Game of those

Recently, the group sent to down my emotions, did their emotional game. 

Basically, I did feel bad for a while. After that I am ok. 

It’s not like what they did is very horrible. 

The funny part is no lack of people telling me what I going to say can kill. 

Also vulgar language is out in abundance by the group that is good in it. Nothing good out of them. 

Anyway, it’s not like I don’t know who they are and what they would do. 

Also it’s not like my counsellor would do anything to it. At most she could do is make sure I am in my peace and I already am. 

But it’s nice to see how ugly they could be. 

It’s not like I want to associate with such a group of people. I still in the process of observation. 

Even if everything turn out ok would I want him. I have to be very sure I can get my peace. Without it I wouldn’t commit anything at all. 

Only love of Jesus is real for me. Anything else is subject to change. Just look at my ex. 

So I not in a rush to get any guy even when am highly lifted up. How can I be sure they are not because of money, status or what not. 

Anyway, there is nothing good under the sun. Only Jesus is real. 

Opposition getting Stronger?

I was surprised to hear that WP had won 2 GRC. 

I guess PAP don’t know how to get them back. 

By pushing down opposition, it won’t help to put you in good light in the heart of people. 

We all have the eyes to see and ears to hear. On the ground and in our day to day needs, did the government help us or help foreigners or help themselves. 

We all knows that PAP pays themselves very well and will they suffers the economic backlash? Are they able to think for the common people whose pay check is what they look at and are they able to provide for the family?

Look at Israel, the people knows during Netanyahu reign, they felt more secure. 

While the government of change let many common people death or injuries. 

They know if Netanyahu political group and those who are with him has not enough people to form the government, Netanyahu has to beg others to join him and he was pushed out into opposition because of that. 

As they need him for their personal life, they greatly voted him and many people come out to vote to make sure he got in. 

So much so that Netanyahu need not beg anyone else to join him to form the government. 

So, is our own government for us and care enough for us or how much they earn through their groups of companies is more important?

Is it when those that don’t vote for you, you punish them with certain hardship?

Is it when the town don’t vote for you, you neglect them?

In the heart of most people, is bread and butter. How good are you to lead us up? Or just care about your pockets are full while the rest suffer is their problem?

In this open world, young or old got lots of information that their mind is not that innocent that you can fool. 

We see and we hear are you for us or against us. Action talks louder than words.

Show to us you need not opposition to check on you to behave. 

Have opposition you care more, without opposition you don’t care much. We see we hear. 

Like Israel, the people see and hear and they know whom they should put in the government for their own safety. 

And they show in the vote. 

Show to us you treasure us more than to fleece us. And we will show in the vote. 

Jobs

Hmmm…seem like my daughter is just like me in the area of job. 

She feels she is mentally unstable to do any job. And she did not understand why her friends angry with her. She said she hate herself and she wants to die. 

She asked me to leave her alone. 

Same here, after 10 years of IT, and 10 years of housewife and been only doing the job this centre give, I too don’t know what else I could do. 

Many members tried my cooking for months since last Chinese New Year reunion, weekly twice or 3 times, they said whatever I cooked is very nice, I should open stall to sell.

However, I felt the ingredients I put in to feed them is too much, I don’t think it’s feasible to sell.

After all, most of the food out there is little meats and vegetables. So what I cooked might be more expensive to sell as basic cost is high. 

Even though lately I have been using the beef patties that 2 members brought back here, I cooked yummy food out of them as I believe the members won’t like to eat same taste twice.

So, I always think of new taste to feed them out of the same beef patties. And they ate it gladly. 

Sometimes they asked me how I cook it? I just based on instinct, from a normal taste just try to change it to something yummy. But the process is all instinct of that moment. 

I had tried preparing a salad that they said very yummy.  Even I documented it down, but the 3 times I made the salad, have 3 different taste!!!

So how to sell when each time I made was a different taste?

Anyway, Lord rising me up as a healer. I am just waiting for Him to manifest fully in me to do the healing ministry. 

So I also wonder should I venture into any other job at the meantime or just concentrate meditating the bible. 

Anyway, I think I better stay as what I am as long as I can live on the alimony. 

My Job in the Lord

“Let me say this, brothers: 

flesh and blood cannot share 

in the Kingdom of God, 

nor can something that decays share 

in what does not decay. 

Look, I will tell you a secret — 

not all of us will die! 

But we will all be changed! 

It will take but a moment, 

the blink of an eye, at the final shofar. 

For the shofar will sound, and 

the dead will be raised to live forever, and 

we too will be changed. (Note: we changed, not raised)

For 

this material which can decay 

must be clothed with imperishability, 

this which is mortal must be clothed with immortality. 

When 

what decays puts on imperishability and 

what is mortal puts on immortality, 

then this passage in the Tanakh 

will be fulfilled: 

“Death is swallowed up in victory. 

The sting of death is sin; and 

sin draws its power from the Torah; but 

thanks be to God, who 

gives us the victory through 

our Lord Yeshua the Messiah!”

‭‭1 Corinthians (1 Co)‬ ‭15:50-54, 56-57‬ ‭CJB‬‬

My ex

Don’t know why this morning when I was showering, thoughts of my ex leaning on my support came into my thoughts. 

In his life, he has a very strong personality and most of time, he doesn’t need me. 

My first time to Sweden to met him in northern Sweden, he led me to do some sightseeing and drove from his work town towards Stockholm and then on the way to southern Sweden where his family is. 

Half way through, he turned to tell me he lost his way. So he ask me how. 27 years ago, GPS wasn’t developed yet. 

I asked him if he know the way back, he replied, ‘yes’. Then I told him to go to where he knows. Then he rerouted and we managed to reach his mum’s home. 

Another time in New Zealand, we visited southern NZ and in such a neighbourhood, the houses are built on very steep slopes. 

My ex was contemplating whether to drive up the slope. He asked me if he should. I questioned him if the car we rented had the power to go up. He replied, ‘should be’. Then I told him to do it. He controlled the car slowly and we managed to reach the top of the slope. It was a nice conquest. 

Another time he was having a work issue that he was at his weakness, I comforted him and he was comforted. 

These were the only 3 times that he needed me; in those years together. 

So, such a strong self man, that can function by himself most of the time, he doesn’t really need me. 

Husband finances

Last night, my friend claimed that I looked to certain guy because of provisions. 

To a certain extend, currently I do have to depend on ex as I yet to start on Lord’s job. 

When I am highly blessed, then guy’s financial is not a consideration anymore but more of compatibility.

Do I really need to go for the one who like me? Not necessarily. 

Why? Do I know him in person? No. 

So even I do know him previously by his ways, to me, I do not know his real person actually. 

So does it means that I need to stick by him, not that necessary. 

Why?

Consider his families so against this relationship, do I look forward to have them as my in laws?

That fact that I like ex partly was his side of the family was far far away. So I won’t have in laws problem. Plus ex disallowed them to meddle into the family was another plus factor. 

I don’t like Asian traditions where in laws meddle into the family. 

And if I married, I know the in laws become part of the family. And I don’t fancy it when they are not friendly.

So, even he really love me, each of us grow up from a different backgrounds and between us, there are frictions. Plus the unfriendly family, it’s not a rosy situation for me.

So, it’s not a firm yes or no for this situation. 

And I don’t care who you are. If there are too much problems, why do I have to jump in? I am not so stupid. 

In Christ term, if too much problem, it’s mean a close door. So if Lord close, why should I open? And if Lord opens, then I go through.

This my stand and my thoughts currently. I am not one that look to riches, power nor status to lift up myself. I don’t need all these. Amen. 

The big bomb

The bible mention of an action like that of a very huge stone being thrown into sea and the result from it. 

In the bible, also mention a nasty guy planned to kill all the Jews by building a very tall hanger in the book of Esther. In the end, he suffered.

So this plan by Iran, building an insane level of uranium, seem like this is going to be a big bomb for that region. As what the bible says. 

Let see when it would happen. Only Abba Father knows.

Is marriage possible

My counsellor post me this question when I met her yesterday.

I looked at money and told her possible. But I know money is the root of all evil and wants is a endless well. 

So in the natural, nothing is possible. 

Those ancient lovers most didn’t work out.

My friend ask if I will choose ex again. 

Now after 12 years, whatsoever feeling that I might have for him is totally gone. Also, my girl has grown up. So her factor also gone. 

Plus they both blocked me fully from their lives. How to have any feelings for them?

Anyway those ancient lovers had one common factor. God is not in their lives. So they had to go by human efforts.

It’s like what current opposition doing to me; be it spiritual attack or human effort, it will only lead to end in a dead end. 

So is it still possible?

Well, I don’t know what will happen eventually. 

But I know I have thousand year of job to do for the LORD. 

And all Christians will renewed in youth, corrupt become incorruptible, mortal will become immortality. 

And GOD is LOVE and I am HIS Beloved. 

What will happen is not within my control, nor my feelings or whatsoever. 

I cast this relationship with the families and friends and those involved to YOUR NAILED PIERCED HAND. LORD JESUS, there is nothing that I could do and there is nothing they could do. We are all impossible. 

However, in YOU, LORD, YOU will work all things out for YOUR GOODNESS; for YOUR NAME Sake. YOU are I AM and in YOU, nothing is I M Possible. 

Thank You, LORD JESUS. 

Btw, thank you. My centre management wasn’t disturbed. From my understanding lately, many are leaving. 

My Centre

The centre where I live, there was a lady that would scold all the members staying here and specially me. 

When I cooked for the members to enjoy food, she will say I don’t ‘listen’ to her. 

She even said I’lured’ others to eat my food. 

When I don’t cook, she scolded I don’t care about certain of her people here. 

She got stronger and even scolded the councillors, Health care workers, she laughed at a married staffs here about how the man like his fat wife because of her status. 

Who ever she encountered she scolded. 

She used dirty unclean sexual words that drew the ugliness of sex, sexual organs and even condemned us having many dirty men against me. 

She just scolded and scolded that we who stayed the same level with her did not get our peace. 

For our sake for our mental health, centre had been asking her to discharge but she refused but just be a nuisance to everyone. 

To counter her nasty scolding, one member on the radio loudly to drown her voice. 

It’s a on going fighting. She imagined and talked loudly that one members was flirting with the HCA male staff where the member just sat near the counter. 

That member gave her a slap for demeaning her. 

All in all, she has the ability to scold at the top of her voice from day break to the night. 

For our sake, centre managed to find a loophole to discharge her. 

However, her people here became not happy. One shot a email to the top MP in this GRC where the centre is. 

The councillor, who was in charged of her is promoting. 

The Residential manger is asked to quit for helping us to find peaceful life. 

I was terrified so much by her scolding that even after she left, everyday I passed by the chair she sat to scold loudly, she is like still there. 

My mental health was affected so much by her even though I choose to ignore her scolding but just live under the scolding, condemnation. 

It was this week, after she left for 2 weeks that I feel better. 

But the GRC did something for the member who complained about the centre who removed this mental terror. 

There are movements in the staff office. Her councillor is going to promote to take over the residential manager place. 

The Residential manager was told to leave for bringing peace for the sick members here. 

I am speechless at what the people of this GRC could do to a mental health centre. It’s as if we should not get better and moved into the society; we should be condemned and live under terror. 

The centre should not do the right thing to promote health to us. But should let terror to demeaning our lives. 

I am speechless. 

One thing I noticed about the people they sent to live here. They all scolded sexual organs in their distress. 

Are they a group of lowly people that don’t know how to express their anger in none sexual way?

Anyway, guess these are the true selves of this group of people. 

Hiaz

Devil

I got scolded as the devil and I wasn’t please with it. 

Till pastor yesterday said Jesus was being scolded that he is devil; I found comfort in it. 

Lord has been good to me. I got to go for a Wellness camp and even when my team was not the best, we win the first prize. Praise Jesus. 

I was looking to BBQ food and was provided. Just that others culture was different from mine and it wasn’t what I expected but still it was ok. 

I enjoyed so much at the camp but I was tired out. 

Lord Jesus give me success, enlarge my territory and keep me away from terror. I pray to Lord Jesus in Jesus Name. Amen  

My 2 men

For some moments on and off, I was thinking how can my ex be one of them? As I know him inside out. How he will be good to me I also know. 

After know his good and very nasty, do I still want him in my life again? No, what for?

I thought it would be loop sided since the choice is obvious. 

I thought I would never like any guy physically as I never had such feeling.

Until this bait appeared, looking into his emotions I saw his control, authority, and how he hold himself. 

I was drawn to his overall. Even though I didn’t look at him that detail but overall, I found myself drawn without knowing why. 

His voice has power but he is a silent person. The fact that he can be shocking when I asked if he was discharged show that his social skill, with people high ok but general everyone is questioning. 

S, through the years, had shown me he is caring. 

When I was in IMH, having a huge tomboy looking at me whenever I was around her compound was bad enough. 

Thank Jesus, he sent 2 young ladies to be with me. They gave me moments of joy and happiness in that locked up environment. 

His disappointment to see me in such is so acceptable. 

He was naughty at LKY funeral when he shouted about me. 

Even when I was drawn, back in my mind S was such a gentle guy to be. This control my emotions from flowing much. As I viewed S is a easier guy to live with. 

But at this moment, it’s still too early as I don’t know both of them yet. 

When I am blessed and my status is risen up, then I will see where should I be.

Lord give both of them equal ground. But I wonder how I will get to know their good and bad. 

Anyway I will have lots of time. Thousand year is a long time, so no hurry. 

Sob

Finally, saw someone that I might like but I have second thoughts. 

A scenario was posed to test my heart. Lord know best, He came through to speak. 

As if I am a uncaring person. And finally the bait is gone. 

Lord know best for me. I must submit to him. 

Seasons of Time

 “When he was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the talmidim came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, 

“when will these things happen? And what will be the sign that you are coming, and that the ‘olam hazeh is ending?” 

Yeshua replied: “Watch out! Don’t let anyone fool you!

For many will come in my name, saying, ‘I am the Messiah!’ and they will lead many astray.

You will hear the noise of wars nearby and the news of wars far off; 

see to it that you don’t become frightened. Such things must happen, but the end is yet to come. 

For peoples will fight each other, nations will fight each other, and 

there will be famines and earthquakes in various parts of the world; all this is but the Beginning of the ‘birth-pains.’ 

At that time you will be arrested and handed over to be punished and put to death, and all peoples will hate you because of me. 

At that time many will be trapped into betraying and hating each other, many false prophets will appear and fool many people; and many people’s love will grow cold because of increased distance from Torah. 

But whoever holds out till the end will be delivered.

And this Good News about the Kingdom will be announced throughout the whole world as a witness to all the Goyim. It is then that the END Will Come.

“So when you see the abomination that causes devastation spoken about through the prophet Dani’el standing in the Holy Place” (let the reader understand the allusion), “that will be the time for those in Y’hudah to escape to the hills. 

If someone is on the roof, he must not go down to gather his belongings from his house; if someone is in the field, he must not turn back to get his coat. 

What a terrible time it will be for pregnant women and nursing mothers! Pray that you will not have to escape in winter or on Shabbat. 

For there will be trouble then, worse than there has ever been from the beginning of the world until now, and there will be nothing like it again! 

Indeed, if the length of this time had not been limited, no one would survive; but for the sake of those who have been chosen, its length will be limited.

“At that time, if someone says to you, ‘Look! Here’s the Messiah!’ or, ‘There he is!’ don’t believe him. 

For there will appear False Messiahs and False  prophets performing Great as Miracles — amazing things! — so as to fool even the chosen, if possible. 

So if people say to you, ‘Listen! He’s out in the desert!’ don’t go; or, ‘Look! He’s hidden away in a secret room!’ don’t believe it. 

For when the Son of Man does come, 

it will be like Lightning that Flashes out of the East and Fills the Sky to the Western Horizon. 

Wherever there’s a dead body, that’s where you find the vultures. 

“But Immediately Following the Trouble of those times, 

the sun will grow dark, the moon will stop shining, the stars will fall from the sky, and the powers in heaven will be shaken. 

“Then the sign of the Son of Man will appear in the sky, all the tribes of the Land will mourn, and they will see the Son of Man coming on the Clouds of Heaven  with Tremendous Power and Glory. 

He will send out His Angels with a great shofar; 

and they will gather together his chosen people from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other. 

“But when that day and hour will come, no one knows — not the angels in heaven, not the Son, only the Father. 

For the Son of Man’s coming will be just as it was in the days of Noach. 

Back then, before the Flood, people went on eating and drinking, taking wives and becoming wives, right up till the day Noach entered the ark; and they didn’t know what was happening until the Flood came and swept them all away. 

It will be just like that when the Son of Man comes. 

Then there will be two men in a field — one will be taken and the other left behind. There will be two women grinding flour at the mill — one will be taken and the other left behind. 

So stay alert, because you don’t know on what day your Lord will come. 

But you do know this: had the owner of the house known when the thief was coming, he would have stayed awake and not allowed his house to be broken into. 

Therefore you too must always be ready, for the Son of Man will come when you are not expecting him. 

“Who is the faithful and sensible servant whose master puts him in charge of the household staff, to give them their food at the proper time? 

It will go well with that servant if he is found doing his job when his master comes. Yes, I tell you that he will put him in charge of all he owns. 

But if that servant is wicked and says to himself, ‘My master is taking his time’; and he starts beating up his fellow servants and spends his time eating and drinking with drunkards; 

then his master will come on a day the servant does not expect, at a time he doesn’t know; and he will cut him in two and put him with the hypocrites, where people will wail and grind their teeth!”

‭‭Mattityahu (Mat)‬ ‭24:3-24, 26-31, 36-51‬ ‭CJB‬

Ezekiel 38

I am glad this will happen soon:

“The word of Adonai came to me: “Human being, turn your face toward Gog (of the land of Magog), chief prince of Meshekh and Tuval; and prophesy against him. 

Say that Adonai Elohim says, ‘I am against you, Gog, chief prince of Meshekh and Tuval.

I will turn you around, put hooks in your jaws and bring you out with all your army, horses and horsemen, all completely equipped, a great horde with breastplates and shields, all wielding swords. 

Paras, Ethiopia and Put are with them, all with breastplates and helmets; Gomer with all its troops; the house of Togarmah in the far reaches of the north, with all its troops — many peoples are with you. 

Prepare yourself, get ready, you and all your crowd gathered around you; and take charge of them. After many days have passed, you will be mustered for service; 

in later years you will invade the land which has been brought back from the sword, gathered out of many peoples, the mountains of Isra’el. 

They had been lying in ruins for a long time, but now Isra’el has been extracted from the peoples and all of them are living there securely. 

You will come up like a storm, you will be like a cloud covering the land — you and all your troops, and many other peoples with you.’ 

“Adonai Elohim says: ‘When that day comes, thoughts will well up in your mind, and you will devise a sinister scheme. You will say, “I am going to invade this land of unwalled villages; 

I will take by surprise these people who are at peace, living securely, all in places without walls, bars or gates. I will seize the spoil and take the plunder.” 

You will attack the former ruins that are now inhabited and come against the people gathered from the nations, who have acquired livestock and other wealth and are living in the central parts of the land. 

Sh’va, D’dan and all the leading merchants of Tarshish will ask you, “Have you come to seize spoil? Have you assembled your hordes to loot; to carry off silver, gold, livestock and other wealth; to take much plunder?”’ 

“Therefore, human being, prophesy! Tell Gog that Adonai Elohim says this: ‘Won’t you be aware of it when my people Isra’el are living in security? 

You will choose just that time to come from your place in the far reaches of the north, you and many peoples with you, all of them on horseback, a huge horde, a mighty army; 

and you will invade my people Isra’el like a cloud covering the land. This will be in the acharit-hayamim; and I will bring you against my land, 

so that the Goyim Will Know ME when, before their eyes, I AM set apart as HOLY Through you, Gog.’ 

“Adonai Elohim says: ‘I spoke of you long ago through my servants the prophets of Isra’el. Back then, they prophesied for many years that I would have you invade them. 

In my jealousy, in my heated fury I speak: when that day comes there will be a great earthquake in the land of Isra’el; 

so that the fish in the sea, the birds in the air, the wild beasts, all the reptiles creeping on the ground and every human being there in the land will tremble before me. 

Mountains will fall, cliffs crumble and every wall crash to the ground. 

I will summon a sword against him throughout all my mountains,’ says Adonai Elohim; ‘every man will wield his sword against his brother. 

I will judge him with plague and with blood. 

I will cause torrential rain to fall on him, his troops and the many peoples with him, along with huge hailstones, fire and sulfur. 

I will show my Greatness and Holiness, making Myself  Known in the sight of many nations; 

then they will know that I am God the Father with Jesus.’”

‭‭Yechezk'el (Ezk)‬ ‭38:1-17, 19-23‬ ‭CJB‬

Pastor Prince false teachings???

When I went to YouTube or blog and saw someone talked about Pastor Prince didn’t preach the bible, I always went to what they quoted and read the whole chapter of the verse they quoted. 

In the end, I realise that those who preached against Pastor Prince, are the one that read the bible wrongly. 

They cannot see clearly that the law is fulfilled and now we are to look to Jesus and be transformed by HIM. 

Those who like to put focus on themselves always quote Grace lead them to SIN. 

If your eyes are onto Jesus day in day out, how are you to sin? You will be daily appreciating what Jesus at The Cross has done for you. You will be so thankful to Him. 

The fact that you looked away from Jesus and into your lustful sin and blame it on Pastor Prince did not preach the law to lock you; I am amazed.

You are one that look away from Jesus into your lustful sin, how to blame the Grace of God, whom is Jesus Himself? I am speechless. 

Pastor Prince does preach whoever the Lord loves, He corrects too. You may gone through something that you realise this area of you are wrong and thank Jesus that His Work at the cross is Greater and you come back to Him again. 

If your eyes are on Jesus, whose Father is God Almighty, will your eyes on your parents and siblings or family? Even they are part of your life, but your eye see them through the Eyes of Jesus. You look at them with His Grace. 

If you involve Jesus in every part of your life, Pastor Prince has done his job; pointing you to Jesus. 

If you have not done so, who to blame? Of course yourself not Pastor Prince. 

Hiaz!

Resurrection?

 Many pastors around the world have been preaching about resurrection. 

However, I know it’s not time for such as many in the world has yet to be save. 

Also, Lord Jesus has raised me up for the 1000 years work, how can we be resurrected so fast?

The coming work is to change mortality into immortality; old age into young again. 

To make Christian different from non-Christian, so that their jealousy might lead them to Christ. 

Also Christian is also going to be highly blessed so that the jealousy of the non-Christian might lead them to Christ. 

Lord Jesus is using these 2 means to tempt those that chase after beauty and wealth to come to Him. But I do wonder how about those that have don’t bother attitude like me previously?

Anyway, I do hope most will come to accept Christ. 

I am waiting patiently for Lord Jesus to raise me up to start the work. But have to wait for the 5 countries attacking Israel first. 

So I am following the news in the Middle East closely as next will be my turn. 

Lord Jesus come in Jesus Name. 

New Beginnings

Thank God that times flies!

Jc’s Godmother and me just celebrate Jc 21st birthday.

It’s a long time since I posted here. Life have changed a lot. Jc no more take me as an enemy. We are on talking term. 

Well, Lord has not yet come. I wish He will come faster; after all, events around the world is not getting better. ButI let Lord have His own sweet time. 

It’s another Chinese New Year approaching. Thank God for a particular member that make things better for us. ;)

There’s endless clearing in my centre. When will there be an end to it?

It’s a joke that a guy actually used soy milk to chase me. Am I that cheap?

Anyway, he is not my tea, so no go. 

After talking to another lady, I know the uneducated is not for me. Amen Amen. 

Life at this point is purely waiting for the Lord. 

Come Jesus Come!