Recently, even though hubby was delivered from his pits, he has totally no feeling for me. Worst, in Su's meditation, Lord mentioned that I will be facing a very nasty divorce. That was 2 days ago revelation. I was at my wit end. Should I discard believing Jesus and go back to hubby or should I stay? I am very unwilling to leave Jesus too. Abba rising me up as a healer and he has declared that I am ready to walk the path He set for me. I feel sad that if I leave, then who is going to let Lord come thru to heal the nations? Should I stay with Lord or should I go for my husband?
These 2 plus years of walking with Lord, I know He is 'I M Possible', so how can he not change the heart of my hubby? With a heavy heart, I sent Jc to her enrichment class. In that center, I had met a very blessed lady and she has told me many time that her prayer works. Recently, just realised that she has been praying in the spirit, going around her garden 10 rounds, 1.5 hrs of praying, morning and evening. From recently Israel trip, learnt from Sidney that he prayed a lot in the spirit and get blessed. No wonder this lady H is greatly blessed and her prayer works.
I requested her to pray for my relationship with my hubby. From her, I learn this prayer:
Abba father, by the Grace of Lord Jesus, may you manifest your Lord's hand into (whatever situation) to bind Satan out and throw it down to hell in the Name of Jesus. Amen!
As I went for my morning prayer walk, Lord led me to pray the above prayer for my relationship with my hubby. Lord impressed me with a down spirit that I went home instead. At home, using the same prayer, I prayed for our relationship, his relationship with another female subordinate, the thought of divorce in him, his lust for other women, his drinking of beer/liquor, him, me and my daughter relationship, his no love for me. In fact, whatever that I could think of, I prayed to Lord to bind Satan out of it.
Lord was so happy after that! He told me Satan has blocked his feeling for me, no wonder the sudden totally don't bother about me! With this prayer his love for me is back again. All the Satanic power was bind by Lord and finally he was freed from Satan control! Hallelujah!!!
Abba told me to use this prayer instead of my usual prayer 'to manifest Lord's hand in a person, to judge the adversary and bless and restore that person'. Lord said binding Satan point directly at Satan and He is able to deliver the situation. Praise the Lord for this powerful prayer that is so effective!
Finally, the darkness that linger between me and hubby is lifted and lights of righteousness shone in. Finally, I could have a heart to heart talk with hubby last night! Glory to Lord Jesus!!!
Abba father, thank you for leading me to learn this effective prayer. You were in great Joy that rise up so mightily to talk so joyfully to me and Su. Glory Glory! As we manifest Lord's hand to bind Satan from blinding the lost sheep Lord Jesus, abba father, I am glad more of your lost sheep is coming back to you. Glory to Lord Jesus!!! Amen and Amen!!!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
The Love of Jesus
Recent encounter in life, let me realise how great is the LOVE of JESUS. Since young, I am always fighting with boys. Young time, my fighting partner was my brother, because mum loves him much and he need not do housework at all. I feel that it was unfair. In my marriage, I also make sure my hubby take charge of certain house work. I do not want to be the only one doing.
My relationship with hubby actually had gone down the hill to hit the pit. I am glad that in this low moment, Lord is there to uphold me. He leads me to be the submissive wife, taking care of hubby's needs, from daily needs to sexual satisfaction. To serve him as I would serving a lover and looking for his love. Tempting him to come home for dinner. After 2 weeks of being a submissive wife, I am reaching my burn out point. In the natural, hard to put myself into serving an able body. But to save this marriage, I have to do it.
As bad mood takes over me today, I am feeling sick of it. Just as I was wallowing myself, Lord leads me to think of Jesus. I for 2 weeks, bring my hubby drinks, fondle him, offer all sex services to please him. I was thinking, what the hack that I must do all these and where is the part of satisfying myself? I was listening to the worship song, 'Gospel Revolution'. As I think of Lord Jesus, Abba father, I realised what a Great Saviour cum Lover is He. Praise the Lord!
Before I even know him, Lord Jesus walked a righteous life for me and went to the cross for me so that I could get His Righteousness and receive His Great Grace and Mercy to live a victorious life. He demonstrated His Love to me and waited patiently for me to come close to Him. At each step of coming close, He blessed the walk with him that I might keep in interest to walk closer. Praise the Lord!
I was looking at how much I did and how far hubby has responded. The do so much for so little feeling leads to my frustration. It was through this that I realise, Abba Father is very patient. Each day He resides in me, He waits there for me to talk to Him and worship him. Sometime out of bad mood, I don't bother much about His Love, but He is still there loving me. His patience and endurance to wait for me to response to His love is great! He never complain nor has he move away. He is always there to comfort me and lead me close to Him. Compare to Him, I am a nothing. I was just showing love for 2 weeks and I am tired. But Lord is still faithfully waiting for all His children to walk closely with him.
Just now after doing jc's pizza and hubby's, I really so tired in the heart that I did not want to do my own pizza any more. While sitting on my chair, Lord strengthened me up to prepare my own pizza, praise the Lord!
Abba father, you are so faithful and patient. We, all your children of God, guess your neck has grown very long, waiting for us to call on you and rest in you. Abba father, thank you for walking closely with me and lift up my head each time I fell off. Glory to Lord Jesus! Amen & Amen!
PS: My marriage is in recovery stage now. We are no more strangers in this marriage. We have move to friendship level. The breakdown of the marriage is due to Christianity. I for and He against. Praise the Lord that He is my Saviour! Amen & Amen!
My relationship with hubby actually had gone down the hill to hit the pit. I am glad that in this low moment, Lord is there to uphold me. He leads me to be the submissive wife, taking care of hubby's needs, from daily needs to sexual satisfaction. To serve him as I would serving a lover and looking for his love. Tempting him to come home for dinner. After 2 weeks of being a submissive wife, I am reaching my burn out point. In the natural, hard to put myself into serving an able body. But to save this marriage, I have to do it.
As bad mood takes over me today, I am feeling sick of it. Just as I was wallowing myself, Lord leads me to think of Jesus. I for 2 weeks, bring my hubby drinks, fondle him, offer all sex services to please him. I was thinking, what the hack that I must do all these and where is the part of satisfying myself? I was listening to the worship song, 'Gospel Revolution'. As I think of Lord Jesus, Abba father, I realised what a Great Saviour cum Lover is He. Praise the Lord!
Before I even know him, Lord Jesus walked a righteous life for me and went to the cross for me so that I could get His Righteousness and receive His Great Grace and Mercy to live a victorious life. He demonstrated His Love to me and waited patiently for me to come close to Him. At each step of coming close, He blessed the walk with him that I might keep in interest to walk closer. Praise the Lord!
I was looking at how much I did and how far hubby has responded. The do so much for so little feeling leads to my frustration. It was through this that I realise, Abba Father is very patient. Each day He resides in me, He waits there for me to talk to Him and worship him. Sometime out of bad mood, I don't bother much about His Love, but He is still there loving me. His patience and endurance to wait for me to response to His love is great! He never complain nor has he move away. He is always there to comfort me and lead me close to Him. Compare to Him, I am a nothing. I was just showing love for 2 weeks and I am tired. But Lord is still faithfully waiting for all His children to walk closely with him.
Just now after doing jc's pizza and hubby's, I really so tired in the heart that I did not want to do my own pizza any more. While sitting on my chair, Lord strengthened me up to prepare my own pizza, praise the Lord!
Abba father, you are so faithful and patient. We, all your children of God, guess your neck has grown very long, waiting for us to call on you and rest in you. Abba father, thank you for walking closely with me and lift up my head each time I fell off. Glory to Lord Jesus! Amen & Amen!
PS: My marriage is in recovery stage now. We are no more strangers in this marriage. We have move to friendship level. The breakdown of the marriage is due to Christianity. I for and He against. Praise the Lord that He is my Saviour! Amen & Amen!
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