Reject at the door

Christmas eve, out of nowhere to go, I decided to go buy some inner wear at the usual market place. And since it's near to ex place, I thought of buying some lunch for them and myself.

As all of us are stay at home instead of go out shopping and sight seeing bunch of people; I thought of visiting my girl and asked her if she willing to go eat durian at the selling place.

Ex was unhappy that I was in his home on such a day. He almost wanted to chase me out. He said I should get a place that Jc could go visit instead of I going there. He said no ex could go into a ex home.

I was allowed to remain in Jc's room. I check with Jc about durian. But since she finished a more than  1kg durian by herself just a week ago, she got tired of eating again. And since the dormitory door opened at 1 pm, I decided to go back at 1 pm.

Ex even though was angry earlier on, but because I bought him a package of Char Siew(honey roasted pork) rice, he was pleased and insisted Jc to send me out with an umbrella as the sky still pouring.

I have a new understanding about ex asking me to bring Jc out will never work as she and me are not into shopping much. We tried once and it was boring.

Staying at the center with nothing much to do except talking to Lord over these long holiday is pretty boring.

I guess ex enjoyed the Char Siew rice as he did not have his Swedish ham and even the Christmas Tree was not set up!!!

Maybe he is getting tired of setting up the big tree for him and Jc. 

Generations Down and Up

Sunday, at the Church service, when Pastor Prince mentioned that both Joseph and Mary were from the Royal linkage but were poor by their time, as they offer pigeon as a burn offering, instead of cow for the very rich and sheep for the middle income.

I had a revelation that my parents' generation and their parents were made poor, just like Joseph and Mary.

But, my generation, among the 5 of us are better than my parents generation. And with Lord's blessing eventually, we will be poor no more, 

just like Joseph and Mary were made rich by the 3 wise men that brought gold, silver and spices to baby JESUS; blessing attracted to one whom has Jesus and walk closely with Him.

I am waiting for that day to come by. Surely, by then I need not look for 2 rooms HDB flat anymore!!!

These few services in the past few weeks, Lord is giving me the knowledge part by part.

While daily life is about fighting off cancer attacks, heart attacks, stroke attacks and tumor attacks!!! The enemy, whom I don't know, wish me dead somehow.

However, Lord is using me for His Glory, so I will not be dead at all!!! Pray for my health if you care about me!!! Thanks and may the Lord bless you with prosperity and good health.

Lord is revealing I have someone so deeply in love with me out there!!! He said eventually we will meet. He is my soulmate!!! This only he knows, I've yet to know. 

I guess that anxious feeling at one meeting and another joyous feeling from another meeting, came from the same guy. But who he is, I have yet to find out. 

Lord said I will eventually meet him and then I will find out how much alike I am with him to be soulmate for each other.

Will this happen? Let's wait and see...if I live healthy till that day come about!!!

Nowadays, all dramas of events happening are quiet off. Nothing for me to write anymore!!!

Thanks for reading my blog. May the Lord bless you with His Shalom Peace and Blessed Christmas!!!

Just some talk

Nowadays, I have nothing much to share as life become monotonous.

Day in, day out is about the same except some happening I witnessed last week. 

I was on my 1st day of receptionist job and I received a call from a lady that had fallen and knocked her head and was in a hospital.

She wanted to talk to her counsellor and a nurse but both of them were not around. 

I wrote a missed call slip and intended to pass to one of them.

On reaching their office, I saw the nurse and handed over the slip but she claimed it wasn't her business and pushed it to the counsellor.

This lady called again but the counsellor, whom had called me earlier to page for somebody, did not ask about her. She was disappointed. This happened last Monday. 

This Tuesday, when I go to my dormitory, I saw the nurse and the warrants clearing her things and taking over her packets of instant noodles and laundry powder.

On checking with the nurse, she said this lady is gone and could not take her stuff, which is a lot!!! As big as the big IKEA bag, plastic bag to contain the noodle!!! Consider her handicapped in walking normally, she really shop a lot!!!

The nurse gave me 2 single packs of the instant noodle. But I was feeling uneasy and asked the nurse again what she meant by the lady is gone. She just ask if I am afraid to eat the noodle.

On further check with 2 other residents, and one went to check the lady's room had been cleared fully, then I realised who was her that was dead. 

Worst of all, that night she died, our fire alarm sounded aloud that all residents and warrants, who live here, were woken by the alarm. That all was tired by the break in sleep!!!

All these happen on Tuesday night and Wednesday evening!!!

This morning, the fire alarm rang many times too!!!

I heard from the 2 residents some years back, a resident accompanied this lady for a home visit to her brother's home, with 2 big bags of goodies but were rejected entry by the brother. The residents told me that they had to bring the 2 big bags of goodies back here.

She was hoping someone to care for her but she got none in her last moment of life. To last a week for the head injury is already a miracle. I know of 2 cases that didn't last more than 24 hrs. She might have lost her will to survive, I guess.

Compare to her, at least I am better of as 2nd sis allows me to visit even though not that often.

I am more fortunate and I shall not complain how they decide to pack my things and let me be a resident here. 

I learnt that it was Su's idea to sell my mum's apartment as she needed the money to clear all the visa debts. Her husband could not stay put on a job and they liked fashioned goods.

Anyway, that's the life they want and now with my mum's inheritent, Su did no contact any one of us till today. Checking how am I. 

She took the housing agent test and hoping to do the sale of my 2 room flat to earn the commission.

However, I am not looking for any apartment yet. I am waiting for Lord's Promise to become true to me in a year time. Amen Amen!

Tabernacle

Today's sermon talks about the 4 layers of covering.

The first layer of badger's skin, the world cannot see us nor understand us of wood but covered up in Gold.

The 2nd layer of ram's skin dyed red shows the Perfect Work of Christ at the Cross that only God knows the fullness of JESUS sacrifice.

The 3rd layer of goats' hair, the 5 curtain show Grace and the 6th curtain in the forefront of the Tabernacle means man. The 30 cubits from the front and the half curtain remainder hang over the back shows JESUS 3.5 years of ministry for us to see.

The innermost layer of fine linen of blue, purple and scarlet, you will make them with Cherubim, shows the 4 books of Mathew, Mark, Luke and John. We are well protected by the Wings of the Cherubim.

When Pastor Prince said they took 9 months to build the Tabernacle, Ps Prince said it takes woman 9 months to carry a baby before birth;

Lord gives me an understanding why I must wait 9 years before starting His Service. Now is different layers of training in secret to equip me for the future work!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS: the 4 layers of covering I cannot explain as clearly as pastor did as my point is to mention my revelation only. But in the process, I have to talk about the covering before reaching there! ;)

Updates about me

Currently being attack in the lungs, heart and even stomach with cancer, ulcers etc. I don't have the mood to post anything at all.

But just now check the audience for the week, I have 188 views from Russia and only 30+ from Singapore. I wonder what has attracted so many views!

Last week finally buy my durian for Jc and me to share. She been through friends going away from her and a angry daddy that she took the durian fearfully.

Thank God the whatsapp did not send her daddy message me no durian for Jc message at noon. I only got the message when I went to whatsapp that evening at the store, waiting for the durian to come.

She wanted the remainder, but dare not eat till it smell came out of the box and daddy told her to finish up!!! She is that fearful of him that she drew a picture of her behind the door with a sad face and wrote a message that her life is going down slowly!!!

I have to message her daddy to forgive her.

She is not replying me so I can't comfort her at all. That night, she didn't even want to hug me.

However, on my way back to the center, a kind taxi driver wanted to treat me to dinner. After I rejected his kind offer, he did not want to accept the fare from me at all!!! I thank the kindness of him. As I spent quite a lot on that 2 durian.

I learnt something new in the process. Previously, Ex told me freshly opened durian and those we bought already packed are different in taste. I have no clue what he meant.

But, that night, I learnt freshly delivered and freshly opened durian does not have any durian smell. It was a day after that it started to smell.

Just like seafood, fresh seafood only have sea smell and sweet. Those that started to smell means they are not that fresh anymore!!! But I still like my sardines even it smells!!! Hehe

Now Jc had enough of the durian, she is not answering me if she wants somemore!!! I do but only if she wants as eating alone, no matter how good the food, there is not much joy as in sharing!!!

May Abba Father bless you and me with His Shalom Peace!!! Amen!

My Girl has Grown

This week, trying to get my girl out with me is really hard. She is not interested.

I tried the arcade idea and she replied, "Mummy, i am not that 10 year old kid who likes to play at arcade. I am a mature teenager who like doing big girl stuff!"

I scratch my head and wonder what teenager do! But she didn't tell me!

Asked her if she likes to eat durian, she took a long time to reply me. And wanted me to buy and bring to her!!!

I really feel like quitting to be her mum at one point but she said she was not around but having fun with her pet rabbit!!!

Ex refused to be the middle man between me and Jc. I think I have to let go more about caring that much about her!!!

I have to learn to be her friend as someone who went through bad relationship with her daughter once taught!

My God, My Abba, I need Your Help to restore my relationship with Jc. Thank You for the 120% restoration for the time stolen from our relationship. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The Formation of Earth and Skies

Proverb 8:22-31

'The Lord possessed me 
in the Beginning of His Way,
Before His Deeds of Old. 

I was set up from Everlasting,
From the Beginning,
Or ever the Earth was. 

When there were No Depths,
I was Brought Forth when
There were No Fountains
Abounding with Water. 

Before the Mountains were Settled,
I was Brought Forth
Before the Hills:

While as yet He had Not Made 
the Earth or the Fields or
The First Dust of the World.

I Was There when He 
Prepared the Heavens,
When He set a Compass
Upon the Face of the Depth,

When He Established the Skies above,
When He Strengthen 
the Fountains of Deep,

When He Set Its Boundaries
To the Sea so the Waters
Would Not Pass 
Beyond its Shore,
When He Appointed 
The Foundations of the Earth. 

Then I was by Him,
As One Brought up with Him:
And I was daily His Delight,
Rejoicing Always before Him,

Rejoicing in the Habitable 
Part of His Earth
And My Delights
Are with the sons of men.'

Lord Jesus was with God the Father in the Begining and this is how earth, skies and Heavens were created. And the Love of JESUS the Son to God the Father and His Love for us, men are demonstrated. 

Men Playing Field

Men who went around devouring women, they thought they are enjoying the moment of releasing themselves. But the bible, in the proverb speaks of such game as a very serious harm to the liver.

One would wonder how it happens, but the bible explain such as sin against self.

Proverb 7:22-23, 26-27
'He goes after her straightway,
As an Xo goes to the Slaughter,
As One in Fetters to 
the Punishment of the Fool. 

Till A Dart strikes through his Liver;
Like a Bird hastens to the snare and
Does Not Know that
It is For Its Life. 

For she Has Cast Down Many Wounded;
Yes, very numerous are all Her Slain. 

Her House is the Way to the Grave,
Going Down to the Chambers of Death.'

Proverbs 9:18
'But he does not know that the Dead are there;
Her guests are in the Depths of Hell.'

I heard of a pastor from USA told our congregation long ago that one of his friend was enjoying his supply of women but sin caught up him and he died at 56.

I rather believe the Word of God than to sin against my own body that bring forth unnecessary death.

This why faithful to God and to spouse is important. I do not mean my ex when I mention spouse but just a general term for all to understand the important of Faithfullness to self.

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Why Man Fails

Adam allows the Snake to talk to Eve. He just keep quiet. In the end, Eve was being deceived by the Snake!!! This lead to the fall of mankind to be sinners as Adman fails to speak!!!

Why my marriage failed also due to P kept himself busy surfing the websites and hardly talk to me.

It only when I asked him something then he would reply. Otherwise, he kept silent on talking love to me, and me, being a woman, is an emotional being and need input of love into my love bank!!!

Many marriages fails also due to communication break down over time. 

We grow day by day and if couples do not talk about the daily affair; to update the spouse of their lives, overtime, both will be stranger to each other. 

That's why Lord Jesus in the bible told man to love their woman. To talk love into their life and to engage them with your life.

Abraham did not tell Sarah about his plan with Isaac and this led to Sarah looking everywhere for her baby and died heart broken in a different town instead by the side of Abraham!!!

That's why man cannot keep quiet if they want their spouse to continue loving them!!!

Just thought this might be a good reminder to men!!!

You want to be the Head of the House, speak Grace into Spouse and see how she react to your words of Grace!!!

Law is dead so never speak demands into woman. Ex killed my heart dead due to his commandments day in day out!!!

The Principle of Seduction

Meditating on Proverbs 7, it teaches how to avoid being tempted!!! Glory Glory!!! No wonder Pastor Prince previously commented never drive a female home no matter how late the time but give her the money to take cab home!!!

In Proverb 7, it talks among the Simple ones, among the Youths, we are all young in Christ, there is a young man void of understanding! If we commit the sin, we will be the ignorant youth!!!

How does the temptation come?

He Pass Through the Street Near her Corner!!!

If we drive or share a cab with someone, both will be together when one's home is reached. The temptation of being invite to the home is there by nature of darkness of this world!!!

What is the time involved???

In Twilight,
In the Evening of the day,
In the Middle of the Night and
Darkness!!!

Purely by the above Timming, the temptation will be there if the two are of opposite sex!!! So clear that church practise counselling man by male pastor and woman by female pastor!!!

This is to avoid the above scenario from happening!!!

See, the bible knows human nature well and preaches so clearly that one cannot doubt and even comment the one who did it will deplete oneself of the soul and understanding will be reduced.

I hope from this short post, one would stay faithful to ones spouse as there is life imparted to sozo one's own spouse. Rivers of water will flow out from loving ones beloved that life will be good!!!

Glory Glory!!!

Amen Amen!!!

The Depths are Broken Up!

I used to wonder the above verse in

Proverbs 3:20
'By His Knowledge 
the Depths are Broken Up and
The Skies Drop Down the Dew.'

What does it means???

Last week, during meditation, finally I got a revelation it describes the Finished Work of JESUS at the Cross to the FULLEST of what He had Done has Completely Destroyed the work of the Devil to the Deepest!!!

Then I was questioning the part on 'My Son, listen to my words and let it not depart from your eyes', what words, was it the whole bible or what?

What I didn't know was Lord led Pastor Prince to have a revelation of it's about JESUS being the Sacrificed Ox, His Grace and the Lamp Stand, JESUS being the center lamp and about the Trinity God, God the Father, Yehua, the Son of God and water, whom signify the Holy Spirit.

The Dew from Proverbs 3:20 also means Grace.

It was a powerful Words of God being revealed. In fact, I was facing all kinds of attacks to prevent me to go church to receive the fullness of this revelation.

I was so joyful that I felt like attending the service one more time but checked with Lord and He said 'No'.

What I didn't know was a gathering with siblings to visit my 2nd uncle, whom just had an operation and to visit my cousin funeral. He consumed too much beer and smoked and his liver was gone case and finally passed away!!

I was tired after the whole day out and took a cab back to the center.

What a powerful revelation in the morning and see the works of satan on the body of my relatives!!!

May the Almighty God, my Abba Father, bless you with His Shalom Peace!

Forced to Dress Up

I am not one who like to show off and since I am staying in this center, I took it as home and I dress in the comfortable shirts and shorts!!!

But doing this secretary job, the boss wants no shorts nor 3/4 pants but a full length one. I have only 2  pants and they are harder to dry.

I protest to the change in wearing outing clothes here but finally give in to the commandment and got praised from what I wore yesterday!!!

Just now, went to the shop that sells donated clothes and I found another pair of pants to add to my stock to cover the weekly needs.

Not easy to be a woman!!!

Just talked to Lord in His Words and He said staying here is a test of my down and out, in this nothingness do I still trust Him.

For me, in this nothingness, I only left Him alone and if I don't trust Him, who then I trust???

Even the friend of mine could not continue to stay here as she cannot stand others remarks on her and choose to change to day care!!! At least she has a home to go to!!!

But to me, it means I have to be independent and eat alone my meals when she is not around.

In a way, all these training is for future when Lord's Glory shining so brightly in me and to be so high means lesser people to be close to too!!!

Even now when I talked to those of lower faith in the Lord and His Abilities to do Good, they look to man while I am talking God's Grace and His Abundance!

It's like cat talk to dog, they could not flow in my wave length and have to agree to disagree in the dialogue!!!

I forsee much of such people around and only the few would flow in the same wave frequency!!!

I am not proud but just so few of them, the Christians, who walk closely with the Lord. While I have 10 years behind me. How to talk to them about the Goodness in the lacks???

Anyway, just mumming here!

The Power of Tithings

All these years I have been faithful in tithing my First Fruit to Lord but didn't see the power of the Seeds.

This year, firstly is ex faced challenges in his job and was offered a new job in time that his tithe to me never stop!!!

Next, with this care center and my things in warehouse and the monthly doctor review all eat into my alimony from ex. 

Then doctor referred me to social welfare and inheritent from mum kick in. 

That now I don't feel the pinch anymore!!!

Co-incident???? I say it's the invisible Hand of the Lord in the Power of the Seeds. Glory Glory!!!

The Blessed man when heat comes, he did not feel the heat!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord's Advice

I feel like going into the market or through HDB buy a two room apartment but Lord's advice is to stay put for 1 year!!!

Even my counselor here want me to go ahead with the purchase!!!

Looking to next October is like a far far away hope to look into!!!

But in whichever ways, His Way never fails!!!

From 2006 or when I trusted Him more, I have already waited a long, long wait and this 1 year waiting is not a long time as compared but walking through is easier to talk then what is ahead.

Lord explanation is all areas of needs really need such a timeline. Only He could see while me need more patient to see!!!

Living in this small room with a bed, a cupboard and a dressing table isn't that free as living in own home. But have to take it as others here have stayed years!!! I am just a month so far!!!

The routine is just eating me up but have to have more patience to deal with it.

I am in a program checking the serial no. of legal documents and reading others divorce story, mine is a lot less headache as compared.

Talking to a lady whose parents divorced when she was young and she lost hope of marriage, Jc did talk so initially. But I think Jc got over it now.

I was surprised to see her so tall and has such long hair on that small head!!!

Anyway, nice to see her again after such a long break!!! Time do consume closeness that when I offered her $10 as allowance, she was surprised and had a big Question Mark on her face.

So Su said she come to me for money, the accusation fall flat!!!

She just want her phone repair is more likely the case!!! Recently the screen cracks again and her dad and me refused to pay anymore!!!

Now I don't trust the new IPhone anymore!!! It cracks too easily!!!

Restful Year

I didn't know there is such thing named as restful year from tithe seedlings.

Lord told me to rest from tithing and made me uneasy as I am a first fruit tithing lady. I walked as the bible says so.

But guess, the Seedling Principle is also cannot deny following. Only Lord knows the timing as He knows our tithes best.

I am supposed to take a year of Rest before the Commanded Blessing pours in.

Lord said I will meet the one who is interested in me by then.

Today sitting in the train, on the way back, around me were many couples and I envy they have each other to lean on. So much so the few singles seem out of place there!!!

I am looking for a wise but moderate personality man who believe in Christ like me.

As I will be doing JESUS work, I need a understanding man who will support my Calling. And be there for the family.

I do not want to answer the question posed by ex, to choose JESUS or him. This kind of question will not help as both I want. So there isn't an answer for me to choose!!!

So this man must be very accommodating and independent to take care himself and help me out if possible!!!

I hope I am not asking too much! But been through one, I want to avoid pitfalls as much as possible!!!

As ex could cook well, if this new guy could cook, I will be happy. But not necessarily, even though it's a joy itself to enjoy the food cooks by love one!!!

Nowadays I have nothing much to share so this another short posting!

May the Great God bless your week ahead!!!

Bible Prophency

According to some one searched the Bible and mapped out the time line of JESUS return, it points to 2016 Fall Festivals.

So, for me to be manifest as JESUS coming, should be by 2016. Before the Year of Rest in 2017.

Guess the blood moons means hardship for Israel as Pastor today mention Rusia has gone into Syria and is inviting Iran to go there too!!!

Pastor is seeing Ezekiel 38 manifesting out!!!

Any way, more killing are happening in Israel and the sending of bomb into Israel is happening again!!!

Usually, it is Israel win their war and then the world will manifest in its goodness like what had happened the previous happening.

Now I am happy that the blessedness is linked to Bible Prophency!!!

Backed by His Words, surely I can expect the Blessing of Abraham!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Blessed Evening

Just back from a worship held by certain church members and a sweet lady, in Health Care, provided the herbal soup for us to enjoy!!!

Actually I did not want to go but changed my mind after a short nap!

When I asked the HCA to call my friend, she who wanted to go initially was too tired after the nap!!!

But that lady purposely came up to get my friend and she asked for me to go too!!!

My friend played the piano and we worshipped a few songs.

Then the HCA lady blessed all of us her herbal soup and now I am too alert to sleep!!!

Tomorrow I will start my job as a receptionist for this care center and to pick up some skill to talk to the public.

It will be a good exposure as my strong personality point me to social area. No wonder Lord's calling is for me to preach and sozo the body to renew in youth.

All points to the strong social inclined I am.

But I will miss working in the workshop in area of prepare the napkin, and the plastic fork and spoon to today new job to insert advertising material for one of the big bank here!!!

I do wonder if I will be bored in the new job but have to test out first!!!

I am still waiting for Lord's promise to manifest and I do hope it is soon. As succot is just an 8 days event. If not this year, then should I wait for 2016 or 2017???

I am clueless too!!!

The Amen/ Detoks Year

I was listening to the above sermon for the year of 2009 and realised that I was divorced in that year too!!!

It wasn't pleasing to walk those 9 months of trials  and end in a divorce but looking at a lot of local men loving their wife, makes me realise I might have made a wrong choice previously.

If given a chance again after Lord's renewal of youth, I would go for a local instead. But who is he I have no clue yet but in meditation Lord said he has been following my blog!!!

I don't know when this blessing of youth might happen but Lord told me he is waiting too!!!

In my previous stay in hospital, there are a few expression of interest, but as I no clue whom and also I do not want one that is not smart, I ignored their expression of interests.

As I see myself just a plain Jane, I no clue what they were looking for in me that noticed by them!!!

Anyway, when they saw ex brought Jc to bring me outing for me to spend time with Jc, they backed off as they saw us friendly to each other!!!

Anyway, ex and me don't have any feeling for each other!!! It was amazed and the Glory of God that he provided the free service to drive us somewhere and sent me back!!!

But one guy I had to tell him straight forward that I only take him as a friend!!!

Back in my mind I am still wondering who was the man who talked loudly at the paying respect to Mr LKY; the one that made my heart joyful after that without knowing why, except his heart talked to mine!!!

I am still curious who he is!!! But not bother, just on off this thought would happen as at today!!!

I didn't know how I landed in such a situation but I do hope Lord sozo me out of this homeless state to bless me a home to call my own. 

If you are out there somewhere and available, agree with me so that power of 2 can let the blessing come like the prayer of wind to send haze away Singapore with Su and it happens!!!

Shalom to all whom want to agree with me. Thanks for reading my blog!!!

Freedom amid some Control

After one week of stay, I finally taste what freedom is aside some time restrictions to get out the dormitory and time to return and to fill a form for home leave.

I am growing to like staying here as compared to previous stay which much restrictions is given.

The time of the 3rd moon just gone last week and the 4th blood moon coming soon.

I do hope Lord Promise to me doesn't fail me! I meditated and it seem me blessed home is coming!!!

I have much disappointment in having pay my stay here and pay for the storage of my things as mum house is sold.

As long as not talk about this topic, they are friendly but the worst of them all is they claimed that they are Not my family and no obligation to take me into their home. 

Lord has a plan to let them take the same pill for what they done for me!!! The blessing to them will be delayed for what they had done to land me in this spot. 

They said I must be independent to fend myself!!!

If I have my mum's home, no effort at all for me to be independent!!!

I need not borrow anything from them at all!!!

Just by selling my shelter, suddenly thing surface that they even don't want to pack my things as Su complained. 

But Su is also want selling so contradictory of her to complain. She even claimed she is the one on finding the buyer. 

Anyway, come to money, all are selfish, to each themselves!!!

That's why when I have my home and a great pool, Lord said in meditation not to entertain them for all they had done to me!!!

Their blessing will be delay to let them envy mine and I will not offer anything to ease their envy. 

Overall, Lord is so Protective for His Beloved!!!

Anyway, I am very forgiving so Lord has to remind me!!! 

Even Ex, I have to reject too as he saw me slim and yet still don't stir any interest in him. So even his friendliness is just because he needs my signature to remove my name from that marital home. 

Lord could see the hearts of man and He remains me!!! I am practising forgiveness too much that I am very forgiving if Lord didn't reminded me. 

So you see, it's good to walk with Lord!!! Amen!!!

Coming back to Lord again

After a few months away from listening and worshipping JESUS, I do sense I am distant away from Him. 

After listening for some time this whole week, finally my soul is linked with Lord again!!!

It's easy to feel void of Lord by not doing much worship and listening and receiving His Words!!!

This is my personal experience even though I did read the bible some what!!!

Anyway, just a short sharing of myself walking with JESUS!!!

I did meditate, worshipping and listening to sermon. Purely spend some time the whole of today to be brought back to him again. 

May the Lord bless you with your peaceful time with Him!!!

Out of Hospital now

Since none of my siblings want to take me but sold away mum's home, I have nowhere to go, I am now at a care center for a short time.

I do hope the Promise of House by Lord could materialised or was it just a dream!!!

I could not let the Hope gone as this is the only positive Hope that I could hold on with better Prospect!

I am glad that PAP win a landslide victory and they listened to the old aged teaching by Mr LKY to love Singapore and the people.

It is with this trust that the heart of people will hold with hold to see a better Singapore to come!!!

My Hope is to see a better Life for Singaporean in years to come!!!

I prayed a General prayer for God to bless whomever who could take care of Singaporean to bless them with God Favour for them in the eyes of the voters and the landslide victory speaks volume!!!

It was also the change of attitude of politician and the various changes of policy in favour of people in need that show such a victory that had not been seen since the last few Elections!!!

I was not able to vote due to hospitalised and not allow time out!!!

Anyway, I am glad that I am out now to a more freedom institution.

That's all for now! God Bless!!!

Singapore

As the National Day is approaching, I started to think how Mr LKY and his initial team of government body that transformed Singapore all these years!!!

Without the foresight of them, the society will not be as prospers as now.

I am just out for outing from the hospital stay and decided to write this of how I feel.

I guess all of us must look at the positive of where our life is and be grateful and peaceful to have what we have at hand.

Thanks for visiting my blog!

Hi All

Sorry that I am unable to post lately as I am hospitalised.

Thank you for supporting my blog!

May Health and Wholeness be with you!!!

Is Money that Important?

After stirring me up and hopefully I could let them have me did not work,

And the 3 billions also didn't work,

They are trying to see what works in me!!!

Main issue is they know what is coming and they see me as the critical woman that will change the overall plan of theirs!!!

To them, not accepting the 3 billion is pride, is greedy.

But when they check with me, I told them is about selling my soul to the devil and also, if I agree to accept, the blood of those they brought down will be on my hand. As such, this cursed money to redeem them I cannot receive!!! I am not JESUS whom can redeem them.

Only Finished Work of JESUS Christ could!!!

Now they know my reason, they know it's not about money, as no matter how much it is, I won't be able to take it!!!! I do not have the ability of God to redeem them!!!

They are so afraid of my no choice when I have to help the future husband to solve a very tricky problem!!!

They are trying to see how will I not be helping my future husband against them!!!

The 3 billion is still dangling if only I could change my believe but I know the Truth too much to ignore and harm myself!!!

Now they are thinking to use truthfulness to touch my heart so that I will be emotionally affected to be disable to come against them. How to turn against a friend who is truthful to me.

But, the fact is how to be truthful to me!!! A heart must be pure to do it!!! Any darkness hidden will not be able!!!

But with the motive who is by itself not a good idea to carry out! Would lead to internal disruption, how can they be truthful, I wonder!!!

They know Seng so pure in loving me and me so pure in pleasing him, the perfection that comes out of it is what they could not handle and that's what they trying to prevent both of us from working together!!!

They know the method Lord told me is effective to extract an answer from them and they drag that day!!!!

It's all about how much I know a man, more than the man know himself!!!

Lord gives me such wisdom to satisfy my spouse-to-be and yet, be a effective way against those that need that little pain to confess their sins!!!

Lord's effective method for His Creation!!!! The tip of mountain in its barrened on melted wax!!!!

Glory Glory!!!

Amen Amen!!!

(PS: 2 witches keep emphasizing one of them love me due to his lust over my bathing spiritually. And the other one keep telling about when the one who said he love me and want to marry me, will be in judgment and seeing me in the arm of Seng.

The bitterness and the humiliation that he had to go through while being trial for the mastermind!!! A confession that is needed!!!

They tried to get me to pity over him!!!

Minister

Minister Dearest,

You are Lord beloved son!!! At the cross He had carried your sin, why not you rest in His Peace and try not to fight your way out!!!

What He could not bless that you must strife so much yourself???

As Lord ever told King David, if you think what I bless you are not enough, come to Me and I could bless you more!!! Why go sin??? Am I not Big Enough for you???

What done cannot undone, but JESUS at the Cross knew what you would go through and had been judged for you and He said it is Finished!!!!

Stop trying to fight your way out, put the Trust in Me!!!

There is Nothing an Almighty God could not do, just do not pick up trouble nor be afraid!!!

The sky is not going to fall yet!!! Be brave and bold in the Lord!!! I will lead you through!!

What My Son Done at the Cross is enough for you, Don't Worry!!! You of little faith!!!

Look to JESUS at the Cross and you will be Delivered!!!!

Glory Glory!!!!

Shalom,
Your Heavenly Daddy
Love you with the Finished Work of JESUS!!!
Amen Amen!!!

The Devil Proposal

These few nights the witch has been talking to me to see how they could impersonate Seng to fool me away.

Beside this, this witch by his own power, could come to my home and see me shower without my knowledge.

It's recently in the talk, he said how sensual I am in my shower that I realised he is watching!!! He even said he looked forward to that part of the day and cum big time!!!

Recently, he started his indecent proposal!!!

First night, proposed that I let him up to lick me up!!!

Last night, after hearing what Lord revealed Seng would want me to do, he requested I give him a BJ.

This morning, he proposed that he give me $10,000 to have sex and to see me bathing!!! He said I looked like Xi Shi in my Bath!!!

He said alternatively, $5,000 for just watching in the bathroom bathing!!!

When I rejected, he raise his price. He said $100,000 for sex and see me bathing!!!

When I rejected, he raise it to $10mil!!!!
(PS: Witch said minister said if I don't take the $10mil, $20mil is okay too! Witch said the offer is real but Lord said it's a test!!! He said he want the money but not for him. He wondered why I am not touched!!!)
(PS 2: now the offer at $50mil)
(PS3: haha, now offer at $100mil, witch asking me to accept!!!)
(PS4: offer at 200mil, wow, better than stock market!!!)
(PS5: now offer at 500mil!!!)
(PS6: Offer now at 1 billion, witch super excited!!! Haha)
(PS7: offer at 1bil 500mil!!! Witch pleading for me to accept it!!! He said long time ago, he only get from my grandpa 6 mil only, now pay with 1.5bil is already a lot!!! He ask me to accept!!!)
(PS8: last offer 2 billion, take it or leave it!!! The one offering said!!! 2hrs to consider!!!)
(PS9: even thought 2 bil is a lot of money, but to sell my soul to the devil and to have my hand stain with those blood of men that fall, to walk away from God and to dance with the devil is not my principal! As such, I decided to reject it!!! Glory Glory!!!)
(PS10: now the one negotiating for the minister is angry!!! He said how much my life cost??? To reject this 2bil!!! The witch said I didn't have the money to buy a house yet I am doing this to myself!!!)
(PS11: Hiaz, now they said my life will end on Sunday; either chained accident if I take cab or find someone to kill me if I take MRT!!!! Why can't they leave me aside??? They said Seng better come for her else plan for her to die is planned!!!)
(PS12: 20 min before time up and the offer is 3 billions!!! Rejected!!!)

Then the real intention is out!!! He said this minister, need my help to shut up!!! $10mil is the price!!!

I asked if he is still continuing to do bad, he said yes, and even said devil need them to kill people for the soul as the price for their power!!!

Btw, I told the witch CPIB has handled the case and no need me. Witch commented they only could trace the money flow but not the intention!!! That's why he wanted me to co-operate with them.

I told them it's a burden I cannot afford to carry!!!

He even want me to be his friend!!!

I thank God 8 years ago, Lord trained me to look at money that He is blessing me till an amount that is too big for me to understand, so all these money offered mean nothing to me, I have no feeling for them.

I told him, if I accept his proposal for sex and to view me bathing, which I believe would lead to a rape as he alreading cum so much from using his spirit to check on me!!!

He said this sexual scene make his whole day here worthwhile!!!

I pray to Lord this morning to erase from his vision, his mind, his heart, his emotion and feeling of me from him!!!

He was talking to this person he reported to and this person get so excited and asked him how could he see me spiritually!!!

The witch shared that it's his spiritual power that this man cannot see. Then this man asked if he could place a camera in my toilet as he was so tempted and he wanted to see me too!!!

The witch told him that Lord would let me know and it is impossible!!!

They are envying Seng for able to have me and have all the luxury to enjoy me!!!

They say I just have a ok face but action wise is so sensual, esp in the bathroom!!!

The witch even tempted to go Seng's home to see we both make love eventually!!!

He said to see a woman climax would be very sensual!!! They yet to see one!!!

But Lord told him that He would block and he will not be able to see!!!

I told him to go watch pornography but he said those are false but mine is real!!! I feel so violated and pray to Lord to block his viewing of me!!! He could even described to me my action!!!! Urgh!!!!

I never feel so violated in my own home!!! Didn't expect I closed the main door and put curtain on my window, they would use spiritual means to look at me!!!

He said previously I was fat, he could not see the sexiness but now I slim down, he enjoyed it so much that he showed me a vision of a dick and the balls and then offered me the price!!!

He said Su, with $3k, $5k, they could buy her to spy me but with $10millions, my heart is still not touch!!!

I asked him how much is JESUS blessing PM Lee HL eventually? He told me the amount I told him when he pretended as Seng to speak to me sometimes back!!!

So I question him, if I could bless that amount to PM eventually, what is this $10 million.

Also, I could not carry the sin of the devil!!! I would be fallen from Grace and cannot do Lord's work if I accepted the devil's proposal!!! I won't have a hole to hide and my future will be fully gone if I accept the deal!!!

Especially, he has no intention to stop his killings!!! According to the witch!!!

This witch did not involve in Mr & Mrs Lee, but my dad & mum and he asked me to forgive him already!!! 

Amos Yee

I am comforted when I check his Facebook and YouTube.

This boy that caught the public eyes is finally responding with Kindness given to him after the 4 days in holding due to no one bail him!!! Now he realise the sky is not just about him only. Glory Glory!!!

Lord said he now know those who help him is the very person he condemned. This boy has hope!!! With proper guidance, he will be normal again!!! Glory Glory!!!

I heard polytechnic has course that might interest him and his interest. If he could be given a chance and he would realise the goodness of continue study might be good for him and for the society!!!

I am happy that this desperated boy that looking for acceptance and looking for love is finding them from the very unlikely people and place!!!

This small brush with the Law and a taste of lost of freedom is good for him!!! It will last in him and guide him!!! Glory Glory!!!

I am glad that he could be turn around.

Thank You, Government!!! For helping a poor soul that lost his way!!!

You done a good deed for a teenager who is blinded to see clearly!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! 

My House Issue

Yesterday, checked the HDB renting and realised I didn't meet any criteria just because I am alone!!!

Asked a careleader wife, who is a property agent, she showed me the 2 room HDB resale asking from 280k-350k, almost same as my mum 3 room apartment, which cost around 300k currently.

Su sent a message that her spouse told me to rent a room somewhere and after mum estate is split, I should have the money to buy a 2 room apartment!!!

Why would I spend that much for a 2 room that cost around my mum's apartment but a lot smaller???

But even with what I could receive from mum, I still not enough and had to take a loan!!!

After looking around, I still do not have a clear path how should I go ahead!!! Headache!!!

If brother would allow me to take over this apartment then problem settle.

I am afraid if I wait till my blessing, will this apartment able to be sold?

And also hopefully the blessing is really as so, otherwise, it's some more wait but I am force to cannot wait upon the Lord anymore!!!

Long time ago, the one whom took over John G Lake, said that he told Lord if He still not calling him to service, he will go look for a job and Lord called him!!!

When I read what he said, I told myself I will wait till Lord Time is up. But seem like it's another cannot wait situation!!!!

But so far, the various checking, don't have a clear break through!!!

I am still pondering!!!

Lord, Abba, with birthday coming and a year older in age, I pray that You give me the wisdom and understanding. How can I continue to wait upon you and yet have a roof over my head.

Lord, give me lots of wisdom and understanding to find a way out!!! I pray in the Name of Jesus!!! Amen Amen!

My daughter

Lord through meditation told me someone is coming and I thought cook something for them. But it was just a meditation.

In the end, this food was shared with my daughter.

It had been a long time since I spent a few hours with her. But asking her to come over was useless as she was tired after school. As ex was on a dinner date and she was home alone, I decided to go over to her.

My girl is tall!! Now her eye is at my brow level!!! She is friendly and she ate the dinner but like most teens, time is with friends.

However, she did talk to me in the midst of talking to her friend!!!

In the end she gave me a hug!!! Without any request, she gave me the hug!!!

I feel our relationship is restored!!! She did not have anymore bad feeling for me!!! Glory Glory!!!

She is ok in handling her own life. I pray to Lord to lead her, I only give her some advice.

No matter how she grow up, as long as she still love her daddy and mummy, I am happy!!!

I watched Amos video and he condemned his parents for not wanting him to quit school and I am appalled!!! He disregard their provision for his living and feeding. He said this is not love!!!

His rejection by peers in school in all those years has form weird logic in him. But as he is strong by natural, he reasoned it out to protect himself and assumed the rest is wrong!!!

It's a self protection mechanism but as he need not deal with people, his thoughts become self centred. Being the only child work to his disadvantage!!!

Kids under prosecution reacted in two ways, either withdraw to their corner or rebel. Amos rebels against his social circle and he thought that's the world!!!

That's why he didn't care much about 'his world'. And results in those talks that hurt his parents and anyone around him. The very thing he told others not to do, in his self righteousness, he is doing it!!!

He need love of God to make him whole again. Most time when people talks, it's about condemnation, but what he needs is love! Only love can calm him to be a steady youth!!!

That's why I always tell my daughter, I love her because she is my daughter, not because she has done something good or bad!!! And it free her to be good as law was not given and sin loose it power on her!!!

Bible says Law is the Strength behind sin!!!

The very thing that was told not to do, this law provides the strength for the curiosity to do it, the strength to rebel against it!!!

This is how nature works!!! 

Confession

Why I want to loosely link to you?

Even I have yet to know you, but the witches keep accusing me of looking for your money that I rather stand aside to let you come to me instead of saying I like you too!!!

In my dream, you ever walked towards me and I am happy. Last night, when another face was shown to me, I don't have any interest but your face was shown next and I do like you!!!

As I don't want to be called a gold digger or go for you because of your whatever status, I don't see all these as important!!!

As life with ex, I had no monetary lack, so money is not a problem for me in looking for a partner. But finding someone who loves me is very important as the last one lacks of it!!!

So, beside you look pleasing to me, I want your love. Why I want to turn away is because after waiting and waiting, you are still not coming forward. Just helping or blocking me in the behind scene!!!

Even though I look forward to the day that I have you to be with me, I know I cannot force you if you don't want.

I do like you!!!

In fact, I was so please to find someone that have similar traits as me the first time I saw you!!!

At this point, I cannot say I love you as loving is about giving and I have not given you anything.

I look forward to see you and have you with me!!!

I really do!!!

May the Lord God Almighty bless me favour in your eyes!!! I pray in the Name of Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS:
Seng, please help me thank your sis for changing her FB pic to a fun, loving lady to calm my heart!!! I almost thought I have gone to the wrong FB account!!! Thank you very very much!!! I appreciated and smiling, sweet of her!!!

Longevity

My sharing of Love, you caughty hold and you see people's heart changing and shaking!!!

I hope you continue loving Singapore and loving her people long after that big day!!!

For this is the last hope of trust if they are going to trust you!!!

If after they open their hearts to trust you again but after the big day you cut them in their pain, it would be very hard for you to turn them once more!!!

Especially they don't have Christ that commanded Christian to love thy enemy!!!!

Long ago, when CHC saga started and they were out protecting their leaders and coming against the media, I did shot an email to them about JESUS commandment and what image they are projecting to the world about JESUS!!!

It got them to calm down to love thy enemy!!!

But I can't ask the world to calm down and love thy enemy as they don't have Christ with them and are unable to restrain without the mercy of God!!!

Just like parents, whatever we did our children observe and cried unfair!!! If we did not treat them with equal attention!!!

Same, government and her people!!! The people look for fairness of treatment too!!!

Why JESUS is popular with the poor and unwanted??? He keeps giving Love; teaching, preaching and healing!!!

He never bleed his people but He bleed for them!!!

When He willingly bleed for them, whatever needed the people responded!!!

Why people willingly stood in the rain and sun and even thoughout the night to just pay respect to Mr Lee KY???

They looked to his years of lifting up of people's lives and they are grateful and compared the small part they did for him as nothing!!!

If you want loyalty from all, you have to be willing to love them to their wholeness of soul!!! Remove the unfairness and walk in Love forever!!!

Just like the remote love I got to know, I look towards it and due to no action my emotion is returning to nothingness, but knowing that he is there, even though I want to abort and turn away, there is still a lingering thought if I should wait and see!!!

You want to let people hoping and seeing it is getting better, not after they give you the trust you aim to bleed them even more!!!

It depends where your Heart is!

Just like yesterday afternoon, looking at a lady carrying the shopping bags while the husband hand free, and not even need to tend to their girl, it reminded me of my pain in the previous marriage!!!

So much so that I pray to Lord to fill my lacks up with His Love if He wants to move me on.

As the effort I put in the last marriage caused so much pain, I look to the future don't know how should I handle it now!!!

Lord just let me recall what Su told me long ago. She said with Love, service onto man is easy as it comes naturally!!!

I do have to wait and see!!! If this fill up will lead to happily providing all over again to him whom love me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

What I know about man?

The bible says wife, submit to your husband as you submit to Lord Jesus!!! Onto Lord shall you serve him!!!

What does the bible mean?

Basically, very easy!!! Man, his need for a woman is as ancient as history!!!

As a wife, our job is when his need arises, submit to him and be of service onto him.

Man is to love the body of wife as much as he loves his own.

Wife is to give in to his request without question but just submit as one would submit to the Lord!!!

Why this is difficult for man to access his wife nowadays? Tired, no mood or plain lazy!!!

Also, the usual complain is man did not work the body up and wife is not well conditioned and man go for his entry and cause pain that make the wife not willing to go through the pain!!!

So pleasure a woman is as important as service onto a man.

It is when both is happy that subsequent request will be entertained!!!

But for me previously, even pain was around, for his sake, I won't reject!!!

Not because it's a command onto Lord, But I know he need it and a release is better than they endure the discomfort!!!

Just doing a wifey duty is what I believe.

From understanding his need and service onto him.

Easy? ;P

Politics

Now I have a better understanding after reading a bit of Roy Facebook and another person Facebook and whom they linked and share.

Lord lead me to have a better understanding!!!

Basically any case that linked to the Lee or aka PAP, while those on the same side speak of factual true of that instance, those on the previously suppressed side uses emotion and rise the person as a hero and able to rise up to speak against the 'ills' of the ruling party!!!!

They are saying they could do a better job!!! No wonder ISA was needed previous. After so many years they still hold their conviction tightly!!!!

No wonder Lord wants the Ruling Party to walk in Love!!!! Play them by their game!!! It's the time to be smart as Xun Zhi, knows the tactics of the enemy so that you walk in victory.

No wonder have to wait for the blessing to solve the money issue that they used to say the inequality will solve under them!!!! It's empty vessels making noise!!!!

This Amos case, even though he did use humiliation as humor to attract and sensitize the whole situation, it's better to use re-education, just like those use on radical Islam, to use love to touch his heart to change him!!!

It is easy to punish him for the moment of acts that purposely come against due to what he believes!!! All these ideology without the wisdom of God, very easy to buy in to what they are saying!!!!

Even the mum said that she went to police station to apologise but it didn't help. The dad also publicly apologize!!! All these redirect people eyes to look at the case as ruling vs hearts!!!
Reality vs emotional!!!

No wonder Lord uses love thy enemy, if one did something on you, help him on the same path on the next!!!!

Just like my ex, there was an issue years back where he supposed to pick Jc at the marital home. But as Jc was with Su in another location, he wanted me to pick her home so that he could pick at appointed location.

Lord led me to give Grace and offered to help bring Jc to his home!!! This break his anger and eventually he went there to pick Jc!!!

I don't know how this tactic will help to cushion the overall issue and de-sensitize it!!! Maybe use his talent to speak for certain clause that is good??!!

There is always two side to a coin!!!! Surely with wisdom, the Righteous feeling of both side will be catered and a win-win situation that shows the mercy and the wisdom of handling the issue will gain respect instead of condemnation!!!!

It's not a let go, but handle the case with love and deal with the wrong believe!!!

It's image repairing time!!! Glory Glory!!!! The Goal is how you want to project yourself in the coming election. They are trying to show you in bad image. The choice is yours!!! Look at the bigger picture!!!

PS:
Since he humiliate Christianity, and he enjoyed watching videos 3 times per day, if he could sit for hours just purely watch Pastor Prince past year sermons on God's love, especially those before 2006, think it would change him much!!!

Using Mr Lee Legacy of how best to love Amos to wholeness good citizen!!!

PS 2:
After a few read up on Amos Yee blog, he does have deep thinking into things that most people don't care about!!! And punishment seem to his cup of tea from his frustration of life as it is. He talks with insults and negativity but his blog sound with wisdom from within. Much older than his appearance!!!

This judgment on him do have to have the wisdom to let him see the understanding of what he did is wrong, not just melt down of rules as he got that so often that one more won't make a diff!!! No wonder he is so indifference!!!

PS 3:
Went to Roy FB to checkout, he is trying to sensitize the whole Amos issue against PAP mistreating youth!!! Hiaz!!! He even blocked me from commenting when I told him to calm down!!!

Judges, please show judgment with mercy and wisdom given. So that those who trying to make things bigger than what it should be fail in their mission!!! I pray in the Name of Jesus!!!

The Blessed Hope

I don't know why, it's already almost a week and yet I think of what my siblings did to me, I will cry.

Probably for divorce Lord give me hope of a new man coming in my life and secured in that hope. It holds me for so many years!!!

Lord did give me a new hope and a new door for this shifting!!! But I see nothing firm yet, I dare not hold on to the hope!!! I don't want to put any pressure on it!!! I only want to hold it lightly till I can see more certainty.

Probably this pain going to dwell for a while so that I could harden my heart in future regarding that blessed home!!! As Lord said that is only for me and my family and no one else!!!

It was a privilege given to me as I am supposed to be here for 1500 years for His Thousands Year reign!!!

As when I rise up to Heaven, it just for 7 years and Lord Jesus will come to judge the world. So I have not much time to enjoy my Heaven. So Lord knows my heart and will bless me Heaven on Earth to enjoy Heaven and at the same time do my duty for Him on Earth!!!

This is why this privilege is not for anyone else but just for my family!!!

As what Su told me long ago, about another sis will like to take advantage of what others she knew had and brought her family to enjoy!!!

Guess Lord is hardening my heart in this area that is not available to them!!!

Glory Glory!!!

The Splendor and the Majesty is so Great that the Glory would keep me and my family young for a long time to come!!! That is why this Heaven on Earth for us to charge up and remain!!!

In the air of Purity and no curse of this world!!!

I look forward to that environment!!! To the Heaven that I know!!! Glory Glory!!!

This is why Lord has to train me for so long and keep me free of self and look to Him. For in this blessed home, I have to remain in humility as it is a privilege given. Not mine but His!!! Glory Glory!!!

And He hand pick the man to share with me in His Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! 

The body like Christ but have fresh and can eat, no problem!!! But it won't age as it is the Righteousness of God in Christ Jesus in its Fullness!!! 

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Cold

My friend, WK, asked how can my siblings be so cold (无情) towards me.

I thought that's the end of things. The secured 6 additional month should buy me some peace to wait for my name be released from the previous marital home. Original final appointment is 26/62015. But ex won't be around, it likely to postpone after that!!!

But when I checked with my bochap eldest sis that lamented for the role she had to do, she warned me about bringing an agent to sell the house in June!!!

I told her to at least delay till I get my name out!!! She said what if difficult to find a buyer!!!!

My God, she didn't even think if she managed to get a buyer, where would I have to go then!!!!

I wondered where Her bochap is, suddenly she became so on despite secured 6 more months!!!

I got more serious attack on my brain and eye sight and overall mobility.

A trip to buy my dinner and withdraw some money for the new washer, I sensed the urgency of those that out to crust me. Stressed was on his face!!! And the heavy session of attack came after that!!!

I guess my siblings were threatened by them to rush this place into sale and to put me out of the house!!!

I guess, they saw the action from his side and know the criticality of the case!!!

Frankly, I am stressed too!!! I did not expect any test would come my way!!! Maybe I don't know the function of the other society!!! Anyway, by Grace and Mercy, it shall be!!! Lord, I need you Much!!!

Frankly, I am not afraid of explaining myself clearer if need be!!!

After all, the ding dong of extracting from him and then asking of me of what is it, have to be come around face to face to tally what he mean and which area I had written!!!

It's a trace out of why he loves me!!!

According to Lord, we are like twins, that's how close the likeness as He described!!!!

It had to be as ex and my unhappiness was mainly on parenting and Love, due to different culture and his growing up as a 'street kid' as his mum was busy working to support the 3 of them.

The 5 years of looking at the parents quarreling and the mum got beaten up didn't help too!!! He could remembered so clearly and told me of the broken ribs!!!

I learnt from an adult, whom went through her parents divorce at age 8, how kid learn about Love!!! In a way, being friendly to ex cushioned Jc void of knowing love!!! She is one that is pretty caring and love her pet hamster, Jasmine!!!

In the coldness that came from my siblings, I am glad a ray of light is shining from him. At least I know he cares!!! Consistent with what he had shown indirectly!!!

Even though it is remote, I am comforted a bit though I am not considering that as a helpline. I am not putting any conditions on how this will pan out!!!

If it ended good, Great!

If it didn't meet expectation, I can't do much too!!!

Anyhow, hope everything works out well as Lord told me I am getting into service 3rd quarter this year!!!

Hope it really come true!!! The wait is long enough and I do need the way out from Him and Him alone!!!!

Thank You, Abba!!!

The Level of My Faith

I am happy that Lord moves according to the level of my Faith!!!

You know my siblings only allow me to stay here depends on how much more HDB lengthens the sale date!!!

Original date given was June!!!

Lord keep telling me that I will move out through a door but after my siblings, I could not trust any mysterious, floating in the air, like have, like don't have kind of story anymore!!! I need concrete evidence!!!

So I keep praying to Lord that I do not want to trust any man any more but Him, Him alone!!!

I keep praying to Lord to extend the sale date to a year as it was supposed to be!!! Glory Glory!!!

Since sis emailed to HDB has yet to reply, and she too tired to call, I decided to make the call instead. 

Praise JESUS, favour was given and eventually the sale by date was restored to the original 1 year!!!

I am happy!!!

I am trusting His Manifestation and I will move to the house He provided and do His Work!!!

I am trusting Him for His Manifestation so that I could start my service to Him!!! All these is linked to the blessing too!!! 

I don't know how it will come but I know if He could bless Solomon, He could bless me too!!! 

It's a transfer of wealth from sinners to the righteous; just like the Children of Israel the eve of the delivance out from Egypt!!!

At this point, I am just Glad I have more time to wait upon the Lord!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!

Lord, The Comforter

I thank Lord God Almighty is my Comforter!!!

Those closed to me is questioning my time spend with the Lord, in my 9th year!!! They are wondering the fruitfulness and doubted the blessing!!! Even Su, whom used to trust the Lord much!!!

But Lord is using a lady preacher that went through 12 years of training to show me I am still not the longest in waiting upon Him!!!

As I looked at Jc and asked about her study, she said bad as usual and she just happy go lucky!!!

I am here shaking my head and wonder what could be done with her life!!!

But Lord showed me this lady preacher, just gave birth to a baby, body afflicted with affliction, no money and don't know where to go!!! Today her ministry is great and even that baby has grown up to be a mighty giant in His Kingdom!!!

Lord is showing me I need not worry for Jc!!!

Even this apartment, He is telling me no worry!!!

If Almighty God that has the earth on His Palm and His Eyes looking at Hearts of men say, No Problem', surely it is Good!!!

When siblings refused to believe about the blessing, there are those that traced me closely for the day of Blessing!!! When they refused to hear me, there are those that so keen for me to speak that they want me to share whatever testimony in Church and they used whatever way to talk to me and they even want to change my mind on my marriageable partner!!!

But the God of Love secured my heart on that one love. Even though spiritual, the other party tried to present a super bochap aka don't bother him, Lord asked me to focus on the feeling I received from from him from the 2 encounters!!! One of anxiety and another of Great Joy!!!

There are voices condemning my appearance but Lord told me he focused on personality!!!

It's amazing what they tried, to change opinion, to change my appearance and to remove my good opinion of him.

Frankly speaking, without knowing this love, I might have look else where again!!! As I am tired of being empty and I want a man!!!

But it's Lord that holding me still to wait patiently!!!

Even though ex might be interested in the renewed me, I know he could not lead me to enjoy the fullness of the Union as I know his preference. As for the other one, Lord said he will fulfill me and I am still waiting patiently for such a day to come by!!!

Basically, I am willing to move ahead based on Lord promises!!! Even though ex other area of likeness are pretty similar but Lord said the other one click till the last piece of puzzle!!! I am so keen to see for myself if he is so!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!!

PS:
Amazing!!! The 双喜, a big and a small one, which I sticked on the mirror for my marriage to ex, I had tried to remove without success for the past 1 year. Today, they are finally gone!!!!!!!
I am AMAZED!!!!

PS 2:
What a co-incident!!! Today receive an email from HDB. Transfer Name out completion date set on 26/6/2015. I didn't know to be set free is a scary feeling!!!

PS 3:
Yippy!!! HDB extend the sale date to 21st December 2015!!! Hallelujah!!!

What Lord Reveal about End Time

I was reading and thinking of JESUS prayer in John 17 that Lord revealed this to me!

Lord:
'My beloved, my darling,
You have My Protection in the Fullness
And thus you will not die!!! Hallelujah!!!

Surely I will glory you just I am Glorified.

My Darling, this Thousand years,
You will live and be alive. 
Surely the Youth I AM restoring to you
Will last Forever 

And you will come back to me when
Tribulation of this World begin. 
The 7 years of Suffering!

I will lead you to Rise Up to Heaven Visually 
And that will be a Great Sign. 

Surely after you, the Rest of the Saints 
will Disappeared and be with you in Heaven
While the rest starts their Suffering. 

The Sun will Depart and the moon gone. 
It will be darkness day and night and
Water is limited. 

That is worst than Hell!!!
Surely those who left would be wishing death 
But death has departed!!!

Surely they will suffer and not die. 

After 7 years then I descend to Judge them
And burnt the Whole Earth
And create a New One for you all. 
Surely it is good!
Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!'

I received this early this morning in meditation!!!

The Love of Money

The Love of Money is not an expression of 'Oh Money, I love you!!!' But rather it affects the heart of the one owning it!!!

It's when you view what you have and how much you willing to depart with it and if you feel anything or don't feel anything!!!

Just look at my siblings, they all knows I need a place to stay!!! And their willingness is put to a test in this apartment!!!

In this apartment is their 1/5 share of the monetary value. To let me takeover this apartment they have to give up their share!!! And it depends how much they look to the money and the willingness to let go!!!

By putting a condition is as good as a no!!! Just a indirect way to part with the money. Is it that they have urgent need? No, just a nice to have amount!!! But to own the money become an issue when I am in the way!!!

Even they don't have any need to this amount, but unwilling to let me stay to wait upon the Lord, they hold money tightly in their heart!!!

This is their entitlement!!! Not what they earn!!!

Now talk about our own personal hard earned money, are you willing to give away without a feeling? 

If one is able to give away without feeling, one don't have Love of Money. It means you won't even feel good about it!!! It just about giving away without a feeling, that's all!!!

But most of us are not so. It is with Christ and He took away the Spirit of the Love of Money that one don't have the feeling!!!

Personally, Lord stretched me so much on what He is giving me to a digit so big that I could not put a name to it!!! And when such happened, whatever money that I could define become nothing in my eyes. It just no feeling at all!!!

That is why when the answer to those having their CPF money back, any plan that holds back their money, to them is a NO to access their own money, whatsoever reason given is just an excuse to drag!!! 

Those looking to their own money can see!!! Because it's about if they can have it or not!!! Very Clear!!!

And this is where unhappiness will arise and only JESUS could help!!!

Have to wait for His Time, cannot Rush!!

It's not about how many new Singaporean but about all their pockets!!!

That's why I said Love and Respect for Mr Lee KY is one thing, but money in their pockets is another thing!!!

That's why JESUS return again is critical! For me and for you!!!

I do hope He come back quickly!!! Abba, You hear me!!! 

Thank You for the Blessing of Abraham!!!

You can bless King Solomon richly, You could bless me too!!!

Wisdom of God, Thank You that Your Right Hand and Left Hand embrace me!!!

Glory Glory!!!

PS:
I seem to meet 2 groups of people in my marketing outing, as I walked in the basement, some say aloud, don't try to act smart (weird man private part in Teochew). The other want to know what I say in more detailed!!!

Obedience to God

In my obedience to God, marriage that was bad was broken, now the roof where I am housed at the mercy of the time given by HDB to sell.

But I see JESUS, before His Time to do the Will of the Father, no matter how the people wanted to kill him, He walked through them all!!!

Before last Saturday meeting, I prayed to Lord if it's His Will for me to continue live here, then used the Key of David and Open a way for me.

If not, close the door and show me the way out!!!

What I got from brother was I had to find a job now to get his agreement to the takeover. 

As for my 2 elder sisters, they changed their mind and said I must move out depending when the due date of the sale of this apartment. 

Currently we are requesting for an extension of the sale time of this apartment to be extended as half a year is too short!!! My name yet to transfer out of my ex-marital home!!!

I do hope Lord manifestation is before the sale due date, so that I could shift to the blessed home and free this home for sales!!!

I believe Lord is in Control and I should have a place to stay till His Time is up!!! 

I wonder is it this year or another year to go!!!

Whatever it is, I pray that He will help me out!!!

It's between me and Him, my siblings side are gone case!!! I don't even know what job should I do beside His Job!!! His Calling and Anointing is on me and He has not spoken any other job nor give me any impression nor thoughts for any other job!!!

It's all different person that trying to lead me elsewhere, not Lord's calling and no whatever impression from Him!!!

Only area that is opened is when Seng at telco and at Parliament House, I could sensed his feeling!!! This is amazing for me since we are not even friends!!! Just have a knowledge that there is one man loving me out there!!!

Lord's Time is a mystery, this man's love will it become a reality is a mystery too!!! Both are mystery to me!!!

But I supposed to wait upon the Lord, the rest is up to him!!!

As since from ex, I realise if a man don't love, there is no way to change his mind. So same, if a man really love, no one could change his mind too!!!

If he decided to come and meet me so that a relationship could be develop, good. But he don't come, there is nothing I could do too!!! So this is leave to the will of God and will of man!!!

At the meantime, I will just rest in Him who knows All Things to make sure things work out perfectly for His Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Thank You, Abba Father

My beloved Abba,

I thank You for the love You pour on me to keep me stable in You!!!

I have not been so down in my life before!!! Even when I was in Deep Depression long ago I was never so down and stressed up!!!

Thank You for lifting me up!!

I have no mood to do my marketing and get the tissue Aunty to bless me food and drink to keep me happy!!! Thank You very much!!!

Thank You for letting me know he loves me and even I don't know him yet, the little I know about him is a comfort in an ocean of uncertainty!!!

Let me see how to move from here!!!

Thank You for the Leading!!!

Thank You, Abba!!!

Hiaz

For the past 1 week, I had been burning candle for Su, but tonight, light the candle for them all!!!

I never feel so lonely as in family right now.

Looking at them taking the responsibility of my mum then, I should have expected this coming. Even thought I know they are on the same boat, I didn't expect 3 agree to the take over and my brother put a condition for me to look for a job first, to eventually I must look for my own apartment!!!

Suddenly it become a it's not my problem and you take care yourself out there where there is a place that could hold me actually!!!

Su started to remind them of I suddenly died and the property would go to Jc instead. Before she turned to support me.

Lord said she is a lesser hypocrite as compared to the rest!!!

They turning their backs on me and even don't call for any complaints; just swept clean of everything is what my mum wouldn't do on me!!!

If just a 300k made them this way, how about the billions that Lord is giving them???

It just months away and they can't even have the Grace to forgo of the 1/5 of such an amount for a short few months!!!

Are they my siblings??? Maybe I yet to see those side that Su noticed years ago that I am experiencing now!!! Hiaz!!!

No wonder Lord Jesus said in the bible that to do His Job is about disregard all the parents and siblings!!! Yeah, their disbeliefed is in the way!!!

I know my life is turning for the better. I do wonder how to treat them in future!!! At this point as I am going through this, I really don't know!!!

I expect Lord to return within these 4 blood moon and I really hope He returns. As this year is His Restoration, it should be!!!

Previously, when the Lord said the blessed home is just for me and my immediate family, I wondered how to exclude the rest.

But now they turned their backs, maybe it is a good excuse to reject them later!!!

Lord said such a meeting is for me to observe them and to understand why Lord bless them the amount and I agreed it is!!!

Even though Su said ex supposed to support me for 3 years and I told them all that he gave me will be returned to him, they said don't!!!

But I do not like to owe him and as such, he will be blessed!!!

Time is just a few months away and the situation is set!!!

There is no more trials for me to see!!! Surely it is good!!!

I am kind of very sad just now but had prayed to Lord to clear all the sadness and disappointment!!!

I cried much too, more than I cried for Mr Lee KY!!!

The clothes for later in the day to church yet to iron, hiaz!!!

I really feeling down!!!

Should I just cast the whole issue aside and lift up my head as if nothing happen??? I really don't know!! As I should be having a positive expectation of Good, but what I experience tonight is what I never gone through before!!!

For friends, it is easy to drop!!! But how to drop them???

My Siblings

Long time ago, when Lord said the only person I could share my thought is just my spouse and no one else and the the blessing home is for my own family only, I wondered!!!

Today, I finally see what a small amount of money could do to their heart even outwardly they try to act nice!!!

My heart is broken, broken to pieces!!!

Lord uses all these small events for me to see their hearts!!!

I really have to submit to the wisdom of God!!!

This trial if HDB did not shorten the sale period to half a year, I would not have seen it!!!

It is at lacks that things could be seen clearly!!! Glory Glory!!!

I do wish Lord's open door come quick as I need a place to shift to fast!!!

I am feeling hopelessness in all things!!! I did not expect them to claim Grace when no Grace on what shown!!! I have given up!!! Totally given up on them!!!

Su did a U-turn today to support me!!! Lord is happy in her turn of heart!!!

Lord, thank you for strengthening me in the meeting!!! Thank You very much!!!

Please use the Key of David, open door to me my bless home to shift!!! I trust that You will not leave me here hopeless!!! Your Loving Kingness and Grace is Enough!!! I claim the Fullness of it!!!

Please show to my unbelieve sibling you are a Real God who Love me Much!!!

Double Blessing for what I been through today for Your Glory Sake!!!

Show them that their eyes are blind that they did not see and cannot see how Good You Are!!!

I pray in the Name of Jesus!!! I claim the 7 fold blessing!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

My brother wanted me to get a job when they know I am waiting for Lord!!!

In the end, no take over but have to look else where!!! I thought they so good to let me have it for a short time!!! Hiaz!!!

I have for the Lord sake been faithful to His Calling and do not let whatever temptation take me away but I didn't expect to face this housing issue!!!

I know Lord will surely Open a Door with His Key of David for me to walk through!!!

He is a loving Father for sure!!!

I ask for house, He surely will not give me stone!!! I believe in His Finished Work for me!!!

Amen Amen!!!

My Love Life

Ever Since Lord told me about the Blessing of Abraham that would change my life, I had been looking forward to it and never bother about having another man in my life even though I believe I will have one when my advantages is up!!!

I didn't know the 2013 Theme of the Year, have the Key of David open door for me to know there is a man by the name of Seng, loving me!!!

It started with accusations, their tactics, that I out of nothing, was wondering what were they pouring on me!!! Think that year had a few such cases that told a story of a man loving so much!!!

Then the next year of Greater Glory had many instances of testes that I paid for a cab home but got tested the whole journey!!!

He surfaced once in 2014 too, but without spectacle, I could not see clearly but closed by, I dare not look!!!

In this year of His Restoration, he uttered a voice for the first time but I was shy to check out!!!

I wanted to be love but I wasn't looking out for one, love crept up to me!!!

Listening to the sermon on the 2013 year theme again, everything is mentioned in it but I missed it till I listened again just now!!! Amazing!!! Even Sarah's Renewal of Youth is in there!!!

And as it says, it's up to me to open my door of my heart to let him come in. Partly, I did not look into his eyes so far is because, if I look, I will be drawn into his love for me and as he did not appear to be with me so far, it's better not to trigger myself as there won't be a him for me to respond in love.

Till the day come, where things become real, then maybe I will look at him in the eyes!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Homelessness!!!

In the face of Homelessness, I really admire Father Abraham of his Great Faith!!!

He told his son, Isaac, that God will provide a lamb when Isaac asked where was the lamb!!!

God instruction was for him to bring Isaac up as an offering to God!!! That's why he dared not tell his wife!!! But she was heart broken anyway!!!

Sis is asking HDB for an extension for the time given to sell, currently it is about half a year!!!

I could not take over as my name transfer out of the marital home has just started a few days ago!!!

I am as good as dead!!! Without my name release, I can't own any apartment and rental is not an option for me!!! As it is about security!!! I have no confidence in it having live here, where my home clothes could be cut with many holes in strategic area!!!

Lord said my situation is like Isaac and He will provide as it may sound so good but I lack the faith to believe!!! But thank God there is a commanded blessing that could come without faith in The Lord!!!

9 years ago, I had to endured 3 years of spiritual attack with no help and now housing look bleak to me and it is another lack that Lord told me I have an outlet!!!

Somehow, I have to step into the provision to have it and accept it is if I should go for it!!!!

It is not like a blessing that I could gladly claim it and own it!!!

The implication is all there!!! Should I pick it up and let go of self!!!

It is easier to see to God for His Provision of Lamb than a house that means the fulfillment of a blessed living!!!

At this point, staying here is bleak and step forward is too good to be true!!!

That's why I admire the Great Faith of Abraham in agreement to God to kill his son as offering. I need not kill myself, but according to Lord, is a home returning blessing, to the nest that I should rest!!!

Should I believe or should I not??? Is this a planned situation? I rather kill myself in this unknown!!!

Yeah, it's not about faith!!! That's why Lord need to give that mantle of strength and boldness as I need all that to step forward!!!

Lord, Lord, strengthen me for tomorrow and beyond!!!!

ISA 2

From the different area of gathering of informations that Lord leads me to, finally I could understands what dilemma MM Lee was going through as a PM.

I mean, who would for goodness sake a PM would gather the opposition at the Parliament House for a talk!!!!

Of course, it's one of the last resort of you talk to the enemy, it's a way to see if there is a way out for both to live peacefully.

The talk is about Chinese for Singapore while MM Lee stand should be equal for all including minority as he had been one in the Malaysia Federation that was short lasted!!!

From the recent letter post by ex-police chief and in certain man FB that Lord led me to see, the opposition took their stand and refused to give in!!!

They parted each having their own ideology!!!

MM Lee also talked about their using of guns, sticks and intimidation on the people!!!

It just like those guerrila warfare waged in Neighbourring Countries by those who want the country to be Islamic and creating trouble for the people!!!

Just that Singapore is so small that we cannot afford such to affect a certain area like our Neighbouring Countries, which is bigger and if a villiage is affected, the rest is still okay!!!

We are so small that it's either this or that!!! Cannot both Co-exist!!! The Peace of Singapore will be gone if such existed!!!

No wonder MM Lee had no choice but to captured them under ISA. So that peace could remain!!!

Just look at Malaysia where they put Malays more priority, do you see an overall peaceful nation???

So MM Lee really had seen all the pitfall and didn't want Singapore to fall into it as this city state could not afford it!!!

As what MM Lee said, 'it's my life and your life!!!' Yes, we cannot go that way!!! For the sake of Singapore Peace!!!!

I was wondering why Catholic was captured, today Lord leads me to see the Pride of one Catholic on what PM Lee HL posted.

One who thinks he knows more!!! Flowing in His Pride of Self!!! And think he has more right!!!

Overtime, people could make the whole issue so grey for other to believe they were more right than MM Lee!!! It was not His Fear that closed you up!!!

But more of your Pride in your Ideology and want to make a stand of it that locked you up!!!

Now I finally have a better understanding and with a better understanding of PM Lee HL and some of the PAP Cabinet Ministers, I surely now stands on their side!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS: I do not know the exact of the disagreement but this is the simplified of the whole issues depends on the level of control put on the people. As I don't understand them either, at least this simplified version did hold some truth in it as I heard from those rally given by MM Lee.