Money Talk

Lord has been dealing with this area of my life for a few times. Even though I passed to Lord to help me forgive them to have the peace, but Lord keep bringing it back and even want me to face it face on. After some consideration, I must admit they did do some right.

My journey started with long ago in m4m when I was lead to know how they who in charge of this country, how have they been earning a lot. And this lead to my unhappiness as looking at different level of people, I see suffer. This is what keep me from getting my peace.

I see the leaders in NCC and even others looked at them with praise. Every time I look at that, I would have unhappiness arise in me. Lord always lead me into the 80s where Singapore economy was at a standstill and govt wrote in the papers what should they do next.

Slowly, things were privatised and slowly, economy was changing and even though now is a lot better than the stand still situation, people were still complaining about cost.

Recently, I read about people worry about the medical cost. Well, I could share something here regarding my mum almost 1 year and 2 hospitals, done quite a few x-rays, a brain operation, stay in semi dependent ward for quite some months, plus the costly medical bills,

The total cost, after medisave of mum was used up and ours deducted by a few hundreds, the cost was overall an acceptable of $5 thousands. 2nd sis had bought the Medishield for my mum and thank God that she bought it!!! It came in handy and helped us with lots of the payments. Govt subsidy on the hospital stay in the 'C' class is good and we didn't pay a lot for that. Thank God for the subsidy given to the poorer patients!!!

Overall, the saying of can get old but cannot be sick is overly overplayed that fear created in many people heart unnecessary. The govt has a good plan to help the people who do not have the ability to pay. In fact, the cost of wheelchair was highly subsidied too!!!

Country wise, they have done pretty well that even foreigner think this is a good place to come to work and some even choose to stay here!!! Comparatively, we heard of other countries going bankrupt, so, thank God that our country the govt is still sound and have policies that works!!!

Even though cost is going up, there are many subsidy in different areas to keep cost down. So overall, they have done a good job. This I must praise them that they do lead Singapore well.

Things are changing in this world but overall Singapore is still on a better side of things then others. So, in this sense, our govt must be given a pat on their shoulder. To see they worry till their hair grow white so much, we do have to appreciate them.

Sometime, we do need to look at things from a different angle and then everything will be alright. I have been watching television lately and there is a question that ask 'what is life?'

Actually, I also don't know what is life but with what the Lord is leading me to walk, I guess that's life!!!

Lord, I thank You for leading me to open my heart again to think of the good thing in life in stead of looking at the bad. I praise You for leading me into Peace. Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen

God is Good

Abba Father really is a very Good God!!!

Since 2008 till now, I have been waiting for His Blessing of Abraham that every day of my life spent here is an endurance and lots of Patient. To hear that I need to stay here some more is like a big rock sink to the bottom of sea!!!

I didn't expect Abba Father would preach 1 whole sermon to show me Abraham waited for 24 years and Joshua and Caleb, even though they believe in Lord's blessing of Milk and Honey Land, but the whole Israelite congregation disbelieve. And for them disbelieve in God Goodness, they had to walk in the desert another 40 years!!!

So Lord is telling to be patient and endure somemore!!! Somehow, it's a comfort that I need not wait as long as them, so in it is a comfort. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I felt so loved by Him to tell all because He wanted to tell me!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!! I feel so privilege to be so loved by Him. Lord knows I need comfort and He came to hug me so warmly!!! I felt so love by Him!!!

So far, He has did a few major demonstration in my life; for a Almighty Power God loving me so much, I felt so honored!!!

Thank You, Abba!!!

The Demand is Much but Workers Few

Through the sermons of Ps Prince being put in different networks and television around the world, a large group of Grace impacted Children of God are being raised!!! When one is washed by the Pure Grace of God's Mercy, the dirt of the legalism of Law is what they cannot take in anymore!!!

In USA, there is this great movement of people looking for a Grace Church to House them. After trying in their own way to come up with something, a great hunger is created in them all!

Pastor Prince 2013 around a few States of America is the result of these people have a great hunger that each of his conferences was so fully packed to the surprise of church and those who went!!! Suddenly everybody became a celebrity of some kind that people were rushing to tell them the miracle LORD did in their lives!!!!

Recent weeks, Lord impressed Ps Prince that USA have such a group of Grace impacted Children of God and to branch out to them. Being on a quick growth on church end, from 2006 - 1300 members to now 7 yrs later 30 thousands members, church has not rise enough leaders to handle the expansion.

Now every many States n Towns are calling Ps Prince to plant a church in their town this seeking for a church hunger has reached it peak high that people is even consider shifting house to be near the 1st church NCC planted in Dallas!!! Overnight, the comment in Facebook reached thousand plus.

When Lord said in 2007, when the bible study was closing and Ps Prince said the workers few but demand a lot, how many respond to the calling about now is the time to build up and be ready to be use by God in greater capacity? There is no urgency in these 4 years, even the build up is slow!

Now, 7 years later, the demand is great but I wonder if church have enough Pastors to go around! I can't imagine when Lord 2nd Coming is here and the demand to be near His Glory is even stronger!!! Church will have a headache!

But Lord through me has been encouraging faithful Children of God to walk near Jesus for Him to use them. I wonder how many has responded the calling?? If you have not, it's time you get serious with God and let Him use you!!! The future demand is going to be even greater!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!!

A better Understanding of Ex

Last evening, when the Mc Delivery came, I was reminded of the last order of McDonald Delivery by ex in my previous home.

Ex ordered the dinner and the wrong food was delivered but some of the food co-incident! As we were hungry, we took those to eat but ex did not had his food and I did not have my fries! When ex complained to Mc, he just said he didn't get his dinner!!! As the other family also complain about their order, ex assumed everything will be well taken care of. But when the food came, more were given and the delivery guy asked for replacement but ex flatly said No!!!

I told ex the delivery guy will suffer for the excesses but ex said it's their problem! Last night, I guess is the boss, as he was not in the normal delivery boy uniform but an elderly man! He said something that reminded me about ex's order that I felt so bad that I tried calling Mac to see if I can get to them to pay back whatever ex had caused!!!

This morning, while thinking about the incident again, Lord gives me wisdom to know him better!!! Hallelujah!!!!

Long ago, while we were still dating, his UK boss came over and we went for dinner!!! Ex told me not to bring my bag aka wallet and I was puzzled!!! Then I realised he wanted to force his boss to foot the bills!!!

This McDelivery was his same nature to let others pay for it and he got it free. And this lead me to see the same nature come into play in taking over our marital home without paying for my share of the profit, which is allowed in the divorce! He even want to the extend of NOT returning my CPF money!!! He said he is heart pain over it!!!

In dating and marriage, he will do his part of the payment but he is not one who allow wife to have the cake and eat it! He wanted a fair share of the expenses. But on divorce, he make sure to maximize  his benefit in the deal!!! I saw his love of money in motion to his benefit!!! It's a nature of guarding self interest from his younger days as a street kid!!!

I was wondering in my divorce on why he was so ruthless!!! Now I finally got the whole picture of him!!! Hiaz!!!

For the Last Move of God

Recent years, Lord had always bring me to people He want to rise up to share what He lead me through so that they could do the same and be use by Him. After watching Sid Roth this week, I am impressed to share it here as a summary of my walk with Him.

How as a child of God does Lord wants us to fellowship with Him? As John said, he must decrease so that Jesus could increase. And as I always said, in the book of Psalm, there is such a verse that no matter you are rich or poor, you are just a breath! And even this breath is a gift from God so we are Nothing as in we don't look to self but let our body, soul, spirit be given to Lord in us and let Him come through to operate through us.

As such, we are to cast away our pride and even to the degree of any form of self righteousness against any man to The Lord and become empty in us so that Lord can be everything in you! As long as you still consider about self, you have not surrender yourselves to The Lord!!!

Listen to what Lord preached in New Creation is about the outer court fellowship with The Lord as He is in the Holy of Holy. This is the 1st step of getting to know The Lord and How Much HE loves you!!! I listened sermons from 2000 to current, even though I was saved in 2006.

After you cast yourself to The Lord, always pray to Him to come in you and come through you to lead you in all that you are impressed to do. 

Next step is to finish reading the bible. As you by Grace pick up to read to enjoy fellowship with The Lord in the Holy Place! It's about reading with understanding from all that you have listened. As the bible has many you must do even in the New Testament, so you must realise it's not about you doing but it's Him through you, who is the One doing. 

After you have finished reading the bible, then you can start meditating verse by verse. This is in the Holy of Holy talking with The Lord His Words and He will talk to you as the Inner Man speaking.

So far, He led me to start with book of Psalms and Proverb. Then to the New Testament and then the Old Testament. 

Also worship Him daily and pray in the spirit as invitation to Him to pray through you! This will edifying self and Lord will lead you to rise up in Him. 

Why leaning to Him is important? As Pastors or Leaders of any capacity, you will have chance to minister to people and when you let The Lord in you to speak through you, then you will be able to speak the right word at the right moment and right time!!! Personally, I had spoken to pastor that lean on their own knowledge to speak and it is a waste of time talking to them as they did not speak with the Lord witnessing in me. 

But Personally, when The Lord speak through me, the receiver have a inner knowing and agree with what was spoken. Lord wants each of us to lean on Him and not to our own fresh. Have no confidence of self and let Him speak through! He knows what the person we are speaking to need but we don't know! So, only Him could speak to their Heart!!!

This is the Last Movement of God for signs and wonders to be shown in Great Multitude and only when we let Him Come in us and Come through us that He is able to use us for His Glory!!! Even when Glory are seen, we are to realise it's Him and He alone. We play no part in it; we are just a vessel for Him to come through!!! Glory Glory!!!

I pray that you will benefit from this post and start your closer walk with The Lord!!! There is no such thing as no time as when you are traveling somewhere, this is free time to fellowship with Lord!!! While you waiting for something, this also free time to fellowship with Lord. It just a matter if you bother about talking to Him or not!!!

Of course, He is a Good Pay Master and if you give Him time, you will not face lack!!! I have spent 7 years with Him and glad to testify I am still financially sound!!! And mind you, I do not have a job to earn some money!!! It's all freely given by Him or prepared by Him long ago.

Su didn't face any lack in those years she walk with me and The Lord! But she had left long ago and occasionally, she is still tight of money!!! 

So you see, Lord is good when we walk closely with Him!!! As you can see from the bible too, those who are with Him, even in remote place, they have food to eat till satisfied!!! So, walking closely to Jesus is good!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Jesus Finished Work

After so many years of Training n suffering all form of sicknesses attacks, I finally understand why the bible put so many stories to tell us what Jesus had done at the Cross and whatever it was not said, He Himself at the Cross is the Fullness of the Answer! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!

Why Jesus had to bow His Head at the Cross? We are created in the Image of God in all His Goodness! But darkness in this world do not like that. In many times of what I am suffering, darkness tried to push my head down and bend my shoulder! I thank Jesus for His Redemption!!! Glory Glory!!!

I thank Jesus was still alive after the Judgment of God by His Holy Fire!!! Many a time each day, darkness tried to suck my life away that without Jesus Finished Work at the Cross, I would be long gone!!!

Why Jesus has to shade His Blood and water at the Cross and to Hang on the Cross from 9am to 3pm? Many a time, my blood was sucked so much that I looked so pale and bloodless. My body and brain fluid was sucked so much that I am always so dried up and needed lots of water!!! Thank to Holy Spirit, He is my River of Running Water!!!

Why in the bible shows so many different form of death? Darkness tried many ways to take my life away that I thank Lord at the Cross and in many stories in the bible shows us that in Christ, death is defeated!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Why Jesus went to heal the man with many spirits? He is telling me that no matter how many spirits, be it in any form, He could still heal as the Name of Jesus is above All names!!! Glory Glory!!!

Why Jesus showed that skin disease can be healed even without Him being seen physically or in any location!!! One way darkness tried to prevent me to go church service is to manifest ugliness on me so that I could not walk out of the house!!! But thank to Jesus, He is with me and is the Present Help in all my needs!!!

Many a time, my soul is severely attack that darkness want me to be too dumb to pray to The Lord, but Lord showed me that a cry to Him lead Him remember His Promise to Father Abraham and rescued me out of the bondages!!!

Why Lord Jesus show in the Mt of Transfiguration that He is talking to Moses and Elisha? He is telling us that no matter you sleep and exit this world to go to The Lord or you arise and being led to the Heaven, you are still alive and healthy!!! There is no death in Christ as Jesus had conquered death for us!!! That's why He is Holding the Key of Hell and Death that we need not worry at all! All things are under His Grace and He uses darkness to let us, His Children, see the Glory Light of Him!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

In Psalm 47, Lord tell us He is King over this Earth! So everything is within His Control and He uses us to show the world that He is God!!!

Satan might think he has power on this earth but Lord holds the Keys!!! Even in Tribulation, it is just an exercise of the Spiritual Faith to be Strengthen in His Goodness!!! In Due Time, He will shut fully the Doors and they cannot disturb the children of God anymore!!!

Many a time, we might think that with age, we might get this or that disease but actually, it's all man made!!! Darkness uses evil man to speak and let them manifest to harm man!

That's why Jesus need to come down to Earth to show us in Him, we have the Righteousness of God and He had been Judged for all our transgression! He was bruised for our guilt and iniquities; the Chastisement Peace and Well Being for us was upon Him, and with the STRIPES that wounded Him, we are Healed and Made Whole!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Hope - High Expectation of Good

Morning, reader! This morning, I am impressed to write about Hope.

Jesus Christ came down to earth to carry our transgression, iniquities and guilt for each of us to look to His Finished Work and have a Hope of Good!

Many a time, each of us went through different trails. The path of the Righteous shall reign in life. How you look to Christ is important! There is deliverance in Christ Jesus!

You are looking at one who has been through many spiritual attacks all these years since 2008. Why am I surviving and still posting here! How my life goes on from all those trials? The word of God has power, it is sharper than 2 edged sword, diving soul and spirit, bones and marrows! This is the only Truth that is the Life Line for survival!!! Glory Glory!!!

Life is not as bleak as the problem you face each day! In Christ is where all the answers of deliverance! Even all things are taken from you, the Joy of The Lord brings deliverance!

How did Lord deliver Pastor Mark out of his 1.6 million of debts and gave him 5 millions more! It is all started with him thanking Lord for what he had instead of looking to what he didn't have. In his sadness, he cried to The Lord and worshipped Him,the Beautiful One!!!

Pastor Prince always mentioned the cried of the Israeli in bondage of the Egyptian went all the way to the Ears of God and He remembers His Promise to Father Abraham and delivered the children of Israel!!!

Our tears are not wasted as Jesus tears of blood and water in Gethsemane has Redemption Quality and He always hears us as we, who believed in Him, He is so closed to us that a whisper, He heard too!!! Glory Glory!!!

My Love, My Beloved, you are not an orphan but you are well loved by Abba Father!!! His Throne of Mercy, for things we did wrongly and His Grace, to enable whatever we cannot, but He Could and Would!!!

Surely whosoever approach the Throne of Grace and Mercy shall not be disappointed. He is such a Loving Father!!! We are His Church and He is our Abba Father!!!

Look to Jesus at the Finished Work at the Cross!!! I am so glad the Jesus was still alive after the Judgment of all our sins and sicknesses and destructions!!!

Recently they tried to put me to sleep but, thank Lord that He was alive after all the judgement that I could claim His Deliverance!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Even though going to church there is a corporate anionting, Lord do not wait till that to delivers! He is a faithful God that whenever you are, as you look to Him with your Spiritual Eyes, deliverance is the Present Need of Help!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Jesus healed Broken Heart

Was thinking of Sid Roth Online TV that I have not consciously follow ever since I move to mum place. This afternoon I went to watch and was healed of a broken heart. The invited guest was saying that the meaning of broken is violently shattered.

I was in this blank mood for a long time that I know. Many a time, it kept me down. Even though I know Abba Father loves me much, there was not much a joy in it. Somehow, the divorce worsen it that I just flow along could never thought how to get out of it.

Just now, I was prayed for my violently shattered heart to be restored to wholeness and a sense of stability flow into me! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Abba Father, I pray that you who read this blog, if you have a broken heart, Father, by the Grace of Jesus, I speak Grace Grace Grace into their heart! You restore the violently shattered heart of him/ her and pour Your Great Love into them and sealed the heart with the blood of Jesus!!! On behalf of you, who is reading, I pray in the Name of Jesus! Amen Amen!!! Glory Glory!!!

Now I feel so good that I want to bless those that come against me and my family generation that may your violently shattered Heart be make Whole again!!! On behalf of you, in the Name of Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!

Wow, I feel good about it! Hallelujah!!! Amen Amen!!!

Speak Grace!

Lately, Lord had arrested my mouth to speak Grace! He led me to speak Grace through many posts that said so, what a great reminder!!! Glory to Jesus!!!!

I had spoken much about my suffering that now, I shall change my mind not to agree with the devil but to agree to the Finish Work of Jesus!!! Glory Glory!!!

To all the has been tracing me, checking on me and planning how to bring me down, I thank you for your concern about me. I know you do this because you don't know a God that Loves you so passionately that you feel you must strive to protect all that you want to protect! I bless you with the Shalom Peace of God and I pray that your eyes to be unveiled to see the Loveliness of Jesus Finished Work for you!!!

I thank Jesus for putting me in His Righteousness of God in Christ Jesus that Abba Father, You could pour Your Great Love on me!!! Glory Glory!!!

I thank You for your teaching through Pastor Prince that when one come against him, the Love of God was not with him and his heart was bitter. This teaching has always remain with me whenever I am not happy with the suffering. I shall pray for their Salvation instead of remain in unhappiness!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

I shall be a blessing to all who come against me, may their darling heart be blessed with the Love of Abba, the Loving God! May the Peace of Jesus calm their souls!!! May they realise that they are loved. May they reign in His Goodness!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord, not by power, not by might, but by Your Spirit and Your Anointing in me that You lead me to speak Grace and be a blessing to mankind!!! I pray in the Name of Jesus!!! Amen Amen!!!!

Family

Just before the CNY, I was talking to my neighbour's maid about family relationship.

She was from a village in Indonesia where everybody knows everybody and in her family, they treat the grandparents with respect n treated her parents with respect and now come to Singapore to work, treat the people she work with with respect.

What I want to talk about here is as society 'process' to look to and run for money, the focus on relationship becomes diluted. One might think, No, my family is still together, but in the process of independent, we have pushed human relationship away!!!

For my family, the maid, M, was saying my mum family still good, as we weekly come back to her; gather with her. She was saying her Ah Mah, her younger days was spent going out with her spouse and told the married children no need to come visit her! In the process, she gave the children no heart to visit her.

Now, she is older and with her spouse returned to earth, the children told her they were busy going somewhere and have no time for her!!!! They only visited her once or more than a month! Only the eldest son visited more often.  Maybe he spent the most time with her and thus have a heart for her!!!

I was telling the maid that this once a week visit was not enough! The parents should not be independent to live their own life!

Look at my parents, they did spend time with my brother a lot more and my mum did spend time with me at my house for about a year or so. When human are put together, by virtue of staying together, relationship occur. So much so that those of us closer to her care more for her! We considered her part of the family.

My eldest sis hardly bring my parents out and had not had mum with her over a period of time. It was due to mum sickness that after much pleading and assurance from us that she finally received mum to her home for that period of time!

Love is time spend with someone, giving that someone undivided and unconditional time. When such an occasion happened love developed.

I was concerned of Jc over all development that I asked her if she really want me n her dad to reconcile eventually when Jesus renewed my youth and I am young again. His complaint about me was old and fat!!!

It is not that I fancy him. But to hear my girl talked about she wants to see how low she could go, it just show her hack care attitude after knowing her dad really do not love her mum at all! She has accepted the fact the situation cannot be restored whatever she might have hope for is dead! It is with this reason she don't bother whatever might happen to her dad or me; she just care about be happy in her own world!!!

It's a protection she draw on herself that might result in being self centred like her dad had been. He was from another broken family that got him to protect his own interest and look to self so much!!!

Well, from writing this post about love, I get to understand Jc and through her, understand ex better!!! I was previously wondered why he so self centred! Now I finally got the answer!!!

Love, Love, Love......time, time, time!!!!

No wonder, God the Father, Jesus the Son and Lord the Holy Spirit, come as the God of Love. He gives us His Undivided and Unconditional Time n Love!!! Hallelujah!!! Amen!!! Amen!!!

PS (3rd Feb 2014):

While talking to ex about understanding his self-centredness, I have a new understanding! When children in divorced case see no hope for their parents and their wish for the relation to reconcile gone, this relying on, drawing on their parents love are also gone. This is a trust on parents, on love one to provide the emotional need is gone. They become so self protective from getting hurt again.

When this happen, even in their grown up years, their trust and rely on their future partner is gone too! With this, they don't know what is fall in love about. They used their brain to control their emotion so as not to be hurt again.

As such, being their partner, one cannot sense their love for them in the long run. They can do things or buy things to please the people they want to impress but behind all these, they guard their heart so well that there is no real love as they did not let themselves fall in love to emotionally needing the lover. As such, it become a loveless marriage!!!