Learning more about the Lord

This home going to the Lord of my dad really let me learn a lot about the goodness of my Daddy God and Lord Jesus. Yesterday, we were told by mum to be present to receive what dad had left for each of us. Each of us received some of his currency collections, all our spouses, us and our kids; dad was so detailed and careful in planning all of it. His cares and concerns for us showed through what he gave each of us. I was so touched last night that I regretted not spending more time to know him better.

At the same time, it dwells on me that Daddy God had sacrificed Lord Jesus on the Cross for me. His cares and love for me is so Much, yet, I am not spending much time with Him too. This lead me to realise I must spend more time with the Lord so as not to waste the precious times. I am also very thankful that Lord Jesus opened the way for dad to go to heaven, so that my separation with dad is temporary. I will surely have the chance to make up with dad again, in heaven. :D Amen!

Ever since the wake, accusations seem to coming in the form of Su and I fall too deeply in believing in Christ. Mum even used what said by relatives to condemn us. We stood our ground and told mum about the truth. One relative, who is a fortune teller now, I could sense attack coming on when he was talking rocks to me.

Immediately, I prayed to Lord to manifest His Lord’s hand on him, to bless and restore him and judge the adversary. I also plea the blood of Jesus to protect him. Then I prayed in the spirit to let Lord take over the situation. That afternoon, I could see this relative turned over to look at me moment after the prayer, he was talking to mum before that. Praise the Lord!

Yesterday, when talking to mum, Su revealed that he had with him a little devil. Mum agreed that he got one from Thailand! Thank You, Lord, in all situation, as I put my trust on You, You delivered and protected me. Hallelujah!

Mum then used the words of another Christian cousin to prove that dad’s spirit is still on earth. The thing is Lord has not talked to her, so she would not know too. In fact, their church doesn’t believe in praying in the spirit too.

This morning, Su was telling me about HL sales was not much. She pondered and Lord told her that HL used to talk a lot to Him. Nowadays, he didn’t do it as what he used to initially. All the while I thought praying in the spirit is Lord praying for me or others. I didn’t realise that I am talking to the Lord when praying. Hehe…actually I am also guilty of not praying much in the spirit lately.

Recently I too have such thoughts that I have not been praying much in the spirit. I used to do it almost every possible moment when my mouth was free. During those few months, I was still under much attack and so leaned closely to the Lord. Nowadays, with Lord’s blessings, I have more peaceful days that I prayed a lot less as compared to the initial time.

Lord had written in the book of revelation, about why we did not do what we used to do initially. It was such an ironic situation, Daddy’s Love for us is always there. When we are in need of Him, we moved closer to Him and prayed in the spirit more. Now that He had blessed me with Peace, I prayed a lot lesser, which means I did not walk as close that I did previously.

I know there is no condemnation in Christ. I am not writing this to condemn myself nor anyone else. Just that my realization with dad that I didn’t spend much time that I should when he was alive, it leads me to realise that I must treasure the time when Lord is around me. I should spend more time with Him and enjoy His presence always. I shall not take Lord for granted. Praise the Lord for this revelation and awakening. Hallelujah! Amen!

My God

From these 19 months of walking with Jesus, I could see Lord is really a humble and caring God. Daily in my life, he is always there when I need him. Even just for a small chat to clear my doubts, he will surely provide the answers too. On days I clueless what dinner to cook, He would even give me ideas on what I could do. There is no doubt about He is always there to meet my every needs. Praise the Lord!

Here is what I want to write about His care for all His kids. As you know, Lord has anointed me with healing power, this gift is given to me by Lord Himself, He gave me the thoughts of healing many. He gave me impression to pray to be a pastor. He let me see many would get healed through Him in me. This is an impression in my heart that I just know it, kind of thing.

Regarding this healing power, it’s not easy to share the joy with others. With Su and WK, they could rejoice with me. But with others, sometime jealous will arise. Through His leading, at time, He stopped me from sharing with a particular group of people. There was a chance that I met one of them on board of a bus, I thought sharing each other blessing was okay, but Lord gave me lots of phlegm that I could not say anything about it. That’s how He protects His kids from having jealousy, which is not part of His Love, Joy and Peace. Praise the Lord!

Recently, Lord has let me shared my anointing at the wake, with Pastor Daniel, this lead to the open door. Lord has planned properly how my open door to serve Him. Hallelujah! He knows who would believe me and who would not. :D

Interestingly, I got a call the other day, but the other party did not answer me. I recognized familiar voice and the topic talked was about my gift. There was disbelieving in the talk. Praise the Lord, they are not the one, who will decide if I am to serve the Lord! Lord told me that it will come to past. So I just rest in His Peace.

The other day, at one of the nights where Su and I were on duty, I was wondering how long I would serve as volunteer healer. Lord in Su told her that I will be volunteering for 1-2 years, depending on if I response to every calls of healing arise. Haha…Lord knows that I and Su also, are 2 lazy persons when come to travel long distance, especially having to transfer between public transports. With His hint, I better be more diligent and willingly goes to wherever place He orders. :D

Lord is so good, Su pray to Him that she wants to partner me in healing. Lord is not calling her into the ministry for healing, so that she could come with me as and when she wants. If she came into the ministry, guess she will be assigned to other healing job alone, which is not what she wants. Lord knows what is comfortable for us and that’s how He leads us to serve Him and His yoke is light! Praise the Lord! I am happy with this arrangement too, as you know, when 2 or more are together, Lord is in our midst. In term of prayer, when 2 or more prayed, it will be more powerful too. With 2 faithful daughters of Him working together, guess He could come stronger and healed all the sick needed. Praise the Lord!

God Sees Glorious Things In You!

This is the verse for today’s daily devotion from NCC:

1 Samuel 16:7
7… For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.

Here is Pastor Prince said about himself:

Now, step back a little less far in time with me. See a little boy standing alone during play time. Nobody wants him on their team because he is scrawny and seen as a weakling. As he grows into his teens, he suffers from an inferiority complex. He stammers and stutters so much that all his friends laugh at him.

But today, he is the senior pastor of New Creation Church. Several times each week, he stands in front of a crowd of more than 16,000 people to preach. And he receives invitations worldwide to speak in churches and pastors’ conferences. There was no way I could have ever conceived in my mind what God saw in me in those early years and the dreams that He had for me.

Here is what I find similar about myself as compared to Pastor Prince:

As a little girl, I stood alone in recess time for I was a quiet girl. I didn’t know how to mix with the rest of the kids. Into my secondary school days, I kept low profile too. During my initial working years, I fell into depression and was avoided by many. In the mums forum that I am in, during gathering, I did not know how to socialize. I have no skill for small talks.

But, Daddy God is setting me up for His Glory. Praise Him that nowadays, whoever I meet, Lord gives me the utterance to talk about Lord Jesus. Hehe…this is the only topic that I could talk in small or big group of people. Praise the Lord for this anointing. Hallelujah!

Lord had painted a very big picture of my future life. For me, I just rest in Him, keep learning more about Him and let Him lead me to where He wants to put me.

During the wake of my dad, Pastor Daniel came to visit. Lord got me and Su to share with him our blessings since we came to Christ. Pastor Daniel had invited me to join the church’s group of healing team. I had checked with Lord if this is an opening from Him. He told me Yes! Hallelujah!

The Amazing Lord II

5 days of wakes and funeral, finally comes to an end. Daddy God, Lord Jesus, thank You for being around Su and me all the way.

These 5 days, I could see Lord Jesus hands on all matters, from arranging the Chinese custom wake to the day out. Lord, thank You that You come through my unsaved uncle to voice out against too complicated Chinese funeral. You simplify the procedure so much that it looked very much the Christian way. In front of my dad’s picture, there was no idol, praise the Lord!!!

My mum want some chanting prayer for dad and You convinced her that it was costly and only for a few minutes, not worth it. Lord, thank You for blessing us good weather, especially those 2 nights Su and I was to stay overnight.

My 2^nd sis and brother took the first night, 2^nd sis told me that from 2am onwards, it was cold. Su and I expected that to happen on the 2^nd night, but we didn’t experience it, in fact, we kept the fan running! At first Su and I were wondering why didn’t we experience the cold, then we realise it was a blessing from YOU, You told us that our T-shirts were too thin for the cold weather at night, thank You for being so concerned for us. On days elsewhere was having heavy rain but You keep dad’s wake dry. On the 3^rd days, eldest brother-in-law and brother were on duty. That day, brother spoke lots of disbelieve on Lord Jesus, Lord didn’t bless the weather, the whole afternoon was raining so heavily! On the 4^th day, when Su and I were on shift again, You bless us good weather again. Praise You, Lord, for loving us so much!

Lord, it was good spending the night with You at the wake! You kept us awoke with worship songs and sermons. We had the chance to pray for Your Kingdom to be expanded to the 4 corners of earth, we also had time to pray for the salvation of our family members. Lord thank You for sending 2 angels to protect us during those 2 nights. Thank You for loving us so much!

Lord, during the 1^st day when my dad’s body was put into the coffin, You told me that once a person died, his soul is either taken by God if he had accepted Christ, otherwise, he will be taken by devil to hell. You told me the wake and funeral mean nothing to the spiritual world. You said that if those people that conduct the funeral event, if they know anything about the spirit world, they should know my dad soul and spirit was not there. You said that those prayers for God to accept him won’t get the person to heaven. I felt kind of sad for those people that was cheated by their believes, spending so much during funeral, to make sure they had a good after life, means nothing at all. What a disappointment for their family members if they had known the truth!

My consolation was, praise the Lord, You got my parents to believe in You one Sunday service and went up to accept Christ. You told me that You had given dad a big house, facing the sea, for us to be gather together in future! Praise You, Lord! Thank You for bringing my dad into Su’s dream on the first night of his death. Su saw 2 persons floated towards her, one waving at Su, telling us to take care! Su was wondering who he was, Lord, thank You for telling Su that he was our father, 20yrs young. Praise You that in heaven there is no old age curse!

Su told me that the other being accompanied dad, she could see him from afar, but once move nearer, Su cannot see that being, even though could see there is someone there. You told me He was the angle of death. Su said that he and dad turned towards the bright light and float towards it, both of them as if friends, moved almost together like 2 good friend talking, with my dad just slightly moving a tiny bit behind the angle of death. I am happy that dad is securely with You. Praise the Lord!

Daddy God, Lord Jesus, thank You for blessing us a fine weather on the day of cremation. Our schedule time to walk the way with dad was 1:30pm. Thank You that You listened to our prayer for cooling floor and the road, my younger niece even said that it was so nice to walk, with socks and just a tiny bit of heat. That’s amazing on your control of the heat on the ground. Thank You for blessing dad a beautiful bouquet of flowers on top of his coffin, Su said it looked like the Garden of Eden. Dad had a black van that looked very much like a Christian funeral car. Praise You for blessing my dad and us throughout the wakes and funerals. Thank You for keeping us company during the whole process. Praise You for Your Great Love to us, Your beloved children. Hallelujah!!!

Thank You, Lord

Lord Jesus, Daddy God and Holy Spirit,

Thank You very much to be with me and my dad throughout his sick journey. Lord, thanked You that even though You knew he was only trusting You for healing and with no intention to come back to You, You still blessed him with healing along the journey that lighten his suffering. Thank You for Your Great Grace and Mercy pouring over him.

Lord, yesterday You let me recalled that my future house won’t have my dad in it, I did not get the hint. Thank You very much that even though I refused to let my dad go, You told me to let my dad go in Peace. I was in my stress and You calmed me down.

Lord, thank You that when I calmed down, and decided to pray for dad to have no suffering, You granted the wish. As Su and I finished the prayer, my dad last moment started.

Lord, thank You that even though my dad could not say a word with a mouth wide opened, You told me that he wanted to tell mum that he loved her. When I told my mum about it, You next tell me that my dad wonder if my mum will be well taken care of. I assured him and told him that I will take care of mum and finally, You brought him back to You. He slipped into sleep peacefully.

Lord, thank You for keeping watch over him and ensuring that d did not get his hand on dad. Thank You for telling me that dad was happy that I was able to relay his message to mum.

Lord, thank You that You send angle to protect us at the wake. Thank You to be with me and my family every moments and keeping us under Your protection.

Thank You for wanting me to bond with dad so that I will not regret for not doing so.

Lord, thank You for Your Great Love, Great Grace and Great Mercy that are always around me and my family. Praise Your wonderful Name, Lord Jesus! May the world knows that You are such a magnificent and wonderful God! Amen!

My God, The Lord

Time really passes fast, since Aug 2006 till now, so many months have passed, and finally I am at the last book of the bible, the Book of Revelation, Chap 4. Reading through bits by bits, I am amazed that I could finish reading it despite the drag and boredom at time. Thank You, Holy Spirit, for Your help in blessing me with wisdom to understand most of it, thank You for leading me to different sermons to understand the bible at different stage of reading.

Lord, You are such a wonderful God. You are so good, kind hearted and merciful. Most of bible is about man disobedience, distrust in You, yet, You are always there for them the moment they turn back to You. You are always faithful to man. Praise You for Your Mercy and Your Grace.

From the start, when I have no faith to trust You, I learnt that I could use Jesus faith to trust You. When I grow in knowing Your love for me, finally I found my love and my faith for You. However, recently through the mini sermons from Pastor Prince ‘Live in Israel’, I realised that even now that I have faith in You and I obey to Your command, I am not to use them to believe in You.

By doing so, I have shifted my focus to my faith and my obedience, away from You, the source of blessings. Now, I shall put my focus back to Jesus death at the cross, Jesus strips, Jesus blood, Jesus righteousness and Jesus obedience. Wow, what a co-incidence, my worship song playing “It is Finished” from ‘A Touch of His Presence’.

You shared through Pastor Prince about the woman, who bleeding for 12 yrs and was healed by touching Your cloak, You said that when she looked at Your Grace, You look at her faith in believing You. Now then I realise I should not use my faith to believe in You, but to look at Your Grace in Your ability to bless because of the Jesus had done a perfect work on the Cross and it’s You, who will look at my faith in trusting You. What a revelation!

From Pastor Prince Sermon on Matthew 6, the lily of the field and the birds of the air, I realised that You have wanted to me to be well, prosperous, bless and to be fearless. Now that I know that You surely will bless me in all areas of my needs and my life, I shall not doubt in You any longer. I know Your blessing will flow in as long as I remain in Your Peace and not to be troubled, not to be afraid and don’t doubt. Hallelujah!

With this whole time put in learning about who are You, I know You, Lord, is Jesus and You are also God. I know Jesus is the son of Father God. I didn’t know that this knowledge is what the world will dispute about His deity, I shall hold tight to this knowledge.

Lord, You send your deciphers into the boat and told them to go to Bethsaida, The House of Fisher, first, You are on mountain side praying. Look out, You saw the disciples straining at the oars. Lord, You are high up in heaven looking at us, see our walks with You. Pastor Prince shared that how far we move our boats away from You, will lead to different difficulties faced. But, You will always come during the darkest moment (3am to 6am), the 4^th watch of the night, to redeem us. Praise You for Your Faithfulness.

With my 1^st reading of bible coming to an end, You are telling me that I will be going into service soon. I shall wait for the day to come. Thank You for Your trust in me, to use me for the Glory of Your Kingdom. Amen!

The Manna

Recently, I have been thinking of how the manna that Daddy God provided to the Israeli in the desert is linked to Lord Jesus on the cross. After thinking over for a few weeks, 2 days ago, while away from home, I decided to search my ipod to see what sermon I could feed myself of God’s word.

The word Manna from the sermon 27/10/2005 “Understand the Manna Principle” caught my eyes and I listened to it twice.

The Israelite is to gather as much manna as they need; some gather much, some little. They measured what they gathered by the omer, he who gathered much did not have too much, and he who gathered little did not have too little. Pastor Prince shared that no matter how much we gather of God Words, we will be blessed by what we gather. Praise the Lord!

Some of them paid no attention to Moses and kept the manna overnight and found maggots on it and smelly. Only those they gathered on the 6^th day remain fresh the next day, for the 7^th day is the Sabbath.

Lord had commanded, so Moses said to Aaron, to take a golden pot and put an omer of manna in it. This is to be place before the Lord to be kept for generation to come. In Exodus 16:36, ‘An omer is one tenth of an ephah’, this refers to the tithing of 10% to the Lord. This omer of manna did not have maggot as it was set apart, sanctified.

In the Tabernacles that Lord got Moses to set up, in it were the omer of manna, Aaron’s staff that had sprouted, budded, blossomed and produced Almond, a picture of Lord Jesus resurrection life and the 2 stones of written Law.

In the Tabernacles that is in the Temple built by King Solomon, the manna and Aaron’s staff was not there. This is the revelation from the Lord to Pastor Prince, ‘listen to what the spirit says to the churches, he that overcomes, will not be hurt by the 2^nd death in the lake of fire’ that means that God took out Aaron’s staff and give it to the believer. Now every believer has resurrection life, who is he that overcomes, but he that believes that Jesus is the Son of God, the bible says.

Then, the church of Pergamum says in the book of revelation hears what the spirit says to the churches, to he who overcomes, I will give to eat the hidden manna, God took out the hidden manna, that’s our Lord Jesus Christ, and He gave us an inward knowing of who Jesus is. And the taste of manna was waffles mixed with honey, sweeter than honeycomb is our Lord, Amen! :D

Nowhere in the book of Revelation did God write about taking out the 2 tablets of stones and give to the believer. Hallelujah!!! The stones are hidden under the Mercy Seat, which is our Lord Jesus. God left it there for our blessings, if God take it out, then we are gone for no one can measure up to it. The temple of Solomon, is the church period where it is most glorious, where the truth of God are fully restored to the church. That’s the time the church is to leave the stone under the Mercy Seat but give us the hidden manna and rod of Aaron and power of resurrection that we might know Him and His Power of Resurrection. Hallelujah!

The time has come where God send His servant, and he is not named, Pastor said his name is Eleazar, Ele – God and azar – help -> the help of God, God is the helper. Jesus said Holy Spirit is the helper in the New Testament. God send the helper to help find a bride for Isaac. Isaac is the picture of Jesus Christ, the beloved son and we are the bride.

Lazarus had been dead for 4 days, Jesus stood before Lazarus tomb and said in John 11:39 ‘Take away the stone’. The ministry of death, written and engraved on stones, the Law. Today God told the pastors to roll away the stones from the His people for His people are alive, but are held back by the stones.

Martha told Jesus that he has been dead for 4 days, by this time there is a bad odor, so people said if you removed the 10 commandments, you will smell the stink, the fresh will come out, but Pastor said that if roll away the 10 commandment from people not saved, if they have not save, not regenerated and not quicken out of death, they will smell. He is removing the stone from people who are resurrected.

Jesus said in John 11:40 ‘Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?’ With this, He called out in a loud voice, ‘Lazarus, come out!’ Lazarus came out and there wasn’t any stink.

Lazarus is the Greek for the Hebrew Eleazar, means Holy Spirit, the helper. Once the stone is rolled away, Holy Spirit will come forward in our body. He will quicken our body and do miracles and He is released. As long as the stone is there, the Holy Spirit cannot come forth.

Lazarus was bounced, he could not walk, and the power of Jesus Resurrection pulled him out bodily, he floated out. Pastor said that in future, when we are ruptured, Lord will pull us up too, not by choice.

Daddy God, thank You for this wonder revelation. I praise You! Amen!

The Amazing Lord

I like to share about my personal experience with Lord.

Lord has been using me to preach about Jesus to different people. Even though I know it’s from Him and not from me, sometime, it’s hard to tell. Since the words come out from my mouth automatically.

No matter who I encounter, most of the time, I can talk about Jesus on and on. Even to dad, I talked so much about Jesus to him that family wonder beside Jesus, if there is anything else for me to say.

Yesterday, I was telling dad, for blessing from the Lord, no matter which lack a person is facing, he has to believe personally to receive that blessing. He cannot receive his blessing of health through Su and me.

Example, Su’s life is very blessed from the beginning, her sons’ school results were still very poor and her hubby shop was still not earning much. When HL accepted Christ and believe strongly on the Lord, then his shop business was blessed greatly. Her 2 sons result was not blessed even though the husband shop was blessed. It was when the 2 sons believe in the Lord, daily ask Lord to lead them in their study and ask Lord to be their teachers, then their blessing flows through. Recently they get close to full marks results. Praise the Lord.

Okay, now back to using me to talk. Yesterday, when Lord announced to dad that it was the last time He talking to him, I was still talking about Jesus. After that talk, I did go to talk to dad again later in the evening. Interestingly, what come out from my mouth was no more about Lord. It back to the daily life talk.

This let me realise that all the while when I was pointing Jesus to others, Lord was the one that talked. Once He said that’s all that He is going to talk, I could sense the flow stopped.

This also let me wonder, those people who disbelieve or filter what pastors are preaching, they might have filter away what Lord is trying to tell them!!!

I love Pastor Joshua revealing about the mightiness of Jesus. In the previous sermons by Pastor Joshua, he revealed even though the space is very big and wide, they are still within the palm of the Lord!

Today, Pastor Joshua reveals that some people like to say they have sinned, fallen away from Lord’s Grace. But the fact is earth is just a tiny part in the whole universe, which is in Jesus palm, so no matter how we fall, we cannot fall out of Grace. For we have yet to travel out of earth! So Lord’s protective palm are still holding the universe and Daddy God palm is covering over Lord’s palm and thus, we are protected no matter how we fall. Hallelujah!!!

The Compassionate heart of God

Recently, I learn more about the compassionate heart of Daddy God and I am so comforted to know it.

As you know, my dad has been bedridden all these while. Even though Lord said he is healed, we have yet to see the manifestation on the body. Lord has wanted dad to be happy so that his blessing can pour into him. But just that dad, who is just a 1 day Christian, still does not know his rights as a child of God.

You might think I can easily let him know. As you can read from the bible, Jesus found it hard to convince the people from his hometown that He is the son of God, I find it difficult to let dad realise that Lord’s way and the natural way is just the opposite. To parents, it seems a weird request, too weird for them to believe.

From my encounter with Kr, she a 15-20 yrs Christian have difficulty to believe in all that Lord wanted to provide her. So, hard to expect my parents, who are so rooted in their idol praying, to believe. I have to depend on Lord to bring them to realise this.

You might think Lord is making things difficult for dad, the truth is, many people cannot receive their blessings because they don’t believe the way too. Why did Jesus want us to not to be troubled and don’t be afraid just before he went to face the last part of his life? Why did Lord Jesus want to give us His Peace?

Simply the way to let blessing flows to us is this. We have to be at peace daily so that blessing can flows through. Beside this, we also need to have a believing heart to know Lord Jesus had done a very Perfected Work on the cross to take away all our sins, diseases, curse and destruction. We are now the righteousness of God in Christ.

Why your lives daily seem to have not at peace situation? This is because Satan knows how to prevent you from receiving your blessing. That’s why we need to stand strong in what Lord Jesus had done for us and had given to us.

For dad, even though it’s normal for sick people to feel gloomy, but this emotionally not at peace with the sickness means he is squeezing his heart so tight that Lord Jesus blessing of health cannot flow through. By being happy, his heart will be open and the healing can pour in.

I prayed to Lord for mercy, I told Lord that if 1 righteous man could save Sodom and Gomorrah if Abraham had plea with him. Su and I are 2 righteous one, even though our righteousness is not because of us, but because of Jesus. I also quoted that in Mark 16:16-17, Lord Jesus said that “whoever believes and is baptized will be saved….they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.” I told Lord that Su and I had lay hand on dad, so by His words, dad should get well too.

I plea to Lord that as long as dad have the heart to sing, to heal him immediately. I even pray to Lord to pump his Spirit of Life and the resurrection power into the joints of dad and to give dad utterance. Dad has not been moving much, so his system does need some oiling from Lord.

Praise the Lord, Lord told me last night that He will heal dad to health. This afternoon, he told Su that as long as dad sings a word, He will heal dad to complete wellness. Su and I are waiting patiently for dad to do it.

Whatever ways to bring dad close to Lord, Lord has said it through me. On Saturday, He told Su that it was the last time he talking to dad. If dad still does not respond, he will go to join Lord soon, even though his time is not up yet. So now, it’s all up to dad.

A Lesson on Love

One of the most precious gems I learn from this walk with Jesus is Daddy God loves for me. His Love let me realised that this is the focus in life that will make a person whole.

From NCC, I learnt that Daddy God gave me His Grace, His unconditional love; I should give my girl the same unconditional love too. This is what I have been practicing, telling my girl that I love her because she is my daughter….not because she did something good or bad. I make sure this sink into her. Praise the Lord!

Today, this lesson on love finally comes into usefulness in her learning on how to deal with friend’s demand. By grace, my girl is a very caring person. She cares about my dad, wants him to be well. On playground, she wants to see her friends. Yesterday, she told me that she gave a friend 50 cents; otherwise her friend will be sad. This morning the struggle surfaced…she told me that her playmate cum classmate wanted her to give her pink ruler, her favourite, to her. Otherwise, this friend said that she will not be her friend.

Such threat on you must do something to get my friendship is what she must deal with herself. She doesn’t want to give up her ruler, but she also doesn't want to lose this friendship.

This is what I told her: friends are together because they love to play with each other. If a friend needs her to give her something to be friend, the friend doesn’t love her but love her things. I quoted my unconditional love to her to let her understand better. I think she is getting it.

This morning, while she was going to the school hall, she saw her friend arrived. I saw her waiting for this friend. So I looked at the friend to see any keenness to see JC. There was none, just an expressionless face. When I look to my girl again, she had gone up the stairs; she didn’t wait for the friend. Lord told me that my girl will grow through this incident. Praise the Lord!

Daddy God, thank You for teaching me this love by Grace on my kid. It’s a valuable lesson on her growing up, to know she is loved and she need not bow down to unwanted threat to get friends. Praise You for loving me so much. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for loving so much at the Cross. Amen!

Father’s Love

Ever since I told Daddy God that I want to follow His Way and pray to Him to let me know so that I wouldn’t miss it. Lord has been a great Blesser in my life.

Saturday, hubby was not feeling well. I knew that I had to take public transport home. Near to going home time, Lord told me to ask my eldest brother-in-law for a ride home. As parents’ home, my home and my eldest sis home is like an equilateral triangle in term of distance. It would take sis double the time to reach their home if they were to send me home first. So, I told Lord that it was not so nice to trouble them. When Lord wanted to bless, He surely wanted to bless....praise the Lord!

Since I didn’t ask brother-in-law, Lord got my girl to insist on taking my brother-in-law’s car home. In the end, we got a blessed ride home. Praise the Lord!

A few weeks ago, when Su and I had just prayed for healing for my dad, Lord told Su that my father will get well if he remain in cheerfulness. As dad has yet to know Lord, he does not know how to trust in Lord and remain in His Peace. I thought letting him listen to worship songs and Pastor Mark sermons might help him to build his faith needed for the healing. We are told to spend more time with him too.

However, due to our families’ commitment, Su and I rarely go to visit dad during weekdays. We only do our weekly visit on Saturday.

Recently, dad has a few times of shutting his mouth and refusing food. I prayed for him a few times but this last round, he seems to stick his ground. Lord asked me to call church. I thought having Pastor to come and preach to him and listening to sermons are the same, so I didn’t act on it.

Then Su called me to tell me that Lord told her to call church too. Even though we don’t know why Lord wanted us to call church, I called today. Through talking to Pastor Soo Teck, then I realise why Lord wanted us to call church. Praise the Lord.

Pastor Soo Teck commented that my relationship with Lord is good, no argument on that. But, he said he hardly hear me talk about my father…seem something missing from there.

He is right about it. Younger days, dad was too busy at work to bother about bonding with us. We are closer to our mum, not him. Then grown up and married, we each care more for our own family then our parents. However, Daddy God being a God of Love, He wants our family ties to be closed. So, through Pastor Soo Teck, Lord told us to establish a relationship with dad, so that he could be cheerful and have the aim to live again. Praise the Lord.

I don’t know how this going to work out, as I am not expressive at all. I am more of what Lord need me to do, I will go do and that’s it. Hehe. Anyway, will trust Lord as He said He will empower me the power of Love. I am to open my life to my dad. Praise the Lord for being so caring for my family well being. So tomorrow, Su and I will be going to parents’ home to do our bonding with dad. Praise the Lord!

The Compassionate Lord

I just finished reading the book of Jonah. In this bible reading, compared to Su and HL, I am really very slow. Till now just completed book of Jonah for the Old Testament and New Testament only till 2 Peter 2. Of so much reading, today reading the book of Jonah is the most fun part of the bible. I like the part Jonah running away from Lord, yet Lord didn’t give up on him.

Just like I look around me, there are people reading the bible more than once and sinking into the words of God seriously, take half a day off from work since 2006 to do it. For me, Lord has to bless me with 3 different bibles and change me to like reading bible, before I started reading it. Even my slow pickup rate and dragged over a year to read this bible, this is the message Lord give to me sometime back:

I love you, you are the one I care for

You might be slow in your bible reading, but I love you anyway.

Heaven will wait for you to be ready to carry out the will of the Lord.

Wow, isn’t this great? The Merciful and Compassionate Lord waiting for me to carry out His will!! Reading the book of Jonah, I realised that there is no way to run away from the assignment.

He tried running in opposite direction and even offer to be thrown into the sea to calm the sea. Yet, Lord didn’t give him up. Lord sent a big fish to swallow him for 3 days to think over, before he turned back to Lord and went to Nineveh to proclaim: “Forty more days and Nineveh will be overturned.” These led to the people in that city to repent from their evil ways and Lord forgave them.

Recently I learnt more about my cousin afterlife and I am happy. Lord sent cousin’s catholic friend to visit him on the last days. Cousin had accepted Christ. This friend dreamt that cousin was happily counting money and even asked if his friend wanted some. He gave a Singapore $1 note to the friend in the dream. The next morning, this friend went to coffee shop to buy coffee and got a $1 note from the change, what a co-incidence.

When I was in doubt, I sometime do wonder if Lord will send someone else to do this job that He had told me. But after reading the book of Jonah, He told me, now you know that I will not give this job away. Lord did let me know that I will be call up for service after I finish the bible. I do hope to read faster..hehe…

The Lord’s Heart

Today I am so touched by Lord. He is just so GOOD that beyond words can describe. My own dad has been going into disbelieve weekly. It’s a norm to chase away the disbelieve spirit from him weekly as I do my weekly visit. His system seems to shut down, closing his mouth and not eating. Always need prayer to wake him up to talk and eat again.

Today, Su called me from parents home. To remind me to bring the anointed oil for the same purpose again. I know in Christ, whatever we believe, we get answered prayer. The problem is how to get dad to believe? He was just a 1 day Christian. Motivated by me, he accepted Christ, but ever since that Sunday, he never wanted to step into church again. He expected magical manifestation of healing on him. But what I learnt from past healer comment is, healing from Lord is mostly not instant. Sometimes, Lord does perform instant healing, but that was not the norm.

Today, I feel that I should pray for unmerited, undeserved and unearned favour for my dad. During shower, I talked to Daddy God. I told him that 2000 years ago, Lord Jesus had carried the sins and sicknesses of my dad. He was judged by Daddy God, each stripe on His body and He was being burnt. All these judgment that punished Lord Jesus beyond human form. As disclosed in Isaiah 52:14

Just as there were many who were appalled at him –

His appearance was so disfigured beyond that of any man

And his form marred beyond human likeness

With this, I appealed to Lord to fully heal my dad to healthy. I told Lord that it’s not about man believe nor disbelieve, but it’s about His Great Grace, Great Mercy, Compassionate heart, and Loving heart. After prayer, I asked Lord if He will grant my request, He replied YES!!! Praise the Compassionate Lord!!!

This is the verse Lord gave me for my dad:

Psalm 41:2-3

The LORD will protect him and preserve his life;

He will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes.

The LORD will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness

Today, I told Him to come through me to perform His Glory. It’s not about me but ALL about Him. Lord told me to follow His instructions: Sing worship songs, take Holy Communion, then pray for dad. It’s another raising prayer for dad. After prayer, Lord led me into another prayer of calling his body divine exchange with the body of Lord Jesus. Hallelujah!!! Lord told me dad would be ok tomorrow. I am waiting to see His Glory. Praise the Lord!

Today, I heard sad news too. My cousin, who was suffering from cancer, died 2 days ago. About 2 months ago, Lord gave me the impression to contact my cousin to pray for him. I hardly met this family for years even though I know of their existence. Through calling my younger aunt, I managed to talk to his sis, this cousin from my eldest aunt.

During that talk with this sister of my cousin, she told me that her brother was receiving treatment from hospital. His reaction to the treatment was good. I was thinking, if that’s the case, maybe prayer wasn’t needed. I told the sis to contact me for prayer if he needed it after his treatment completion. During that conversation, he left 1-2 course of treatment to go.

A few days ago, Lord gave me the thinking of this cousin again. I was wondering why no calls from them. I should have follow up with a call to them. I didn’t take much notice on this prompting from Lord or rather, I didn’t realise that was a prompting from Lord.

Till today, when I heard of the death, then I realise that Lord had given me thinking of them, to act on. Maybe this cousin married a Muslim and so they don’t want a Christian prayer, that I wonder…however, I do feel kind of waste. Lord has the heart to heal him. But I didn’t call that family and they didn’t call me too. So the chance of life saving is gone. Hiaz…

With this, I better take much notice of future thoughts. Daddy God, thank You for the leading in my life. I know You gave us free choice on how we want to live our life. But I want to follow Your leading and go by Your way. Lord, please help me to follow Your way for I know Your way is good. I pray in Jesus Name, Amen.