This morning, as I was meditating on Hebrews 12:29, I saw abba, My God, is a consuming fire. At that moment, I realised how mighty and great is the work of Jesus on the Cross. The Greatness of His Grace and Mercy! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
If you look at the old covenant, under the Law, the Israelite supposed to rest on the 7th day, day of Sabbath. When this man disobeyed, and went to collect some wood for fire, he was strike dead.
Now the new covenant, secured by the Blood of Jesus, our part is to Believe. Those who, disbelieve the work of Jesus, falls into SIN. However, did you see anyone who disbelieve the goodness of Jesus being strike death? NOOOO....that is not because how good we are.
It is because of the Blood of Jesus. His Grace and Mercy for the whole human race is so so so GREAT that the work of Jesus at the Cross allows you to slowly wonder to Him. You mind can toggle between God is a strict discipline master, one who likes to punish his kids with sickness but He always lovingly waiting for you to renew your mindset and walk towards Him boldly. Glory Glory!
As I meditated, Lord revealed His Goodness to me. Glory Glory! Why the word of Christ describe us, the children of God as sheep? You are to gaze around the green green grass on the mountain of Zion, the goodness of Jesus and His work on the Cross. The more you know about Him, the higher the mountain you ascend.
You might encounter lots of prosecution when you start munching on the goodness of Jesus. But as surely as Abraham brought his son, Isaac, to the top of mountain to offer to God, the offering sheep, the blessing of Abraham, is waiting on the opposite end of the mountain for you to climb up there to receive it.
It is a journey of learning about Jesus, no short cut or jump the queue. It's not about how long you have accepted Christ. It's how long have you been munching about the goodness of Jesus! Amen Amen!
Looking at Abraham reaching the top of mountain, was he happiest there? No, it was his saddest moment. He was going to kill his son. So, likewise, when your trial is at the hardest, know that great blessing is just on the opposite side of the mountain and is within reach.
Your stand is to strongly believe you have received all that Jesus provided for you and you will see the situation changed. Just like Abraham, at the most difficult moment, the sheep offering was given to him. Glory Glory! Abba father, may you open the eyes of the one reading this post. Burn the veil off the eyes of their mind and heart to see the goodness of Jesus! In the Name of Jesus, Amen!
My love, my children of God, know that I am your Abba. I am standing on your side, against your enemy! My holy fire is for the enemy, not for you. Jesus Grace and Mercy have let you walk closely with me. And bring you back to the garden of Eden, to have great fellowship with me. Believe that and walk with Jesus. As you know more of Jesus, whatever you need and want, Abba will surely bring it into your life. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I am for you, I am not against you! Realise it!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Attitude
For the longest time in my child, Jc life, I have been seeking why she is not learning as she supposed. This puzzled me. Initially I thought she was shy. Then I thought was her distraction. To equip her, I even get tutor to teach her. Somehow, I still find something missing. I just got her report book. By the Grace of God and the wisdom of Lord, she passed. Her overall score I am happy. But I am still not happy with the results of her language papers. These 2 subjects I had pumped her with tuition. I even make sure the teacher knows how to teach. Yet, it is not reflecting on the result.
Finally, when I called the boy, who went Chinese enrichment with Jc, finally, it struck me that the problem with Jc is bad attitude in learning. No matter how hard I push, so little was accomplished. It struck me like a light to the dark tunnel, since Jc was 2.75 yrs till now, almost the end of 8 yrs. Glory Glory!
Yesterday combine prayer with Su for Jc's attitude problem. Lord let me see a very resistant spirit. Finally it is gone. I was still wondering how to turn Jc around. I had want to check with this friend. But further pondering Lord reveal just now to manifest Lord's hand on her good attitude. Praise the Lord! This is Lord reveal after the 1st prayer:
Lord:
'My beloved, Glory Glory! My love, Hallelujah! You finally realise what is wrong with Jc. Abba is very glad. Since you pass the attitude problem to me, I will install the yield for knowledge in her. Glory Glory! From next year, she will want to learn more. I will give her big appetite to want more knowledge. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
Jc yet to change after the 1st prayer, and I continued seeking. Lord revealed this morning about the good attitude:
Lord:
'My beloved, my love, Glory Glory! My love, Hallelujah! Abba has let you wake up on this good attitude. Glory Glory! How to transform Jc from bad attitude to good attitude? Manifest the Lord's hand on her good attitude. Abba will lead her to wanting to learn after that. Glory Glory! My love, with this in place, Jc surely will want to learn. Abba is glad you are finally heading to the right direction. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
My beloved, my love, abba has lead you to expound on this attitude issue. Glory Glory! My beloved, Abba is glad! Finally, all is in place. Hallelujah! My beloved, with all these in place, Jc will start her learning journey. Abba will lead her to reach her destination!'
Ever since my walk with Jesus, Abba has lead me to lead quite a few people. Some is to come close to Him, some is for His Kingdom soldiers purpose. The closest one, that cling on me tightly is Su, she will be my praying partner in future. This is assigned by Lord! Others that I have led for kingdom purpose were peole like Ka, Wk, even a tamil girl and Gr, whom I met on the Israel trip.
I have always thought it's faith on Lord Jesus completion work at the Cross that is causing the stumping block. Currently, the leading of Angie, let me have fresh air. I am glad she obediently obey the words of Christ speaking through me to her. This learning about attitude lead me to have a new understanding toward why people do not want to move closer to Jesus. I realised they have attitude problem to learn more about Jesus too! This is what Lord revealed to me in the morning feeding of my spirit man:
Lord:
'My love, Glory Glory! Abba is very please with your learning. Abba is glad that you have the full revelation of this attitude to learn. Glory Glory! Abba is looking for this in my search of child of God to lead closely. I am glad you have good attitude. Gory Glory! Amen Amen!'
Abba father, thank you for using a non-christian to reveal to me about attitude. Glory Glory! My love, abba is happy! I am glad that you are teaching my child about attitude. Glory Glory! My love, Abba is very pleased with you. Glory Glory! My love, you are a step ahead in learning, Glory Glory! Surely, this will lead you to great places. Abba will greatly bless you. Glory Glory! Abba, thank you for coming out to talk to me. Glory Glory! Thank you for this precious revelation. I am very sure my nightmare with Jc is finally over. Glory Glory! Glory to all that Jesus had done for me and my family at the Cross of Jesus. Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
Finally, when I called the boy, who went Chinese enrichment with Jc, finally, it struck me that the problem with Jc is bad attitude in learning. No matter how hard I push, so little was accomplished. It struck me like a light to the dark tunnel, since Jc was 2.75 yrs till now, almost the end of 8 yrs. Glory Glory!
Yesterday combine prayer with Su for Jc's attitude problem. Lord let me see a very resistant spirit. Finally it is gone. I was still wondering how to turn Jc around. I had want to check with this friend. But further pondering Lord reveal just now to manifest Lord's hand on her good attitude. Praise the Lord! This is Lord reveal after the 1st prayer:
Lord:
'My beloved, Glory Glory! My love, Hallelujah! You finally realise what is wrong with Jc. Abba is very glad. Since you pass the attitude problem to me, I will install the yield for knowledge in her. Glory Glory! From next year, she will want to learn more. I will give her big appetite to want more knowledge. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
Jc yet to change after the 1st prayer, and I continued seeking. Lord revealed this morning about the good attitude:
Lord:
'My beloved, my love, Glory Glory! My love, Hallelujah! Abba has let you wake up on this good attitude. Glory Glory! How to transform Jc from bad attitude to good attitude? Manifest the Lord's hand on her good attitude. Abba will lead her to wanting to learn after that. Glory Glory! My love, with this in place, Jc surely will want to learn. Abba is glad you are finally heading to the right direction. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
My beloved, my love, abba has lead you to expound on this attitude issue. Glory Glory! My beloved, Abba is glad! Finally, all is in place. Hallelujah! My beloved, with all these in place, Jc will start her learning journey. Abba will lead her to reach her destination!'
Ever since my walk with Jesus, Abba has lead me to lead quite a few people. Some is to come close to Him, some is for His Kingdom soldiers purpose. The closest one, that cling on me tightly is Su, she will be my praying partner in future. This is assigned by Lord! Others that I have led for kingdom purpose were peole like Ka, Wk, even a tamil girl and Gr, whom I met on the Israel trip.
I have always thought it's faith on Lord Jesus completion work at the Cross that is causing the stumping block. Currently, the leading of Angie, let me have fresh air. I am glad she obediently obey the words of Christ speaking through me to her. This learning about attitude lead me to have a new understanding toward why people do not want to move closer to Jesus. I realised they have attitude problem to learn more about Jesus too! This is what Lord revealed to me in the morning feeding of my spirit man:
Lord:
'My love, Glory Glory! Abba is very please with your learning. Abba is glad that you have the full revelation of this attitude to learn. Glory Glory! Abba is looking for this in my search of child of God to lead closely. I am glad you have good attitude. Gory Glory! Amen Amen!'
Abba father, thank you for using a non-christian to reveal to me about attitude. Glory Glory! My love, abba is happy! I am glad that you are teaching my child about attitude. Glory Glory! My love, Abba is very pleased with you. Glory Glory! My love, you are a step ahead in learning, Glory Glory! Surely, this will lead you to great places. Abba will greatly bless you. Glory Glory! Abba, thank you for coming out to talk to me. Glory Glory! Thank you for this precious revelation. I am very sure my nightmare with Jc is finally over. Glory Glory! Glory to all that Jesus had done for me and my family at the Cross of Jesus. Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
The Blood of Jesus
As the blood of Jesus is worship in great honour in the worship album, The Perfect Offering, Lord lead me to more revelation of Jesus. Plus what He revealed to me during last week sermon, I get a better understanding of the blood of Jesus. Praise Jesus for His Perfect Work on the Cross!
I was meditating Hebrew 9, as I my eyes were opened to what Jesus hasd done for me, I was pondering the covering of Jesus on my body and Lord revealed to me this morning in my feeding of my spirit man. Praise the Lord! Glory Glory! All these revelation is so good that I like to share with you:
Lord:
'By the blood of Jesus, the whole earth is cleansed of all curses. Adam being cursed to work and strive, this curse is being reversed. People do not know the truth. When you know the truth, the truth set you free. Glory Glory!
You have given great honour to the blood of Jesus! Abba is very happy. Glory Glory!'
Lord:
'My beloved, yes, since Jesus died on the cross, the blood of Jesus is forever cover those who accepted Him as their Saviour. As such, daily, you are covered by the blood of Jesus. Pleading the blood of Jesus is about bringing awareness to the blood.
Once you aware, the blood is in operative. Yes, it is not covering the external of the body. It penetrates body, soul and spirit and all parts of your body. As your whole being is being cleansed, Holy Spirit could indwell in you and come out of you.
Satan by right DO NOT have access of your body. Like you realised, you are in the garden of Eden. He could only whisper from afar. Even what you feel is just a remote shadow. As you recognise its existence, you open door for it to come affects you. That's how he works. He could not come without your acceptance.'
Abba father, thank you for revealing the coverage of the blood of Jesus to me. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for such a Perfect Work on the Cross that You have redeemed the whole human race that you have fulfilled the punishment of death of the 10 commandment that none will die from sin immediately. Now is still the Year of the Lord for great salvation for the lost sheep to wander back to you. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I was meditating Hebrew 9, as I my eyes were opened to what Jesus hasd done for me, I was pondering the covering of Jesus on my body and Lord revealed to me this morning in my feeding of my spirit man. Praise the Lord! Glory Glory! All these revelation is so good that I like to share with you:
Lord:
'By the blood of Jesus, the whole earth is cleansed of all curses. Adam being cursed to work and strive, this curse is being reversed. People do not know the truth. When you know the truth, the truth set you free. Glory Glory!
You have given great honour to the blood of Jesus! Abba is very happy. Glory Glory!'
Lord:
'My beloved, yes, since Jesus died on the cross, the blood of Jesus is forever cover those who accepted Him as their Saviour. As such, daily, you are covered by the blood of Jesus. Pleading the blood of Jesus is about bringing awareness to the blood.
Once you aware, the blood is in operative. Yes, it is not covering the external of the body. It penetrates body, soul and spirit and all parts of your body. As your whole being is being cleansed, Holy Spirit could indwell in you and come out of you.
Satan by right DO NOT have access of your body. Like you realised, you are in the garden of Eden. He could only whisper from afar. Even what you feel is just a remote shadow. As you recognise its existence, you open door for it to come affects you. That's how he works. He could not come without your acceptance.'
Abba father, thank you for revealing the coverage of the blood of Jesus to me. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for such a Perfect Work on the Cross that You have redeemed the whole human race that you have fulfilled the punishment of death of the 10 commandment that none will die from sin immediately. Now is still the Year of the Lord for great salvation for the lost sheep to wander back to you. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
The Garden of Eden
My Beloved, did you enjoy the revelation in NCC today? I was so overwhelmed by the revelation that I cried at first but in the end was filled with the joy of Lord. Glory Glory!
Many a time, when I pray Psalms 91, I would thank Abba father for placing me and the family in the Holy of Holy, on the Mercy Seat. I would thank Abba for soaking me and my family in the blood of Jesus. I know Jesus blood was poured onto the ground in heaven that led Sa tan to fall from heaven. The thing is, I did not grab the words of Christ that make it so.
Today, finally, my eyes is opened that the Tabernacle, the Mercy Seat and the ground of the Holy of Holy was splashed with the blood of Jesus 7 times, which means Perfect Rest. Glory Glory! The truth was so joyful that Lord showed me a vision of the Garden of Eden in greenery. Glory to Lord Jesus!!! With this truth received in full, Lord said I have a full revelation of Jesus now. Glory Glory!
Abba father, I am so happy to sit in the foot of Jesus and hear your words daily. Thank you for talking to me daily to bring me closer and closer to you. Glory Glory!
Long ago, when this 20+ yrs christian that Lord sent to lead me initially, she told me that nightly she had to spend some quiet time with the Lord. She told me that this spending of time with the Lord leads to great blessings and leading. I was so curious about this quiet time. Her answer did not satisfy me.
Recently, Lord led me to call Angie. After a great time of sharing, she told me that she needed to spend some quiet moment with the Lord. I became curious of her quiet time. Leaded by the Lord, she explained that long ago in younger days, in church camp, after a day of activities, they were told to spend some time in the words of Christ, the bible, with the Lord. This is the quiet time.
When I realised what this quiet time is about, I then realised the whole day through I have been having my quiet time with the Lord. The truth of this spending time with the Lord and daily communication with the Lord, really blows my mind that moment. Glory to Lord's leading me daily! Glory Glory!
Yes, I have heard from Pastor Prince sermon. One thing is needful. If you do not do this one thing needful, you will be fighting your own fire all over the place. I take this seriously. Yes, I did. I am not ashamed to tell you I am not a good housewife. I neglect cleaning the house. I always thinks that as long as I did this one thing, the rest Lord would handle. Haha...Praise the Lord. I confessed I am not a good mother too. I believe in doing this one thing, Lord would handle the rest for me. Talk about being the extremist in this believe. Please don't follow to neglect daily life like me!
By the Grace of Lord Jesus, he let me soak in the words, but he did get sis to tell me to keep the house clean. Haha, I always tell her that Lord would take care of it. Finally, now walked so close to Lord, finally it sank in that I need to take care of the house. Haha! Glory Glory!
Lord also guided me on how to disciple Jc. I obeyed P previous on not caning Jc, but she grow to be so stubborn that hard to get her to obey. Lord led me to get a cane after I used pet bottles and brush wasn't good enough. I was so scared to cane her, but upon caning, she became resistance, further caning, the darkness on her face departed and she is the sweet Jc again. My mum even commented that previously she was quiet and everything bucked up in her, she was not happy. With this caning and asking her to tell me things about school life, my mum said that she is now more vocal and cheerful. Glory to the leading of Lord.
Lord even get Su to share with me how to take care of my future man. Glory that this old man is pretty independent that he is fine taking care himself. Abba is sending me a Chinese man and local culture is different, so I must change to learn how to provide. Lord said with love bank at below zero, I could not not perform. In future, with my love bank overflowing, I would be able to perform. Glory that it is made so easy for me. Hallelujah!!!
Abba father, you let me soak in your words first. This living words changed my life. Then you show me how to walk righteous path. Each path is showing results with your leading. Glory Glory! You even let me see what is true love is about. You let me see what selfish heart is about. With your leading, I could see P clearer. Glory Glory!!! I love this life leaded fully by you. Every steps I walk with your leading is so good. I love this blessed life. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Many a time, when I pray Psalms 91, I would thank Abba father for placing me and the family in the Holy of Holy, on the Mercy Seat. I would thank Abba for soaking me and my family in the blood of Jesus. I know Jesus blood was poured onto the ground in heaven that led Sa tan to fall from heaven. The thing is, I did not grab the words of Christ that make it so.
Today, finally, my eyes is opened that the Tabernacle, the Mercy Seat and the ground of the Holy of Holy was splashed with the blood of Jesus 7 times, which means Perfect Rest. Glory Glory! The truth was so joyful that Lord showed me a vision of the Garden of Eden in greenery. Glory to Lord Jesus!!! With this truth received in full, Lord said I have a full revelation of Jesus now. Glory Glory!
Abba father, I am so happy to sit in the foot of Jesus and hear your words daily. Thank you for talking to me daily to bring me closer and closer to you. Glory Glory!
Long ago, when this 20+ yrs christian that Lord sent to lead me initially, she told me that nightly she had to spend some quiet time with the Lord. She told me that this spending of time with the Lord leads to great blessings and leading. I was so curious about this quiet time. Her answer did not satisfy me.
Recently, Lord led me to call Angie. After a great time of sharing, she told me that she needed to spend some quiet moment with the Lord. I became curious of her quiet time. Leaded by the Lord, she explained that long ago in younger days, in church camp, after a day of activities, they were told to spend some time in the words of Christ, the bible, with the Lord. This is the quiet time.
When I realised what this quiet time is about, I then realised the whole day through I have been having my quiet time with the Lord. The truth of this spending time with the Lord and daily communication with the Lord, really blows my mind that moment. Glory to Lord's leading me daily! Glory Glory!
Yes, I have heard from Pastor Prince sermon. One thing is needful. If you do not do this one thing needful, you will be fighting your own fire all over the place. I take this seriously. Yes, I did. I am not ashamed to tell you I am not a good housewife. I neglect cleaning the house. I always thinks that as long as I did this one thing, the rest Lord would handle. Haha...Praise the Lord. I confessed I am not a good mother too. I believe in doing this one thing, Lord would handle the rest for me. Talk about being the extremist in this believe. Please don't follow to neglect daily life like me!
By the Grace of Lord Jesus, he let me soak in the words, but he did get sis to tell me to keep the house clean. Haha, I always tell her that Lord would take care of it. Finally, now walked so close to Lord, finally it sank in that I need to take care of the house. Haha! Glory Glory!
Lord also guided me on how to disciple Jc. I obeyed P previous on not caning Jc, but she grow to be so stubborn that hard to get her to obey. Lord led me to get a cane after I used pet bottles and brush wasn't good enough. I was so scared to cane her, but upon caning, she became resistance, further caning, the darkness on her face departed and she is the sweet Jc again. My mum even commented that previously she was quiet and everything bucked up in her, she was not happy. With this caning and asking her to tell me things about school life, my mum said that she is now more vocal and cheerful. Glory to the leading of Lord.
Lord even get Su to share with me how to take care of my future man. Glory that this old man is pretty independent that he is fine taking care himself. Abba is sending me a Chinese man and local culture is different, so I must change to learn how to provide. Lord said with love bank at below zero, I could not not perform. In future, with my love bank overflowing, I would be able to perform. Glory that it is made so easy for me. Hallelujah!!!
Abba father, you let me soak in your words first. This living words changed my life. Then you show me how to walk righteous path. Each path is showing results with your leading. Glory Glory! You even let me see what is true love is about. You let me see what selfish heart is about. With your leading, I could see P clearer. Glory Glory!!! I love this life leaded fully by you. Every steps I walk with your leading is so good. I love this blessed life. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
The old self and the New Me
I found that many people tends to look to their own self and in the presence of the Almighty God, they tried their best not to sin. Even in those who knows Lord Jesus has taken away all sins, they still tried to walk righteous and be conscious about their behaviour. Today, Lord leads me to talk about my old self and the new me.
Since young, I just know that there was someone out there. I would talk into the heaven, up above the sky. I raised from a family with 2 elder sister, one younger sis, Su and my youngest brother. They are just a year apart from each other and the one next to me are 2 yrs apart. Due to our age pretty close to each other, we could play within ourselves. Grandma had a big house, my 2 other uncles and grandma lived in this childhood living. We could play hide and seek around the house as it was big with many doors.
Life was good except I had a crazy uncle. When he was in his wildness, hitting whoever he could find in the house, we would run to the neighbour house to hide. This went on till I went to primary school. Then we shifted to my mum's side grandma families. We shifted into the 3rd uncle house. We were the poorest family there. 1st and 2nd uncles both had factories. We were like the outcast in that place, living under the richer one and grandma always told us not to be naughty and to avoid upsetting the uncles.
My mum is the stronghold in the family. She pulled us together and told us not to look to others. What we could afford for ourselves is the best. What others have is not good for us. She grained this so much into us that whatever what others have, we don't bother.
We shifted to our 1st HDB, finally a home to call our own. We always have this feeling that our uncles look down upon us. But mum and dad would always be the humbled and peaceful people. They do not want to create trouble for anyone.
This is the life I grow up from. I was quiet, a loner, don't know how to play with friends in all my schooling years. My family prayed to the idol, kuan yin. In my secondary school days, whenever I had problem, I would pray to that idol standing in the living room shelf. Then one night, I found something pressing on my neck, chocking me, with prayer, I was freed. I had thought it was my sister but she was sleeping in the other corner of the bed. This is the first time I question the presence of “God”. I would reasoned, if there is God presence at home, I should not be disturbed. I questioned the existence of God and decided there wasn't any.
However, whenever I faced spiritual attack, I would still get my mum to go temple to “ask” for me. This went on till marriage, when I faced the darkness, himself. No amount of consulting different temples and “gods”, worked. I was in despair, if in this world any god that could help me. That was how I encountered Jesus and His wonderfulness.
Like a baby with knowledge ZERO about God the Almighty, I soaked in the words of Jesus. I was told God do not look to me, but to the beauty of Jesus. My faith is not mine, it's Jesus faith that I should use to trust for my deliverance. I was told there is nothing good about me. Looking to self is like looking to filthy rags. I am to look to Jesus, not to myself. It's how good Jesus have walked on earth and on the cross and I am bury in him. All my dungs were all judged in the body of Jesus and I am risen up with him, the Righteousness of God in Christ.
That was my initial exposed to the goodness of Jesus. That is where I rooted myself in Him. I do not care what I have or have not. Lord said I am to look to Jesus! From the initial mentally force myself to look into Jesus for everything I need, to now Lord in me fully that I know I am just a breath, all is about him and nothing is about me. It is all about looking to Jesus. How shitty or how good my life had been was not important. The importance is how Jesus had and have been for me.
As I focus on Jesus and not on myself, Lord rises me up his path of righteousness. He puts me on high for his purpose. It's all about him, his needs and his wants. As I let him come through me to do His needs and His wants, all my needs and my wants He satisfied.
When I am in my weakness, Lord in me is in His fullness. Glory Glory! It's this continue looking to Jesus that He in you will be risen up high. He will accomplish good works through you. Glory Glory! Others will see and thought how good you are, but it's all about Lord Jesus. His Finished Work! His Blood, His Life, His Strength and His Wholeness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Since young, I just know that there was someone out there. I would talk into the heaven, up above the sky. I raised from a family with 2 elder sister, one younger sis, Su and my youngest brother. They are just a year apart from each other and the one next to me are 2 yrs apart. Due to our age pretty close to each other, we could play within ourselves. Grandma had a big house, my 2 other uncles and grandma lived in this childhood living. We could play hide and seek around the house as it was big with many doors.
Life was good except I had a crazy uncle. When he was in his wildness, hitting whoever he could find in the house, we would run to the neighbour house to hide. This went on till I went to primary school. Then we shifted to my mum's side grandma families. We shifted into the 3rd uncle house. We were the poorest family there. 1st and 2nd uncles both had factories. We were like the outcast in that place, living under the richer one and grandma always told us not to be naughty and to avoid upsetting the uncles.
My mum is the stronghold in the family. She pulled us together and told us not to look to others. What we could afford for ourselves is the best. What others have is not good for us. She grained this so much into us that whatever what others have, we don't bother.
We shifted to our 1st HDB, finally a home to call our own. We always have this feeling that our uncles look down upon us. But mum and dad would always be the humbled and peaceful people. They do not want to create trouble for anyone.
This is the life I grow up from. I was quiet, a loner, don't know how to play with friends in all my schooling years. My family prayed to the idol, kuan yin. In my secondary school days, whenever I had problem, I would pray to that idol standing in the living room shelf. Then one night, I found something pressing on my neck, chocking me, with prayer, I was freed. I had thought it was my sister but she was sleeping in the other corner of the bed. This is the first time I question the presence of “God”. I would reasoned, if there is God presence at home, I should not be disturbed. I questioned the existence of God and decided there wasn't any.
However, whenever I faced spiritual attack, I would still get my mum to go temple to “ask” for me. This went on till marriage, when I faced the darkness, himself. No amount of consulting different temples and “gods”, worked. I was in despair, if in this world any god that could help me. That was how I encountered Jesus and His wonderfulness.
Like a baby with knowledge ZERO about God the Almighty, I soaked in the words of Jesus. I was told God do not look to me, but to the beauty of Jesus. My faith is not mine, it's Jesus faith that I should use to trust for my deliverance. I was told there is nothing good about me. Looking to self is like looking to filthy rags. I am to look to Jesus, not to myself. It's how good Jesus have walked on earth and on the cross and I am bury in him. All my dungs were all judged in the body of Jesus and I am risen up with him, the Righteousness of God in Christ.
That was my initial exposed to the goodness of Jesus. That is where I rooted myself in Him. I do not care what I have or have not. Lord said I am to look to Jesus! From the initial mentally force myself to look into Jesus for everything I need, to now Lord in me fully that I know I am just a breath, all is about him and nothing is about me. It is all about looking to Jesus. How shitty or how good my life had been was not important. The importance is how Jesus had and have been for me.
As I focus on Jesus and not on myself, Lord rises me up his path of righteousness. He puts me on high for his purpose. It's all about him, his needs and his wants. As I let him come through me to do His needs and His wants, all my needs and my wants He satisfied.
When I am in my weakness, Lord in me is in His fullness. Glory Glory! It's this continue looking to Jesus that He in you will be risen up high. He will accomplish good works through you. Glory Glory! Others will see and thought how good you are, but it's all about Lord Jesus. His Finished Work! His Blood, His Life, His Strength and His Wholeness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
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