Since my early days of acceptance of Christ, Lord has led me to see all human beings as sinless. It's like a banana that is white and pure inside, and all the sins that was tagged onto them was the outside skin of the banana. Lord let me see that they are righteousness of God and is sinless. Many that had offended me I am able to love them readily.
However, in all learning, Lord just don't stop there. As each walk with Him, He leads to tougher and tougher ground to let one to be tested. All these testing is to bring about the goodness of Him to be shining out of us. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
As such, you see me gone through many rounds of testing from the various posts that I had put in this blog. Of course, I hardly put the actual fact of suffering I gone through. Most of the time, I post when I looked to Christ and received the deliverance and the post is about thanking Him, who is Faithful. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Even my walk into the divorce, I walked in with a heavy heart. I was loving ex so much that I could not let go. But as Lord had led me for so long and I know of His Goodness, I trust in His judgement. When I heard from sis about the impending divorce, I double confirmed with Lord. Whatever suffering, Lord gave time to heal.
As such, I was informed of the divorce in May and the actual process started in July. Lord led me through a week of grief initially and then for the actual day, I only grief for less than a day. His Great Promise upheld me. Glory Glory!
Of course now I know better. Before divorce, ex did not have a good understanding of me. Usually, his assumption of me was wrong, but I too tired to correct him as it's his words against my word. Hard to prove.
Lord, who knows all things, know about this. This divorce is actually beneficially to me than harm. Glory Glory! From how I behaved in divorce towards ex, and how SF's wife behaved, ex could see a different. Also, from his new girlfriend and SF's new girlfriend, he could understand me better when comparing of how each of them treat him and treated SF. Glory Glory!
I don't know why, but lately ex has been staying a bit longer each time he came to pick Jc. Even when everyone supposed to leave the house and me stayed behind alone, he would purposely stayed behind to talk for some 20-30mins. This has happened for a few weeks now.
Previously, he would just picked Jc and be gone. So this is a change in him that I noticed. Glory Glory! He has also been more pleasant to me. Previously, I could see his pretence and even not friendliness. But lately, he seem like a changed man! Glory Glory!
This week, watching Sid Roth and this guest, Kerry Kirkwood, shared that to walk in Jesus blessing, we have to come in line with his way; even when things turn out nasty on us, we must not curse but we should bless the enemy with a full revelation of Jesus!
With this learning, I am begining to bind the satan that attacked me but bless the one who cursed me. Glory Glory! With this, the dislike in me of my neighbours and SF are gone. Glory Glory! I have forgotten about looking at all human as sinless with all these spiritual attacks, but Lord has opened my eyes to see it again. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, thank YOU for your reopening of my eyes to walk in Jesus fullness. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Jesus Knocking the Door
With a somewhat sad heart, I am writing this. You know, it's amazing that not all people wants the goodness that Jesus can and will provide. I thought most people want good things, want good life? Isn't all these are what that made them yoke so hard at work and in hospitals, or with medicines?
Even with life threatening case, I encountered rejections. It just beyong my understanding. First is my dad! At first he wanted it, but he expected Jesus to do magic. His pride was in the way. But when sickness knocked him weak, the best time to receive, he rather keep quiet. I even prayed to Jesus by His Great Grace, as long as dad sing, or say a word of the chinese worship song, to penetrate in the healing power.
Lord agreed, but dad rejected. He didn't even want to mention a word. I could not understand. He rather face death then speak that needed word of faith! But Lord is faithful. Even when he turned back to his idol, Lord was there to guard him at his death bed and brought him up to Heaven. Hallelujah! I was there to witness it! Glory to Jesus for the right time at the right place!
If you have been following the web or local newspaper here in Singapore, you may encounter this girl, Charmaine Lim, who was fighting with neuroblastom since she was 4 to now 6. They had raised the money to go US for treatment but sickness still around and had worsen. Reading about her mum, so worry about her health, you might thought they want healing. But no, I had contacted them through the blog, even when there were replies before, no, they didn't want Lord to go pray healing, they want remote healing, whichever God that could!
Lord has been knocking and knocking at her door, but they don't want Lord to go heal her. Sad Sad Sad! Looking at now she needed blood platelet because there are blood in her urine, I though maybe I prayed a relief prayer for her. The satan attacking her body was a strong one. He intented to kill her.
I prayed to Lord to renew her kidneys and to 5 loaves 2 fish miracle to fill her with enough blood, Lord did that, but the satan on her was not happy and come attacked me yesterday afternoon. I was knocked off for 30 mins! Blessed that Lord is full with me, so no great harm come to me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
For this kind of healing, usually have to put anointed oil on the forehead, both palms and the feets. That's how Lord taught me when I prayed for dad, when he lost conscious for many hours, and for nephew, whom I first time saw a satan as big as him got up from him and this sight had given me a shock for the first time then.
If could pray remotely, I would have pray to Lord for Charmaine. It was many saints had prayed for her that Lord initiated me to contact her. Guess, need the anointed oil to seal up the satan from attacking me. Praise Jesus that He stopped me from prayer for the removal of all the tumours. Otherwise, I don't know what might happen to me. Glory Glory!
Anyway, Lord is not a great bully. He will not push his way through. He respect man's choice. Only when doors are opened, He will then enter. He will not force His Way in even though He has all the answer to man's problem. Glory Glory!
Phew! After pouring out all these, I am in peace now. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Even with life threatening case, I encountered rejections. It just beyong my understanding. First is my dad! At first he wanted it, but he expected Jesus to do magic. His pride was in the way. But when sickness knocked him weak, the best time to receive, he rather keep quiet. I even prayed to Jesus by His Great Grace, as long as dad sing, or say a word of the chinese worship song, to penetrate in the healing power.
Lord agreed, but dad rejected. He didn't even want to mention a word. I could not understand. He rather face death then speak that needed word of faith! But Lord is faithful. Even when he turned back to his idol, Lord was there to guard him at his death bed and brought him up to Heaven. Hallelujah! I was there to witness it! Glory to Jesus for the right time at the right place!
If you have been following the web or local newspaper here in Singapore, you may encounter this girl, Charmaine Lim, who was fighting with neuroblastom since she was 4 to now 6. They had raised the money to go US for treatment but sickness still around and had worsen. Reading about her mum, so worry about her health, you might thought they want healing. But no, I had contacted them through the blog, even when there were replies before, no, they didn't want Lord to go pray healing, they want remote healing, whichever God that could!
Lord has been knocking and knocking at her door, but they don't want Lord to go heal her. Sad Sad Sad! Looking at now she needed blood platelet because there are blood in her urine, I though maybe I prayed a relief prayer for her. The satan attacking her body was a strong one. He intented to kill her.
I prayed to Lord to renew her kidneys and to 5 loaves 2 fish miracle to fill her with enough blood, Lord did that, but the satan on her was not happy and come attacked me yesterday afternoon. I was knocked off for 30 mins! Blessed that Lord is full with me, so no great harm come to me. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
For this kind of healing, usually have to put anointed oil on the forehead, both palms and the feets. That's how Lord taught me when I prayed for dad, when he lost conscious for many hours, and for nephew, whom I first time saw a satan as big as him got up from him and this sight had given me a shock for the first time then.
If could pray remotely, I would have pray to Lord for Charmaine. It was many saints had prayed for her that Lord initiated me to contact her. Guess, need the anointed oil to seal up the satan from attacking me. Praise Jesus that He stopped me from prayer for the removal of all the tumours. Otherwise, I don't know what might happen to me. Glory Glory!
Anyway, Lord is not a great bully. He will not push his way through. He respect man's choice. Only when doors are opened, He will then enter. He will not force His Way in even though He has all the answer to man's problem. Glory Glory!
Phew! After pouring out all these, I am in peace now. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
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