Lord Wisdom

Ever since marriage, the recent disagreement with hubby is one of the most serious strains in our relationship. I hardly saw him so stern. The last round when we had cold war was when I was having JC in my tummy. I liked durian and he disliked it and because I craved for durian and bought some to eat at home, we had cold war for a few days. His heart only melted when I could not stand the coldness from him and cried a few days later.

This time round, I know that hubby was unhappy with me for teaching my girl about Lord Jesus. If just based on this fact, I would have fight with him and let Lord show His blessings to him to let him see that such a God exist. Blessed is me that Lord is with me. As I was in cold war with hubby, Su pondered over his disbelieve in God. Lord told Su that hubby did not have faith with Him when he was young. He prayed for blessing, when he saw his friends got theirs but not he, he was angry and moved away from Lord.

Recent months, as I moved closer and closer to Lord, I did share about some goodness of Lord Jesus to hubby. However, with his disbelieve, he pushed all things off. In the end, I just stopped sharing any more and grow myself in the Lord. However, in the process, I put hubby outside my life.

Recently, Lord through YC shared about hubby loved me a lot. This is what she shared recently:

You know he is interested in knowing more. But your method of telling him was wrong, so he does not understand you, so he resist.

He loves you, he wants to know you are well, and understand you.

As a father, he is also protective toward his kid

That is why he resists, as he does not understand what is going on

In addition, he thinks you put him second to your faith. This is compounding the issue, and he is worried you are no longer there for him

You need to show him you love him. Talk does not work, action speak louder

You tell him about blessing and what god tells you. He thinks you are losing your mind, so he got really worried. He loves you but does not want to lose you.

Your action did nothing to comfort him or assure him

Instead it "seem" to prove that you are going nuts....naturally he is very worried.

You need to spend more time with him

With the above sharing from the Lord, it shred some light to what actually is happening. With this understanding, I have submitted to his demand to stop sharing about Jesus to JC. He finally smiled yesterday. Praise the Lord!

Lord let me recalled the story of Joseph, who was sold by his brothers as a slave, he believe that God let him went through that to get him to where he was finally. He trusted the Lord all the way and God made him prosperous even when he was a slave. With this story, I know Lord will sure bless me out of the situation.

Lord has shared that my blessings and Su n David blessings is coming. He shared that we will have a very joyful Christmas celebration. Looking forward to receive the blessings sure is good feeling. But knowing that hubby eyes will be open to see the Lord is what I am looking more for. Praise the Lord!

Daddy God, Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit, thank You for blessing my life and leading me towards a better future. Praise Your Almighty Name, Lord Jesus, and Praise You for being such a wonderful Saviour! Amen!

My Lord, My Saviour

Through this event of my dad brain tumor is discovered and facing death in the face, I really very thankful that I and Su know Father God, Lord Jesus and Holy Spirit. In this darkest moment in the life of my family, it was a helpless event if we did not have Lord with us.

No matter how strong we are, when encounter with a threatening death of our closed family member, tears automatically runs. For we, human, have no power to overcome it. All we could do is depends on the “magical hand” of the so called specialist. Imagine this so called super good brain surgeon, his subordinate surgeon told us that he is her teacher’s teacher.

He proposed surgery for my dad tumor. I asked him his success rate. He said 10% complication, I thought 90% success. He said no, 90% no complication. Success rate, he dare not quote. Under such hopeless situation, how are we, the family members, and my dad, the patient, going to put our trust on him? It was like a no choice option. Hiaz

Praise the Lord; I have a BIG BIG Saviour with me. He, who had conquered death and rose again for me. He, who with His Blood, removed all my sins and made me justified/righteous because He had been judged in my place for all my sins and curses. He even overcome the judgment before He gave up his spirit and went down to hell for 3 days to conquer them and rose again. Hallelujah!

As such, I know that when Lord told me not worry, He will heal my dad, I know He will and He would. I know that when Lord heals, He will heal from the root of the sickness first. Just like a plant, it grows up by having root first. When the root is damaged, the plant will die off. Once Lord removes the root cause of the sickness, the sickness will have to die off and get out of the body.

Lord Jesus is the one, who created us, and know us, our body very well. What he add or remove from our body, only will result in goodness. Whatever doctor add or remove from our body, usually doctor will not be able to get us back to our original stage, but Lord Jesus could, and Lord’s way is He will sure to give us a better body than what we originally have. He told me He is giving my dad another 30 years of life and He will renew my dad’s life. Praise the Lord!

Through this event, my dad, who previously told me not to believe too much, have come closely to Lord. He is listening to Pastor Mark Hokkien sermons and taking Holy Communion daily to let Lord heals him. Praise the Lord!

Lately, another issue also arise in my life. Hubby gets to know that I have been teaching Jc how to pray to Lord Jesus. He has not wanted me to influence her. However, when Jc could not sleep well, or when she faced unfavourable situation, and I know that Lord could help her get out of her situation, I, of course, teach her, so that she could get her peace.

Hubby does not believe that Lord Jesus exists. When Su ponder over his disbelieve, Lord told Su last evening that when hubby was young he didn’t come close to Lord. Yet, he prayed Lord to bless him. I know that we need to believe in Lord and remain in peace for blessings to come true. Lord said he did not have faith in Him. When hubby saw his friends got blessed while he did not, he had become angry and moved away from Lord. No wonder he had told me that he could not feel anything about Lord.

Anyway, he has stopped giving me my monthly allowance this month. Lord told me not to bother by his threat. In fact, I was in peace last night. Somehow, when I did not behave as what hubby expected of me to him, he become restless. He, who used to stick to his PCs nightly, went to watch TV. But that could not satisfy him, he brought Jc down to the play ground. Haha..this is exceptional behaviour of his, usually Jc has to beg him and only if he was waiting for dinner, and not after. Praise the Lord!

Lord has told me that my blessing and Su and HL blessing will surprised him to believe in Lord Jesus. The blessings are coming soon. I will wait for such a day to happen. I like to have my whole family loving Lord Jesus, and then we can go to church together. Praise the Lord!

Father God, Lord Jesus and Holy Spirit, thank You very much for being with me in this challenging time. Thank You for the hope that You give to me and my family. Thank You for Your Grace and Mercy! In Jesus Almighty Sweet Name, Amen!