From this relationship that is ending and from what I learn about Abba Father's love. Lord leads me to see that love is about spending time doing things together. It is also about declaring to each other about how good the partner is to self. Living in 10 years of marriage and all the while thinking I have a happy, loving family, when Lord opened my eyes to see, finally, I could see no love in it. That's why most things in my life is doing alone, not together with P. The only time we do together is when we each face our own PC daily, sinking into our internet world. It's not about spending time together.
How love can be depleted? Daily, if did not talk any good about each other, but focus on the bad and complain. Feelings will get diluted. When feeling become almost near zero, if someone come to tempt one party to go somewhere, far from the spouse, overtime, the heart for the spouse will be negative(-ve). With negative, the way they look to spouse and talk will not be gentle liao.
This is how love in a relationship works. I am glad that Abba Father give me chances to come back to him and talk about the finished work of Jesus and how much He loves me to Him, to renew my love to Him. Lord Jesus done a very Perfect work at the cross that ALL sins, be it to man or to God, is completely Judged in Him. There is no more sin for us to carry. Glory to Lord Jesus!
With man, it's a different story. P has moved on and found himself new girlfriend. I have just talked to the lawyer on Monday. Glory to Lord Jesus, the reason for divorce is not focusing much on Christianity and me, but on our lack of communication and break down of relationship since my girl was born. Glory Glory!
Abba is being very good to me, even this talk to lawyer. This lawyer is engaged by P, praise the Lord, it's abba's son. Lord send me to talk to him even before the petition, law firm said never have such case before. They were surprised that I read the draft copy of the lawyer letter they drafted for P. Halleljah! After the talk, the lawyer finally understood how our relationship breakdown. Glory Glory! He told P that evening that with no contest, most likely we were be divorced in October. Lord said I will be freed in mid November. Glory to Lord Jesus!
Abba Father, thank you for leading me closely, even in this divorce. Thank you for blessing me with Shalom Peace. I have let go of P and not bother by him having a girlfriend. He agreed with me that he should not talk to his girlfriend in this home. Praise the Lord that when he received her call last night, he went out of the house to talk! Glory to Lord Jesus!
I discovered he has a girlfriend last Friday, after picking Jc from friend's home. His girlfriend was demanding why he did not tell her about picking his kid. They sign off with telling each other that they miss each other. I felt bad and Jc was affected. She heard the conversation. In order not to affect Jc, we agree that either one of us cannot talk to opposite sex at home and cannot bring opposite sex friend home. Anyway, I passed my upset to the Lord and now don't bother about it. Praise the Lord!
Abba said this is a small hiccup in my life. It shall be in the name of Jesus. Amen Amen!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
The Grace of Lord Jesus
Many a time, we don't know our limit. People in the world can do things in access. Today, as Abba father revealed to me about how things in this world works, I would like to share with you.
According to Lord, the people in this whole universe is covered by the Grace of Lord Jesus. After all, Lord Jesus didn't go to the cross to die for selected group of people. He did it for all the human race. Then how come some seem to be worst than others in term of health?
Abba father makes man body to be able to rejuvenate itself daily. When you sleep, the healing process carries out. However, in modern days, many people works long hours and sleep little. By doing something in excess, the body is deprived of healing itself. As this carries on, body become sick. Lord did have a warning system build in. That's the dark shadow under the eyes. It's the body way of telling you that you did not sleep enough for the body healing to take it full course! Praise the Lord!
Why some people do exercise and drop dead? Lord explained that everything in this world are all ways used by devil to get the souls of man. Whatever you do in excess, you are heading towards devil and surely he will kill you. Example: After a stressful work, still stress the body with excessive exercise. The key word is excessive harm the body. Yes, I agree to this because when devil work on a person, the temper and the anger usually is in excessive.
There are some people, who are purely evil. Their thoughts are always thoughts to harm others. When Lord see that there is no way for this group of people to repent, even with much grace given, Lord will remove the Grace covering over such man. He will then be without protection of the Grace of Jesus and is exposed to the harm of darkness.
For young kids that suffered serious illness and even death, Lord explained that the body mechanism of automatic healing is not fully developed. They are exposed to harm of darkness depends on what they eat in excessive especially intake of sugar. The baby milk power is very sweet.
This is what I found, my girl who takes breast milk and husband only allows her those not so sweet soft candy, she could not take those sweets that friend's mum or school teacher gave, those normal sweet that other kid okay to take. Also, husband wants me to buy only jelly with real fruit juice instead of concentrate favouring. Jc don't take those sweet that has chemical in it, while other kids are okay with it. This is my finding of my girl eating habits. For her friend's mum, she said Jc is fussy with candies.
Abba Father, thank you for revealing to me how a human body works. Glory to you, Lord Jesus! Thank you for the Grace of Jesus that is shielding most of us even when we didn't realise it. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
According to Lord, the people in this whole universe is covered by the Grace of Lord Jesus. After all, Lord Jesus didn't go to the cross to die for selected group of people. He did it for all the human race. Then how come some seem to be worst than others in term of health?
Abba father makes man body to be able to rejuvenate itself daily. When you sleep, the healing process carries out. However, in modern days, many people works long hours and sleep little. By doing something in excess, the body is deprived of healing itself. As this carries on, body become sick. Lord did have a warning system build in. That's the dark shadow under the eyes. It's the body way of telling you that you did not sleep enough for the body healing to take it full course! Praise the Lord!
Why some people do exercise and drop dead? Lord explained that everything in this world are all ways used by devil to get the souls of man. Whatever you do in excess, you are heading towards devil and surely he will kill you. Example: After a stressful work, still stress the body with excessive exercise. The key word is excessive harm the body. Yes, I agree to this because when devil work on a person, the temper and the anger usually is in excessive.
There are some people, who are purely evil. Their thoughts are always thoughts to harm others. When Lord see that there is no way for this group of people to repent, even with much grace given, Lord will remove the Grace covering over such man. He will then be without protection of the Grace of Jesus and is exposed to the harm of darkness.
For young kids that suffered serious illness and even death, Lord explained that the body mechanism of automatic healing is not fully developed. They are exposed to harm of darkness depends on what they eat in excessive especially intake of sugar. The baby milk power is very sweet.
This is what I found, my girl who takes breast milk and husband only allows her those not so sweet soft candy, she could not take those sweets that friend's mum or school teacher gave, those normal sweet that other kid okay to take. Also, husband wants me to buy only jelly with real fruit juice instead of concentrate favouring. Jc don't take those sweet that has chemical in it, while other kids are okay with it. This is my finding of my girl eating habits. For her friend's mum, she said Jc is fussy with candies.
Abba Father, thank you for revealing to me how a human body works. Glory to you, Lord Jesus! Thank you for the Grace of Jesus that is shielding most of us even when we didn't realise it. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Christ in Our Marriage
Yesterday, Pastor Prince preached a good sermon on Roman 7, where Paul described our relationship with Law and Grace – Jesus. We were married to Law when the children of Israel told God that all that He ask, they could do. The 10 commandments were given. The Law is Holy and the Law is Justice. It cannot bend in anyway to accommodate our fall short, otherwise, it is no more Holy and Righteous.
In this marriage, if we go for Christ, we are into sin – adulterous. But in a marriage, if one party is to die, then the Law binding this marriage will not be applicable.
Lord Jesus is the willing sacrificing Lamb. He very willing to serve us. Whatever we cannot do, cannot fulfill, He did it for us. To die from this marriage to Law, Lord Jesus died for us and freed us, the child of God, from fulfilling the Law. He died and 3 days later rose again. Through this crucification on the cross, we died with Him and rose again as the new creation. 2 cor 5:17 'Therefore, if anyone IS in Christ, the old has gone, the new as come!
Since in Christ, we are New Creation, how to walk out this life of Christ. In this life, Christ is the one that willing and able to walk the life fulfilling the Law of Love. In our nature, we cannot and not able. Looking into our marriage, if we constantly draw our love out from our partner, we dry them up like a sour prune. But if we draw our love from Jesus, He gets stronger and stronger in us and will leads us to walk out His love.
I was looking at the couple, Pastor Prince used as demonstration on marriage to Jesus. The man is Jesus and the wife typify us, man. The wife was smiling on stage, but as Pastor Prince preached about whatever she needs and whatever she have to do in that marriage, Jesus, will surely provide the ability. Jesus will not condemn her. All that she need, he will provide, not her. As she looked to her husband instead of Jesus, the smile on her face was dropping off.
Daily, if we look to how our husband treats us, to see how much he love us, we can draw the husband dry. If he could constantly love you, he could be God but he is not and man cannot constantly love us. The only person that could love us constantly and without fail is JESUS.
How to draw from Jesus? You have to realise that you are the Righteousness of God in Christ that you will dare to go to Him, the Father, Abba, for love.
In our daily encounter with our spouse, surely there will be some disagreement, anger or unhappiness. The normal practise for man is to question the other party. But God made us in His image, we are the Righteousness of God in Christ. Man nature is of Christ, His body is pure, he could not accept any condemnation nor sickness. When he encounter it, his defence is up and surely nasty words will be thrown back in response to your accusation.
A couple of people, whom know of my divorce, was wondering why I could remain so peaceful even in this divorce. Even P also questioned me on this peacefulness.
This is about knowing my Daddy God, Abba Father, will surely take good care of me. In my walk for the 9-10 months of awakening to the reality, when I looked at what husband did, it would only bring pain, heartache, anger, resentment, even revenge. But I refuse to submit to the nature. I look to what Jesus provided me at the Cross. I cast all my sadness and unforgiving to Lord Jesus nail pierced hands. Lord is faithful in clearing all of the not peacefulness from me and bless me His Shalom Peace. Glory Glory.
Daily, whatever lemon that is thrown to us, be it from husband, kids or working colleagues or anyone that come into contact with us, cast the lemon to Lord Jesus nail pierced hand and look to Him for deliverance.
You could manifest the Lord's hand into (the situation or person you encounter). Bind the satan out of (the situation or person) and throw it down to hell in the name of Jesus. By praying this, you free that person from being use by satan to cause your unhappiness. After that, plea the blood of Jesus to seal up that person from satan manipulation.
It's through this daily walk that I draw peace from Jesus. With His Shalom Peace, He enabled me to love my family. When I show love, the person receiving surely, will response in peace and love. So, even in divorce where emotion can be so far stretched, P response in peace. As I cast all my emotion and feelings about P to Lord, and get Him to help me clear it off, I could even give P a hug, but it's a hug with no emotion involve. Deep right? Hehe...only by the Grace of Jesus that I was enabled to do it. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba father, I thank You for leading me to write this post. I know from the response in church, many marriage are under attack as hardly any husband nor wife said Amen to what Pastor Prince prompting and re-prompting. If you are facing situation at home, look to Christ for deliverance. Amen Amen!
In this marriage, if we go for Christ, we are into sin – adulterous. But in a marriage, if one party is to die, then the Law binding this marriage will not be applicable.
Lord Jesus is the willing sacrificing Lamb. He very willing to serve us. Whatever we cannot do, cannot fulfill, He did it for us. To die from this marriage to Law, Lord Jesus died for us and freed us, the child of God, from fulfilling the Law. He died and 3 days later rose again. Through this crucification on the cross, we died with Him and rose again as the new creation. 2 cor 5:17 'Therefore, if anyone IS in Christ, the old has gone, the new as come!
Since in Christ, we are New Creation, how to walk out this life of Christ. In this life, Christ is the one that willing and able to walk the life fulfilling the Law of Love. In our nature, we cannot and not able. Looking into our marriage, if we constantly draw our love out from our partner, we dry them up like a sour prune. But if we draw our love from Jesus, He gets stronger and stronger in us and will leads us to walk out His love.
I was looking at the couple, Pastor Prince used as demonstration on marriage to Jesus. The man is Jesus and the wife typify us, man. The wife was smiling on stage, but as Pastor Prince preached about whatever she needs and whatever she have to do in that marriage, Jesus, will surely provide the ability. Jesus will not condemn her. All that she need, he will provide, not her. As she looked to her husband instead of Jesus, the smile on her face was dropping off.
Daily, if we look to how our husband treats us, to see how much he love us, we can draw the husband dry. If he could constantly love you, he could be God but he is not and man cannot constantly love us. The only person that could love us constantly and without fail is JESUS.
How to draw from Jesus? You have to realise that you are the Righteousness of God in Christ that you will dare to go to Him, the Father, Abba, for love.
In our daily encounter with our spouse, surely there will be some disagreement, anger or unhappiness. The normal practise for man is to question the other party. But God made us in His image, we are the Righteousness of God in Christ. Man nature is of Christ, His body is pure, he could not accept any condemnation nor sickness. When he encounter it, his defence is up and surely nasty words will be thrown back in response to your accusation.
A couple of people, whom know of my divorce, was wondering why I could remain so peaceful even in this divorce. Even P also questioned me on this peacefulness.
This is about knowing my Daddy God, Abba Father, will surely take good care of me. In my walk for the 9-10 months of awakening to the reality, when I looked at what husband did, it would only bring pain, heartache, anger, resentment, even revenge. But I refuse to submit to the nature. I look to what Jesus provided me at the Cross. I cast all my sadness and unforgiving to Lord Jesus nail pierced hands. Lord is faithful in clearing all of the not peacefulness from me and bless me His Shalom Peace. Glory Glory.
Daily, whatever lemon that is thrown to us, be it from husband, kids or working colleagues or anyone that come into contact with us, cast the lemon to Lord Jesus nail pierced hand and look to Him for deliverance.
You could manifest the Lord's hand into (the situation or person you encounter). Bind the satan out of (the situation or person) and throw it down to hell in the name of Jesus. By praying this, you free that person from being use by satan to cause your unhappiness. After that, plea the blood of Jesus to seal up that person from satan manipulation.
It's through this daily walk that I draw peace from Jesus. With His Shalom Peace, He enabled me to love my family. When I show love, the person receiving surely, will response in peace and love. So, even in divorce where emotion can be so far stretched, P response in peace. As I cast all my emotion and feelings about P to Lord, and get Him to help me clear it off, I could even give P a hug, but it's a hug with no emotion involve. Deep right? Hehe...only by the Grace of Jesus that I was enabled to do it. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba father, I thank You for leading me to write this post. I know from the response in church, many marriage are under attack as hardly any husband nor wife said Amen to what Pastor Prince prompting and re-prompting. If you are facing situation at home, look to Christ for deliverance. Amen Amen!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Christ in Korean Show
Ever since I was absorbed by the Korean show in Channel U, Jin Shun, Lord had taught me about love. One thing about the actors and actresses, Su and me are spotting many of them put on cross earrings or wear as pendant around the neck. I guess they are written by Christian writer and acted by Christian. After all, one of the biggest church is in South Korea.
For Jin Shun, I was just knowing about my divorce and I cried so much one night watching Jin Shun over you tube on the great love between Zhai Xi and Jin Shun. I envied the great love between Zhai Xi and Jin Shun. They care so much for each other. This is what missing between P and me.
Over the next show, My Girl, this girl stands out so strong with her lies that it looks real. It let me realise that if only we could believe in Christ as much as like that girl in lying, many would be able to see their prayer come to past in their lives. After all, Holy Spirit shows sign and wonders according to what we confess with our mouth and thinks in our thoughts. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!
Today at mum's house, they were watching another Korean show my sister-in-law had purchased long ago. It's about a girl, whose house and all that in that house were stolen and sold by her 2 good friends and she was left penniless. An actor let her stay in his house and later made a proposal to her to be his paid wife. Paid to be a wife to shut up the media. He could demand her to do all form of house works and even though they had somewhat feeling for each other, basically she is not important in his life.
Ever since Lord cleared my bad thoughts of P, I would only remember his good points. Basically, if he didn't take me as a stranger, I could continue to live this life with him without realising love is missing. Just like the girl in the latest show, I could easily adjust to each other needs. But Lord is good. He let me watched this show to see how one could suffer without love in the marriage. Forever the man don't put the wife as top priority in his heart. He could demand all that he wants her to do. Lord let me see so clearly that I told Lord I will surely move ahead and go for the new man.
I used to wonder how a man could love and treasure me so much as Lord revealed. Recently, Lord revealed that he had gone through 3 rejections because of his pride. He was as proud of himself as P. His 3rd girlfriend was a pretty close match that he thought she was the true love. However, due to his pride, the girl could not stand any more and rejected his marriage proposal.
He was so affected by this breakup that he turned to Lord to clear away his pride and ego. He has been lonely ever since the last girl. His friend gave him some sermon CDs from NCC and he is now trusting Lord to bring a girl that can suit him to him. These 2+ years of loneliness, Lord has molded him to suit me. Glory Glory!
The more Lord revealed about him to me, the more I am attracted to wanting to know him. He sound like an overall good man for me. Glory Glory. With a Great and Almighty God as Abba, nothing can goes wrong. He perfected him for me and he is also changing me for him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, thank You!
For Jin Shun, I was just knowing about my divorce and I cried so much one night watching Jin Shun over you tube on the great love between Zhai Xi and Jin Shun. I envied the great love between Zhai Xi and Jin Shun. They care so much for each other. This is what missing between P and me.
Over the next show, My Girl, this girl stands out so strong with her lies that it looks real. It let me realise that if only we could believe in Christ as much as like that girl in lying, many would be able to see their prayer come to past in their lives. After all, Holy Spirit shows sign and wonders according to what we confess with our mouth and thinks in our thoughts. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!
Today at mum's house, they were watching another Korean show my sister-in-law had purchased long ago. It's about a girl, whose house and all that in that house were stolen and sold by her 2 good friends and she was left penniless. An actor let her stay in his house and later made a proposal to her to be his paid wife. Paid to be a wife to shut up the media. He could demand her to do all form of house works and even though they had somewhat feeling for each other, basically she is not important in his life.
Ever since Lord cleared my bad thoughts of P, I would only remember his good points. Basically, if he didn't take me as a stranger, I could continue to live this life with him without realising love is missing. Just like the girl in the latest show, I could easily adjust to each other needs. But Lord is good. He let me watched this show to see how one could suffer without love in the marriage. Forever the man don't put the wife as top priority in his heart. He could demand all that he wants her to do. Lord let me see so clearly that I told Lord I will surely move ahead and go for the new man.
I used to wonder how a man could love and treasure me so much as Lord revealed. Recently, Lord revealed that he had gone through 3 rejections because of his pride. He was as proud of himself as P. His 3rd girlfriend was a pretty close match that he thought she was the true love. However, due to his pride, the girl could not stand any more and rejected his marriage proposal.
He was so affected by this breakup that he turned to Lord to clear away his pride and ego. He has been lonely ever since the last girl. His friend gave him some sermon CDs from NCC and he is now trusting Lord to bring a girl that can suit him to him. These 2+ years of loneliness, Lord has molded him to suit me. Glory Glory!
The more Lord revealed about him to me, the more I am attracted to wanting to know him. He sound like an overall good man for me. Glory Glory. With a Great and Almighty God as Abba, nothing can goes wrong. He perfected him for me and he is also changing me for him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, thank You!
Monday, August 3, 2009
Lord is Faithful
Through this divorce posting, Lord has revealed that there are some disbelieve heart out there. Some would question that why Lord lead me through that. It's not like him. Lord is a very versatile God. He does not suit 1 rule for all. Between me and Su, we both have the same kind of husband. What P went through recent 1 year, HL (Su's hubby) went through 10 years ago. Why different result? Why Lord changed HL to a loving husband and have me divorce my husband?
Lord is not a heartless God. He does not give up any person easily. Even for my husband, these 2 years, he has been softening P from a hard man to a soft man. He even tried to convince him a few times. But P continued to listen to youtube those talks on God is about wrath, nastiness etc. P told me whatever Pastor Prince preached, he knows, but he choose to disbelieve.
On personal level, Lord led me to sleep naked and even hugged P and even service him. But nothing touch his heart. Lord tested and tried different areas till in the end, he said nothing could touch his heart any more and told me to give up.
Even so, Lord prepared me since May for this final ok to divorce in July. P gladly accepted it. He even told me that he actually wanted to divorce me since January. He did not directly tell me so, just hinting me here and there and expect me to catch it. I was trusting Lord all the while to change him, but P said I was in my denial.
I am glad that Lord leads me in all areas, even in things unknown. I am glad that Angie emailed me. I am glad that there are people out there praying for me. Thank you very much! I appreciates your kind gestures. I know there are some disbelieve heart out there as this is what Lord reveals to me:
Lord:
'Many look at your blog and wondered if I could really bless you such a wonderful man. You trust every words breath by me and do not doubt. Abba is very pleased. Yes, Ax is real. He is really going to be so loving towards you. It's all the Grace and Mercy of Jesus at the Cross. Surely you will love him much. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'Your Ax will come to past in December. This event is as real as the death and resurrection of Jesus. Glory Glory!'
Abba Father, I am glad that in my hopelessness, you give me hope and promise me a future. I need not look to the future in fear. I could rest in your Peace and let you bring your blessing to past. Glory Glory! Abba Father, I am glad I have you as my father. My loving daddy that loves me so much! How can I say 'No' to such a wonderful God, who happens to be my Daddy? Oh, I am glad to bath in his love. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord is not a heartless God. He does not give up any person easily. Even for my husband, these 2 years, he has been softening P from a hard man to a soft man. He even tried to convince him a few times. But P continued to listen to youtube those talks on God is about wrath, nastiness etc. P told me whatever Pastor Prince preached, he knows, but he choose to disbelieve.
On personal level, Lord led me to sleep naked and even hugged P and even service him. But nothing touch his heart. Lord tested and tried different areas till in the end, he said nothing could touch his heart any more and told me to give up.
Even so, Lord prepared me since May for this final ok to divorce in July. P gladly accepted it. He even told me that he actually wanted to divorce me since January. He did not directly tell me so, just hinting me here and there and expect me to catch it. I was trusting Lord all the while to change him, but P said I was in my denial.
I am glad that Lord leads me in all areas, even in things unknown. I am glad that Angie emailed me. I am glad that there are people out there praying for me. Thank you very much! I appreciates your kind gestures. I know there are some disbelieve heart out there as this is what Lord reveals to me:
Lord:
'Many look at your blog and wondered if I could really bless you such a wonderful man. You trust every words breath by me and do not doubt. Abba is very pleased. Yes, Ax is real. He is really going to be so loving towards you. It's all the Grace and Mercy of Jesus at the Cross. Surely you will love him much. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'Your Ax will come to past in December. This event is as real as the death and resurrection of Jesus. Glory Glory!'
Abba Father, I am glad that in my hopelessness, you give me hope and promise me a future. I need not look to the future in fear. I could rest in your Peace and let you bring your blessing to past. Glory Glory! Abba Father, I am glad I have you as my father. My loving daddy that loves me so much! How can I say 'No' to such a wonderful God, who happens to be my Daddy? Oh, I am glad to bath in his love. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
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