Thursday, January 31, 2013

The Reconcilation of God

2 Corinthians 5:21 
'God made Him (Lord Jesus Christ) who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in Him we might be the Righteousness of GOD.'

2 Corinthian 5:15 
'And He (Lord Jesus Christ) died for all, that those who live should not longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again.'

2 Corinthian 5:17-19
'Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

All this is from God, who reconciled us to Himself through Christ and give us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to Himself in Christ, Not Counting Men's Sins Against Them.'

In this world where most knows that we have to do right and not do wrong, so that we need not go to hell, what Christ did at the Cross has given us Freely, the Righteousness of GOD in Christ Jesus! This is His Love for us, mankind.

6 years ago, when I came to know Christ and in Him is Love and He is the Love of God manifested for me, I was looking for the emotional part to feel His Love. One morning, as I was still in bed but awoke, He opened the Heavenly Door and showed me this Powerful, Colourful Strong Presence of Love. I was overwhelmed!!! Glory to God!!!

It is with this Love that I believe in Faith in Christ and walk out this path of Righteousness through Him leading me each assignments. He promised me that through this faithfulness in Him, He is going to bless me richly. How rich is this richness? It's out of the world kind of riches in everything!!! Glory to Jesus!!!

With Christ Jesus died for all my sins, sicknesses, curses, lacks, any problems that I might face in this life, and freely given me the Righteousness of GOD through Him, I need not be fearful of Hell. My name is written in the Book of Life and erased from the Book of Hell and I am washed whiter than snow by the Blood of Jesus that Holy Spirit, the spirit of God, could now dwell in my spirit and be my God! Glory Glory!!!

I need not do right to gain my entry to Heaven, nobody could actually!!! But now, with the Love of God, I walk in His Love for me. I need not fight my way to get my victory but in Him, He is my Victory in all areas of my life.

A prayer is all I need to get whatever He had died to give me. This walk with Him, He trained me from a weak girl to walk in His Faith and be confident in Him. All the bad in me, He took it one by one as He revealed to me along the way of these Paths of Righteousness. I am not there fully yet, otherwise, I would be fully showing Love to men, but I have yet to be fully there.

Lord is good to me. Beside changing my character, recently, He also changing me physically too. Since the birth of Jc, I had this full termed tummy that refused to flatten. I also became low in sexual desire and sensation that ex termed me as a dead log!!!

Daily, I trusted the Lord that I am tall, slim, sexy, pretty, young at 20, and youth at 16. Each time I take Holy Communion at home, I proclaim in faith that I will be so. The bible said we are to speak by Faith and not by what we see. We are to speak Life to our mountain of problems.

Praise Jesus! Finally, I am seeing this full term tummy going down so much so that even the sales assistance in the supermarket I frequent commented about I slim down overall, from tummy to bum and overall slimmer. I praise Jesus for it!!!

I used to be a size 10, and man in my office would enjoy looking at me. When I met ex and was happy, guess I ate more and then I became a 12 and after Jc I became a 14 and then a 16. But the trust in Jesus is finally showing result!!!

My size 16 pants are getting loose, especially my Sunday pants that I wear to church. It used to be pretty tight that I need a bigger size but suddenly, my pants are getting loose that each week, I test if it would fall off before I go church!!! That's how much I worry from the slimming!!!

Even my sexual desire is coming back!!! At time, I grew so strong that I prayed to Lord to send me a man!!! I know I need one and I do hope eventually, when I am slim, sexy and pretty, my chance of attracting a man grows and I do hope to find someone that could click well with me.

Ex was good previously when I was gaining weight, male colleagues warned me that I was loosing my sexiness but ex assured me that he didn't find me so. Each man desire in woman is different. Ex desire not those slim bamboo kind but average size is good for him. In him, I got the confident that I need. In a way, He gave freedom to all my problems that it sounded good and that's why I trusted him much to marry him.

With this new life that Lord is restoring me, I am pleased! I know this is the beginning and the fullness of it all will be here when I started my healing ministry through Him.

That is why I need a man who is understanding as that would be my career in the future!!! As you know, everyone has some form of unwell that need healing. As you read the bible, you will noticed that people went to Jesus all time of the day for miracle healing. When Lord come fully through me, I guess the need by people will be there. As such, I need a man who is understanding and could stand by my side even with these heavy assignments that is coming in the near future.

Why I need a man who knows Jesus love him? If he really knows about Jesus Love, he will not look to self and glorify in his own achievements but look to Jesus for even better prospect of all that he is doing. Worldly knowledge only could reach a certain level. We all need the Wisdom of God to know even better ideas.

Example how Facebook came about? Lord drops an idea into the descendants of Abraham, as Lord promised Abraham to bless his descendants. If you check most things we uses, they are all ideas that God had dropped into the Jews, the children of Abraham, that they prosper in things they do! Glory to God who is always Faithful!!!

With all things turning well for me, how could I run away from this Goodness of God? As such, the man I want must be a Christian so that he will not ask me to leave Christ for him and he could share my joy in the Lord! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

The Longest 10mins of My Life

That ride I took with a pretended taxi-driver, I don't know his real occupation, is really eternity!!! It was a pretty normal ride just that somehow, the emotional feeling overall was not normal. There was something special in the air.

But my emotion processing usually is pretty slow that I do not feel the effect of it till the next couple of days. Somehow, this 10 mins never really end. I know it should be shorter than 10mins for today, each taxi that passed by me, I keep wondering if he is in it even though I know he is not a taxi driver!!!

In the end, I took a cab home and the time taken was just 10mins, so that ride should not be longer from tonight's ride. I did not look at the watch in that event, so I had no clue how long was the ride.

I thought after yesterday, I would not think of the event anymore but when the match is planned in heaven, it's hard to shake it off.

Yes, he is not one of those that I would usually put under my radar. But those under my radar even though they look pleasing, they end up not so pleasing. Yes, both ex-boyfriend and ex-husband wants me to give in to them. The ex-bf was the worst, after knowing him, he tried to change me to someone else that in that short 6mth, I lost who I am.

For ex-husband, he wanted to eat his kind of food and things that belongs to us, like Jc, he wanted her to parenting his way. This I still could live with but just the parenting part, made me clueless in his way. End up Jc wants most things her way, just like him!!! But nowadays I am changing her thoughts to install some of the goodness that my parents passed to us. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tonight, there are many taxis passing by the bus-stop as I waiting for the next bus as the bus, brother and I are taking, was gone before we reached the bus-stop. I saw his sad face from the recent event that Lord led me to lead him back to his family. I partly wanted to send him home too. We do live nearby each other!!!

Partly, after looking at so many taxi, I decided to hop into one as Jc said she didn't go to buy dinner with the money I gave her, but cooked something herself. As she was not full, I had my dinner with me and I wanted her to have some of it too. But, main thing is I am still thinking of that event.

I did have my reasoning with Lord about ex being a better person for me even though he did so much bad to me but Lord said he is not a good choice, I am to let go of him and go for the one He picked for me. He said that I would be happy with him.

Sometime, bad boys are more attractive then good one. But it's when in the situation, that I would think back if my life is with a good boy, then all these things won't be a problem anymore. This is the contradiction of life. Sometime, what we want is not good for us but as we did not realise it, we still go for the same type of people.

That is why, I am not totally discounting what Lord bring to me. Even though he might not look like the kind I might like, but I trusted Lord, He knows what He is talking about. Surely, He knows me well and He knows him too. So, I shall give it a chance if there is still a chance!

After a long talk with Lord last night, and tonight He had given me thoughts about him through all those taxi that drove by, I will give it a try if a chance is given. Who knows, things might work better than I realise! Afterall, God can never be wrong. haha...

This post is not about Lord mainly, just passing thoughts about all that He did to bring 2 persons that don't know each other and don't fancy each other together. And to Him, it is not a joke!!! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Jesus, The Perfect Man

Today, I like to talk about the love of my life. He is the One that I hold onto Him all these years and who helps me always in my trials of life to be always successfully redeemed from them all.

God the Father, looks at the people on earth and see that they are just like lost sheep without a good shepherd. After 1500 years letting men be by themselves, live according to what God, Abba Father, has told Adam when he disobey.

Genesis 3:17-19
'Cursed is the Ground because of you; through pain toil you will eat of it all the days of your life.
It will produce thorns and thistles for you, and you will eat the plants of the field.
By the sweat of your brow you will eat your food until you return to the ground, since from it you were taken; for dust you are and to dust you will return.

 This is how man live since then. I like to add this part about what Lord said about Israel here:

Exodus 19:5-6
'Now if you obey Me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my Treasured Possession. Although the whole earth is mine, you will be for me a Kingdom of Priests and a Holy Nation.'

This is how men responded to God in Exodus 19:8,

'The people all responded together, "We will do everything the Lord has said."

This is God the Father replied to men, Exodus 19:12,

'Be careful that you do not go up the mountain or touch the foot of it. Whoever touches the mountain shall surely be put to death.

With this the 10 commandments of the Heavenly Law was given for man to walk by it so that he could be blessed if he obey fully to this BIG 10.  But man failed miserably, just by the first commandment, Exodus 20:3 'You shall have no other gods before me.', man is unable to follow fully! Man looks to money, to girls, to status, to power, to self, to etc etc....

Abba Father sees that man was unable to receive His Goodness from striving by themselves. He decided to send His Begotten Son, Lord Jesus Christ to earth to help man walk the perfect walk. Through Mary, Lord Jesus let go of His Heavenly Godly Power, and through the Holy Spirit, he was born as a Man.

The moment a baby is conceived in the womb, he is redeemed as Lord Jesus had gone through that to redeem man. He was born in a mayor,  a feeding trough dug out of stone to signify He is born to die for man. The feeding trough looks like the burial cave that ancient Israelite had.

He lived by the words of God and walked it out always looking to His Father, the God. In Him is no sin and He is the Righteousness of God that He bring forth to man. He fulfilled the Big 10 for man. Glory Glory!!!

Exodus 21:23-25
'Do not make any for yourself gods of silver or gods of gold.
Make an altar of earth for me and sacrifice on it your burnt offerings and goats and your cattle.
Wherever I cause My Name to be honored, I will come to you and bless you.

If you make an altar of stone for me, do not build it with dressed stones for you will defile it if you use a tool on it. And do not go up to my altar on steps, lest your nakedness be exposed to it.'

Lord Jesus Christ was striped, beaten, spit on, humiliated, naked and burnt as the Sacrificing Lamb of God to fulfill all that man need. He is the Burn Offering, the Grain Offering, the Peace Offering, the Trespass Offering and Sin Offering for man.

He was raised up between Heaven and Earth and suffered the burning and drying from 9am - 3pm so that all the sins, sicknesses, curses of man were fully judged in Him and the Holiness of God was satisfied. The veil between God and man was broken by His shed Blood. The accuser of the devil are cast down and silenced forever! He is our Victory!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Through Him, all I need to do to come close to God the Father, is completely fulfilled and Heavenly Doors opens for me. I could be sitting at home and yet I am fellowshipping with Abba Father through the Finished Work of Lord Jesus Christ.

It's not who I am or what I am, it's all about Jesus and His Finished Work at the Cross and His Blood has fully washed me whiter than snow that God, the Holy Spirit, now dwells fully in me and He is My GOD in me.

How could I look to myself and claim any glory of my work? I can't! He is the fullness of this Glory and He is the Alef Tev, the Finisher of everything in my life. In the Presence of such a BIG BIG GOD, how could I look to my own tiny wisdom and claim my work? I can't! It's He and He alone!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Man looks to man's glory, to what he has or don't to judge them. If they are good enough for him. But in the presence of the Mighty God, each of us is actually nothing!!! We walk by His Grace and breath by His Breath. Even the wisdom are His Alone. He opens the eyes of man and you see something special that others didn't see. It's all about Him and He alone!!!

That is why, who am I? Nobody! What am I? Nothing! Only by His Grace, His Anointing, His Power, His Righteouness of God in me, that I become something. This something is Him, not me. But He moves fully in me that I become something. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, I thank You for loving this daughter of Yours so much!!! I am so honored!!! Thank You for the Open Floodgate of Heaven and Thank You for all the Goodness that You are pouring into My Life for me to reign through Christ Jesus!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS: Glory Glory!!! With the new man expressed not interested in me, the team that came to pull me down is not there this evening!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Holy Spirit, The Comforter

After months of trying draw out my blood, eating my brain, cursing with stroke and severe pain, and I am still alive and walking, ex decided to use Jc to trouble me. He distanced himself from her by staying on the pc whole day. When Jc did not receive much love from him, her desire of him grows. He knows that and use it to the fullness!

Jc was crying sadly when she came back to me yesterday. She even refuse my offer to hug her to give her comfort. When she finally had enough of the crying for daddy's love, she requested me to shift out of the house immediately. Her daddy had told her that for him to move back here, mummy must move out first.

Weekly, he has been breathing into her 'mummy has to move out first' when she wanted her daddy. He even promised her that when my name is out of the ownership, he will put hers in there. It's a security for her future!!! This is how he worked in her mind to kick me out of the house.

He on one end telling me that I am to stay till end of the year, while using spirits and Jc to do otherwise. This is the hypocrites nature of his. One end telling the lies and the other end doing something bad to make things work his ways!!!

I used to care for Jc a lot and would be painful when she, my beloved, said such to me. But Lord give me immunity to her comments that I registered nothing into my emotion and thus was not affected.

After she could not get me to move out, she cooled off with Lord through me shifting her focus away from the issue and created some actions, sound to make her laugh again. Glory to the Wisdom of God!!! She wanted me to comfort her to sleep.

This morning, she lean to me again to give her comfort and to get her ready for school. Her emotion was stabled by the time she was ready for school. Glory to Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba do not leave me alone with such bad notes. He comforted me that my blessings will be with me and I could shift over soon. He promised to transform me young again and promised me baby skin and with lightness and strength. He also promise me a beautiful and sexy body. I am looking forward to all that He is pouring into me. Glory Glory!!!

He is to bless me so much that I will not have any financial worries. I will be a good stewardess for His Kingdom purpose!!! His Promise is so good that I need not dwell in all the sadness devil pushed to my face!!! Glory Glory!!!

I am glad that I spend my time with the Lord. Without Him, my life would be bleak! At most the solution is to shift to my mum's 3-roomed apartment and look for a job somehow.

However, with all these years of fellowshipping with Lord, He is giving me a successful life. I will be lifted up high to do His Kingdom work, letting Him flow through me to do His Work. In return, He is a good Pay Master!!! He is going to richly bless me and turn me around that this old life and old age will flee!!! Glory Glory!!!

That is why I could not forsake Christ. He is my only source of help that the end result is good. I will not abort Him even after all the goodness come to me. He had shown me that pastors that moved away from Him was cursed by the devil and died withing 2-3 years of their moving away. I read about them and I am not going to be the stupid one to follow their footsteps!!!

That is why I could not remain in pride even when I am highly blessed for it's a sure fallen from Grace and from past experience of looking at ex, Su and others, when they fallen from Grace, it was not a small fall, devil will lead them away further and further into darkness that I do not want to walk this path too.

Lord opens my eyes to see each pitfall so that I could stay away from them. That is why all these great prosecution from spiritual end, from the authority end and from even my dearest end....main purpose is to get me off the Peace I have with Lord and thus I will not submit to their pulling me down. I rather look to Lord Jesus and His Abundance Grace and Free Gift of Righteousness!!!

That is why I need my future partner to be strong in the Lord so that He could help me pray for peace and we could pray for each other to lift each other up in the Lord!!! The bible said when 2-3 pray together, the power generated is great! So, when husband and wife prayed as one, no evil work could succeed in our lives. This is why I want a man who knows the Lord loves him a lot to be my future partner. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord Jesus, I thank You for Scarifying Your Body for mine at the Cross! I thank You for being my Lamb of God and You have taken all my bad that I could receive all Your Goodness! You died young so that I did not need to be old. I can receive Your Grace to be Young again and reign in Your Righteo usness!!! I thank You very much for Your Finished Work at the Cross that makes every Goodness available to me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord Jesus, Thank You that through You going back to Father, the God, You send Holy Spirit into my life so that I could be comforted even though I am being made to be alone, but I am not lonely. Glory Glory!!!! Amen Amen!!!!

Sunday, January 27, 2013

The Blessing of Abraham

Praise Jesus! Lord revealed to Pastor Prince that He is pouring the blessing of Abraham into the children of Abraham in New Creation Church!!! Glory Glory to Him!!! I have been waiting patiently and I am glad the time is here, esp my name is in this year! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!!

The blessing is first pouring into Israel and then next to His Spiritual Children. (1 Cor 15:46 'The Spiritual did not come first, but the natural, and after that the spiritual') Israel has been receiving rain after a 10 year of drought. Glory Glory!!! Israel is experiencing record rainfall like never before and Jerusalem even snow!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

From history, Israel will get blessed first and then the Spiritual one will get blessed. Lord said I am linked earthly, being having Jewish blood in me and in the Spiritual realm through Jesus Christ, grafted into the natural!!! Glory Glory!!!

My blood is of the Levi blood that is why Lord is rising me up as Him in the End Time!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! Surely healing going to break out in Singapore and all the afflicted will be glad!!! I am also waiting patiently for Lord to renew my body and my tummy is slimming down. My pants are getting loose and I hope it will not drop in public!!! :)

I have not look to wealth but Lord is blessing me greatly. These past few Sundays, He had been downloading from the Spiritual Realm all that He is going to bless me. I am happy!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The world is getting darker and darker and it's time for the Children of God to be Light of the World to let the sinner see that they need Jesus and only Jesus Christ alone could help them. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, I thank You for leading me to walk with You the past 5 years!!! I am glad that when I see nothing to wealth, statue, power, You are bringing me to be High and Mighty and Wealthy. Not by my own weak nature, but by Your Abundance of Grace and Free Gift of Righteousness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

I am glad that everything is coming to past. I am glad that I was shown a little of what true love is. I did not know I was condemned to rock bottom by ex that I don't even feel like doing the dating game. I just don't feel like doing much!!! However, this ray of Grace shown make me realise I am valuable as a woman. I realise this Grace could transformed into energy for life!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, thank You for showing me human form of Love. It let me understand Jesus freely given Love is even sweeter. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

You know what is coming against me and You let me enjoy such pure shown of love for me to rest in Jesus Love fully and not affect by the turmoil that devil tried to upset me in my life. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!! I thank You for all the Grace You have bestowed upon me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Love

Remember long ago when Lord told me to divorce ex? He said I did not know what is True Love! At that time, I was really clueless what He was talking about. This morning, while I just woke up and taking my shower, Lord download the lesson of Love to me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord showed me that Mr New Man, from reading my blog, and like me somehow, would from the name I posted here, given by Lord, to connect that to the name given by my parents. And from there identified who I am in picture and stage a meet-me-session through all the hoo haa of tracing me.

For some reason, what he done was exposed and my end got the dart shooting. The next day, appeared on my corridor was a man, who tried to see my state of mind from all the shooting. And the next 2 days I was put under observation.

Also through how Mr New Man drove and his emotion, Lord explained that as True Love. I know nothing about him yet he did all that just to meet me. The whole process is sweet and I still find it sweet when I recalled it. Never in my life have anybody (this refers only to the other 2 men in my life) do anything special for me except Mr New Man. I don't know if it will result in something or that is the end of it. But Mr New Man, thank you for the experience!!! God blessed you!!!

This also lead me to think of Jesus! Even before I knew Him, He died for me at the Cross and removed all my sins, indignation and transgression. Now I am made the Righteousness of GOD in Christ Jesus and Heaven is my home!!! Glory to Jesus!!!

Lord then let me know ex learnt how to please women by saying what they want to hear and do what they wanted to keep them happy and he gets his way. This is not true love, it just do for short period of time and after that, it's emptiness!!!

Why I was addicted to internet was because, after the honeymoon, when back home, he faced the pc all day! I was forced to face my pc all day too. (Lord transformed me to fellowship with Him whole day instead!!! Glory to Jesus!!!) If I had any question, he will turn to me and answer, otherwise, he faced his pc again.

When we cross path at home, he would do blocking the way and hugging. If he wanted some sex, he would be pulling/pushing me into the room and do it. It's all about him and him. I gave him total freedom, to look at girls on the road, to serve porno in my presence. But all these did not keep him happy. He was unfaithful in the dark, when I was obedient to him.

After I know Christ and was not listening to him fully, to let him have his way all the time, he threaten me to choose Christ or him. On the 2nd year, he decided that was enough and openly date other younger girls.

Between telling me how many percent love me and how many percent don't love me, Lord told me that he wanted the divorce and Lord prepared me for it in May and the actual process started in July that year! By Jan 2010, the divorce was finalised.

Lord let me see the difference between true love and no real love so that I could tell them apart. He said when He prosper me, ex would do a U-turn for the money sake and I am to reject him.

Anyway, having gone through the pain of having to choose Christ or man, I decided that my next man, if I am going to marry again, must be a Christian and knows about Jesus loves him. I do not want a war about Jesus at home and I don't want devil to use him to quarrel with me!

I could not forgo Christ because He is using me for His Coming Back and I have given my life for His Purpose. So, the man in my life must understand this and let me put Christ and His Commandment first.

Of course, in private life at home, then the man will be the head of the household. This is the thought of my heart, so I need a very understanding man to be my husband.

Having said all these, Mr New man, thank you for this experience, even though it just a less than 30mins drive. I treasured your free give of love and if there is any future to it, let's talk it in the future! God Bless you!!!

Abba Father, I thank You for a precious lesson of Love. I could now see clearly and now I know put through the fire of time, true love remains while lies exposed. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Friday, January 25, 2013

The Life of Ruth

Today, as darkness tried to pin me down with fear, Lord gives me the story of Ruth to comfort me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

It's really very amazing the path of Righteousness that Lord has laid upon me to walk since 5 years ago. Glory Glory!!! The bible says that Blessing comes upon the Righteous. It's not by power, it's not by might but by His Spirit. Pastor Prince stressed that blessing for the undeserved, unmerited and unearned. I am one!!!

Born into the family of average income, we are the lowest in mum side of relatives. We are always reminded to bow down to all the relatives by my grandma. I learn submissive from a young age.

Come to Lord Jesus Christ, I learn a greater submission. It's all about Him and nothing about me. The bible said that rich man, poor man, you are all just a breath!!! When I realised this breath is also a Grace from God, I realised I am nothing in Him!!!

As I see myself nothing in Him, Lord pours Great Authority, Great Power and Great Status on me. I used to question why me and not one of the pastors in church, but now I realised that asking Lord why me is also a form of pride!!! In Christ, I have to flow by His Grace and not the pride of the devil!!!

As it's Lord doing His Work for the 2nd coming purpose, I easily surrender myself to His Glory and let Him take over! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I learned of the New World Order and it's all about control, I never once thought Singapore, such a tiny nation is on it. But I am greatly wronged!!! I was lead unknowingly into the edge of it to taste it fiery. As it did not lead to great convenient, I could still live with it since life is still as usual.

But recent mum case, I realise it is a whole new world that we by some distance blood that we don't even contact of, get into these seriousness that mum's life is at risk!!! Out of seeing her at the mercy of it, out of all the following and tracing, how would I know Lord would play such a joke with the purest soul of mine!!!

He leads me to resist the devil for years, even the kong tau, the Chinese curses, He also fully delivered me that whatsoever they set on my life, now even to the train stations, the train, the bus, the road I walk, they set once they found out where I go. But Lord is with me and fully delivered me!

I went through can of worms with ex that even Lord wants to return him to me, I could have to consider as he knows how to pray for curses! He is with the devil!!!

Now, I just have a taste of new light, a bigger Pharaoh is coming on me. I was fearful from last night to this morning, but Lord give me the story of Ruth as I trust in He does not give me a spirit of fear, but of Love, of Power, of sound mind and self control! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I used to believe that walking in the night is fine as long as there is no one around! That is why my soul is disturbed with those people aiming their darts at me. haha...as if David was playing songs to comfort King Saul while King Saul  threw javelin at him!!!

Ruth's husband died of sickness, she a moabite, was under the curse of her nation. But as she followed her mother-in-law back to Israel, and trust in their God, and proclaiming favour in her reaping of food, as allowed by the old law set by God for the poor. She met Boaz and her life was changed forever!!! This is the story Lord placed in my heart to tell me to wait upon Him. Lord Jesus is my Redeemer!!! Glory Glory!!!

I decided not to care about what's coming. Whatever it is, the Abundance Grace and His Righteousness had given me to reign in life. I shall flow in it and let Lord brings whatsoever He wants me to have to me. Glory Glory!!!

Life is too short to think what devil nor power wants to do to me!!! Not that I will have a short life, but Lord blessing is for me to live long life!!! It's more of if the one with me willing to live long life and receive the goodness of His Blessings and live a Peaceful life by His Grace as He is the Prince of Peace. I shall receive His Shalom Peace to reign!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba, my Beloved Daddy, I know what YOU planned for me is good!!! I shall receive and walking in them by Your Grace! Amen Amen!!!

PS (25/01/2013 21:27): Praise Jesus! After they see no emotional changes on my side, they mellowed down to talk divorced woman can rent a 1 room 1 living room to continue living. They don't know Lord has better plan for me! Thank You, Jesus! You are my Abundance!!!

Thursday, January 24, 2013

The New Man

Tuesday was an scary and yet wonderful time for me. I don't know if you like to have traced by someone. I not only have that when I went to mum but also another different group on the way home.

I did not know I was followed till I saw this lady looking in that direction of me with a purpose. I asked the Holy Spirit what should I do and I was told to get off the bus at a certain turn.

Originally, I planned to take another bus home but I found like someone looking at me. Then Lord told me to take the cab. I saw a cab but it speed over super fast. Not long later, I found another cab on the second lane. The way this cab slice the first lane and sailed through, I could sense the sharpness and the precise mental skill of the driver. It landed smoothly by my side.

The talking with the driver, when he mentioned certain thing, I know who he is working for. But there is something special about him. The way he talked is not like any other taxi driver. I forgot I am on a cab, it was so comfy to sit and talked to him. His driving skill is good, I enjoyed the ride.

I was drunk in this special atmosphere that time flies. When approaching my home, he suddenly slowed down on the 3rd lane, I wondered what happened but it was a smooth transition that I do not find any shakiness. And he switched lane to 1st lane and slow down the riding.

The way he talked was with caring kindness that I had not even encountered with ex. My destination was reached and that short second encounter sent my soul with a certain joy that lasted till the next day. I don't know why I feel so but it is as if romance without the sexual notion.

It was the next day that Lord told me he is the new man. It is weird, someone who is checking on me and he knows much about me and I know nothing of him except what Lord told me. And he supposed to be the new man. Well, the first encounter was good, I enjoyed!

What an encounter!!! Thank You, Abba for loving me. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS (25/01/2013): Hmmm...not easy to know a man from the system. The dating is yet to start but today in hospital, arrow already started shooting about why he like me and question about the distant from near home to hospital. I seem to sense sourness in their talk! I even had someone sitting at the entry to the wards, observing me as I walked in.

Hiaz, even before starting, I already drag having to meet all these people whom they worked together. How am I to begin? Is everything about me going to be the talk in the hospital???

They also mentioned that I have to be a good daughter-in-law for the mother-in-law. (Phew!!! so many law dump on me even before anything begin!!!) He must be very precious to them!!! I wonder if they are related as they are so anxious for him!!!

Lord, is this really the right match as You have told me?

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Door of HOPE

I for once in my life, do the right decision to believe in whatever good is said about Jesus Christ! Glory Glory!!!

Previously, there were many traps set by the devil to lead me down but each time, Lord delivered me with simple instructions and I obeyed and I got out of the way of the trap. Glory to His Door of Hope!!!

Innocently, I am still meditating His Word and finishing Daniel and left 2 more books to go before I complete this bible meditation round 1. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!! Simply by not caring about the world but care about fellowshipping with Lord Almighty, the Only One important in my life. Glory Glory! There are 2 traps that are laid and enemies are happy that they got me and mum individually. But Lord's Door of Hope opens His Way again. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

When I started walking with Lord some 5 yrs ago, I didn't know all these traps will come. But He is Faithful what I can't see He could. What I don't have the answer, He is the Answer!!! Glory Glory!!! There is always a way out as Jesus said He is the Way and He is the Door!!! Whosoever trust in Him will live eternity!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Situation I see dead end and suddenly, Lord opened His Door of Hope and He holds the Key of David and also the Key of Death and Hell. Surely, What He shut nobody could open and what He opens no one could shut!

Long ago, David was heading the same direction and King Saul who was pursuing him was on the other side of the mountain, in the same direction. As they approaching to meet, Lord opened the Door of David and Saul U-turned and David moved ahead worshipping Lord Jesus Goodness!!! Hallelujah!! Amen Amen!!!

His Solution is easy, whatever support that needs to come with it, He supplies. It is so easy, I just have to move to the next step with His Instruction. He leads me out this way and forever, it will be so. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Man thought they are smart and tried to find a way out in the darkness. They thought they have a way out but usually it results in more darkness. Only Lord could open a Way to His Glorious Light that no no one could deny. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Su had fallen so much to submit to man in the worst of moment but I only look to Lord and He and He only. He saw my faith and delivered me. Where Su is so afraid to offend man, their feeling, what they think!!!

Who is greater? God or man? How to access to Lord if submitted to man? Even Paul in the darkest prison sang Praise to Lord and the prison door locks were broken!!!

I saw a few prophesy of 2013 and what  is painted for the world is great darkness, what is painted for Lord is Abundant Grace, Faith, Great Blessing! Who you trust as the path get harder to walk will depends on your decision. To look to Jesus or to the world and try to find a resting place yourself.

I rather look to the Lord, His Economy never fails me but the world is not 100% infallible. I am glad He is my Abba Father and He really take Good care of me. I might be in the world but I am not of the world. I might see darkness but always there is a way out through the Door of Hope!!! I was shaky for a while to see mum going downhill. As I trust in the Lord, and stand still in Him, finally a Door is opened!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Hallelujah!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

GOD's Grace

I have never see this so clearly till today! I was looking at Pastor Prince short video sermon on 'How Believers fall from Grace'. This is the longest lesson that took me so many years to try to apply God Grace on parenting.

By nature, I am a protective mum. I would warn Jc all the pitfalls I could think of and what kind of life she should go after etc...I know all have to go by Grace of Jesus but I just could not put into practice and still looking for the Door of Hope! This sermon was on 17th April 2011 and at that time, I was not able to receive the fullness of the message.

Today, as I watched it again, it's like the Door of Hope has been opened and I could see it clearly!!! Glory Glory!!!!

Daily, as we walk the clock of the day, we are King and Priest in action. Whoever you meet, you will talk somehow. What you decree and declare will come into place. And when you declare something negative, that's a curse being placed. And when you declare trusting God Grace that this thing shall be done, you are blessing the situation.

For so many moons, I want Jc to be a hardworking girl, who focus on her study. But I keep mentioning what she is doing over and over again. It was as if I am placing a curse on her action and she manifested in that curse!!! And I am unhappy over it, unknowingly, I am the one who by law, give power to sin to be happened. I finally got this! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

No wonder the bible said that regardless you are rich or poor, you are just a breath; and this breath is given by GOD, which is His Breath!!! So, precisely, we are nothing as we operate by His Breath! Really, we are made of mud and when this Breath is gone, back to the ground we became. Amazing!!!

We, who are mud if declare mud, that means by our own strength, own knowledge, or own will power, we are activating mud into motion. This is the fall of the world that we trusted in for pride, status and power!!! This is what the bible means fallen from Grace!!!

Law give power to SIN into action. When you, the King and Priest, commanded mud into action, SIN manifested as mud is the curse of the ground. Thus giving strength, opening the door for darkness to come in for manifestation.

It is when we see nothing of ourselves and of our related beings and start looking to the Grace of God for the manifested Grace into our lives and into our family members life that God Grace could operate and be active in our beings. That is when we are transformed from Glory to Glory, by His Grace in action. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

I have been trusting the goodness in Jc to be activated but I have by my King and Priest power, given by the Almighty God, my Abba Father, keep condemning her mud behaviour. In condemning, I opened door for bad to manifest into action. And I could not understand why. Today I see it clearly!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, I thank You for opening this Wisdom to come into my life, for me to see clearly where I have gone wrong. Surely I will by Your Grace, be shifted to give Grace to Jc and to whoever I meet in future! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

The Shutting of a Door

After waiting for 5 weeks, finally the 'treatment' of my mum is finally coming to an end. Praise Jesus that soon, I need not daily travel to the hospital to pray protection and restoration on her. Hallelujah!!!

With dipping her fingers into her own dung and not fully clean it for 2 days, they confirmed she is senile. With this, they decided to call us for a meeting for the purpose of discharging her back to us. They even discourage us from sending her to any senior care center!!!

They are now finally sure mum would not be a threat to them and has decided to stop having her in the hospital anymore. I finally can breath a sign of relief after 5 weeks of non-stop praying healing and protection for her. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!! Thank You, Lord Jesus! Thank You for shutting the door!!! Amen Amen!!!

These 2 weeks, Lord has been transferring His Spiritual Gifts to me! I believe this year is His Coming back as New Creation Church has shifted into The Star, at Star Vista. Surely, the time is ripe for His Next Step of exaltation of Himself and His Goodness!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Last Sunday, through pure spiritual leading, Lord led me to meet a Filipino man, whom Lord had led to Singapore to grow in Him. Hallelujah!!! Lord let me be the delivery girl to tell him of his calling. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord is pleased with my waiting upon Him. He said He will be coming to be exalted through me soon. I am pleased!!! Through these 5 weeks of visiting hospitals, I see the multitude of people bound by bondage and infirmity spirits and are being helpless and are lost sheep without a shepherd. It is time for Lord to rise up to attract them to go under His Wings to be free of all the works of the devil!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord opening of doors for me is good. Time does seem bad. Rosy is looking forward to February and ex is planning how to redo this home to cater to their needs.  Lord told me he has got his eviction order on me. And Lord is not waiting for him to bully me! His blessing surely is with me. I believe in faith to move out before all these happens. Since mum is delivered, next will be me. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Jc is happily flowing in her daddy's plan but I told her thing that can be seen might not be and things that are yet to be seen does not mean it is not there. It's her daddy's plan against mine in the Lord. Surely greater is He in me than he that is in this world!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Rosy previously lost her battle to me due to Jesus Wisdom. Even Jc said her English is lousy! She must have think if ex is able to get me out, it would be her victory. But she did not know Jesus has long ago purchased my victory with His Death at the Cross and His Precious Blood of Jesus! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord said His Blessing will turn my Prospect in ex highly desirable and I am believing Him that it shall be so and so be it! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The time is here to shut their door on each other and to reopen my door with him again. At this point my heart is not yet desirable with this arrangement but I am following the leading of Lord and obey as I should. He could see the future, I can't, I just trust what He planned is Good! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Even Jc's heart is toggling between them and me. She has took me as the stranger but she is warmer now. Glory to Jesus! She is more responsible with her life too!!! Abba has transformed her to a better girl!!! Surely she will shine for His Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

As the life of mine and my family is shifting into place, like gone through a few earthquakes of our lives to reach the final ground of joining. Only Lord could do such shifting to make things good in His Plan! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

The time to see Him rise up high is close. What He shuts no one could open. What He opens no one could shut. If Kingdoms rise and fall just by His Movement, anything smaller is easy yoke in Him. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I just sit under His Wings and let His Plan be Exalted Greatly with Him in my midst! Glory Gory!!! Amen Amen. He is in control of everything in my life and I trust His Grace will pull it through. No man nor devil could have a say in what He wants to do. I agree with Him in all His Plan for me. The Agreement of Two shall brings it through. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord said He has downloaded the Spirit of David in me and I saw a Royal Blue liquid overflow me in Sunday worshipping. He has given me His Sword and His Mana. Surely, the time for His Return is here!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Update 16/1/2013: I am too naive to believe that they have stopped their work on my mum. I went to hospital to find a worsen her! How could I trust in the goodness of the evil one. Their heart is still in the killing. They relaxed all her body so much that mum does not feel like taking her meal! I had to pray to Lord to pull her life together that she was able to drink her milo. Sad, Sad!

Friday, January 11, 2013

The Curse of This World

When I learned of Di Zhi Gui, which I later realised is from the book of Proverbs, from those who learned and experience in China, the teacher said that how much you punch out, you are going to get the same amount of energy back.

Lord in the bible also proclaimed that whoever touches his children and his land, they will be cursed too. I have been looking at US when they come against Israel, their own land suffered and money was lost!

When news reported of great lost, I was wondering what happened. It was now Lord revealed to me that Di Zhi Gui ever said, stolen/borrowed/cheated money is curse money. Whatever one used of cursed money to invest, as they are not self earned, there is a curse, as such, the investment will go down the drain. It was after so long that Lord revealed to me. Hallelujah!!!

Jews had been dispersed in the whole world and no one knows who they are except the Almighty God Himself. I did saw a death of someone in the news and at that time, it puzzled me the stage of him. Then I saw another death as the curse bounced back. Then I realised the Heavenly Law applies everywhere, not just in China!

It is with this Di Zhi Gui learning that I learned that nobody could know your crime, however small but the Almighty God, Himself knows. Whoever bully or fools or cheated or borrowed or any small or big crime, one may thought they covered well, but what they don't know is the Almighty God's Eyes is on them.

At the right time, when the bounce back happened, the same amount of suffering will be returned. This is what the teacher of Di Zhi Gui taught and there are people in China who experienced the bounced back and went to stage to report it.

United Kingdom was once a great power but because they touched the children of Israel, the Sun set on their kingdom. Rome attacked Israel and their empire was no more. In the current world, we saw US coming against the land of God and they are not as mighty as they were 5 years ago.

I am a child of God and so is my mum. Lord revealed we have the blood of His Beloved. Those who touches us, I know the bounce back day will come on the prosecutor. As the Di Zhi Gui said, when the bounce back yet to happen, it only means the ancestor blessing has yet to finish. Once it ends, the curse will start. If a mighty Kingdom could fall, anything lesser than that could fall too. History showed that! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!

For no reason, adversary came on us and they are gladly happy. But this is what my bible said:

Psalm 92:7-9
'That though the wicked spring up like grass and ALL evil doers Flourish, they are DOOMed to be destroyed forever.

But, You, LORD, are on HIGH Forever.

For Behold, your Adversaries, O LORD, for Behold, Your enemies shall Perish; all evildoers shall Scattered.'

The day will come when they could not do evil anymore and all their evildoing will be exposed forever. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

The Key of David

Pastor Prince had revealed on Sunday that the theme Lord has given him regarding New Creation Church, Singapore and it's members are from Isaiah 22:22,

'And the key of David I shall lay upon His Shoulder, so He will open and no one will shut, and He will shut and no one will open.'

This is what Revelation 3:7-13,
 7 'And to the messenger of the congregation in Philadelphia you must write:
"The Holy One, the True One, says these things,
'The One Who has the Key of David,
the One Who opens and no one will shut and closes and no one opens:'

8 I know your deeds. Behold! I have caused a door to open in front of you and no one is able to shut it. For you have little power but you kept My Word and you did not deny My Name.

9 Behold! I am causing to come forth from the assembly of Satan those who say they are Jewish, but they are not, they are lying. Watch! I shall make them so that they will come and fall down to pay homage before your feet and they will know that I have loved you.

10 Because you observed My lesson of Patient Endurance, I shall protect you from the time of testing, which is about to come upon the Whole Inhabited World, to those who dwell upon the Earth.

11 I am coming quickly: you must steadily hold what you have, so that no one could take your crown.

12 The one who conquers, I shall make him a pillar in the Sanctuary of My God and he would Not go outside the Santuary and I shall write upon him the name of My God and the name of the city of my God, the  new Jerusalem, the one which descends from heaven from My God, and will also write My new Name.

13 The one who have ears must now listen to what Spirit is saying to the congregations."'

All these wrote about Lord Jesus gloriously returns to Earth once again to do His Miracles and His Signs and Wonders!!! Glory Glory!!!

My heart is full of joy to hear that He is finally coming back to heal the sick!!!

This world is going haywire! There are people that thought they are the controller of life and they could sip it off as they wish. No wonder Lord prophesy that He would go into hospital to empty the sick beds. He needs to do that! I finally understood. There are many specialist that don't know what they are doing and holding high horse as if they know everything. Lord will show them who is the master of life. God or devil!!!

I am appalled at what I have seen and learned!!! I didn't know devil is in full operation in many areas in this world, but God said in Psalm 47 that,

'2 For the Lord Most High excites terror, awe, and dread; He is a Great King over All the Earth.'

'7 For God is the King of all the Earth, sing praises in a skillful psalm and with understanding.'

'8 God Reigns over the nations; God sits upon His Holy Throne.'

As the End Time is approaching, I am seeing more and more darkness in operations to control peoples life. I am glad that Lord is the God Most High! When things turn darkness, the God of Light will shines through! He is the Way and the Door of Hope! He holds the Key of David. He could opens Door of Light into our darken world to lead us out of the situation! Glory Glory!

This Key of David in full operation spiritually is very important. Many people are bounded by bondage in their life; the python has coiled around many people. But Lord sharper than 2 edged sword shall slay it off from people's life to free them all. Glory Glory!!! Be it man who aided or spiritual bondage. 

Glory Glory that I have the One, who is the God Most High and He says in His Psalm 91 that 'he who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty, [whose power no foe can withstand].

I could see the time is near, from the evil one tried to pin me down and kill my mum, I know His Manifestation is near. Otherwise, they would not be so frighten!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Pastor said that to know what God is doing, we just need to see what devil is doing and we will know what God is doing!!! I praise Him for His Coming Back to heal this sick world. It's not about animal or the land must be save. It's the people, the mankind, the human race that must be saved.

I thank Lord Jesus for His Finished Work at the Cross!!! I shall not be afraid of the terror of the nigh, nor of the arrow(the evil plots and slanders of the wicked) that flies by day, nor of the pestilence that stalks in darkness, nor of the destruction and sudden death that surprise and lay waste at noonday.

I thank You, Lord that a thousand may fall at my side, and ten thousand at my right hand, but it shall not come near me. Only a spectator shall I be [myself inaccessible in the secret of the Most High] as I witness the reward of the wicked.

Because I have made the Lord my refuge, and the Most High my dwelling place, there shall no evil befall me, nor an plague or calamity come near my property. In Jesus Name, by the Authority of Jesus, by His Completed Work at the Cross, by His Blood that shield and protect me and each of my family members, I proclaimed! Glory to Jesus! Amen Amen!