Reject at the door

Christmas eve, out of nowhere to go, I decided to go buy some inner wear at the usual market place. And since it's near to ex place, I thought of buying some lunch for them and myself.

As all of us are stay at home instead of go out shopping and sight seeing bunch of people; I thought of visiting my girl and asked her if she willing to go eat durian at the selling place.

Ex was unhappy that I was in his home on such a day. He almost wanted to chase me out. He said I should get a place that Jc could go visit instead of I going there. He said no ex could go into a ex home.

I was allowed to remain in Jc's room. I check with Jc about durian. But since she finished a more than  1kg durian by herself just a week ago, she got tired of eating again. And since the dormitory door opened at 1 pm, I decided to go back at 1 pm.

Ex even though was angry earlier on, but because I bought him a package of Char Siew(honey roasted pork) rice, he was pleased and insisted Jc to send me out with an umbrella as the sky still pouring.

I have a new understanding about ex asking me to bring Jc out will never work as she and me are not into shopping much. We tried once and it was boring.

Staying at the center with nothing much to do except talking to Lord over these long holiday is pretty boring.

I guess ex enjoyed the Char Siew rice as he did not have his Swedish ham and even the Christmas Tree was not set up!!!

Maybe he is getting tired of setting up the big tree for him and Jc. 

Generations Down and Up

Sunday, at the Church service, when Pastor Prince mentioned that both Joseph and Mary were from the Royal linkage but were poor by their time, as they offer pigeon as a burn offering, instead of cow for the very rich and sheep for the middle income.

I had a revelation that my parents' generation and their parents were made poor, just like Joseph and Mary.

But, my generation, among the 5 of us are better than my parents generation. And with Lord's blessing eventually, we will be poor no more, 

just like Joseph and Mary were made rich by the 3 wise men that brought gold, silver and spices to baby JESUS; blessing attracted to one whom has Jesus and walk closely with Him.

I am waiting for that day to come by. Surely, by then I need not look for 2 rooms HDB flat anymore!!!

These few services in the past few weeks, Lord is giving me the knowledge part by part.

While daily life is about fighting off cancer attacks, heart attacks, stroke attacks and tumor attacks!!! The enemy, whom I don't know, wish me dead somehow.

However, Lord is using me for His Glory, so I will not be dead at all!!! Pray for my health if you care about me!!! Thanks and may the Lord bless you with prosperity and good health.

Lord is revealing I have someone so deeply in love with me out there!!! He said eventually we will meet. He is my soulmate!!! This only he knows, I've yet to know. 

I guess that anxious feeling at one meeting and another joyous feeling from another meeting, came from the same guy. But who he is, I have yet to find out. 

Lord said I will eventually meet him and then I will find out how much alike I am with him to be soulmate for each other.

Will this happen? Let's wait and see...if I live healthy till that day come about!!!

Nowadays, all dramas of events happening are quiet off. Nothing for me to write anymore!!!

Thanks for reading my blog. May the Lord bless you with His Shalom Peace and Blessed Christmas!!!

Just some talk

Nowadays, I have nothing much to share as life become monotonous.

Day in, day out is about the same except some happening I witnessed last week. 

I was on my 1st day of receptionist job and I received a call from a lady that had fallen and knocked her head and was in a hospital.

She wanted to talk to her counsellor and a nurse but both of them were not around. 

I wrote a missed call slip and intended to pass to one of them.

On reaching their office, I saw the nurse and handed over the slip but she claimed it wasn't her business and pushed it to the counsellor.

This lady called again but the counsellor, whom had called me earlier to page for somebody, did not ask about her. She was disappointed. This happened last Monday. 

This Tuesday, when I go to my dormitory, I saw the nurse and the warrants clearing her things and taking over her packets of instant noodles and laundry powder.

On checking with the nurse, she said this lady is gone and could not take her stuff, which is a lot!!! As big as the big IKEA bag, plastic bag to contain the noodle!!! Consider her handicapped in walking normally, she really shop a lot!!!

The nurse gave me 2 single packs of the instant noodle. But I was feeling uneasy and asked the nurse again what she meant by the lady is gone. She just ask if I am afraid to eat the noodle.

On further check with 2 other residents, and one went to check the lady's room had been cleared fully, then I realised who was her that was dead. 

Worst of all, that night she died, our fire alarm sounded aloud that all residents and warrants, who live here, were woken by the alarm. That all was tired by the break in sleep!!!

All these happen on Tuesday night and Wednesday evening!!!

This morning, the fire alarm rang many times too!!!

I heard from the 2 residents some years back, a resident accompanied this lady for a home visit to her brother's home, with 2 big bags of goodies but were rejected entry by the brother. The residents told me that they had to bring the 2 big bags of goodies back here.

She was hoping someone to care for her but she got none in her last moment of life. To last a week for the head injury is already a miracle. I know of 2 cases that didn't last more than 24 hrs. She might have lost her will to survive, I guess.

Compare to her, at least I am better of as 2nd sis allows me to visit even though not that often.

I am more fortunate and I shall not complain how they decide to pack my things and let me be a resident here. 

I learnt that it was Su's idea to sell my mum's apartment as she needed the money to clear all the visa debts. Her husband could not stay put on a job and they liked fashioned goods.

Anyway, that's the life they want and now with my mum's inheritent, Su did no contact any one of us till today. Checking how am I. 

She took the housing agent test and hoping to do the sale of my 2 room flat to earn the commission.

However, I am not looking for any apartment yet. I am waiting for Lord's Promise to become true to me in a year time. Amen Amen!

Tabernacle

Today's sermon talks about the 4 layers of covering.

The first layer of badger's skin, the world cannot see us nor understand us of wood but covered up in Gold.

The 2nd layer of ram's skin dyed red shows the Perfect Work of Christ at the Cross that only God knows the fullness of JESUS sacrifice.

The 3rd layer of goats' hair, the 5 curtain show Grace and the 6th curtain in the forefront of the Tabernacle means man. The 30 cubits from the front and the half curtain remainder hang over the back shows JESUS 3.5 years of ministry for us to see.

The innermost layer of fine linen of blue, purple and scarlet, you will make them with Cherubim, shows the 4 books of Mathew, Mark, Luke and John. We are well protected by the Wings of the Cherubim.

When Pastor Prince said they took 9 months to build the Tabernacle, Ps Prince said it takes woman 9 months to carry a baby before birth;

Lord gives me an understanding why I must wait 9 years before starting His Service. Now is different layers of training in secret to equip me for the future work!!!

Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

PS: the 4 layers of covering I cannot explain as clearly as pastor did as my point is to mention my revelation only. But in the process, I have to talk about the covering before reaching there! ;)

Updates about me

Currently being attack in the lungs, heart and even stomach with cancer, ulcers etc. I don't have the mood to post anything at all.

But just now check the audience for the week, I have 188 views from Russia and only 30+ from Singapore. I wonder what has attracted so many views!

Last week finally buy my durian for Jc and me to share. She been through friends going away from her and a angry daddy that she took the durian fearfully.

Thank God the whatsapp did not send her daddy message me no durian for Jc message at noon. I only got the message when I went to whatsapp that evening at the store, waiting for the durian to come.

She wanted the remainder, but dare not eat till it smell came out of the box and daddy told her to finish up!!! She is that fearful of him that she drew a picture of her behind the door with a sad face and wrote a message that her life is going down slowly!!!

I have to message her daddy to forgive her.

She is not replying me so I can't comfort her at all. That night, she didn't even want to hug me.

However, on my way back to the center, a kind taxi driver wanted to treat me to dinner. After I rejected his kind offer, he did not want to accept the fare from me at all!!! I thank the kindness of him. As I spent quite a lot on that 2 durian.

I learnt something new in the process. Previously, Ex told me freshly opened durian and those we bought already packed are different in taste. I have no clue what he meant.

But, that night, I learnt freshly delivered and freshly opened durian does not have any durian smell. It was a day after that it started to smell.

Just like seafood, fresh seafood only have sea smell and sweet. Those that started to smell means they are not that fresh anymore!!! But I still like my sardines even it smells!!! Hehe

Now Jc had enough of the durian, she is not answering me if she wants somemore!!! I do but only if she wants as eating alone, no matter how good the food, there is not much joy as in sharing!!!

May Abba Father bless you and me with His Shalom Peace!!! Amen!