Ever since I was absorbed by the Korean show in Channel U, Jin Shun, Lord had taught me about love. One thing about the actors and actresses, Su and me are spotting many of them put on cross earrings or wear as pendant around the neck. I guess they are written by Christian writer and acted by Christian. After all, one of the biggest church is in South Korea.
For Jin Shun, I was just knowing about my divorce and I cried so much one night watching Jin Shun over you tube on the great love between Zhai Xi and Jin Shun. I envied the great love between Zhai Xi and Jin Shun. They care so much for each other. This is what missing between P and me.
Over the next show, My Girl, this girl stands out so strong with her lies that it looks real. It let me realise that if only we could believe in Christ as much as like that girl in lying, many would be able to see their prayer come to past in their lives. After all, Holy Spirit shows sign and wonders according to what we confess with our mouth and thinks in our thoughts. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!!!
Today at mum's house, they were watching another Korean show my sister-in-law had purchased long ago. It's about a girl, whose house and all that in that house were stolen and sold by her 2 good friends and she was left penniless. An actor let her stay in his house and later made a proposal to her to be his paid wife. Paid to be a wife to shut up the media. He could demand her to do all form of house works and even though they had somewhat feeling for each other, basically she is not important in his life.
Ever since Lord cleared my bad thoughts of P, I would only remember his good points. Basically, if he didn't take me as a stranger, I could continue to live this life with him without realising love is missing. Just like the girl in the latest show, I could easily adjust to each other needs. But Lord is good. He let me watched this show to see how one could suffer without love in the marriage. Forever the man don't put the wife as top priority in his heart. He could demand all that he wants her to do. Lord let me see so clearly that I told Lord I will surely move ahead and go for the new man.
I used to wonder how a man could love and treasure me so much as Lord revealed. Recently, Lord revealed that he had gone through 3 rejections because of his pride. He was as proud of himself as P. His 3rd girlfriend was a pretty close match that he thought she was the true love. However, due to his pride, the girl could not stand any more and rejected his marriage proposal.
He was so affected by this breakup that he turned to Lord to clear away his pride and ego. He has been lonely ever since the last girl. His friend gave him some sermon CDs from NCC and he is now trusting Lord to bring a girl that can suit him to him. These 2+ years of loneliness, Lord has molded him to suit me. Glory Glory!
The more Lord revealed about him to me, the more I am attracted to wanting to know him. He sound like an overall good man for me. Glory Glory. With a Great and Almighty God as Abba, nothing can goes wrong. He perfected him for me and he is also changing me for him. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Abba Father, thank You!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Monday, August 3, 2009
Lord is Faithful
Through this divorce posting, Lord has revealed that there are some disbelieve heart out there. Some would question that why Lord lead me through that. It's not like him. Lord is a very versatile God. He does not suit 1 rule for all. Between me and Su, we both have the same kind of husband. What P went through recent 1 year, HL (Su's hubby) went through 10 years ago. Why different result? Why Lord changed HL to a loving husband and have me divorce my husband?
Lord is not a heartless God. He does not give up any person easily. Even for my husband, these 2 years, he has been softening P from a hard man to a soft man. He even tried to convince him a few times. But P continued to listen to youtube those talks on God is about wrath, nastiness etc. P told me whatever Pastor Prince preached, he knows, but he choose to disbelieve.
On personal level, Lord led me to sleep naked and even hugged P and even service him. But nothing touch his heart. Lord tested and tried different areas till in the end, he said nothing could touch his heart any more and told me to give up.
Even so, Lord prepared me since May for this final ok to divorce in July. P gladly accepted it. He even told me that he actually wanted to divorce me since January. He did not directly tell me so, just hinting me here and there and expect me to catch it. I was trusting Lord all the while to change him, but P said I was in my denial.
I am glad that Lord leads me in all areas, even in things unknown. I am glad that Angie emailed me. I am glad that there are people out there praying for me. Thank you very much! I appreciates your kind gestures. I know there are some disbelieve heart out there as this is what Lord reveals to me:
Lord:
'Many look at your blog and wondered if I could really bless you such a wonderful man. You trust every words breath by me and do not doubt. Abba is very pleased. Yes, Ax is real. He is really going to be so loving towards you. It's all the Grace and Mercy of Jesus at the Cross. Surely you will love him much. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'Your Ax will come to past in December. This event is as real as the death and resurrection of Jesus. Glory Glory!'
Abba Father, I am glad that in my hopelessness, you give me hope and promise me a future. I need not look to the future in fear. I could rest in your Peace and let you bring your blessing to past. Glory Glory! Abba Father, I am glad I have you as my father. My loving daddy that loves me so much! How can I say 'No' to such a wonderful God, who happens to be my Daddy? Oh, I am glad to bath in his love. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
Lord is not a heartless God. He does not give up any person easily. Even for my husband, these 2 years, he has been softening P from a hard man to a soft man. He even tried to convince him a few times. But P continued to listen to youtube those talks on God is about wrath, nastiness etc. P told me whatever Pastor Prince preached, he knows, but he choose to disbelieve.
On personal level, Lord led me to sleep naked and even hugged P and even service him. But nothing touch his heart. Lord tested and tried different areas till in the end, he said nothing could touch his heart any more and told me to give up.
Even so, Lord prepared me since May for this final ok to divorce in July. P gladly accepted it. He even told me that he actually wanted to divorce me since January. He did not directly tell me so, just hinting me here and there and expect me to catch it. I was trusting Lord all the while to change him, but P said I was in my denial.
I am glad that Lord leads me in all areas, even in things unknown. I am glad that Angie emailed me. I am glad that there are people out there praying for me. Thank you very much! I appreciates your kind gestures. I know there are some disbelieve heart out there as this is what Lord reveals to me:
Lord:
'Many look at your blog and wondered if I could really bless you such a wonderful man. You trust every words breath by me and do not doubt. Abba is very pleased. Yes, Ax is real. He is really going to be so loving towards you. It's all the Grace and Mercy of Jesus at the Cross. Surely you will love him much. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!'
'Your Ax will come to past in December. This event is as real as the death and resurrection of Jesus. Glory Glory!'
Abba Father, I am glad that in my hopelessness, you give me hope and promise me a future. I need not look to the future in fear. I could rest in your Peace and let you bring your blessing to past. Glory Glory! Abba Father, I am glad I have you as my father. My loving daddy that loves me so much! How can I say 'No' to such a wonderful God, who happens to be my Daddy? Oh, I am glad to bath in his love. Glory Glory! Amen Amen!
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