his brothers and sisters and all who had known him before, and they ate bread with him in his house; and they sympathised with him and comforted him over all the [distressing] calamities that the Lord had brought upon him (not from Lord).
Every man also gave him a piece of money, and every man an earring of gold.
And the Lord blessed the latter days of Job more than his beginning; for he had 14,000 sheep, 6,000 camels, 1000 yoke of oxen, and 1000 female donkeys.
He had also seven sons and three daughters. And in all the land there were no women so fair as the daughters of Job, and their father gave them inheritance among their brothers.
After this, Job lived 140 years, and saw his sons and his sons' sons, even to four generations.
So Job died, an old man and full of days.'
So you see, it's better not for the satan to tempt us, to injure us. They will be judged and see how Lord restore in style!!! In health, in assets, in family and friends, in blessed children and in his life to the fullness of Joy!!!
Even King David was restored to his throne and his son, King Solomon, Lord even raise him to be the wisest King on earth and he had great wealth and great peace that till today, no one could match!!!
Job lived long before Abraham, whom Lord had a new covenant promise and was greatly blessed too. Under Law, King David and King Solomon were greatly blessed too.
God, the God Most High, My Abba Father, is the same yesterday, today and forever!!! I might be down but I won't be out!!! That is for sure!!! For I have a covenant God, who is backing me!!! Glory Glory!!!
It's not about you stopping me from praying, worshipping, nor is it about me going to church!!!
It is His Finished Work at the Cross that says all my sins are forgiven, all my sicknesses healed, all my destruction redeemed, He crowns me with Loving Kindness and Tender Mercy! He satisfies me with Good Things that my youth is renewed like an eagle!!!
For Lord Jesus is my Lamb of God. He is my Kinsman Redeemer and He has Ransomed me fully!!! He proclaimed 'It is Finished' at the Cross!!!' It is a DONE deal!!!
Lord God let Lucifer be proud, to throw his pride all over, to think God is ignorance of his deeds. When he shows his greatest evil, Lord cast him down from heaven, from His Throne and he could never go up there anymore!!!
You are using his creation to attack me and you hope I will be dead!!! In fact, you hope that each of my family Tree members will be dead!!! In due time, you shall see!!! Lord could wait for the greatest evil of Lucifer, He could wait for yours too!!!
I might not know who is involved in all these agencies but Lord knows. He knows the evil plan of man since the start of Genesis!!! If He didn't know, He won't send Jesus to redeem man at all!!! He knows each of us can't and we all need His Saving Grace!!!
In Due Time, you shall see!!! It's not by Power, it's not by Might but by the Spirit of Christ and His Finished Work 2000 years ago!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Friday, July 19, 2013
The Last of the Last Chance
Looking at P's gf asking for a Tokyo trip again, the 3rd or 4th within this one year plus. And then a Tiffany ring with diamonds all around and a big one in the middle.
I recalled watching Ps TB Joshua in Nigeria and those woman with a spirit of Lust to tempt the man they had attracted to them and to curse them to empty their wealth etc, I reminded P of her expensive taste.
Yes, many a time, her emotion will arise to be jealous of something and it means a time for P to pay. As I had seen many times the whole of last year to this year, when P asked me what had he changed, I told him he has become very generous and that's good for woman.
As her desire ideas is getting more and more expensive, and this is because she is jealous of P take the weekends to be with Jc and didn't go out having fun with her. She does not care if Jc need to revise for the coming PSLE or whatever. She just want her fun!!!
Last weekend talk and yesterday talk with P, she must have demanded for those payment and I guess P showed her what I had wrote to him as my advice to him. She shot a long message in her Facebook for me!!!
I am not happy that P used me to block her demand!!! He did not have the gut to say No to her that he had to use my message that got her mad with me!!!
With this tactic of him, in Chinese, it's called borrow knife to kill someone; means using someone else to get the job done. I have my end of end of him. This is enough! I told Lord I do not want him anymore, could He bring a new man to me.
I want a new life, not back to the same man that I faced no love from day 1 after the honeymoon!!! He was back to himself and facing his PC the whole day through! He only surfaced to answer me, otherwise, he could be with the PC the whole day.
Lord answered me. He said He is giving him the last of the last chance. Also, He want me to be dead of him again in firmness. With this event, I am very sure I do not want any life with him anymore! To think back of those 10 years, it's a sense of undesirable that I do not want to step even a step back there!!!
Lord then disclosed the man that He had chosen to me is the one that He gave me double vision long ago. One vision to look at Prince while he preached and another vision on this guy with a side view!!!
Lord said he is the one that He has planned and He will bring him forth in due time. Glory Glory!!!
Last night, while talking to Jc about I really don't want to be with her daddy anymore, she said, 'that's the adult problem, nothing about her'. I asked her what make her think of that. I asked, 'is it her own love relationship made her realise Love cannot be forced?' She said, 'yes.'
I thank Lord that give Jc such a clear understanding that Love cannot be forced! She saw it from her friend, XY jumping from a boy to another and mainly it's those boys rejecting her in the end to her eventually found love from a Sec 2 boy of her friend's brother. All these love relationships is a new area of learning for Jc that she could understand her parents relationship better!!! Hallelujah!!!
Lord let every of us hearts to be settled, to be grounded. He makes everyone of us comfortable with the current situation before bringing forth the next one for me to enjoy! Glory Glory!!! Only Him would know the important of each of our hearts!!! Glory Glory to such a caring Father!!!
I thank Lord that I have Him as my Father!!! Without Him, I don't know where will I be!!! I praise His Holy Name!!! The Name of Jesus above all names!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
I recalled watching Ps TB Joshua in Nigeria and those woman with a spirit of Lust to tempt the man they had attracted to them and to curse them to empty their wealth etc, I reminded P of her expensive taste.
Yes, many a time, her emotion will arise to be jealous of something and it means a time for P to pay. As I had seen many times the whole of last year to this year, when P asked me what had he changed, I told him he has become very generous and that's good for woman.
As her desire ideas is getting more and more expensive, and this is because she is jealous of P take the weekends to be with Jc and didn't go out having fun with her. She does not care if Jc need to revise for the coming PSLE or whatever. She just want her fun!!!
Last weekend talk and yesterday talk with P, she must have demanded for those payment and I guess P showed her what I had wrote to him as my advice to him. She shot a long message in her Facebook for me!!!
I am not happy that P used me to block her demand!!! He did not have the gut to say No to her that he had to use my message that got her mad with me!!!
With this tactic of him, in Chinese, it's called borrow knife to kill someone; means using someone else to get the job done. I have my end of end of him. This is enough! I told Lord I do not want him anymore, could He bring a new man to me.
I want a new life, not back to the same man that I faced no love from day 1 after the honeymoon!!! He was back to himself and facing his PC the whole day through! He only surfaced to answer me, otherwise, he could be with the PC the whole day.
Lord answered me. He said He is giving him the last of the last chance. Also, He want me to be dead of him again in firmness. With this event, I am very sure I do not want any life with him anymore! To think back of those 10 years, it's a sense of undesirable that I do not want to step even a step back there!!!
Lord then disclosed the man that He had chosen to me is the one that He gave me double vision long ago. One vision to look at Prince while he preached and another vision on this guy with a side view!!!
Lord said he is the one that He has planned and He will bring him forth in due time. Glory Glory!!!
Last night, while talking to Jc about I really don't want to be with her daddy anymore, she said, 'that's the adult problem, nothing about her'. I asked her what make her think of that. I asked, 'is it her own love relationship made her realise Love cannot be forced?' She said, 'yes.'
I thank Lord that give Jc such a clear understanding that Love cannot be forced! She saw it from her friend, XY jumping from a boy to another and mainly it's those boys rejecting her in the end to her eventually found love from a Sec 2 boy of her friend's brother. All these love relationships is a new area of learning for Jc that she could understand her parents relationship better!!! Hallelujah!!!
Lord let every of us hearts to be settled, to be grounded. He makes everyone of us comfortable with the current situation before bringing forth the next one for me to enjoy! Glory Glory!!! Only Him would know the important of each of our hearts!!! Glory Glory to such a caring Father!!!
I thank Lord that I have Him as my Father!!! Without Him, I don't know where will I be!!! I praise His Holy Name!!! The Name of Jesus above all names!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Thursday, July 18, 2013
A Lost Sheep
I am feeling sad for a brother-in-Christ. Lord saw his eagerness to serve Him and gave me wisdom to spar with him God Words and about the Law. He was previously a Christian but in his search of getting near God, he went back to the Mt Senai and felt that he had come close to Lord. I am very sad because of his learning of the covenant.
If it is just Law that he has confused himself with, I still would be happy to lead him out. After all, it's by Grace that Lord revealed so much to me that I shall not be selfish in enjoying the blessing myself and leave others to their wilderness.
In the process of crossing sword in the words of God, he finally revealed he only look to 1 God and he downgrade Jesus in the bible to mere man and even disbelieve what Lord had revealed to the saints in the bibles like Paul etc....he said they are mere men...meaning what they said in the bible, he rejected.
I could not speak to someone who treated Lord Jesus as a mere man as friend or someone to communicate in any form with. It's one thing to reject Jesus Saving Grace out of ignorance and it's another issue to know about who Jesus is and deny him like what the Galatians fearing the Pharisees of their day and age, wanted to go back to Law. There was no threat on his life, it's his choice to go back to the old system and totally deny what the bible said about Jesus.
He only pick those verses that supported him, his law, to come against Christian and condemned things about Christianity as a lie!!! How to talk anything more with such a person? I don't know. After he put Lord Jesus in the bible as a mere man, Lord in me became stunned and retreated the Grace, He had given me to lead him. He totally stopped the flow and I have no more words nor emotion left to even utter another word to him!!! Sad Sad Sad!!!
Lord showed him some Grace in healing him from a disease that he thought is his 'obedient' to the Law that Lord is blessing him. Lord wants to show him His Grace after all, He don't want him to be continue to be lost as he has a heart for Him. But, alas all effort down the drain. His heart too hard to penetrate through that Lord give up.
He sound like a Pharisee that used the Law to knock Christian. It's not like he walks in the fullness of the Law but at what is convenient to him and he thought he walk in fullness of it. For, if one is so full of Law and Holiness by the Law, he would love God so much and look to him so much. And forgiveness to his enemy would be easy but he said his righteous anger is peaking!!! Really as the bible said, Law give strength to Sin!!!
He even wanted to get me to embrace the Law!!! Obedient by Grace through the Spirit is a lot easier as we yoke with Him and He provided the Grace for us to walk it out. Nothing by our own effort!!! If man can, Jesus didn't need to waste His trip down to earth to save man.
It is precisely man could not that God the Father had to send His Son, Jesus Christ down to earth to be our Saviour! He had to wear this earthly body and walk the perfect righteous life for us and then went to the Cross to die our death, he even bother about our curses and generation curse that He went to the tree as man who hang on the tree are cursed.
He did that to set us free of all form of curses!!! Glory Glory!!! His Body was so minced up that it didn't resemble any human form. Our sins and our lawlessness and all the fear, stress and condemnation are so ugly that Lord's Body had to be so minced to take all our filthiness.
But as He, Jesus the Lord, is greater than sin, after the holy indignation Fire Judgment by God the Father, the veil that shield man's eye of heart and from the Tabernacle, the Holy of Holy were tore so that now man could come to God closely through the blood of Jesus that washes each of us Whiter than snow. He proclaimed 'It is Finished!' before He dismissed His Spirit with everything done!!!
Now, we walk by His Grace and our life He leads to walk out the Holiness with ease. It's all about Him and His Saving Grace. He gave us a glimpse of Him in the book of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.
His Perfect Work at the Cross is so beautiful that there is no way we could thank Him enough for all that He had done for us. Yet, this lost sheep said there is nothing beauty about Him to talk about!!! That was how lost he is!!!
I know God's Heart, He don't easily give up a sheep. Even about leading WK to come closer to be use, Lord used 5 years to convince her before giving up and said she is not usable. I don't know how many saints has Lord sent to talk to him. But usually, Lord sent me as the last resort. Since thru me he still could not bow down to his pride in his works, Lord said his heart is hard!!! And told me to stop.
Lord let me pen this out to free my heart of keeping all that about him. I know if all ways to lead him fail, when he goes heaven after his life here expires, he will know the Truth by then, so I will let him go and let him slowly find his way out of the wilderness.
Lord, thank You for all the Grace given to me to talk to him. I appreciates that. Glory Glory to all that You have done in me and through me. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Zechariah 6:15
'And those who are far off will come and build in the Palace of the LORD and you will know that the LORD of Hosts has sent Me to you. And this will be, if you diligently Obey the Voice of the LORD your God.
If it is just Law that he has confused himself with, I still would be happy to lead him out. After all, it's by Grace that Lord revealed so much to me that I shall not be selfish in enjoying the blessing myself and leave others to their wilderness.
In the process of crossing sword in the words of God, he finally revealed he only look to 1 God and he downgrade Jesus in the bible to mere man and even disbelieve what Lord had revealed to the saints in the bibles like Paul etc....he said they are mere men...meaning what they said in the bible, he rejected.
I could not speak to someone who treated Lord Jesus as a mere man as friend or someone to communicate in any form with. It's one thing to reject Jesus Saving Grace out of ignorance and it's another issue to know about who Jesus is and deny him like what the Galatians fearing the Pharisees of their day and age, wanted to go back to Law. There was no threat on his life, it's his choice to go back to the old system and totally deny what the bible said about Jesus.
He only pick those verses that supported him, his law, to come against Christian and condemned things about Christianity as a lie!!! How to talk anything more with such a person? I don't know. After he put Lord Jesus in the bible as a mere man, Lord in me became stunned and retreated the Grace, He had given me to lead him. He totally stopped the flow and I have no more words nor emotion left to even utter another word to him!!! Sad Sad Sad!!!
Lord showed him some Grace in healing him from a disease that he thought is his 'obedient' to the Law that Lord is blessing him. Lord wants to show him His Grace after all, He don't want him to be continue to be lost as he has a heart for Him. But, alas all effort down the drain. His heart too hard to penetrate through that Lord give up.
He sound like a Pharisee that used the Law to knock Christian. It's not like he walks in the fullness of the Law but at what is convenient to him and he thought he walk in fullness of it. For, if one is so full of Law and Holiness by the Law, he would love God so much and look to him so much. And forgiveness to his enemy would be easy but he said his righteous anger is peaking!!! Really as the bible said, Law give strength to Sin!!!
He even wanted to get me to embrace the Law!!! Obedient by Grace through the Spirit is a lot easier as we yoke with Him and He provided the Grace for us to walk it out. Nothing by our own effort!!! If man can, Jesus didn't need to waste His trip down to earth to save man.
It is precisely man could not that God the Father had to send His Son, Jesus Christ down to earth to be our Saviour! He had to wear this earthly body and walk the perfect righteous life for us and then went to the Cross to die our death, he even bother about our curses and generation curse that He went to the tree as man who hang on the tree are cursed.
He did that to set us free of all form of curses!!! Glory Glory!!! His Body was so minced up that it didn't resemble any human form. Our sins and our lawlessness and all the fear, stress and condemnation are so ugly that Lord's Body had to be so minced to take all our filthiness.
But as He, Jesus the Lord, is greater than sin, after the holy indignation Fire Judgment by God the Father, the veil that shield man's eye of heart and from the Tabernacle, the Holy of Holy were tore so that now man could come to God closely through the blood of Jesus that washes each of us Whiter than snow. He proclaimed 'It is Finished!' before He dismissed His Spirit with everything done!!!
Now, we walk by His Grace and our life He leads to walk out the Holiness with ease. It's all about Him and His Saving Grace. He gave us a glimpse of Him in the book of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.
His Perfect Work at the Cross is so beautiful that there is no way we could thank Him enough for all that He had done for us. Yet, this lost sheep said there is nothing beauty about Him to talk about!!! That was how lost he is!!!
I know God's Heart, He don't easily give up a sheep. Even about leading WK to come closer to be use, Lord used 5 years to convince her before giving up and said she is not usable. I don't know how many saints has Lord sent to talk to him. But usually, Lord sent me as the last resort. Since thru me he still could not bow down to his pride in his works, Lord said his heart is hard!!! And told me to stop.
Lord let me pen this out to free my heart of keeping all that about him. I know if all ways to lead him fail, when he goes heaven after his life here expires, he will know the Truth by then, so I will let him go and let him slowly find his way out of the wilderness.
Lord, thank You for all the Grace given to me to talk to him. I appreciates that. Glory Glory to all that You have done in me and through me. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Zechariah 6:15
'And those who are far off will come and build in the Palace of the LORD and you will know that the LORD of Hosts has sent Me to you. And this will be, if you diligently Obey the Voice of the LORD your God.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
The Pride
Who need Jesus Saving Hand? The able or the disable?
Many a time, when one feels that he is capable or able to have a decent life, no one with the 'sane' mind will think they need God. This is how the fallen world, in the hand of darkness, man lives.
We can walk in the desert of wilderness, complaining and complaining and even glad of what one is capable to gather for oneself, no matter what the evilness is done in the process. But Lord Grace win it all!!!!
He said 'It is Done, It is Finished!!!' why must He claimed that at the Cross???!!!
Men do not know 'it is Finished', 'it is Done', in Christ! That they are striving each day to do good, to earn what he deserve and to look at that meager income at the end of the day, at the end of the week and at the end of the month and signed.
Day in, day out, without a purpose, they are toiling and toiling. The smart will feel they have done their deeds and deserve their pay. Their joy is about spending what they earn to buy some happiness.
But Jesus at the Cross said whatever you need I had Done at the Cross. Even the Shalom Peace, the Love of God, the Love in our heart, all is Done and Completed!!!
But man still look to self and toiling in their disable or glad in their smartness.
Why Lord allowed Lucifer to fall into pride and be kick out of Heaven by the Blood of the Lamb of God? He has given each of us, His Creation, the Freedom of Choice. You can be like Lucifer, joy in your pride. Or you can be like Jesus, always looking to the Father and the Anointing within, He never look at Himself even till death!!! Glory Glory!!!
LORD GOD, Himself, will never force His Creation to come to Him. He will only demonstrated His Love for all to see, and from there, He said the Work is Finished, now come and enjoy my Shalom Peace, My Kingdom of God and His Righteousness. Once you have Jesus in your heart, why He said Heart???
When one love someone, who did you have in your heart? Who did you think in your brain? Who did you speak in your mouth? When you are so full of the One who love you, who do you think you have in your heart, in your brain and in your mouth???
It is when we fully understood of His Love for us individually, that means, you, you alone, personalised, that one could receive the Fullness of His Grace in Full manifestation.
It is when one see nothing of oneself. It is when one see that he could not, it is when one see that he is not able, then He would run to God, run to Jesus Finished Work, run to His Love, the Fullness of His Love, and to remain, to be bathed in the Fullness of His Love and be calm in His Shalom Peace.
If one don't want His Love, He feels hurt but He will not force one to Him. He let him choose his path. Looking to self is about Pride. So, when one look to self, he is looking to Lucifer and thus, Hell is where he is heading.
Is Lord sad? Yes, His Sadness when His Love turns away from Him, no one could understand. To see His Provision ready but being refused and to see His Love turn to the Pride of Lucifer or to their self pity, self abilities, He does feel sad.
But as long as you are still on earth, He could hope that His Love will eventually knows about His Love for them all. This is the shortest and easiest suffering in the toiling of life, or the looking for enjoyment.
All these expired when the lies of Lucifer won and you die to this world and led to the path to the Kingdom of darkness. This is where one has no fend of whatever wealth, power or status, he has had.
In the Kingdom of darkness, the fallen angels will torture the love of God, you who disbelieve in Christ, and believe in Lucifer, in his multiple names he has given himself to be god.
This is where the soul will suffer the fullness blow from the fallen angels. Is there any hope at this point? Yes, Lord in the book of Revelation said that when He judge Satan at the end of time, the people that had gone to be with him will be judge. Lord will give you one last chance.
He will have His Book of Life with Him. This is the final time you could make a choice of Him or the devil. If you choose him, at least after 1500 years of suffering, finally you could enjoy the Fullness of His Love. But if you choose Lucifer, your spirit will be destroyed fully with those fallen angels in the Lake of Fire!!! Glory Glory!!!
There is another suffering of those who is alive but after the rapture of the Kingdom of God and His Saints. I just know that this beast, who rule after all the churches are raptured, will behead those who don't believe in him. At that point, you have no choice of who you want to believe or not believe. It is either death or Lucifer!!!
After the 7 years of Judgment, you will come to the throne of Grace and be judge!!! Do you want to be the sheep or the goat. Sheep said mia mia, help me, save me, goat said, with his horn facing forward, he will charge aka look to self ability.
The name of those who wants to trust self will be fully removed from the Book of Life while those repent and wanted to be saved will have His Righteous Hand carries you to the Kingdom of God.
With this final Judgement, the Earth will burn away with the Pride and all the fallen angels. Lord will created a New Earth and New Heaven again and all the saints will live in them for eternity!!! Glory Glory!!! By then, we will dwell in Eden and fellowship with God again!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Many a time, when one feels that he is capable or able to have a decent life, no one with the 'sane' mind will think they need God. This is how the fallen world, in the hand of darkness, man lives.
We can walk in the desert of wilderness, complaining and complaining and even glad of what one is capable to gather for oneself, no matter what the evilness is done in the process. But Lord Grace win it all!!!!
He said 'It is Done, It is Finished!!!' why must He claimed that at the Cross???!!!
Men do not know 'it is Finished', 'it is Done', in Christ! That they are striving each day to do good, to earn what he deserve and to look at that meager income at the end of the day, at the end of the week and at the end of the month and signed.
Day in, day out, without a purpose, they are toiling and toiling. The smart will feel they have done their deeds and deserve their pay. Their joy is about spending what they earn to buy some happiness.
But Jesus at the Cross said whatever you need I had Done at the Cross. Even the Shalom Peace, the Love of God, the Love in our heart, all is Done and Completed!!!
But man still look to self and toiling in their disable or glad in their smartness.
Why Lord allowed Lucifer to fall into pride and be kick out of Heaven by the Blood of the Lamb of God? He has given each of us, His Creation, the Freedom of Choice. You can be like Lucifer, joy in your pride. Or you can be like Jesus, always looking to the Father and the Anointing within, He never look at Himself even till death!!! Glory Glory!!!
LORD GOD, Himself, will never force His Creation to come to Him. He will only demonstrated His Love for all to see, and from there, He said the Work is Finished, now come and enjoy my Shalom Peace, My Kingdom of God and His Righteousness. Once you have Jesus in your heart, why He said Heart???
When one love someone, who did you have in your heart? Who did you think in your brain? Who did you speak in your mouth? When you are so full of the One who love you, who do you think you have in your heart, in your brain and in your mouth???
It is when we fully understood of His Love for us individually, that means, you, you alone, personalised, that one could receive the Fullness of His Grace in Full manifestation.
It is when one see nothing of oneself. It is when one see that he could not, it is when one see that he is not able, then He would run to God, run to Jesus Finished Work, run to His Love, the Fullness of His Love, and to remain, to be bathed in the Fullness of His Love and be calm in His Shalom Peace.
If one don't want His Love, He feels hurt but He will not force one to Him. He let him choose his path. Looking to self is about Pride. So, when one look to self, he is looking to Lucifer and thus, Hell is where he is heading.
Is Lord sad? Yes, His Sadness when His Love turns away from Him, no one could understand. To see His Provision ready but being refused and to see His Love turn to the Pride of Lucifer or to their self pity, self abilities, He does feel sad.
But as long as you are still on earth, He could hope that His Love will eventually knows about His Love for them all. This is the shortest and easiest suffering in the toiling of life, or the looking for enjoyment.
All these expired when the lies of Lucifer won and you die to this world and led to the path to the Kingdom of darkness. This is where one has no fend of whatever wealth, power or status, he has had.
In the Kingdom of darkness, the fallen angels will torture the love of God, you who disbelieve in Christ, and believe in Lucifer, in his multiple names he has given himself to be god.
This is where the soul will suffer the fullness blow from the fallen angels. Is there any hope at this point? Yes, Lord in the book of Revelation said that when He judge Satan at the end of time, the people that had gone to be with him will be judge. Lord will give you one last chance.
He will have His Book of Life with Him. This is the final time you could make a choice of Him or the devil. If you choose him, at least after 1500 years of suffering, finally you could enjoy the Fullness of His Love. But if you choose Lucifer, your spirit will be destroyed fully with those fallen angels in the Lake of Fire!!! Glory Glory!!!
There is another suffering of those who is alive but after the rapture of the Kingdom of God and His Saints. I just know that this beast, who rule after all the churches are raptured, will behead those who don't believe in him. At that point, you have no choice of who you want to believe or not believe. It is either death or Lucifer!!!
After the 7 years of Judgment, you will come to the throne of Grace and be judge!!! Do you want to be the sheep or the goat. Sheep said mia mia, help me, save me, goat said, with his horn facing forward, he will charge aka look to self ability.
The name of those who wants to trust self will be fully removed from the Book of Life while those repent and wanted to be saved will have His Righteous Hand carries you to the Kingdom of God.
With this final Judgement, the Earth will burn away with the Pride and all the fallen angels. Lord will created a New Earth and New Heaven again and all the saints will live in them for eternity!!! Glory Glory!!! By then, we will dwell in Eden and fellowship with God again!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Saturday, July 13, 2013
A Moment in Time
Previously, when I was a younger Christian, Lord would let me know which of my family members facing death and He would led me to pray for them if they agreeable. Lately, I am 'promoted' to know event that are happening. But I have no clue what's happening, just a scratchy feeling.
Nowadays, one of the hot topic here is the double murder of a father and son in Kovan. Why would I mention this case here. Well, I was around Kovan just a few weeks back. Exactly when I am not sure. But there was one such day where I was supposed to take a bus from the bus-stop and had got out of the MRT station to the surface of the road.
Somehow, my eye sight was led to the road sign, Hillside Drive. I was thinking, what a name, since that area wasn't a hill but have such a name!!! It was a weird cloudy blur feeling about something going to happen there!!! But with a don't bother attitude, I was thinking to myself, this side road is a distance away from Kovan and I was thinking whatever going to happen there won't be near to Kovan!!!!
With that thought, I totally forget about it!!! It was yesterday morning when I was doing some marketing that I heard about a saleslady telling a customer about a nasty news about a father and a son.
As I was clueless, I checked the online news upon reaching home and was overwhelmed with the nastiness of the murder case that had happened!!! And as I had thought, the body of the son was dragged till Kovan and stopped right there!!!
The more I think of it, the more weird I am thinking of what I've encountered with the revelation and now such thing happened!!! Maybe next time I should not be so mind my own business but plea the blood of Jesus over it so that evil could not do what it want there!!!
I was too numb about it to think about praying for what Lord revealed to me. This is the 2nd time! The first was the Pastor, whom was killed in Cambodia. I wasn't used to pray for people that I didn't pray to Lord for what He let me know beforehand!!! Only those close to me would I be bother.
From now on, by the Grace of Jesus, I will be more active in praying for whatever Lord revealed to me. Lord, you have to remind me!!! Thank You for the revelation!!!
From the lately development, things that happens around me, I know the way Lord is leading me. What I didn't share was this someone that I felt I could click well with. At least, he was a lot in agreement in the view of Christ than P. I did enjoyed talking to him.
But, Lord told me to totally block him away that the next day, even though I was still thinking of him, I could not find him anymore. I think it's about the blocking function!!!
Today, Lord revealed in meditation that if I continued talking to him, things will happen between us naturally, as we are much alike, the same nature of personality. But Lord said under such condition, there is no need for His Grace to come though and would make His Grace useless in such scenario!!!
He wants to bring P back to me. He said due to P great different, His Grace will be shown when all the evil spirits are removed from him fully. He let me realise for Jc study I am trusting in His Grace and Mercy, then I should trust Him for the Grace and Mercy to bring a goody P back to me!!!
Well, as a obedient daughter, I removed my unhappiness and submitted fully to Him. In a way, it's good to make the family whole, esp for Jc sake!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
As Christ is returning, things out there are getting darker and darker!!! While my life is getting brighter and brighter!!! Surely I wish Lord Jesus will quickly return and peace could be restore fully!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Nowadays, one of the hot topic here is the double murder of a father and son in Kovan. Why would I mention this case here. Well, I was around Kovan just a few weeks back. Exactly when I am not sure. But there was one such day where I was supposed to take a bus from the bus-stop and had got out of the MRT station to the surface of the road.
Somehow, my eye sight was led to the road sign, Hillside Drive. I was thinking, what a name, since that area wasn't a hill but have such a name!!! It was a weird cloudy blur feeling about something going to happen there!!! But with a don't bother attitude, I was thinking to myself, this side road is a distance away from Kovan and I was thinking whatever going to happen there won't be near to Kovan!!!!
With that thought, I totally forget about it!!! It was yesterday morning when I was doing some marketing that I heard about a saleslady telling a customer about a nasty news about a father and a son.
As I was clueless, I checked the online news upon reaching home and was overwhelmed with the nastiness of the murder case that had happened!!! And as I had thought, the body of the son was dragged till Kovan and stopped right there!!!
The more I think of it, the more weird I am thinking of what I've encountered with the revelation and now such thing happened!!! Maybe next time I should not be so mind my own business but plea the blood of Jesus over it so that evil could not do what it want there!!!
I was too numb about it to think about praying for what Lord revealed to me. This is the 2nd time! The first was the Pastor, whom was killed in Cambodia. I wasn't used to pray for people that I didn't pray to Lord for what He let me know beforehand!!! Only those close to me would I be bother.
From now on, by the Grace of Jesus, I will be more active in praying for whatever Lord revealed to me. Lord, you have to remind me!!! Thank You for the revelation!!!
From the lately development, things that happens around me, I know the way Lord is leading me. What I didn't share was this someone that I felt I could click well with. At least, he was a lot in agreement in the view of Christ than P. I did enjoyed talking to him.
But, Lord told me to totally block him away that the next day, even though I was still thinking of him, I could not find him anymore. I think it's about the blocking function!!!
Today, Lord revealed in meditation that if I continued talking to him, things will happen between us naturally, as we are much alike, the same nature of personality. But Lord said under such condition, there is no need for His Grace to come though and would make His Grace useless in such scenario!!!
He wants to bring P back to me. He said due to P great different, His Grace will be shown when all the evil spirits are removed from him fully. He let me realise for Jc study I am trusting in His Grace and Mercy, then I should trust Him for the Grace and Mercy to bring a goody P back to me!!!
Well, as a obedient daughter, I removed my unhappiness and submitted fully to Him. In a way, it's good to make the family whole, esp for Jc sake!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
As Christ is returning, things out there are getting darker and darker!!! While my life is getting brighter and brighter!!! Surely I wish Lord Jesus will quickly return and peace could be restore fully!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
The Light of God
I never know that lights could be shine out of man even in darkness cover!!! I was taken for granted many years in the area of baking and cooking. It is just like a joy that it supposed to be. No amount of respect nor thankfulness was given to me. I didn't mind as it was my form of love.
After 3.5years of divorced and even longer, since 2007, I have not bake any chocolate chip cookie nor prepare any Swedish meatball meat mixture. But lately, Lord grew my yielding for chocolate chip cookie.
It is not like there wasn't any chocolate chip cookie selling out there but it taste and it smells was not the same!!! I missed my own baking. The corner that I used to do my baking in the kitchen was left to collect dust all these years as the unhappiness and the after divorce took it time on me and I walk a new life while looking for hope in the Lord and sometime looking back to see any hope!!!
Now, 3.5 years later, Lord was growing my yielding for the cookie and it was time for Jc to get a gift for her daddy's birthday. She wanted me to bring her to the mall to buy something for her daddy.
I know chocolate chip cookie is one of his favourite as he used to request me to bake double the quantity for him to enjoy!!! My girl also likes this cookie!!! As I mentioned to her about this cookie, her keenest to please her daddy, she cleaned up the dust collected on the Kenwood largest mixer and Lord gave me Grace to clean up that corner!!!
She did the measurement for the dough and I helped her in the area she wasn't sure. The recipe gave her 1.5 box on the tupperware box and happily she presented them to her dad and she went to his house to stay for 2 weeks!!! Within 2 weeks, they, the dad and the daughter, completely finished the cookie, Jc said daddy had eaten most of them!!!
And poor me, as it was for her daddy birthday, I only had chance to taste it and had a few left over that could not squeezed into those 2 boxes. My craving for the cookie was still with me. Lord gave me yielding for it again that I just prepared the dough!!! Glory Glory!!!
As I announced to Jc last night that I am going to bake again for myself, Jc asked what about her!!! Hehe, I said sure, whatever that is mine, she could have it too. She was happy and wanted me to bake Subway's cookie chewiness. I just learned a new technique of baking and I am giving it a try again. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
P recently did some Swedish meatball and as I had been longing for it for quite a while, I asked him to bless me a couple to satisfy my need. However, as I bite into it, I could not taste the old taste that I used to mix. Previously, I was the one mixing and he was the one frying. Each of us did what we were good in. As I was not satisfied, I checked with him how he mixed the meat dough and taught him the sequence of my way. Glory Glory!!!
Now, I think I know man need is mainly that innermost satisfaction. If woman could just concentrate on satisfying man in their needs, the rest is easy, even getting him to open his bank account and empty it is easy.
We see this down the history of how man fall under the power of woman that they did all kinds of silly things as long as that area of need is satisfied. This is why P's gf's ex and P both had good opinion of this gf even though she might be a grumpy shitty woman!!! Amazing, right!!!
However, the real Heavenly Joy could only come from Jesus Finished Work and we access the Heavenly realms. How did I survive all these years without a man? In time of need, Lord provides the emotional need to me.
But He only satisfy me at the humanly level. He did not want me to be self satisfactory and do not want a man anymore. He will only give me the fullness of it when a new man come into my life!!! Glory Glory!!! This is how Lord does not want to break us into sinful nature!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am still in the midst of Jesus blessing manifestation. I am not sure where exactly He is leading me at this point. But I am just trusting Him and walking His Way to see the result of the finishing line of the full manifestation. Surely whatever Lord is doing now is good!!! I am enjoying the process!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
After 3.5years of divorced and even longer, since 2007, I have not bake any chocolate chip cookie nor prepare any Swedish meatball meat mixture. But lately, Lord grew my yielding for chocolate chip cookie.
It is not like there wasn't any chocolate chip cookie selling out there but it taste and it smells was not the same!!! I missed my own baking. The corner that I used to do my baking in the kitchen was left to collect dust all these years as the unhappiness and the after divorce took it time on me and I walk a new life while looking for hope in the Lord and sometime looking back to see any hope!!!
Now, 3.5 years later, Lord was growing my yielding for the cookie and it was time for Jc to get a gift for her daddy's birthday. She wanted me to bring her to the mall to buy something for her daddy.
I know chocolate chip cookie is one of his favourite as he used to request me to bake double the quantity for him to enjoy!!! My girl also likes this cookie!!! As I mentioned to her about this cookie, her keenest to please her daddy, she cleaned up the dust collected on the Kenwood largest mixer and Lord gave me Grace to clean up that corner!!!
She did the measurement for the dough and I helped her in the area she wasn't sure. The recipe gave her 1.5 box on the tupperware box and happily she presented them to her dad and she went to his house to stay for 2 weeks!!! Within 2 weeks, they, the dad and the daughter, completely finished the cookie, Jc said daddy had eaten most of them!!!
And poor me, as it was for her daddy birthday, I only had chance to taste it and had a few left over that could not squeezed into those 2 boxes. My craving for the cookie was still with me. Lord gave me yielding for it again that I just prepared the dough!!! Glory Glory!!!
As I announced to Jc last night that I am going to bake again for myself, Jc asked what about her!!! Hehe, I said sure, whatever that is mine, she could have it too. She was happy and wanted me to bake Subway's cookie chewiness. I just learned a new technique of baking and I am giving it a try again. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
P recently did some Swedish meatball and as I had been longing for it for quite a while, I asked him to bless me a couple to satisfy my need. However, as I bite into it, I could not taste the old taste that I used to mix. Previously, I was the one mixing and he was the one frying. Each of us did what we were good in. As I was not satisfied, I checked with him how he mixed the meat dough and taught him the sequence of my way. Glory Glory!!!
Now, I think I know man need is mainly that innermost satisfaction. If woman could just concentrate on satisfying man in their needs, the rest is easy, even getting him to open his bank account and empty it is easy.
We see this down the history of how man fall under the power of woman that they did all kinds of silly things as long as that area of need is satisfied. This is why P's gf's ex and P both had good opinion of this gf even though she might be a grumpy shitty woman!!! Amazing, right!!!
However, the real Heavenly Joy could only come from Jesus Finished Work and we access the Heavenly realms. How did I survive all these years without a man? In time of need, Lord provides the emotional need to me.
But He only satisfy me at the humanly level. He did not want me to be self satisfactory and do not want a man anymore. He will only give me the fullness of it when a new man come into my life!!! Glory Glory!!! This is how Lord does not want to break us into sinful nature!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am still in the midst of Jesus blessing manifestation. I am not sure where exactly He is leading me at this point. But I am just trusting Him and walking His Way to see the result of the finishing line of the full manifestation. Surely whatever Lord is doing now is good!!! I am enjoying the process!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Monday, July 8, 2013
Jesus Finished Work
While talking to this person for a few days, he keeps insisting about keeping the Law as Jesus just finished the sin offering, he claimed. He said now must obey the 10 commandment and the commandment of Law.
It burdens me to see he could not see Jesus Finished Work that I seek the Lord and come to where Lord had instructed Moses on how to atone for the children of Israel and the strangers with them. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
If you really, really want to walk by the Law, and deny Jesus Finished Work, the Completeness of it all, here is what you get:
Sin of Ignorance
Numbers 15:24-26
'...if anything has been committed by Ignorance with the knowledge of the congregation, that the entire congregation will offer one young bull for a burnt offering for a sweet savor to the LORD,
with his grain offering and his drink offering, according to the manner and one he goat for a sin offering.
And the priest will make atonement for the entire congregation of the children of Israel and it will be Forgiven them, for it is ignorance and they will bring their offering, a fire offering to the LORD and their Sin offering before the LORD, for their Ignorance.
And it will be Forgiven the whole congregation of the children of Israel and the stranger who lives among them, seeing all the people were ignorance.'
Sin by Mistake
Numbers 15:27-29
'And if any person Sins by Mistake then he will bring a she goat of the first year for a Sin offering.
And the priest will make atonement for the one who sins ignorantly when he Sins by Mistake before the LORD, to make atonement for him, and it will be forgiven him.
You will have one Torah for him who sins through ignorance, both him who is born among the children of Israel and the stranger who lives among them.'
Sin Intentionally
Numbers 30-31
'But the person that does anything with a high hand (Sin Intentionally), whether he is born in the land or a stranger, he Blasphemes the LORD, and that one will be CUT OFF from among his people.
Because he has Despised the WORD of the LORD and has broken His Commandment, that person would be utterly cut off: his iniquity will be upon him.'
You see, when you sin in ignorance or by mistake, Lord, the Lamb of God has fully redeemed you by being your Ransom! This is a Much More payment as He is a God paying for a man. It's like a Man dying for an ant!!!
But if one totally disregard Him, does not want Jesus as His Saviour, Hell is where he is heading!!!
Working on Sabbath
Numbers 15:32, 34-35
'And while the children of Israel were in the wilderness, they found a man who gathered sticks on the Sabbath.
And the LORD said to Moses, "The man will surely be put to death. The whole congregation will stone him with stones outside the camp."
And the whole congregation brought him outside the camp and stoned him with stones and he died, as the LORD commanded Moses.'
I thank You, Lord Jesus, that You are the Lord of Sabbath!!!! Thank You that You have given unto me Your Shalom, and I am made whole in Your Finished Work!!! And I thank You that now, in You, I am the RIGHTEOUSNESS of GOD!!!
Prayer Shawl
Numbers 15:37-41
'And the LORD spoke to Moses saying, "Speak to the children of Israel and bid them to make fringes for themselves in the wings of their garments throughout their generations and that they put upon the fringe of the border a thread of BLUE,
and it will be to you for a fringe, that you may LOOK upon it and REMEMBER all the commandments of the LORD and do them, and that you Do Not Seek After your Own Heart and your Own Eyes, after which you Used to go Astray,
so you will remember and do all My Commandments and be Holy to your GOD.
I AM the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt (this world), to be your God: I AM the LORD your GOD!!!'
Even under the Law, it's not about self but to look to the Lord, His Words and the Commandments. But praise Jesus!!! With His Finished Work, it is not us and our obedient but His Obedient!!! When we look to Jesus, He call that Faith in Him!!!
Philippians 2:13
'[Not in your own strength] for it is God Who is ALL the While effectually at Work In You [energizing and creating in you the power and desire], Both to will and to work for His Good Pleasure and Satisfaction and Delight.'
Now, we just believe in Jesus and Holy Spirit will be with us to direct us, to give us strength and willingness to read and meditate His Words and to do His Commandments that came through Him. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Our part is to believe, look to Jesus Finished Work, know that Father God loves us and is very pleased to send Lord Jesus, His One and Only Son, to the Cross to fulfill the 10 commandments, the written word on the stones. All our sins are forgiven, all our sickness healed and all our destruction redeemed.
Abba Father even crown us with Loving Kindness and Tender Mercy. Now, He satisfies us with Good things that our youth are renewed like eagle!!! Glory Glory!! Amen Amen!!!
It burdens me to see he could not see Jesus Finished Work that I seek the Lord and come to where Lord had instructed Moses on how to atone for the children of Israel and the strangers with them. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
If you really, really want to walk by the Law, and deny Jesus Finished Work, the Completeness of it all, here is what you get:
Sin of Ignorance
Numbers 15:24-26
'...if anything has been committed by Ignorance with the knowledge of the congregation, that the entire congregation will offer one young bull for a burnt offering for a sweet savor to the LORD,
with his grain offering and his drink offering, according to the manner and one he goat for a sin offering.
And the priest will make atonement for the entire congregation of the children of Israel and it will be Forgiven them, for it is ignorance and they will bring their offering, a fire offering to the LORD and their Sin offering before the LORD, for their Ignorance.
And it will be Forgiven the whole congregation of the children of Israel and the stranger who lives among them, seeing all the people were ignorance.'
Sin by Mistake
Numbers 15:27-29
'And if any person Sins by Mistake then he will bring a she goat of the first year for a Sin offering.
And the priest will make atonement for the one who sins ignorantly when he Sins by Mistake before the LORD, to make atonement for him, and it will be forgiven him.
You will have one Torah for him who sins through ignorance, both him who is born among the children of Israel and the stranger who lives among them.'
Sin Intentionally
Numbers 30-31
'But the person that does anything with a high hand (Sin Intentionally), whether he is born in the land or a stranger, he Blasphemes the LORD, and that one will be CUT OFF from among his people.
Because he has Despised the WORD of the LORD and has broken His Commandment, that person would be utterly cut off: his iniquity will be upon him.'
You see, when you sin in ignorance or by mistake, Lord, the Lamb of God has fully redeemed you by being your Ransom! This is a Much More payment as He is a God paying for a man. It's like a Man dying for an ant!!!
But if one totally disregard Him, does not want Jesus as His Saviour, Hell is where he is heading!!!
Working on Sabbath
Numbers 15:32, 34-35
'And while the children of Israel were in the wilderness, they found a man who gathered sticks on the Sabbath.
And the LORD said to Moses, "The man will surely be put to death. The whole congregation will stone him with stones outside the camp."
And the whole congregation brought him outside the camp and stoned him with stones and he died, as the LORD commanded Moses.'
I thank You, Lord Jesus, that You are the Lord of Sabbath!!!! Thank You that You have given unto me Your Shalom, and I am made whole in Your Finished Work!!! And I thank You that now, in You, I am the RIGHTEOUSNESS of GOD!!!
Prayer Shawl
Numbers 15:37-41
'And the LORD spoke to Moses saying, "Speak to the children of Israel and bid them to make fringes for themselves in the wings of their garments throughout their generations and that they put upon the fringe of the border a thread of BLUE,
and it will be to you for a fringe, that you may LOOK upon it and REMEMBER all the commandments of the LORD and do them, and that you Do Not Seek After your Own Heart and your Own Eyes, after which you Used to go Astray,
so you will remember and do all My Commandments and be Holy to your GOD.
I AM the LORD your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt (this world), to be your God: I AM the LORD your GOD!!!'
Even under the Law, it's not about self but to look to the Lord, His Words and the Commandments. But praise Jesus!!! With His Finished Work, it is not us and our obedient but His Obedient!!! When we look to Jesus, He call that Faith in Him!!!
Philippians 2:13
'[Not in your own strength] for it is God Who is ALL the While effectually at Work In You [energizing and creating in you the power and desire], Both to will and to work for His Good Pleasure and Satisfaction and Delight.'
Now, we just believe in Jesus and Holy Spirit will be with us to direct us, to give us strength and willingness to read and meditate His Words and to do His Commandments that came through Him. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Our part is to believe, look to Jesus Finished Work, know that Father God loves us and is very pleased to send Lord Jesus, His One and Only Son, to the Cross to fulfill the 10 commandments, the written word on the stones. All our sins are forgiven, all our sickness healed and all our destruction redeemed.
Abba Father even crown us with Loving Kindness and Tender Mercy. Now, He satisfies us with Good things that our youth are renewed like eagle!!! Glory Glory!! Amen Amen!!!
Sunday, July 7, 2013
The Glorious Path
I had a good time during pre-service as Lord led me to share my Testimony with a couple that Lord impressed them to come to Singapore, to NCC to learn from Ps Prince. They are so impacted by Grace that it was a joy sharing my Testimony with them. Glory Glory!!!
Lord is leading them to feed on His Words in NCC so that they could go back to where they are from to share with others!!! They are joyful to agree to it!!! Hallelujah!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Deacon Matthew shared the financial situation for the rising of funds so far to pay for the church. We still have 60+ million outstanding from the total about of $470 millions and we all agree it is paid in the name of Jesus. Personally, I know surely, it is paid with abundant left over!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!
I know Lord is faithful!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
It had been a long time since I visited mum. Today, Su finally agreed to go and so we went. It is amazing how curses and medicines could be use to reduce mum to be like a worm. They tried to put other patients in the ward with her. I doubt they are real patients as they looked so healthy!!!
Anyway, whatever they did, without Jesus, hell is where they were be going and surely, might be earlier due to the bad thing they bring to curse themselves. I pity them that they do not realise that. False sense of victory is not victory at all!!! Where they heading is walking into the Grave that many won't know till they died.
I now knows Heaven so well that I could confidently say to sleep is better and to be alive is for the Glory of the Lord!!! So I do not really bother by what they did to mum. She has accepted Christ, and this the most important of all. Her future is bright and devil surely has no match to the Living God!!!
Abba Father, show Your Mighty Strength to the blind, let them realise You, the Almighty One, has Jesus Finished Work backing and nothing can put my mum down!!! The fact that I had not been visiting her in the isolation room because I know Lord Grace is there to look after her!!!
They could feed her tonnes of those red medicine to break her body down but sure they could not do anything to the Spirit within. Abba is with mum and He will make sure she remain alive. Anyway, those that committed those sin, they are the one they have to worry!!!
The wrath of God is with them!!! Surely, He is merciful to His People!!! Glory Glory!!! Especially we are His Covenant People!!! You touch any one with Jews blood you are playing game with the Fury of God!!! You might thought it's other people carrying out the order! But Lord looks into the heart of man!!!
Abba, Father, I thank You for Your Promise to Abraham and surely, You will remember Your Promise to Father Abraham and save each of us out of the temptation of the devil, the lier!!! Lord enlarge our territory and keep us from evil!!! And I thank You that Your Right Hand is with me, with mum and even with Jc to save us out of all evilness!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord is leading them to feed on His Words in NCC so that they could go back to where they are from to share with others!!! They are joyful to agree to it!!! Hallelujah!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Deacon Matthew shared the financial situation for the rising of funds so far to pay for the church. We still have 60+ million outstanding from the total about of $470 millions and we all agree it is paid in the name of Jesus. Personally, I know surely, it is paid with abundant left over!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!
I know Lord is faithful!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
It had been a long time since I visited mum. Today, Su finally agreed to go and so we went. It is amazing how curses and medicines could be use to reduce mum to be like a worm. They tried to put other patients in the ward with her. I doubt they are real patients as they looked so healthy!!!
Anyway, whatever they did, without Jesus, hell is where they were be going and surely, might be earlier due to the bad thing they bring to curse themselves. I pity them that they do not realise that. False sense of victory is not victory at all!!! Where they heading is walking into the Grave that many won't know till they died.
I now knows Heaven so well that I could confidently say to sleep is better and to be alive is for the Glory of the Lord!!! So I do not really bother by what they did to mum. She has accepted Christ, and this the most important of all. Her future is bright and devil surely has no match to the Living God!!!
Abba Father, show Your Mighty Strength to the blind, let them realise You, the Almighty One, has Jesus Finished Work backing and nothing can put my mum down!!! The fact that I had not been visiting her in the isolation room because I know Lord Grace is there to look after her!!!
They could feed her tonnes of those red medicine to break her body down but sure they could not do anything to the Spirit within. Abba is with mum and He will make sure she remain alive. Anyway, those that committed those sin, they are the one they have to worry!!!
The wrath of God is with them!!! Surely, He is merciful to His People!!! Glory Glory!!! Especially we are His Covenant People!!! You touch any one with Jews blood you are playing game with the Fury of God!!! You might thought it's other people carrying out the order! But Lord looks into the heart of man!!!
Abba, Father, I thank You for Your Promise to Abraham and surely, You will remember Your Promise to Father Abraham and save each of us out of the temptation of the devil, the lier!!! Lord enlarge our territory and keep us from evil!!! And I thank You that Your Right Hand is with me, with mum and even with Jc to save us out of all evilness!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Just a Thankful Heart
For the first time in my life, I am thankful to Lord for moving me out of the marriage I was in. After clearly see thru ex, today, as he came to pick Jc, the way he throw dart at me is amazing!!!
I felt my soul being pierced to pieces with all that he throw at me. I have been numbed for so long that I felt nothing about it. But, recently know a person that put name into what he had been saying to me. It's a fresh look at a old thing.
Tonight, his dart came and I was non aware of it. It was now a few hours later that the pain surfaced. Negative, Negative and Negative!!! If I am to find another man again, like what Jc said, one that respect me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
It's one thing he does not believe in Jesus and it's another things He insulted me in his disbelieve. His darts were throw like nobody business. The pain created was amazing hurting. I for the first time thankful to Lord for leading me out of it. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord has been good to me, last night, He led me to watch Heidi Baker asking the teenagers in America to look to Lord and to yield for Him. In the process, I was led to flow with them and Lord called for the anointing of Jesus to be pour on me through the opening of the floodgate of Heaven. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!! He had given me all the nations to minister to. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
As time moving nearer and nearer to manifestation, things are turning well for Jc, her dance teachers saw her potential and had been giving her favour. I am well pleased. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
I could see Lord improving her, speeding her up for His Glory!!! I am just amazed of His Work in her!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
As for ex, I could see that he set no boundary in dealing with me. He can be very friendly as he wished and next moment, as critical as he could!!! No wonder he could easily attract women to him. But it's not good to be his close one for sure!!!
I am willing to move in whichever direction Lord leads me to. At least, with His Godly Wisdom, He would know who could live peacefully with me and at the same time, look to Him for Love!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am glad that Jc had a firm mind on where she is heading to. She used to scare of PSLE. But recently learning and doing, her fear is running low. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am glad that she disclosed why she like me in certain way. At least my love on her is noticed. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
As time is get closer and closer for manifestation, I am happy for Lord!!! I will be the empty vessel for Him and His Glory to demonstrate through. It's nothing about me, but He and He alone. I am just the willing partner to yoke with Him. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord:
'My darling, my love, Abba is well please for you, my beloved daughter, to trust me so much!!! I am very happy!!! Yes, your time in this apartment is expiring and surely I will lead you to My Palace!!! Surely, you will be happy to where you are moving to. Surely Abba will bless you supernatural power in all things you do and in all things that is needed of you. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!'
My Lord, the Love of my life!!! I thank You for Your Presence and for Your Comforting. Abba, I thank You for all things You have planned for me and leading me through. Surely, it is good!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!! I say 'Yes!' to all that You have for me!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
I felt my soul being pierced to pieces with all that he throw at me. I have been numbed for so long that I felt nothing about it. But, recently know a person that put name into what he had been saying to me. It's a fresh look at a old thing.
Tonight, his dart came and I was non aware of it. It was now a few hours later that the pain surfaced. Negative, Negative and Negative!!! If I am to find another man again, like what Jc said, one that respect me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
It's one thing he does not believe in Jesus and it's another things He insulted me in his disbelieve. His darts were throw like nobody business. The pain created was amazing hurting. I for the first time thankful to Lord for leading me out of it. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord has been good to me, last night, He led me to watch Heidi Baker asking the teenagers in America to look to Lord and to yield for Him. In the process, I was led to flow with them and Lord called for the anointing of Jesus to be pour on me through the opening of the floodgate of Heaven. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!! He had given me all the nations to minister to. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
As time moving nearer and nearer to manifestation, things are turning well for Jc, her dance teachers saw her potential and had been giving her favour. I am well pleased. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
I could see Lord improving her, speeding her up for His Glory!!! I am just amazed of His Work in her!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
As for ex, I could see that he set no boundary in dealing with me. He can be very friendly as he wished and next moment, as critical as he could!!! No wonder he could easily attract women to him. But it's not good to be his close one for sure!!!
I am willing to move in whichever direction Lord leads me to. At least, with His Godly Wisdom, He would know who could live peacefully with me and at the same time, look to Him for Love!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am glad that Jc had a firm mind on where she is heading to. She used to scare of PSLE. But recently learning and doing, her fear is running low. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am glad that she disclosed why she like me in certain way. At least my love on her is noticed. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
As time is get closer and closer for manifestation, I am happy for Lord!!! I will be the empty vessel for Him and His Glory to demonstrate through. It's nothing about me, but He and He alone. I am just the willing partner to yoke with Him. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord:
'My darling, my love, Abba is well please for you, my beloved daughter, to trust me so much!!! I am very happy!!! Yes, your time in this apartment is expiring and surely I will lead you to My Palace!!! Surely, you will be happy to where you are moving to. Surely Abba will bless you supernatural power in all things you do and in all things that is needed of you. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!'
My Lord, the Love of my life!!! I thank You for Your Presence and for Your Comforting. Abba, I thank You for all things You have planned for me and leading me through. Surely, it is good!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!! I say 'Yes!' to all that You have for me!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
A New Chapter of My Life
Glory Glory!!! With all the attachment to P fully cleared in me, he is no more my ex but just another individual. All the emotional hold on him are being set free and I shall not call him my ex any more, I am also no more his ex, but a New Creation in Christ Jesus!!! Glory Glory!!!
Just like Abraham letting Lot out of his life, Lord said I have let P totally out of my life. He said I am now heading towards where He has placed me from the beginning. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am so glad with this new identity!!! After 3.5 years of ding dong, finally the day to be set free is here! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord said what He laid ahead for me to receive I have now step into it. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! No more I am link to the old, it is gone!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!
From today onwards, I feel a fresh anointing pouring upon me. Hallelujah!!! It is so light and so free!!! All the emotional baggage are gone, fully gone!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Father, I thank You for this day!!! I thank You for all that You Are and I thank You for all that You have made me to be in You, with You! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Just like Abraham letting Lot out of his life, Lord said I have let P totally out of my life. He said I am now heading towards where He has placed me from the beginning. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
I am so glad with this new identity!!! After 3.5 years of ding dong, finally the day to be set free is here! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord said what He laid ahead for me to receive I have now step into it. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! No more I am link to the old, it is gone!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!
From today onwards, I feel a fresh anointing pouring upon me. Hallelujah!!! It is so light and so free!!! All the emotional baggage are gone, fully gone!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Father, I thank You for this day!!! I thank You for all that You Are and I thank You for all that You have made me to be in You, with You! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
The Last of the Chance
With all the ding dong between ex and the new man all these years, I finally understand what Lord is leading me through. Glory Glory to Him for loving me so much!!!
Lord knows that I have a soft heart. Whatever He wants me to have, He is merciful to slowly let it shows to me all in all. Glory Glory!!!
If you have been following me, you know Lord led me to open the can of worms in ex so that my love for him would get lesser and lesser till I totally don't want him at all and with a hard up heart!!!
Then Lord softened my heart through a dream and I become okay to accept him again. Lord led me to walk through a few open door to see him not keen to return at all no matter what the temptation is/was.
Recently, an displeasure of his girlfriend and moving away, Lord gave him one last chance to come back to me. He was even okay to go with me to Jc's concert!!! First time he specified he will go with me, not his girlfriend.
From Jc facebook, I saw her posting and she had walked away and now walked back. With her walking back, now he didn't reply on my query if it is still okay for me to go with him!!!
He show his reluctant to return, open some door but most others shut. With their patch back, even this open door also partially shut now. Glory to Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord through all these small reaction of his to the temptation, to see if he is keen to return. After the last try, He knows my heart now know he is not interested with me anymore. With this, He said it's the end of giving him chance!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Through Sunday Pastor Prince pre-sermon preaching, He let me realise it's important to have a Christian spouse so that he could give me agape love, the self sacrificing love of God!!! I finally got it on Sunday.
Ps Prince said that man without Christ, is only keen in having himself satisfied. When he give love, he is looking at what he could get in return. He could not give unconditional love that only man with Jesus could give.
I received this message in that small opened door and was quickly shut as Lord knows I have received it and He need not open another revelation for me to receive. Glory to Him!!! Hallelujah!!!
As time of manifestation is near, He make sure I am ready to receive the Fullness of His Blessing. He said I will be young and beautiful again and I will be enriched. He said when He put me in that realm, ex will be tempted much. But, with the knowledge that He revealed to me about ex not keen in me, I am to reject him when he comes to me under the new enhanced environment.
Lord said He will bring my new man to me and I will be happy with him. Lord wants to me to give this new man chance that He showed me ex is not keen so that I will not U-turn. As ex is my familiar ground. The new man needs time for me to fully know him. So, if both stand before me, of course in the natural, I will go back to the familiar ground.
But with Lord revelation, I will not go for the familiar ground but go explore the new field!!! This is what Lord is leading me to walk into. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
You see, Lord is such a patient and merciful God. He takes His time to let me slowly come in line with what He wants to bless me. He don't command me to walk with Him at His Knowledge of the End. He leads me slowly through the years to see clearer and clearer!!! Isn't He GOOD???
I don't know why Pastors and some Christians always want to go into Law that Lord demand us this and that of obedience of Law...blah blah blah....the Lord I see is not what they have painted. But Gentle and He let me walk in my comfort, in my time I needed to come into agreement with Him. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
He has all the Time He could wait for us to walk in line with the Plan He wants to put us into. The way is to continue walk with Him and let Him leads us to all area of understanding that we need before putting us at where He wants to put us!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
This is also the time needed by Jc to come to term with the divorce between her daddy and mummy has nothing to do with her nor her wants. It's the adult problem as she put it. She said last night she does not care if ex with someone and me with someone or ex and me together. She said as long as she still has her daddy and mummy, the rest of the equation, she does not care!!! Praise Jesus!!! Glory Glory!!!
The timing is just perfect for us all. He knows what He needs to do to let Jc heart be stable and mine to realise His Plan is better. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Abba Father, by the Grace of Lord Jesus, I thank You for all that You have done in my life, in Jc's life and even in ex's life. I thank You for the new man that You are bringing into my life!!!! I thank You for the new life you are leading me into. Glory Glory to You and to Jesus Finished Work at the Cross that makes all these Possible for He is I AM Possible!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord knows that I have a soft heart. Whatever He wants me to have, He is merciful to slowly let it shows to me all in all. Glory Glory!!!
If you have been following me, you know Lord led me to open the can of worms in ex so that my love for him would get lesser and lesser till I totally don't want him at all and with a hard up heart!!!
Then Lord softened my heart through a dream and I become okay to accept him again. Lord led me to walk through a few open door to see him not keen to return at all no matter what the temptation is/was.
Recently, an displeasure of his girlfriend and moving away, Lord gave him one last chance to come back to me. He was even okay to go with me to Jc's concert!!! First time he specified he will go with me, not his girlfriend.
From Jc facebook, I saw her posting and she had walked away and now walked back. With her walking back, now he didn't reply on my query if it is still okay for me to go with him!!!
He show his reluctant to return, open some door but most others shut. With their patch back, even this open door also partially shut now. Glory to Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!
Lord through all these small reaction of his to the temptation, to see if he is keen to return. After the last try, He knows my heart now know he is not interested with me anymore. With this, He said it's the end of giving him chance!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!
Through Sunday Pastor Prince pre-sermon preaching, He let me realise it's important to have a Christian spouse so that he could give me agape love, the self sacrificing love of God!!! I finally got it on Sunday.
Ps Prince said that man without Christ, is only keen in having himself satisfied. When he give love, he is looking at what he could get in return. He could not give unconditional love that only man with Jesus could give.
I received this message in that small opened door and was quickly shut as Lord knows I have received it and He need not open another revelation for me to receive. Glory to Him!!! Hallelujah!!!
As time of manifestation is near, He make sure I am ready to receive the Fullness of His Blessing. He said I will be young and beautiful again and I will be enriched. He said when He put me in that realm, ex will be tempted much. But, with the knowledge that He revealed to me about ex not keen in me, I am to reject him when he comes to me under the new enhanced environment.
Lord said He will bring my new man to me and I will be happy with him. Lord wants to me to give this new man chance that He showed me ex is not keen so that I will not U-turn. As ex is my familiar ground. The new man needs time for me to fully know him. So, if both stand before me, of course in the natural, I will go back to the familiar ground.
But with Lord revelation, I will not go for the familiar ground but go explore the new field!!! This is what Lord is leading me to walk into. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
You see, Lord is such a patient and merciful God. He takes His time to let me slowly come in line with what He wants to bless me. He don't command me to walk with Him at His Knowledge of the End. He leads me slowly through the years to see clearer and clearer!!! Isn't He GOOD???
I don't know why Pastors and some Christians always want to go into Law that Lord demand us this and that of obedience of Law...blah blah blah....the Lord I see is not what they have painted. But Gentle and He let me walk in my comfort, in my time I needed to come into agreement with Him. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
He has all the Time He could wait for us to walk in line with the Plan He wants to put us into. The way is to continue walk with Him and let Him leads us to all area of understanding that we need before putting us at where He wants to put us!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
This is also the time needed by Jc to come to term with the divorce between her daddy and mummy has nothing to do with her nor her wants. It's the adult problem as she put it. She said last night she does not care if ex with someone and me with someone or ex and me together. She said as long as she still has her daddy and mummy, the rest of the equation, she does not care!!! Praise Jesus!!! Glory Glory!!!
The timing is just perfect for us all. He knows what He needs to do to let Jc heart be stable and mine to realise His Plan is better. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
Abba Father, by the Grace of Lord Jesus, I thank You for all that You have done in my life, in Jc's life and even in ex's life. I thank You for the new man that You are bringing into my life!!!! I thank You for the new life you are leading me into. Glory Glory to You and to Jesus Finished Work at the Cross that makes all these Possible for He is I AM Possible!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!
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