I thought in my life, since 20+ till 1+ years back, gone through depression for 3 years, till I used positive thoughts to get out, then when I quited my job when JC was 3 months old, hubby was retrenched the 2nd time round. He was so unlucky that 3 previous companies he went all suffered financial problem. (Recession time) Then the 3 years of darkness attack.
Before the darkness attack, what we did was to think positive and look forward for the light to come. For hubby, he didn’t have a problem getting interviews; it was a matter of job matching. Luckily we have enough reserve to let us pull through. In fact, his relationship with JC gets better from the last 1 year stay at home.
As such, when YC told me that there is some more test coming my way before I am ready to service and with the test, my power will increase 3 times, I wonder if I have not had enough of tests. :P
Somehow, the thoughts of the coming test push me away from Daddy God instead. Then YC told me that Lord had corrected her, it should be trial and not test. Well, trial does sound better than test, but still, I wonder what it is.
I wonder is it that Daddy God will not be there when I face the trial. I was feeling down whenever this thought came. Lord asked me why I am bored, I also could not reply Him. Then after my driving lessons, I decided that I have enough of that feeling, I am not going to have it anymore!
I listened to worship songs and get connected with the Lord. Lord has taught me yesterday, that even when I next time in ministry, I must have the worship songs before prayers. He said worship songs will raise the Holy Spirit presence in people because in a congregation, there are mixed faith people, from no faith to strong in faith. The worship songs will bring the not so close one closer to Lord, thus releasing the faith and raise the presence of the Lord. This will help to prevent Satan from disturbing.
I have started meditate Psalm since yesterday, per day I am supposed to meditate one, according to Holy Spirit. Praise the Lord, what is revealed to me is full of joy. I know in future Jesus will rule the whole earth; He will bless everyone so much that all worship Him with great joy. I also know that Daddy God love me so much that He has no time to think about my sins. He looks at me according to His love for me. Praise the Almighty God!
With the worship songs and these revelations, I am now back to His arms and held close by Him again. Hallelujah!
Daddy God, thank You for caring so much for me. I love You. Smooches!
2 comments:
Hi Stephanie i just started reading your blog recently indeed they are encouraging and i know you are greatly bless. But i don't understand what YC is trying to do to you cause Abba won't put us in trial or 'test' because he love us so much. You mention god told YC about your trial, i believe God can inform you himself no need to go through anyone. In additional Abba only bring us good news. Amen. I am servicing in the ministry i sincerely welcome you to join us. God takes note of every single effort when we serve him. He will bless you heavily cause he is a good pay master. How could anyone say he give trials or test. Not a single mini second our holy spirit leave us alone. At least for me i know my lord Jesus never leave me even for a sec Amen. God bless you.
Hi Alan,
Thank you for visiting my blog. I did recall hearing about the trial from Pastor Prince too.
It's not that difficult, it's like when blessings has yet to come, do you continue to trust Lord will provide. It's this kind of trial, which is easy to handle. :)
Yes, even when Lord did not talk to sis yesterday, Lord told me He is still with her. Praise the Lord!
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