As I was watching Pastor Prince sermon on 'Jesus – The End of Your Struggles' - 12th February 2012, it leads me to recall my walk to be like Christ. Glory Glory! This thought has been lingering in me for some time and today I shall share.
As a young Christian 5+ years back, I was introduced to go for the extra classes to know God better. I was wondering how to walk with Jesus. Near the end of the course, the Deacon who taught us, told us that we have a body, soul and spirit. Holy Spirit reside in our spirit. Our Soul is our thoughts, will power and conscience. The body is what others see us as.
We were asking him how to walk with Jesus. At first the Deacon told us we are to behold Jesus like a mirror, the more we look and examine Him, we will be transform to be like Him. Then he also said that as we believe all that was taught about Jesus, our thought come inline with the thoughts of the Spirit and the Spirit will be able to become One with the Soul. Once the Spirit and the Soul become One, then the body have no choice but to come inline with the Spirit. Amen Amen!
Then I come across this verse that Abba Father promises that we are to look at His Kingdom and His Righteousness. He promised to give us all the things the world have if we look to His Kingdom and His Righteousness first. I understand from this verse as get to know Jesus more and more. Afterall, it is through Jesus we become child of God, have access to Heaven and receive all that Lord Jesus died as the Lamb of God, for us to receive all His Goodness that He promised in Psalm 65.
Lord leads Pastor Prince to unveil Jesus and He leads me to New Creation Church, Singapore to learn about Jesus. As I learn and believe, I am being transformed unknowingly. Long ago, in glory for self, I am a strong-will, independent girl. But the 10 years under law treatment from ex and within it, 3 years under spiritual attack had mould me down to someone weak and unstable due to lack of sleep.
As I learn about Jesus from all of Pastor Prince sermon, from 2002 till now, and walk in His Joy, I was transformed day by day. Through these 5 years walk, from listening to the revealing about Jesus, to the different teachers in the body of Christ, like Jerry Serville, Kenneth Copeland, Curry Blake, Smith Wigglesworth, Lord led me to learn something from each of them before returning to breath in the life of Christ again. Somehow, hearing about Jesus, the Spirit in me is alive, while listening to the principals etc, is dead learning but still needed to equipt me. Glory Glory!
To let me know Him personally, Lord led me to read the whole bible. I managed to complete it in 1 year. It's read with understanding, not blind reading, rushing to complete. My brother-in-law managed to read 3 times faster than me but he did not walk any closer to Lord than I have. But I take this as Grace of Jesus. Lord showed in the bible that we are His Sheep. Have you seen a sheep rushing through his meals? No, they slowly glaze the grass. It's through reading with understanding, especially after good soaking in Pastor Prince sermon, that the bible becomes alive.
When one understands the Grace of Jesus well, you will know all the requirement of the law, even the law of love, faith etc, Lord in us will accomplish for us through us. Glory Glory! If one did not understand the Grace of God well, his thought will be himself have to accomplish the requirement of the law in the new covenant. So, it's important to have a good understanding of what Jesus had done for each of us, in order to read the bible correctly! Glory Glory!
When I have a faith picture of God is for me and not against me build in me, He leads me to walk in His Garden to fellowship with Him. Through last few years, every trials, every thing He wants me to believe, to walk, to do, I followed accordingly and do not ask Him why must I do it. It was a form of training and testing me stage by stage. As I gone through the lighter one, Lord led me to the tougher one.
I mean, how would I know how to win over my enemy and if God is able? It's through facing all these trials, as I trust in Jesus Finished Work and proclaim my Rightful position in Him that I am lifted to the next level to receive the next test. If Lord leads me to face SF curses when I was a young Christian, I would need to run to someone else to help me. As I grow in Him, He let me know How should I trust in Him for the deliverance.
It's when you walk through all these trials, you become a stronger warrior in Him. As you walk closer and into Him, suddenly, one day, you will realise your old self is gone; lost of self but gain of God in you. The new self is one who every thing trust to the Lord to lead him/her to walk it out. He and you become closer and closer as one. Glory Glory! This is how you move from Glory to Glory! Amen Amen!
Hope you benefit from this sharing. Be blessed!
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
The Fruit of Grace
The Fruit of Grace, how sweet the sound and how sweet it taste. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
For 4+ years, from Primary 1 till now, Jc Primary 5, study for test is foreigned to her. Even in this 1st Tropical test, she refused to study no matter how I told her to. All the no, no, no, really make me kind of disappointed with her. Since P5 is an important year.
Teachers told me at meet the Principal event that all the P5 and P6 subjects will be taught in P5 and P6 is mainly lots of revision before the mid year where the students will take their Prelim papers and September will be the start of PSLE(Primary School Leaving Examination), this is the national exam where all the P6 in Singapore will take the papers on the same day and same time.
However, Jc still cannot understand the importance of it, as if she is living in a separate world. Her classmates was stressed up by the study while she was relaxed. But she would felt frustrated if I nag her to study. No choice, I let her be. Afterall it's her future that she is playing with. As a mum, I do want the best for her. But if she herself don't bother, there is nothing much I could do. 4 years of worry is enough, I let Lord take over. I rest in His Peace. Glory Glory!
Lord said this first tests will be her own efforts. I am okay about it. But looking at both her English and Chinese papers got below the passing marks, I am not happy, but beside nagging her about it's about her future she is playing with, not mine, I did not punished her except disallowed her to go down to playground that day. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Today she was down with fever after a tired Sunday. Have to wake up at 6am to go school at 6:45am for the International Dance rehearsal. In the afternoon she had 2 hours of gym. When she came back home, she had a headache and was feverished. Today, I let her rest at home and has given her panadol.
Her friend smsed her to tell her that her Maths got the highest in class, 29/30. That was the first time she got so closed to the full marks, all her friends got lower than her, even those from the top class. Glory to Jesus. Even though Lord said is her own effort, I know Lord must have enhanced her logical thinking and intellecture thinking. Glory Glory! Jc was so elated that she jumped so high and shouted in great happiness. Glory to Jesus!
I took the chance to tell her getting good result is for herself more than for mummy. She finally understands it. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
After 4 years of waiting for Lord Jesus to change Jc, this first fruit of high result does taste sweet, especially after seeing her language papers! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
This taste of sucess is also a test from the Lord. He said I completed my tests. Well, I see that as a Grace from Jesus for Jc to score such perfect score. Her no effort put in beforehand does not deserve such mark but Lord is good. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Why Lord said I pass the test, because I see that as a Grace from Jesus, I enjoy the sweetness but I don't feel proud. Pride is the killer in Christ as it stops Grace from flowing through, so Lord do not want me to be proud. As I look to His Grace, not a self effort of Jc, I taste the sweetness of His Grace and pass all the glory to Him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Thank You Abba Father for the Grace of Lord Jesus! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
PS (29/02/2012):
Today looking at Jc Maths paper, if without that careless mistake, she could have get full marks! I looked at her problem sums, I could see Lord hand is in it. The way it's so neatly presented with every working and explanation nicely done, is just not her usual way. I praise Jesus for it!
In addition, today, she showed me she underlined her Chinese Text words and put the meaning in it. It's just not her usual way. Lord's hand is clearly seen all over the place! Glory to Jesus! Amen Amen!
For 4+ years, from Primary 1 till now, Jc Primary 5, study for test is foreigned to her. Even in this 1st Tropical test, she refused to study no matter how I told her to. All the no, no, no, really make me kind of disappointed with her. Since P5 is an important year.
Teachers told me at meet the Principal event that all the P5 and P6 subjects will be taught in P5 and P6 is mainly lots of revision before the mid year where the students will take their Prelim papers and September will be the start of PSLE(Primary School Leaving Examination), this is the national exam where all the P6 in Singapore will take the papers on the same day and same time.
However, Jc still cannot understand the importance of it, as if she is living in a separate world. Her classmates was stressed up by the study while she was relaxed. But she would felt frustrated if I nag her to study. No choice, I let her be. Afterall it's her future that she is playing with. As a mum, I do want the best for her. But if she herself don't bother, there is nothing much I could do. 4 years of worry is enough, I let Lord take over. I rest in His Peace. Glory Glory!
Lord said this first tests will be her own efforts. I am okay about it. But looking at both her English and Chinese papers got below the passing marks, I am not happy, but beside nagging her about it's about her future she is playing with, not mine, I did not punished her except disallowed her to go down to playground that day. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Today she was down with fever after a tired Sunday. Have to wake up at 6am to go school at 6:45am for the International Dance rehearsal. In the afternoon she had 2 hours of gym. When she came back home, she had a headache and was feverished. Today, I let her rest at home and has given her panadol.
Her friend smsed her to tell her that her Maths got the highest in class, 29/30. That was the first time she got so closed to the full marks, all her friends got lower than her, even those from the top class. Glory to Jesus. Even though Lord said is her own effort, I know Lord must have enhanced her logical thinking and intellecture thinking. Glory Glory! Jc was so elated that she jumped so high and shouted in great happiness. Glory to Jesus!
I took the chance to tell her getting good result is for herself more than for mummy. She finally understands it. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
After 4 years of waiting for Lord Jesus to change Jc, this first fruit of high result does taste sweet, especially after seeing her language papers! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
This taste of sucess is also a test from the Lord. He said I completed my tests. Well, I see that as a Grace from Jesus for Jc to score such perfect score. Her no effort put in beforehand does not deserve such mark but Lord is good. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Why Lord said I pass the test, because I see that as a Grace from Jesus, I enjoy the sweetness but I don't feel proud. Pride is the killer in Christ as it stops Grace from flowing through, so Lord do not want me to be proud. As I look to His Grace, not a self effort of Jc, I taste the sweetness of His Grace and pass all the glory to Him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Thank You Abba Father for the Grace of Lord Jesus! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
PS (29/02/2012):
Today looking at Jc Maths paper, if without that careless mistake, she could have get full marks! I looked at her problem sums, I could see Lord hand is in it. The way it's so neatly presented with every working and explanation nicely done, is just not her usual way. I praise Jesus for it!
In addition, today, she showed me she underlined her Chinese Text words and put the meaning in it. It's just not her usual way. Lord's hand is clearly seen all over the place! Glory to Jesus! Amen Amen!
Friday, February 24, 2012
The Glory of JESUS
This morning, while surfing at GraceHope.com, I was led to a site by someone who wanted to add me as friend. His account has a video linking to Christian being prosecuted in Middle East, Africa and even China and all around the world, where Christian suffered and some even lost their freedom and faces death for becoming Christian and spreading about Lord's Goodness. This is the End Time darkness that is getting darker and darker!
Abba is getting me ready. I know what is coming but I am not going to reveal here. Question I had in my head regarding large land area burning for years was answered by this revelation. Through TB Joshua Prophesy, I know this Iran-Israel war is going to happen. The end result is what we are going to see! The First beast being crush and then rise a greater 2nd beast but it is also going to be crushed. Lord has long ago prophensize in the book of Revelation. This is coming to past soon. Glory Glory!
When Lord revealed the beasts to me, then I could see them clearly. I am so glad that I am on the right side of God! Hallelujah! I thank You, Jesus, for being God, Abba Father's Right Hand! Glory Glory! Surely, it is Time for Him to Rise Up to show the world that He is a Real God. The lamb of God has been silent to the world but moving in the life of His People, but that does not mean He is dead.
This End Time, He will show His Mightiness and His Grace and Mercy. Surely, a Full Revelation is coming in place. Once you see it, you will understand. I wonder what the impact will be on the world economy! This is something I yet to understand. But Lord has well prepared me. No matter how, I shall not suffer the down side. Lord is lifting me up for His Glory! Amen Amen!
Children of God, if you still want to play truent, time is not on your side anymore. It is getting nearer and nearer! Daily hide in my protection and learn about Jesus. Surely you don't want to be in the rough side of things. I am giving you this warning through Stephanie as time is very near. The economy hit will be Great! You are going to see prices rise till beyond most people. Hardship is coming!
For those in Me, I will bless them enough to go by. You don't play truent! You will suffer with the people of the world if you do. Time is very near now. Better buck up your seat belt and walk with Me, I am surely not joking if you think this is just another hoo haa. I give warning to Sodom and Gomorrah and they didn't listen. When time come, they were destroyed!
You are seeing History in the making. Glory Glory! I, Almighty GOD, Abba Father, surely will let the world know who is GOD! Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen!!! Amen!!!
PS (25/02/2012):
Glory Glory! As I wondered about the world economy impact, Lord led me to Tb Joshua Economic and Depression Prophensy and 2012 World Economy Prophensy to see the full impact of the World Economy.
First impact of listening to them is scary, but I know Lord will surely bless me out of it and I need not worry. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba is getting me ready. I know what is coming but I am not going to reveal here. Question I had in my head regarding large land area burning for years was answered by this revelation. Through TB Joshua Prophesy, I know this Iran-Israel war is going to happen. The end result is what we are going to see! The First beast being crush and then rise a greater 2nd beast but it is also going to be crushed. Lord has long ago prophensize in the book of Revelation. This is coming to past soon. Glory Glory!
When Lord revealed the beasts to me, then I could see them clearly. I am so glad that I am on the right side of God! Hallelujah! I thank You, Jesus, for being God, Abba Father's Right Hand! Glory Glory! Surely, it is Time for Him to Rise Up to show the world that He is a Real God. The lamb of God has been silent to the world but moving in the life of His People, but that does not mean He is dead.
This End Time, He will show His Mightiness and His Grace and Mercy. Surely, a Full Revelation is coming in place. Once you see it, you will understand. I wonder what the impact will be on the world economy! This is something I yet to understand. But Lord has well prepared me. No matter how, I shall not suffer the down side. Lord is lifting me up for His Glory! Amen Amen!
Children of God, if you still want to play truent, time is not on your side anymore. It is getting nearer and nearer! Daily hide in my protection and learn about Jesus. Surely you don't want to be in the rough side of things. I am giving you this warning through Stephanie as time is very near. The economy hit will be Great! You are going to see prices rise till beyond most people. Hardship is coming!
For those in Me, I will bless them enough to go by. You don't play truent! You will suffer with the people of the world if you do. Time is very near now. Better buck up your seat belt and walk with Me, I am surely not joking if you think this is just another hoo haa. I give warning to Sodom and Gomorrah and they didn't listen. When time come, they were destroyed!
You are seeing History in the making. Glory Glory! I, Almighty GOD, Abba Father, surely will let the world know who is GOD! Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen!!! Amen!!!
PS (25/02/2012):
Glory Glory! As I wondered about the world economy impact, Lord led me to Tb Joshua Economic and Depression Prophensy and 2012 World Economy Prophensy to see the full impact of the World Economy.
First impact of listening to them is scary, but I know Lord will surely bless me out of it and I need not worry. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Thursday, February 23, 2012
The Good Opinion of God
Many years ago, I heard this sermon that Pastor Prince said we must have a Good Opinion of God. At that moment, I realised I must received it into my heart and Abba is always Good! Glory Glory! Through the many sermons of Prince, the finished Work of Christ fully sealed in my heart. It fertilised my heart into a good ground for His Grace and Mercy. Glory Glory!
Lord leads me to write this today as I think many children of God still toggling between His Righteousness of God for us in Christ Jesus and our sins in reality.
I did not receive any doctrine from the churches who mixes Law with Grace. Lord led me to come straight to His Throne of Grace to receive the fullness of all that He had done at the Cross for me. Hallelujah! This was the beginning of my walk with Him, the Almighty One and yet, such a Strong Loving Kindness Abba Father.
It was with this full revelation of His Goodness that Lord leads me into the world of darkness to build me up strong and mighty. For, it's with each encounter that I saw His Deliverance and know that He is always with me. He is just a prayer away! Glory Glory! Sometimes, in emergency, just a name of Jesus or Abba, help! Also works! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
He led me to learn how Mighty His Right Hand is. With this, He leads me to pray healing and then to encounter devil from those that show darkness and anger to me to direct confrontation with them. All these is to build me up as a Mighty Warrior in His Kingdom.
For Fear will block His Manifestation, so I have to have strong Faith in Him, but my faith is looking to Jesus Finished Work at the Cross and Lord calls it Faith. It is not me trying to build something in me to believe in Him. Just by Looking to His Finished Work at the Cross and proclaimed it, I am delivered each time. Glory Glory! Amen Amen! This is how one goes to His Throne to receive Mercy! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I need not pray fanciful prayer. When I have good relationship with Him, I know He will surely help me. Sometime, just by talking to Him, 'Lord, I can't but You could and You will, You take over for me!' Also works! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Long ago, when I was still young kid in Christ, I still say to Him whenever ex bullied me, I said, 'Lord, I think I married the wrong man!' I cried a tear or two and He always reply, 'I love you!' Glory Glory!
Now that He is fully with me, He does not let me be bullied. There was cases where I was losing my consciousness or depleting of blood that He will come through to lift me up fully. There is nothing that could kill me. No weapons formed in me shall prosper! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Even Jesus Himself, as a God, depleted of all Glory to be Human, He also had to receive training to get Him ready to go to the Cross. Lord in Him would prep Him of what to expect and took alway all His UnWillingness that caused Him to trust fully in the Holy Spirit to go through all that to bring us to the fullness of Him! Glory Glory!
Lord has led me through many unwillingness. I like to be a little woman, I don't like office politics and don't like to mix with management people. But in this career given by the Lord, He wants me to be up there, to lead, as He is coming through me in Fullness. I had to pass to Him all the unwillingness so that I feel nothing and so able to move comfortably into position. Glory to Him!
He likes to test my boundaries, all areas of my boundaries, He pushed to the limit that I had to cast all my unwillingness to Him, so that I could in that area. This is how He set me free from all bondages. As He freed me, I could be a better use for Him in His Kingdom! Glory Glory!
I walked with Him long enough to know His every step for me is for my good, even it does not sound good, I go ahead knowing He meant well. That is how I am able to walk all that He leads me.
It's a Good Opinion of God that leads me so far. Glory Glory! Amen Amen! Abba Father, I know You loves me dearly! Amen Amen!
Lord leads me to write this today as I think many children of God still toggling between His Righteousness of God for us in Christ Jesus and our sins in reality.
I did not receive any doctrine from the churches who mixes Law with Grace. Lord led me to come straight to His Throne of Grace to receive the fullness of all that He had done at the Cross for me. Hallelujah! This was the beginning of my walk with Him, the Almighty One and yet, such a Strong Loving Kindness Abba Father.
It was with this full revelation of His Goodness that Lord leads me into the world of darkness to build me up strong and mighty. For, it's with each encounter that I saw His Deliverance and know that He is always with me. He is just a prayer away! Glory Glory! Sometimes, in emergency, just a name of Jesus or Abba, help! Also works! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
He led me to learn how Mighty His Right Hand is. With this, He leads me to pray healing and then to encounter devil from those that show darkness and anger to me to direct confrontation with them. All these is to build me up as a Mighty Warrior in His Kingdom.
For Fear will block His Manifestation, so I have to have strong Faith in Him, but my faith is looking to Jesus Finished Work at the Cross and Lord calls it Faith. It is not me trying to build something in me to believe in Him. Just by Looking to His Finished Work at the Cross and proclaimed it, I am delivered each time. Glory Glory! Amen Amen! This is how one goes to His Throne to receive Mercy! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I need not pray fanciful prayer. When I have good relationship with Him, I know He will surely help me. Sometime, just by talking to Him, 'Lord, I can't but You could and You will, You take over for me!' Also works! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Long ago, when I was still young kid in Christ, I still say to Him whenever ex bullied me, I said, 'Lord, I think I married the wrong man!' I cried a tear or two and He always reply, 'I love you!' Glory Glory!
Now that He is fully with me, He does not let me be bullied. There was cases where I was losing my consciousness or depleting of blood that He will come through to lift me up fully. There is nothing that could kill me. No weapons formed in me shall prosper! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Even Jesus Himself, as a God, depleted of all Glory to be Human, He also had to receive training to get Him ready to go to the Cross. Lord in Him would prep Him of what to expect and took alway all His UnWillingness that caused Him to trust fully in the Holy Spirit to go through all that to bring us to the fullness of Him! Glory Glory!
Lord has led me through many unwillingness. I like to be a little woman, I don't like office politics and don't like to mix with management people. But in this career given by the Lord, He wants me to be up there, to lead, as He is coming through me in Fullness. I had to pass to Him all the unwillingness so that I feel nothing and so able to move comfortably into position. Glory to Him!
He likes to test my boundaries, all areas of my boundaries, He pushed to the limit that I had to cast all my unwillingness to Him, so that I could in that area. This is how He set me free from all bondages. As He freed me, I could be a better use for Him in His Kingdom! Glory Glory!
I walked with Him long enough to know His every step for me is for my good, even it does not sound good, I go ahead knowing He meant well. That is how I am able to walk all that He leads me.
It's a Good Opinion of God that leads me so far. Glory Glory! Amen Amen! Abba Father, I know You loves me dearly! Amen Amen!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
The Coming of Jesus
On Sunday, Pastor Prince led us to worship Jesus with Hallelujah and it was a pretty long worship. Glory Glory!
I was at GV Marina and usually, when I worship, I would look to the ceiling as talking to Jesus. I did the same on Sunday and what I seen was a thick layer of mist forming up there and I could feel the coolness of it. My lower back was painful and Lord healed me of the pain. Glory to Him! Hallelujah!!!
From the strong and long worship of Him, I know His Return is near. Glory Glory! Amen Amen! Abba has been faithful to me and I could feel His Joy and Peace. Glory Glory! I just know in my Spirit something is happening as He in me is in exceptionally Joyful! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Ever since I started confessing day that He crowns my Year with Goodness and my Paths drips with Abundance and I thank Him that this is my Year of Unceasing Fruitfulness, I have experience more peace in Him! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Ex had been talking more to me, last Sunday he spent 2 hours standing here talking to me. He thought he could download his satan to me. Eversince I prayed that prayer, Lord gives me Peace and surrounded me with Favour as a Shield. I could not experience anything but mum could. Glory to His Grace and Mercy and His Loving Kindness strongly on me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I learnt that He never set a trial for us without preparing a way for us to go. Ex want me to leave this house asap, and even prepare to take over Jc. He thought that I could run back to mummy and her apartment. But no, I know My Father God, Abba Father, will surely take good care for me.
I told ex that in future, he could not enter my house. I don't want any of his satan to be there. He said not even let him through as a guest. Well, a man that lost what I know about him, his intellecture gone, just a mind full of women and money, no thanks!
He is not the man I used to know. It's like another man I am dealing with eversince he gave his soul to the devil. He is like a walking zombie, his personality, what he used to be, all gone. Scary right! Blessed that I have Jesus to pull me out from this marriage. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
As Jesus Coming is approaching nearer and nearer, I shall walk in His Glory and let my paths with drips with His Goodness! Surely I am walking out a blessed life with a blessed partner. The old life is gone and I am a New Creation in Christ Jesus! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
My Abba Father is very good, even the little things in my life He also looks into and make sure everything turn out good for me. I am very pleased. Glory Glory! Surely, this old life is ending and the new life is starting. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
I was at GV Marina and usually, when I worship, I would look to the ceiling as talking to Jesus. I did the same on Sunday and what I seen was a thick layer of mist forming up there and I could feel the coolness of it. My lower back was painful and Lord healed me of the pain. Glory to Him! Hallelujah!!!
From the strong and long worship of Him, I know His Return is near. Glory Glory! Amen Amen! Abba has been faithful to me and I could feel His Joy and Peace. Glory Glory! I just know in my Spirit something is happening as He in me is in exceptionally Joyful! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Ever since I started confessing day that He crowns my Year with Goodness and my Paths drips with Abundance and I thank Him that this is my Year of Unceasing Fruitfulness, I have experience more peace in Him! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Ex had been talking more to me, last Sunday he spent 2 hours standing here talking to me. He thought he could download his satan to me. Eversince I prayed that prayer, Lord gives me Peace and surrounded me with Favour as a Shield. I could not experience anything but mum could. Glory to His Grace and Mercy and His Loving Kindness strongly on me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I learnt that He never set a trial for us without preparing a way for us to go. Ex want me to leave this house asap, and even prepare to take over Jc. He thought that I could run back to mummy and her apartment. But no, I know My Father God, Abba Father, will surely take good care for me.
I told ex that in future, he could not enter my house. I don't want any of his satan to be there. He said not even let him through as a guest. Well, a man that lost what I know about him, his intellecture gone, just a mind full of women and money, no thanks!
He is not the man I used to know. It's like another man I am dealing with eversince he gave his soul to the devil. He is like a walking zombie, his personality, what he used to be, all gone. Scary right! Blessed that I have Jesus to pull me out from this marriage. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
As Jesus Coming is approaching nearer and nearer, I shall walk in His Glory and let my paths with drips with His Goodness! Surely I am walking out a blessed life with a blessed partner. The old life is gone and I am a New Creation in Christ Jesus! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
My Abba Father is very good, even the little things in my life He also looks into and make sure everything turn out good for me. I am very pleased. Glory Glory! Surely, this old life is ending and the new life is starting. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
Friday, February 17, 2012
Christ, My Fruitfulness
I looked back at 2011 and wondered where was my Crowned Year of His Goodness gone??!! In fact, it's one of my worst year. But thank Goodness, trial season is short and blessing is coming. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I was reading the Testimony page in New Creation Church, Singapore website. This testimony writer claimed that she claimed her Year Crowned with His Goodness and Her Paths drips with His Abundance daily. She saw her home and economic situation turned. As I read that testimony, I realised I have not been proclaiming at all, no wonder I did not see good days.
Abba leads me to go read NCC website and that short sermon on this year of Unceasing Fruitfulness. I decided to claim last year promise and this year promise together. Hallelujah! As my heart was growing negative, Lord leads me to watch Kenneth Copeland 2012 prophesy again and grow my faith in His Goodness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
In the natural, things are not good. Jc had been staying in school and going to the shopping centre and the Macdonalds that is round the corner....newly open outlet. One of her classmate, EK has just become a latched key kid. Her mum withdraw her from after school care and let her stay at home alone. This is bad news for me. She has free time to roam about and she is leading Jc to roam with her. It has been the 2nd week and things are getting out of hand.
Praise Jesus that early of the year, I prayed to Him to lock Jc's sexual desire till she is of age for her future spouse when she grow up. Satan has sent many boys to be interested in her. Being a mixed between Swedish and Chinese, she does has her pretty face that many mums had sung praises to me. Blessed that she did not feel anything, she just take them as friends, whom she could play with. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
With the recent on slaught, I prayed to Jesus to remove the sexual desire of those kids that is 5m in radius of her. Haha..I do want to play safe. What better way than to trust my Beloved Abba Father. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Jc told me, boys had asked her and friends to run a race. With her friend, the boy was stronger and won the race. But with her, she ran faster than the boy. She asked me why the boys were so weak??? I knew they give way to her. One boy gave her $2 for winning the race and another wanted her facebook details. These recent 2-3 boys were beside another 2 I knew, one of them her good buddy. I thank You, Lord that helps me to guard her. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
From today onwards, I shall claim my Year is Crowned with His Goodness and my Paths drip with His Abundance. Lord, I thank You for the Year of Unceasing Fruitfulness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I was reading the Testimony page in New Creation Church, Singapore website. This testimony writer claimed that she claimed her Year Crowned with His Goodness and Her Paths drips with His Abundance daily. She saw her home and economic situation turned. As I read that testimony, I realised I have not been proclaiming at all, no wonder I did not see good days.
Abba leads me to go read NCC website and that short sermon on this year of Unceasing Fruitfulness. I decided to claim last year promise and this year promise together. Hallelujah! As my heart was growing negative, Lord leads me to watch Kenneth Copeland 2012 prophesy again and grow my faith in His Goodness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
In the natural, things are not good. Jc had been staying in school and going to the shopping centre and the Macdonalds that is round the corner....newly open outlet. One of her classmate, EK has just become a latched key kid. Her mum withdraw her from after school care and let her stay at home alone. This is bad news for me. She has free time to roam about and she is leading Jc to roam with her. It has been the 2nd week and things are getting out of hand.
Praise Jesus that early of the year, I prayed to Him to lock Jc's sexual desire till she is of age for her future spouse when she grow up. Satan has sent many boys to be interested in her. Being a mixed between Swedish and Chinese, she does has her pretty face that many mums had sung praises to me. Blessed that she did not feel anything, she just take them as friends, whom she could play with. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
With the recent on slaught, I prayed to Jesus to remove the sexual desire of those kids that is 5m in radius of her. Haha..I do want to play safe. What better way than to trust my Beloved Abba Father. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Jc told me, boys had asked her and friends to run a race. With her friend, the boy was stronger and won the race. But with her, she ran faster than the boy. She asked me why the boys were so weak??? I knew they give way to her. One boy gave her $2 for winning the race and another wanted her facebook details. These recent 2-3 boys were beside another 2 I knew, one of them her good buddy. I thank You, Lord that helps me to guard her. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
From today onwards, I shall claim my Year is Crowned with His Goodness and my Paths drip with His Abundance. Lord, I thank You for the Year of Unceasing Fruitfulness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Monday, February 13, 2012
The Blessing that Keeps Me
Walking out of church yesterday, I was not happy. What ever that Lord told me would happen, didn't happen. Pastor Prince even told him not to covet for his friend's wife. Yes, his friend's wife is a beauty that I got notice long before they came to sit beside me. I for once, given up waiting. I decided to live my life. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord led me through a course of understanding human needs. When He asked Adam and Eve to be reproductive and be fruitful, Lord did not just leave them to do it themselves. Hallelujah! Lord blessed woman to be wanting Love, to be emotional being. Lord blessed man to have this chemical running wild in them that they will automatic looks for woman to have sex. The way is, they must give Love to the woman to achieve it. That is why Lord Jesus told man to be like Him, the Greatest Lover of all, sacrificed Himself for His Love of us all. Glory to Jesus!
Lord let woman blessed with beauty and sexiness so that they could be attractive to man. But if she just cares about her emotional needs and does not care about the man's wants, she is not going to be happy for long.
It's this unique way that Lord created human being to enjoy life and see great days. The cave man style would be knocking the woman and drag her home to his cave! Haha... Lord let me understands all this so that I could operate in the ways He wanted me to be. He said what He put forth for me to walk is not without much thought. I shall trust His Plan for me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Many a time, when I watched Pastor Prince talked about Wendy, his wife, it's as if Wendy is a sweet pot of honey that is irresistable. As I watched Wendy, I could not understand where is this sweety lovely feeling that I could not see.
It was when Lord revealed what He is going to bless me that I finally understood why Pastor Prince is looking at Wendy passionately!!! Glory to Jesus!
Long ago, as a young Christian, I had been intensely seeking Abba Father's Love. One fine morning, while in bed, Lord opened this wonderful Loving Kindness in fullness that the joy of dwelling in it was beyond words to describe. It was so so so WONDERFUL!!!
Lord told me, for my union with my new man, He will bless me this wonderful Love from Heaven. Surely me and the new man will engulf in it that we will be in Great Joy! He said He will provide the sexual craving for me to be wanting him and He will provide Great Passion in both of us that the union is exotic. How in the world could you find this? No where else except in Christ Jesus! Glory Glory!
Lord told me that this will result in the sweetness that he could not resist having me. That is why He is asking me to do the impossible. In the natural, how a CEO or COO, come together with a divorced woman, who is a home maker? It is an impossible task. No where in their social society will they meet.
How did Lord put me on High and not low? He will have to bless me a tall, slim, sexy body and a youthful body. This will complete the picture....just like Sarah, a full renewal that 2 Kings in the world loved to have her!!! Surely, these 2 Kings are not blind that they wanted Sarah who was 60s and then 90s years old. It was a physical renewal that made her young as 20, all the curse removed to Adam, that 2 Kings fell for her.
Lord wants to bless me this total renewal too! Glory Glory! Amen Amen! In the natural, without body renewal, ex who know me inside out, was tempted to have me just by that one sexual enounter that I could respond to his service. Lord said this wasn't the fullness of it all. Yet, it shifted ex to consider having me. He did said that none of those he tried reacted so intensely as I am.
At this moment, I can't imagine the fullness anointing and blessing, how will it be?!! This the part of the Abraham blessing that Lord is blessing me for walking closely to Him. All that is Heavenly, He let me enjoy on earth, having Heaven on earth! Glory Glory!
He said spiritually, He wants me to be toughen up a bit more. So there are trainings ahead for me to reach there. He tempted me to reach my goal so that I could enjoy what He wants to bless me in my life. So, for the moment, I just have to be patient and walk with Him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord led me through a course of understanding human needs. When He asked Adam and Eve to be reproductive and be fruitful, Lord did not just leave them to do it themselves. Hallelujah! Lord blessed woman to be wanting Love, to be emotional being. Lord blessed man to have this chemical running wild in them that they will automatic looks for woman to have sex. The way is, they must give Love to the woman to achieve it. That is why Lord Jesus told man to be like Him, the Greatest Lover of all, sacrificed Himself for His Love of us all. Glory to Jesus!
Lord let woman blessed with beauty and sexiness so that they could be attractive to man. But if she just cares about her emotional needs and does not care about the man's wants, she is not going to be happy for long.
It's this unique way that Lord created human being to enjoy life and see great days. The cave man style would be knocking the woman and drag her home to his cave! Haha... Lord let me understands all this so that I could operate in the ways He wanted me to be. He said what He put forth for me to walk is not without much thought. I shall trust His Plan for me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Many a time, when I watched Pastor Prince talked about Wendy, his wife, it's as if Wendy is a sweet pot of honey that is irresistable. As I watched Wendy, I could not understand where is this sweety lovely feeling that I could not see.
It was when Lord revealed what He is going to bless me that I finally understood why Pastor Prince is looking at Wendy passionately!!! Glory to Jesus!
Long ago, as a young Christian, I had been intensely seeking Abba Father's Love. One fine morning, while in bed, Lord opened this wonderful Loving Kindness in fullness that the joy of dwelling in it was beyond words to describe. It was so so so WONDERFUL!!!
Lord told me, for my union with my new man, He will bless me this wonderful Love from Heaven. Surely me and the new man will engulf in it that we will be in Great Joy! He said He will provide the sexual craving for me to be wanting him and He will provide Great Passion in both of us that the union is exotic. How in the world could you find this? No where else except in Christ Jesus! Glory Glory!
Lord told me that this will result in the sweetness that he could not resist having me. That is why He is asking me to do the impossible. In the natural, how a CEO or COO, come together with a divorced woman, who is a home maker? It is an impossible task. No where in their social society will they meet.
How did Lord put me on High and not low? He will have to bless me a tall, slim, sexy body and a youthful body. This will complete the picture....just like Sarah, a full renewal that 2 Kings in the world loved to have her!!! Surely, these 2 Kings are not blind that they wanted Sarah who was 60s and then 90s years old. It was a physical renewal that made her young as 20, all the curse removed to Adam, that 2 Kings fell for her.
Lord wants to bless me this total renewal too! Glory Glory! Amen Amen! In the natural, without body renewal, ex who know me inside out, was tempted to have me just by that one sexual enounter that I could respond to his service. Lord said this wasn't the fullness of it all. Yet, it shifted ex to consider having me. He did said that none of those he tried reacted so intensely as I am.
At this moment, I can't imagine the fullness anointing and blessing, how will it be?!! This the part of the Abraham blessing that Lord is blessing me for walking closely to Him. All that is Heavenly, He let me enjoy on earth, having Heaven on earth! Glory Glory!
He said spiritually, He wants me to be toughen up a bit more. So there are trainings ahead for me to reach there. He tempted me to reach my goal so that I could enjoy what He wants to bless me in my life. So, for the moment, I just have to be patient and walk with Him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Liberated
I did not realise how damaging my marriage to ex had done to me. The other day, mum said in young time, I am the happy kid among my siblings. When she said that, it sounded so foreign to me. I just dismissed it as I did not know how to bring it back!
As you see, ever since marriage, ex just demanded I live his way, his thoughts. Even in arguement, it's about his way or nothing. No ground to negotiate at all. Overtime, whatever he poured on me, I just too tired to rectify him evenwhen what he thought he knew about me was not what actually the me he was describing. Whatever shit he threw, for the peace of the family, I just accepted.
He continued to throw his fiery dart at me all the years of marriage, whatever wrong with Jc was my wrong and anything not right with the house was also my wrong. With all the condemnations and demands, how could I respond to his sex advance in joy? How do I joyfully hug him? I didn't know my love bank was empty, I was purely surviving on ground negative! I became the serious me and I don't know how to relax to enjoy myself.
He said he tried to bring the family together but I didn't respond. With a girl that gave me much headache since a baby to him, who always face the computer, I was forced in my early days of marriage to look to the computer and got addicted to the internet.
In sex area, he condemned that I am a log. I do not know how not to be one. It's when Lord gave me feeling in intercourse last year that finally, I could sense the sensation and responded. With this, he was for that whole late afternoon till he sent me home, thinking if he should come back to me. But he decided that I am his ex, he should go for greener pastures just as I was about to alight. That sealed the fate between me and him. Somehow, more severe attack came ever since he decided that. He is going back on his promise to let me stay at this home till Jc finishes Primary 6 next year.
What I did not know is his condemnation for 10-12 years had created a negative impact on me that I could not find joy. I seem to be dwelling in down mood.
Today, after worshiping Lord using NCC worship songs in youtube, some other videos attracted me till I landed in xiaxue video. I watched her solemnisation and then the proposal. When she said she didn't know anybody would love her. Somehow this is my thought for myself that I was no more good for anyone.
When I saw she, much love by some but also much hated by some because of her loud style, could find a man who is gentle to love her much, somehow, I was liberated. I told myself if she could, I can too. The moment I believe so, the spell of the curse broke and I cried and I was in joy and feel my body like lifted up. Glory to Jesus!
The bitterness spirit had left me. I am now light and in Peace of Jesus! Glory Glory! Before meeting my new man, Lord leads me through this liberating path. I am so happy. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Finally, I could walk out my new future. If without a sexy body but a respond to his service would lead his thought to be shaken, I know surely when Lord give me a renewed sexy body and a heavenly desire and craving, surely the new man will surely love me much! I am happy! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, thank You for the Heavenly Joy that You are blessing me. I am so pleased! Glory Glory! Thank You, Thank You! Amen Amen!
As you see, ever since marriage, ex just demanded I live his way, his thoughts. Even in arguement, it's about his way or nothing. No ground to negotiate at all. Overtime, whatever he poured on me, I just too tired to rectify him evenwhen what he thought he knew about me was not what actually the me he was describing. Whatever shit he threw, for the peace of the family, I just accepted.
He continued to throw his fiery dart at me all the years of marriage, whatever wrong with Jc was my wrong and anything not right with the house was also my wrong. With all the condemnations and demands, how could I respond to his sex advance in joy? How do I joyfully hug him? I didn't know my love bank was empty, I was purely surviving on ground negative! I became the serious me and I don't know how to relax to enjoy myself.
He said he tried to bring the family together but I didn't respond. With a girl that gave me much headache since a baby to him, who always face the computer, I was forced in my early days of marriage to look to the computer and got addicted to the internet.
In sex area, he condemned that I am a log. I do not know how not to be one. It's when Lord gave me feeling in intercourse last year that finally, I could sense the sensation and responded. With this, he was for that whole late afternoon till he sent me home, thinking if he should come back to me. But he decided that I am his ex, he should go for greener pastures just as I was about to alight. That sealed the fate between me and him. Somehow, more severe attack came ever since he decided that. He is going back on his promise to let me stay at this home till Jc finishes Primary 6 next year.
What I did not know is his condemnation for 10-12 years had created a negative impact on me that I could not find joy. I seem to be dwelling in down mood.
Today, after worshiping Lord using NCC worship songs in youtube, some other videos attracted me till I landed in xiaxue video. I watched her solemnisation and then the proposal. When she said she didn't know anybody would love her. Somehow this is my thought for myself that I was no more good for anyone.
When I saw she, much love by some but also much hated by some because of her loud style, could find a man who is gentle to love her much, somehow, I was liberated. I told myself if she could, I can too. The moment I believe so, the spell of the curse broke and I cried and I was in joy and feel my body like lifted up. Glory to Jesus!
The bitterness spirit had left me. I am now light and in Peace of Jesus! Glory Glory! Before meeting my new man, Lord leads me through this liberating path. I am so happy. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Finally, I could walk out my new future. If without a sexy body but a respond to his service would lead his thought to be shaken, I know surely when Lord give me a renewed sexy body and a heavenly desire and craving, surely the new man will surely love me much! I am happy! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, thank You for the Heavenly Joy that You are blessing me. I am so pleased! Glory Glory! Thank You, Thank You! Amen Amen!
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Knowing God
Just like a Lover, knowing God is not just listening to the sermon. This is looking at Jesus from afar. You know how Good is His Redeemptive Power at the Cross and How He is the Lamb of God who took all your transgression, indignation and sins and much more that we might be ignorance. But once you want to know Him, He will be happily blessing you. I know, I experienced it long ago. Glory to Jesus! Amen Amen!
As you pick up the bible to know Him from His Words, fellowshiping with Him in His Words, you will walk into the Holy Place. This is a deeper understanding of Him and His Ways. Lord will show Himself God to you and lead you through many hurdles. It's from all these hurdles that you know Him better. What he could and would do for you! Glory Glory!
As you step into meditation, taking bible verses to munch in the head like a cow munching its food in and out of its stomach, you will have Lord talking to you from His Holy of Holy. This is from the natural realm, you walk into the spiritual realm to fellowship with Him. You will know Him personally as a God so near to you. Having intimacy relationship with Him.
Personally, I have walked through all the above and are currently in the Holy of Holy, having intimate relationship with Lord! Praise Jesus!
As each of our growth spiritually are different, what one understands of Lord usually are different from another one who did not know much of Him.
Recently, from what Lord revealed to me in His New Leading. This sister-in-Christ at first was amazed on how deeply Lord is leading me. As I revealed more to her, it become shock that she does not think Lord will lead in such way, even though I could prove through the bible. That is why, sometime, I just reveal a little here and a lot of hoo haa are generated.
Lord said this in the bible, Isaiah 55:8-9 'For My Thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are you ways My Ways, says the LORD. 9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My Ways higher than your ways and My Thoughts higher than your thoughts.'
One need to walk closer to Lord in His Spiritual Realm to know Him personally to understand His Ways. Like my divorce, by faith I walk as He commanded. Many Christians told me Lord will not lead one to divorce. But I found supporting verses.
Now getting to know the new man, Lord has a different ways of leading. I need to walk by faith again to accomplish it. The sister-in-Christ said Lord do not lead people so, but I found Esther, Ruth, Sarah and Tamah, 4 of them combine together for the process that Lord is leading me through. In the natural, I won't even want to put myself into it. But knowing Lord well, I know what He lead is for the good of me. Do I want to obey Him?
Not by what I see but by His Spirit, by His Faith I shall accomplished. I walk out what He had done. His Obedience lead me to be greatly blessed. If I just need this small step to reach this destiny, of course in natural, it's impossible, but by Faith, I shall be. I trust Him enough and had seen enough these 5 years to know what He lead is for my good, not to harm me. Usually just by following Him, I am blessed. So, by Faith I am walking it out.
If you use the natural mind to reason, you will never know why. The heart of man is small, but the Heart of God is BIG. He sees into areas our physical eyes cannot see. He sees the hearts of man and He knows how to move that yields the best result in the most simple way. His Yoke is Light, remember?
So far, I never find a hard task, but a task that need Faith. Faith is the only answer. Once I obedience to His Leading, the simplest way will be His Answer to all that I need. Am I to go by man's way or God's way? Of course, God's Way is better. Glory Glory!
You will never understand why as this does not go by logic. It's by Faith! As Jesus always say, 'Oh, you of little faith!' You just need to pull His Faith and Trust His Goodness and Walk His Way. With that, the end result is a pot of Gold in waiting. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
He work in us for us to walk through what He work in us. Lord has conditioned my heart since 2009 and in recent weeks daily, to be able to accomplish what He had put through me. So, man can never able to use his knowledge, his reasoning to conclude it. Only by Faith you then can see His Ways. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
That is why, meditation and talking to Lord daily is important. Play truant is not going to help in time of need! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
As you pick up the bible to know Him from His Words, fellowshiping with Him in His Words, you will walk into the Holy Place. This is a deeper understanding of Him and His Ways. Lord will show Himself God to you and lead you through many hurdles. It's from all these hurdles that you know Him better. What he could and would do for you! Glory Glory!
As you step into meditation, taking bible verses to munch in the head like a cow munching its food in and out of its stomach, you will have Lord talking to you from His Holy of Holy. This is from the natural realm, you walk into the spiritual realm to fellowship with Him. You will know Him personally as a God so near to you. Having intimacy relationship with Him.
Personally, I have walked through all the above and are currently in the Holy of Holy, having intimate relationship with Lord! Praise Jesus!
As each of our growth spiritually are different, what one understands of Lord usually are different from another one who did not know much of Him.
Recently, from what Lord revealed to me in His New Leading. This sister-in-Christ at first was amazed on how deeply Lord is leading me. As I revealed more to her, it become shock that she does not think Lord will lead in such way, even though I could prove through the bible. That is why, sometime, I just reveal a little here and a lot of hoo haa are generated.
Lord said this in the bible, Isaiah 55:8-9 'For My Thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are you ways My Ways, says the LORD. 9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My Ways higher than your ways and My Thoughts higher than your thoughts.'
One need to walk closer to Lord in His Spiritual Realm to know Him personally to understand His Ways. Like my divorce, by faith I walk as He commanded. Many Christians told me Lord will not lead one to divorce. But I found supporting verses.
Now getting to know the new man, Lord has a different ways of leading. I need to walk by faith again to accomplish it. The sister-in-Christ said Lord do not lead people so, but I found Esther, Ruth, Sarah and Tamah, 4 of them combine together for the process that Lord is leading me through. In the natural, I won't even want to put myself into it. But knowing Lord well, I know what He lead is for the good of me. Do I want to obey Him?
Not by what I see but by His Spirit, by His Faith I shall accomplished. I walk out what He had done. His Obedience lead me to be greatly blessed. If I just need this small step to reach this destiny, of course in natural, it's impossible, but by Faith, I shall be. I trust Him enough and had seen enough these 5 years to know what He lead is for my good, not to harm me. Usually just by following Him, I am blessed. So, by Faith I am walking it out.
If you use the natural mind to reason, you will never know why. The heart of man is small, but the Heart of God is BIG. He sees into areas our physical eyes cannot see. He sees the hearts of man and He knows how to move that yields the best result in the most simple way. His Yoke is Light, remember?
So far, I never find a hard task, but a task that need Faith. Faith is the only answer. Once I obedience to His Leading, the simplest way will be His Answer to all that I need. Am I to go by man's way or God's way? Of course, God's Way is better. Glory Glory!
You will never understand why as this does not go by logic. It's by Faith! As Jesus always say, 'Oh, you of little faith!' You just need to pull His Faith and Trust His Goodness and Walk His Way. With that, the end result is a pot of Gold in waiting. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
He work in us for us to walk through what He work in us. Lord has conditioned my heart since 2009 and in recent weeks daily, to be able to accomplish what He had put through me. So, man can never able to use his knowledge, his reasoning to conclude it. Only by Faith you then can see His Ways. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
That is why, meditation and talking to Lord daily is important. Play truant is not going to help in time of need! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
It's in the Blood
Long ago, when I got my first pay check, I wanted to travel and Turkey attracted me. At that time it was a new travel location to Singapore but there was this love for it supernaturally that I wanted to visit it. 2nd Sis, Cat, was my travelling partner then. Years later, I wanted to go Jordan, I planned everything but Jc came, so the plan was aborted.
I don't know why I fancy middle eastern music and I am attracted to their people. I was not looking to Europe nor to Asia in my travelling. Middle East was one of the far away countries that I was determined to travel to first. The joy I had when I was there was indescribeable.
I did been to some Europeans countries, But no matter if it was England, Scotland, Austria, Germany or Denmark or even Sweden, where my ex was from, I did not have that joy in my heart.
Going to Israel had this special feeling that I totally could not describe. It was not like a tourist visiting a place, that kind of joy. It was more of I am home kind of feeling. I don't know why my feeling was so not like travelling there that I don't why I don't have the touristy feeling at all.
Through meditation and coming close to Lord, He revealed I have the blood of Abraham flowing in me. I am his descendant! When this was revealed to me, I then look at my family tree. Mum side of relatives, no matter how, they were prosperous, they have furniture factories, and metal factories. They did generally well. As compared to my father side of family, this side of the relatives were not having good lives. They generally live an average life.
My father family was the poorest among mum side of family, but fair generally still not the lowest from dad side of his families. Of myself, even though I was just a diploma holder, life was generally good. Monetary wise, I am always well supplied, even in single days. Lord would give me inner knowing of which stock to buy and when to sell to make profit. I just have this inner knowing even though I had not come to Christ.
Even though I married to the wrong man who didn't love me, money was never the issue. Only love was suppressed. Probably, Lord let me learn about humbleness when no people will look up to me, so that I could come to Him. But I am a survivor, no matter what situation, I will pull myself up that I need not anyone help. They just need to give me positive messages and love, and I could pull myself out, that's what happened to my depression cycle that spiral into total darkness in my early 20s, I build myself out of it by thinking positive!!!
Even when Satan came to find me and I was oppressed for 3 years. Ex did not want to shift house, so I was forced to endure its disturbance for 3 years. Praise Jesus that it could not kill me, he could only make me fearful and had sleepless night only!
I have this strong believe that for spiritual problem, must look for God to solve the problem. It was my seeking of different gods and their abilities to save me that led me to Jesus! They rest are the same gang, I realised. They were happy to keep me there, in fearful in disturb sleep.
That was why when Lord told me about Jesus, I clinged to Him so tightly and learnt all that I could about Jesus for Lord said in the bible, you learn of the Kingdom and His Righteousness, what ever the pagent have, will be given to me. Also, when I look to Christ, He will handle all the issues in my life.
Lord Jesus is the Truth. When I follow His Words and do accordingly, my life is transformed, first from within, to cast out satan control of my body and behaviour to my life, Lord told me to go ahead to divorce ex when I was still claiming on His Words to bring him back to me.
Then He leads me to have full revelation of how evil ex was. Even he tried to bring cursed food for me to consume, I still forgiving him and willing to let Lord change him and bring him home. Even he send lots of spirits coming my way, as he was not physically involved, I still forgive him, even his love of women, I still forgive him. Lord said forgive your enemy, yes, I walk His Word.
Even though I in my recent anger of not taking him back even when Lord could redeem him, once my anger is gone, I actually don't mind taking him back. It is not how good he is, but I see Lord redeemptive power, I look to His Grace and have a full revelation of what His Blood could do.
Lord is GOOD. He do not want me to go back to him anymore. He is letting me know the harm I will face if I go back to him. This is the only thing that STOP me. Lord has to send someone to claim the ownership of me. He said once the new man claim ownership of me, my loyalty will be to him and reject ex. Yes, if he does, I will. I am faithful to my man and I believe strongly in His Blood and His Work on the Cross! That is why Lord need me to be commited to the new man. Glory to Him!
Why all these blessing and leading? I am the descendant of Abraham and His Abrahamic blessing is on me, be it by natural Abraham's blood flowing inside me or by supernatural, I am in Jesus Christ and in Him, the Seed that secure the blessing for me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I don't know why I fancy middle eastern music and I am attracted to their people. I was not looking to Europe nor to Asia in my travelling. Middle East was one of the far away countries that I was determined to travel to first. The joy I had when I was there was indescribeable.
I did been to some Europeans countries, But no matter if it was England, Scotland, Austria, Germany or Denmark or even Sweden, where my ex was from, I did not have that joy in my heart.
Going to Israel had this special feeling that I totally could not describe. It was not like a tourist visiting a place, that kind of joy. It was more of I am home kind of feeling. I don't know why my feeling was so not like travelling there that I don't why I don't have the touristy feeling at all.
Through meditation and coming close to Lord, He revealed I have the blood of Abraham flowing in me. I am his descendant! When this was revealed to me, I then look at my family tree. Mum side of relatives, no matter how, they were prosperous, they have furniture factories, and metal factories. They did generally well. As compared to my father side of family, this side of the relatives were not having good lives. They generally live an average life.
My father family was the poorest among mum side of family, but fair generally still not the lowest from dad side of his families. Of myself, even though I was just a diploma holder, life was generally good. Monetary wise, I am always well supplied, even in single days. Lord would give me inner knowing of which stock to buy and when to sell to make profit. I just have this inner knowing even though I had not come to Christ.
Even though I married to the wrong man who didn't love me, money was never the issue. Only love was suppressed. Probably, Lord let me learn about humbleness when no people will look up to me, so that I could come to Him. But I am a survivor, no matter what situation, I will pull myself up that I need not anyone help. They just need to give me positive messages and love, and I could pull myself out, that's what happened to my depression cycle that spiral into total darkness in my early 20s, I build myself out of it by thinking positive!!!
Even when Satan came to find me and I was oppressed for 3 years. Ex did not want to shift house, so I was forced to endure its disturbance for 3 years. Praise Jesus that it could not kill me, he could only make me fearful and had sleepless night only!
I have this strong believe that for spiritual problem, must look for God to solve the problem. It was my seeking of different gods and their abilities to save me that led me to Jesus! They rest are the same gang, I realised. They were happy to keep me there, in fearful in disturb sleep.
That was why when Lord told me about Jesus, I clinged to Him so tightly and learnt all that I could about Jesus for Lord said in the bible, you learn of the Kingdom and His Righteousness, what ever the pagent have, will be given to me. Also, when I look to Christ, He will handle all the issues in my life.
Lord Jesus is the Truth. When I follow His Words and do accordingly, my life is transformed, first from within, to cast out satan control of my body and behaviour to my life, Lord told me to go ahead to divorce ex when I was still claiming on His Words to bring him back to me.
Then He leads me to have full revelation of how evil ex was. Even he tried to bring cursed food for me to consume, I still forgiving him and willing to let Lord change him and bring him home. Even he send lots of spirits coming my way, as he was not physically involved, I still forgive him, even his love of women, I still forgive him. Lord said forgive your enemy, yes, I walk His Word.
Even though I in my recent anger of not taking him back even when Lord could redeem him, once my anger is gone, I actually don't mind taking him back. It is not how good he is, but I see Lord redeemptive power, I look to His Grace and have a full revelation of what His Blood could do.
Lord is GOOD. He do not want me to go back to him anymore. He is letting me know the harm I will face if I go back to him. This is the only thing that STOP me. Lord has to send someone to claim the ownership of me. He said once the new man claim ownership of me, my loyalty will be to him and reject ex. Yes, if he does, I will. I am faithful to my man and I believe strongly in His Blood and His Work on the Cross! That is why Lord need me to be commited to the new man. Glory to Him!
Why all these blessing and leading? I am the descendant of Abraham and His Abrahamic blessing is on me, be it by natural Abraham's blood flowing inside me or by supernatural, I am in Jesus Christ and in Him, the Seed that secure the blessing for me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
To Walk By Faith Not by Sight
It's amazing that Lord would use the book of Ruth to introduce me to the new man. Probably, like Ruth, my marriage to ex was about 10 years too. Like her, I am married before, only different is I am divorced while her husband died. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Through last week sermon, Lord introduced to us to each other by the story of Ruth. He is compared like Boaz as he holds high office, Pastor Prince uses CEO, COO etc, to talk to him. Today's sermon, Prince said between a COO and a housewife, what's the difference? Prince said come to Jesus, both the same.
Lord also uses married to Mr Law and have to die to Law, to come to the Grace of Jesus! Yes, not to measure by what he do but by the Grace of Jesus, just accept the arrangement. He is still thinking.
For me, I also have just let go to Lord! Prince emphasize Ruth goes to Boaz first, in a discreet way. Yes, Lord wants me to do something that by my moral standard and my dignity, I would not do. I am actually unhappy why he prayed such a prayer that I have to fulfill!
But today, Lord let me realise it's all by His Grace that makes this relationship possible. We each have our mountain to conquer before the union is possible. He being a bachelor, even though age is catching up, to accept a divorced woman, guess it's not as easy as someone single.
Sometime, when we looked to the problems, it's like a big hurdle to cross. But, when Lord made such a plan, usually, there is a blessing behind. For me, Lord reveal he is a very loving and caring man. I will be very happy with him.
What blessing could he reap from the union with me? I am not a quarrelsome woman. I usually have an understanding that to keep my man happy. For the almost 10 years of my married life to ex, we hardly have huge quarrel. Usually, it's trying to look to solution than to blame someone.
Come to sex in the marriage, even when I was previously experience different degree of pain, I still could provide ex, now that Lord has redeemed me and give me a loving man, what not I could not?
With Lord loving me so much, whatever He said, I obeyed, so, if he is a loving man, I will be the obeying wife to all his needs. Also, now Lord make easy with His Loving Kindness in manifestation, I would gladly be his pleasure!!! All Glory to Jesus!!!
I thought by making effort, my marriage would work. What I didn't know is I married a man that was not keen on loving me. He is into getting free sex around! Something I didn't know till Lord opens my eyes to see from concrete evidents.
He did not appreciate all that I did for him. He is only interested what his favour, with the use of money and falsehood pleasentness, would give to him. It was sad when I realise all the niceness of him was all falsehood. It was only during his weak, then he was in his real self.
I am glad that Lord brought me out of such lies to a man that could really loves me for who I am. I really appreciates what Lord has done for me. He lifted me up and bless me such a wonderful man. Praise Jesus!
Not that I need his money, Lord has promised to bless me greatly, so I need not his money, I just need a loving heart! Something that I missed from the last marriage. From the last marriage, I know money can only bring emptiness and sadness.
In these 5 years, Lord led me through many hurdles, each hurdle, when looking at it, it was ugly but trusting Jesus, usually, it is beautiful in the end. Lord led to each hurdle was for spiritual growth. Each conquering of the mountain, I grew stronger and stronger, walked closer and closer to Lord and His Grace. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord told me to give the new man a week or two of sorting out his walking in the wilderness. By Faith, I believe everything will be make perfect in the name of Jesus. Lord had told me in my meditation in 2009, so his ponderness I know long ago. I shall wait for his return to trust Jesus Grace. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Through last week sermon, Lord introduced to us to each other by the story of Ruth. He is compared like Boaz as he holds high office, Pastor Prince uses CEO, COO etc, to talk to him. Today's sermon, Prince said between a COO and a housewife, what's the difference? Prince said come to Jesus, both the same.
Lord also uses married to Mr Law and have to die to Law, to come to the Grace of Jesus! Yes, not to measure by what he do but by the Grace of Jesus, just accept the arrangement. He is still thinking.
For me, I also have just let go to Lord! Prince emphasize Ruth goes to Boaz first, in a discreet way. Yes, Lord wants me to do something that by my moral standard and my dignity, I would not do. I am actually unhappy why he prayed such a prayer that I have to fulfill!
But today, Lord let me realise it's all by His Grace that makes this relationship possible. We each have our mountain to conquer before the union is possible. He being a bachelor, even though age is catching up, to accept a divorced woman, guess it's not as easy as someone single.
Sometime, when we looked to the problems, it's like a big hurdle to cross. But, when Lord made such a plan, usually, there is a blessing behind. For me, Lord reveal he is a very loving and caring man. I will be very happy with him.
What blessing could he reap from the union with me? I am not a quarrelsome woman. I usually have an understanding that to keep my man happy. For the almost 10 years of my married life to ex, we hardly have huge quarrel. Usually, it's trying to look to solution than to blame someone.
Come to sex in the marriage, even when I was previously experience different degree of pain, I still could provide ex, now that Lord has redeemed me and give me a loving man, what not I could not?
With Lord loving me so much, whatever He said, I obeyed, so, if he is a loving man, I will be the obeying wife to all his needs. Also, now Lord make easy with His Loving Kindness in manifestation, I would gladly be his pleasure!!! All Glory to Jesus!!!
I thought by making effort, my marriage would work. What I didn't know is I married a man that was not keen on loving me. He is into getting free sex around! Something I didn't know till Lord opens my eyes to see from concrete evidents.
He did not appreciate all that I did for him. He is only interested what his favour, with the use of money and falsehood pleasentness, would give to him. It was sad when I realise all the niceness of him was all falsehood. It was only during his weak, then he was in his real self.
I am glad that Lord brought me out of such lies to a man that could really loves me for who I am. I really appreciates what Lord has done for me. He lifted me up and bless me such a wonderful man. Praise Jesus!
Not that I need his money, Lord has promised to bless me greatly, so I need not his money, I just need a loving heart! Something that I missed from the last marriage. From the last marriage, I know money can only bring emptiness and sadness.
In these 5 years, Lord led me through many hurdles, each hurdle, when looking at it, it was ugly but trusting Jesus, usually, it is beautiful in the end. Lord led to each hurdle was for spiritual growth. Each conquering of the mountain, I grew stronger and stronger, walked closer and closer to Lord and His Grace. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord told me to give the new man a week or two of sorting out his walking in the wilderness. By Faith, I believe everything will be make perfect in the name of Jesus. Lord had told me in my meditation in 2009, so his ponderness I know long ago. I shall wait for his return to trust Jesus Grace. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Thursday, February 2, 2012
The Month of Blessing
It is good to step into the month of February 2012. Lord has promised to bring to past my request in 2011 for a new man to come in February! I have seen him. Even though we are still stranger to each other, I have seen him once. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord has given me a hard task to do in the nature. I dwell in the difficulties for a few days, as I choose to let go last night, Lord revealed His Plan to me that makes it so easy. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Long time ago, I was craving for Abba Father's Love. One day, when I was still in bed, after waking up, I was talking to Lord there and then. He opened His Heaven of Love to pour the colourful and mighty Love all over me that I was engulfed in that strong mighty Love. Eversince then, I have not seen it anymore, but it lingered in my heart and I hope to have the experience again.
From Lord leading, I waited patiently and continue to meditate the bible verse by verse. Each meditation of His Words, Lord leads me to walk in His Highways of Heaven. As I am reaching the end of the training and going to fulfill His Duty for me, Lord blessing of Abraham is pouring onto me.
The appearance of this new man is the start of it. Lord has told me that his sexual desire is pretty high. As I know myself, I wondered how am I going to meet him at his mark and satisfy him when we are man and wife. This is my area of concern.
Lord played it big and pushed barriers till I could not handle it. His main purpose is wanting me to look to Him ever for this intimacy. Glory to Jesus! As I told Lord I could not, but He in me could! Lord finally revealed to me His Wonderful Plan for me. Glory Glory!
He revealed through this morning feeding my spirit Man that in future, whenever we come as one, He will open His Heaven of Love to engulf us. With that Loving Kindness and Tender Mercy in fullness, love making will become easy. As this intensity of Love of His is what I am yielding all these years. He blessed me to have it at each of the Love Making in Heaven. How not will I not enjoy it? Surely He has made me so easy and make me looking forward to flow with Him in the Heavenlies. Glory Glory!
Walking with Jesus all these years, I never expect Lord will bless me this Loving Kindness in intensity again. I know in Heaven I will have plenty of it. But Praise Jesus! Lord brings Heaven to Earth for me to flow in His Love, satisfying my man in the process will become easy as ABC. Glory Glory! That the yoke of Jesus is always light!!! Amen Amen!!!
Abba has getting me ready to receive this man just like Esther soak in the perfume for 6 months before meeting the king! Lord has prepared me eversince He told me about the new man! From my uneasiness to my helplessness, He pushes the limits till I call to Him for help. With this surrender of self to His Grace, even love making become easy. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, I thank You very much for all Your Leading. I shall let go of self to let You take the fullness of me. Surely, in You I have everything! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord has given me a hard task to do in the nature. I dwell in the difficulties for a few days, as I choose to let go last night, Lord revealed His Plan to me that makes it so easy. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Long time ago, I was craving for Abba Father's Love. One day, when I was still in bed, after waking up, I was talking to Lord there and then. He opened His Heaven of Love to pour the colourful and mighty Love all over me that I was engulfed in that strong mighty Love. Eversince then, I have not seen it anymore, but it lingered in my heart and I hope to have the experience again.
From Lord leading, I waited patiently and continue to meditate the bible verse by verse. Each meditation of His Words, Lord leads me to walk in His Highways of Heaven. As I am reaching the end of the training and going to fulfill His Duty for me, Lord blessing of Abraham is pouring onto me.
The appearance of this new man is the start of it. Lord has told me that his sexual desire is pretty high. As I know myself, I wondered how am I going to meet him at his mark and satisfy him when we are man and wife. This is my area of concern.
Lord played it big and pushed barriers till I could not handle it. His main purpose is wanting me to look to Him ever for this intimacy. Glory to Jesus! As I told Lord I could not, but He in me could! Lord finally revealed to me His Wonderful Plan for me. Glory Glory!
He revealed through this morning feeding my spirit Man that in future, whenever we come as one, He will open His Heaven of Love to engulf us. With that Loving Kindness and Tender Mercy in fullness, love making will become easy. As this intensity of Love of His is what I am yielding all these years. He blessed me to have it at each of the Love Making in Heaven. How not will I not enjoy it? Surely He has made me so easy and make me looking forward to flow with Him in the Heavenlies. Glory Glory!
Walking with Jesus all these years, I never expect Lord will bless me this Loving Kindness in intensity again. I know in Heaven I will have plenty of it. But Praise Jesus! Lord brings Heaven to Earth for me to flow in His Love, satisfying my man in the process will become easy as ABC. Glory Glory! That the yoke of Jesus is always light!!! Amen Amen!!!
Abba has getting me ready to receive this man just like Esther soak in the perfume for 6 months before meeting the king! Lord has prepared me eversince He told me about the new man! From my uneasiness to my helplessness, He pushes the limits till I call to Him for help. With this surrender of self to His Grace, even love making become easy. Hallelujah! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, I thank You very much for all Your Leading. I shall let go of self to let You take the fullness of me. Surely, in You I have everything! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
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