I would like to dedicate this post to my Daddy God and to Lord Jesus and to my Holy Spirit. Without them, I don't know how shall I live. Glory to His 5 loaves and 2 fish miracle in my life. Hallelujah! Holy Holy!
It seems like, when ex went away, the attack on my end was doubled. This time round, I found myself getting weaker and weaker. This morning, I had to pray to Lord to manifest His miracle of 5 loaves and 2 fish in my life, in my strength and in my energy, etc!
Opening a bottle of 1.5 litre drink was becoming a hard task, this is to show you how much life had devil suck dry of me. It's was the same for Jc and my mum too. Sweeping the floor become too tedious a job. I had to exert much strength to do some of it. That was how bad I and my family had deteriorated under the attack!
Lord is Good! As I dragged myself to church, yes, with much efforts and breath, I prayed to Lord to create His Abundance miracle in my life, energy, strength, muscle, breath, blood, etc. Lord is faithful, He came strongly to strengthen me at the start of worship and continued His Strengthening throughout the whole worship session. At the end of it, He showed me a vision of the Garden of Eden. Glory Glory!
I didn't have the strength to even worship the Lord and had to pass my whole being to the Lord for Him to come in me and come through me to help me worship Abba Father! I told Him I could not come close to Him and prayed to Lord to pull me closed to Him instead. He is always a Faithful God! Glory Glory! In my weakness, He is my Strength! Amen Amen! I am strengthen up to normal again. Glory Glory!
Ex came on Friday and gave Jc 2 shirts, but one of them was cursed and of a different material. I suspect he bought it in those $2 shop to serve as this purpose. Anyway, Lord gave me wisdom to dump it away. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I wrote this post to remind myself of ex evilness. As I know if Lord make me young and sexy and rich again, he might want to make a u-turn. Even I have soft heart, I do not want to be fooled by him anymore! Without love, he could act loving effortlessly! Many local girls had gaga over him, his sincere looking face cheated many of them. Getting girls is not a problem for him, especially he is financially strong to use money to lure them. I don't want to fall into his soft talking voice that he used to unarm his opponents.
Lord goes through great efforts to show me how bad he is, I really appreciate Him. I am a woman that needed love and I am patiently waiting for the right moment for Lord to bring the new man to me. As I passed all my hatred, anger, regrets, hurts to Lord, I have no more evil feeling for him. But I don't want to expose myself to his tactics again. I have enough, I just want a new life without him in the picture! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, I pray to You to be my Reminder. Please help me to recall his evilness so that I will not be his prey again. I pray in Jesus Name! Amen Amen!
Lord, I thank You for being so Faithful to me. I know You will continue to love me and take good care of me. I thank You from the bottom of my heart! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Monday, April 30, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Something out of Nothing
In this world, where people always tries to be somebody, to hold something in your hands, to have something to boast about, to become something, is all strive to be. Those that did not hit it will not feel good about it. Especially what the world lay out to be, so many things that are tempting you and all that you want with your life.
It always good to have someone who can click with you, somebody that would listen to you...who don't want an audience? None! It's hard to be alone and harder to be lonely. However bad as it is, it is not really that bad!!!
Who is the middle child? I don't know about others, but for me, it was no fun to struck in the middle of the 5 of us. It as if the elder 2 will take care of the younger 2 and I the middle, take care of my self. My mother, who shows more care and concern to the eldest and the youngest, did not help in making me feel wanted too.
I don't have the skill of socialing did not help too. What was worst is I do not like to get too close to someone. It's like 2 magnets with the same poles, they repell if you try to put them together. All these made me seeking for love more!
When ex came along, he was good in talking about what women want to hear. He knows how to convince you to make you comfortable with him. One who so good in this area, and one who not much friends to begin with, this is the disaster union so to speak!
Coming to Lord Jesus is also another incident encounter. If I did not have that stipid devil that causing me lots of sleepless night, I won't even think of going to Jesus for help. I was happy in my ignorance. The encounter with the Lord was a force to rather than willingly come to.
In the pride of self, Lord could mould me down to seek Him. In my insecure for Love, I went deep in to find His Love, the intensity of it. It was with such, I become stable in Him. He shook the life out of the Union of Lies, to let me get away from misery. Glory Glory!
With nothingness to self, I could trust Him in His Greatness. Maybe that's why!! I discover it pretty hard to get people to let go of who they are. Maybe, Lord led me through all this emptiness and shitty life so that I could embrace all that He have! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I mean, who would think He would want to bless me so much and lift me so high up??? It's something not imaginable! Plus to live so long and whole family generation after generation blessed is all beyond my imagination!!!
In these world, where everyone is chasing the rat, the rat race, Lord said there is a better way! By chasing after Jesus, to listen to Him, to read His Words, to talk to Him, I am lifted up!!! Things that is gone, could be things that is growing abundantly! Bad cannot be bad anymore as it could be good under His Hand!
The nothing in me, become the Something in Him!!! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!
It always good to have someone who can click with you, somebody that would listen to you...who don't want an audience? None! It's hard to be alone and harder to be lonely. However bad as it is, it is not really that bad!!!
Who is the middle child? I don't know about others, but for me, it was no fun to struck in the middle of the 5 of us. It as if the elder 2 will take care of the younger 2 and I the middle, take care of my self. My mother, who shows more care and concern to the eldest and the youngest, did not help in making me feel wanted too.
I don't have the skill of socialing did not help too. What was worst is I do not like to get too close to someone. It's like 2 magnets with the same poles, they repell if you try to put them together. All these made me seeking for love more!
When ex came along, he was good in talking about what women want to hear. He knows how to convince you to make you comfortable with him. One who so good in this area, and one who not much friends to begin with, this is the disaster union so to speak!
Coming to Lord Jesus is also another incident encounter. If I did not have that stipid devil that causing me lots of sleepless night, I won't even think of going to Jesus for help. I was happy in my ignorance. The encounter with the Lord was a force to rather than willingly come to.
In the pride of self, Lord could mould me down to seek Him. In my insecure for Love, I went deep in to find His Love, the intensity of it. It was with such, I become stable in Him. He shook the life out of the Union of Lies, to let me get away from misery. Glory Glory!
With nothingness to self, I could trust Him in His Greatness. Maybe that's why!! I discover it pretty hard to get people to let go of who they are. Maybe, Lord led me through all this emptiness and shitty life so that I could embrace all that He have! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
I mean, who would think He would want to bless me so much and lift me so high up??? It's something not imaginable! Plus to live so long and whole family generation after generation blessed is all beyond my imagination!!!
In these world, where everyone is chasing the rat, the rat race, Lord said there is a better way! By chasing after Jesus, to listen to Him, to read His Words, to talk to Him, I am lifted up!!! Things that is gone, could be things that is growing abundantly! Bad cannot be bad anymore as it could be good under His Hand!
The nothing in me, become the Something in Him!!! Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!
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