Self Cutting

I never realise my girl Jc at 16, would cut her own arm. I went back there to collect the earpiece she helped me to buy and was surprised to see fresh wounds on her right arm.

The divorce, the messy life of ex in treating women and her own experience, led her to spiral down to pain and self cutting.

She can't see the normal love relationship in ex nor in me. All these made her a sad teenager.

Lord said when I find my own love and lead a normal love, respect relationship then she will relearn what is love.

Currently, I am unable to do anything.

Only Lord could restore her. 

Shifting Out

Current code word in the heart of the members here is being asked to shift out of this centre.

Those well enough are asked to shift to their relatives home or even rent a room outside the centre.

The centre is clearing of long term stay members. But even short term one are not spare.

My counselor wants me to check up on studio apartment and to get ready to shift out.

I checked out one property agent site and all cost above S$200,000. It is too expensive to get.

This morning meditation, Lord told me the way out is His Blessed Home. He promised to deliver me out of this woes.

Abba Father, You will not forsake me not leave me at my problem of finding a home to go to. You are my Almighty Father and Nothing is beyond you. I cast my problem of finding a place to live to your Nail Pierced Hand and pray that Your Blessed Home will come in time to deliver me. Amen Amen!!!

Update on the stealing of my things:

I told the lady that I knew she used my things. She replied she didn't used my laundry powder not my shower cream. How she knows what I was referring to if she didn't take?

Anyway, after putting my stuff under lock, I realised my laundry powder didn't use up that fast. That means she has been stealing my powder for a long time. No wonder I kept wondering if I used that fast when I saw the laundry powder getting very less very quickly. Amen Amen.

After she cannot steal my things, yesterday she got out of the dormitory early in the morning. She didn't stay behind to do her stealing. Amen Amen!!!

Update from my Centre

Last night, I was wondering where the wire line of one of the permanent stay lady has gone and had a peep into her cubical and saw it was empty.

She was discharged and move out yesterday.

Another lady that had stolen my small laundry net, had been using my newly bought net and bra net.

She even stole my laundry detergent that I filled up in a container. It had become 2/3 gone.

I didn't suspect it till she put my detergent powder container was out of position I used to put and not put upright as I used to do.

I have to keep the nets, the detergent powder and even my shower detergent in the cupboard under lock.

She saw me this morning and gave me an sneering look due to cannot access any of my stuff.

I complained the thief of things to my counselor before but as she stayed behind when the door to the door to our dormitory is locked and did her crime and was not caught.

Only time she was caught was she took my friend's cup to use. When confronted, she claimed it was hers!!!

My counselor only advised me to write my name on my stuff and keep it under lock. She said others complained of things stolen too. But they could do nothing to stop the thief.

Meanwhile, centre is getting those with family support to move back home.

Those that are single and have the money to buy the flat for single.

I am none of the above as I applied flat before and are disallowed to apply for the new single flat.

My counsellor wants me to buy the expensive 2nd hand flat which might empty all my funds and I am unwilling to buy.

Alternatively, she suggested I could try to stay in the sheltered home.

Lord in meditation promised this year is JESUS manifestation time and surely I will receive my blessing of Abraham.

I hope that it is the truth so that I could move to the blessed home instead.

Will see this October if all goes well with me.

Lord HELP Me!!! I pray in JESUS Name!!! Amen Amend!!!

I had gone through disappointment for past 10 years and if this time is not the truth, it will make me think if there is such a thing as promised.

Lord in Meditation promised to make me Heir of the World. Let see if it will happen as He claimed.

Amen Amen!!!

Greetings from Singapore

During the week, I saw my work mate in the centre talking to herself out loud.

It lasted a few days till Thursday when I and her were scheduled to see the same doctor.

Doctor is glad with me and prolonged the time to see him again from 8 weeks to 10 weeks.

I told the doctor about my work mate and the doctor told me he would checked with her about it.

The end result is an ambulance came to pick her to IMH, the mental hospital.

Last evening, while going to the bus stop to take my bus, I met the one who interested in me.

I asked him when had he started smoking. He replied that he started smoking from age 15 to now 60.

He is 12 years older than me.

He leads me to think 50+ years old guy is acceptable as I see him did not age that much.

I do hope the mystery guy will come and meet me just like xiaxue's husband did.

With the blessing scheduled to arrive in October, I do hope he will come out to meet me.

I also wonder if I should return to ex to form a complete family again for Jc sake.

Anyway, will decide when the blessing comes.

Now without the blessing, these 2 guys just stay by the side to wait and see.

But by renewal of youth and with the blessing, bees will be many.

That's why these 2 have to know that I am blessed first to act upon it.

I will not post it here immediately as I will be busy blessing the list of people that Lord told me to bless.

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Healing

Last Sunday service is a miracle service for me.

I used have a lower back problem that I cannot stand for long period like 15-30mins without feeling a pain on the lower back and a sharp pain on sitting down after that.

This happened to me every Sunday worship session. I would feel the sharp pain while sitting down after that.

Last Sunday, after worship, when I sat down, I felt the pain subsided.

Pastor Prince came on the pullpit and he called out a few healing.

One of them was lower back pain and Holy Spirit told me to stand up to receive the healing even the pain is not disturbing.

Today, I find that the pain, I used to feel after some time of sitting on my bed to meditate God Word, is gone!!!

All Glory to JESUS!!! Amen Amen!!!

My head, the scrub itchiness is gone too!!! Pastor Prince did mention about it and I received it as my healing. Amen Amen!!!

Without a computer, just depending on this iPhone to post testimony on the blog is easier than on NOAH!

I tried posting and after submitting, I got a blank screen. I am not sure if my testimony gone through.

So thought of posting it here for JESUS Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Blessed Saturday

The week goes by so fast; it's weekends again.

Life is pretty routine day in day out.

Now February is gone and March is in. I have successfully patiently waited for 5 months. Another 7 months more to hit October.

Lord promised to deliver me out of my lacks to my richness in October. I hope it's truth in this year of Jubilee; the church's theme of the year.

Waiting without worrying nor stress by it, just day by day let it pass by trusting in the Lord.

I have successfully stay away from gambling. Even my counselor told me to stop betting.

She recommended if I face lacks in getting enough money to buy a 2nd hand flat, I can move to a shelter as an alternative option.

She is willing to wait and see if I will be blessed.

I pray that the Lord will not forsake me to face my lack. I pray He will deliver me out of my lacks to His Abundance.

Lord, help me!!!

Surely Lord, Your Blessing will be in time!!! Amen Amen!!!