Love

Remember long ago when Lord told me to divorce ex? He said I did not know what is True Love! At that time, I was really clueless what He was talking about. This morning, while I just woke up and taking my shower, Lord download the lesson of Love to me. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!

Lord showed me that Mr New Man, from reading my blog, and like me somehow, would from the name I posted here, given by Lord, to connect that to the name given by my parents. And from there identified who I am in picture and stage a meet-me-session through all the hoo haa of tracing me.

For some reason, what he done was exposed and my end got the dart shooting. The next day, appeared on my corridor was a man, who tried to see my state of mind from all the shooting. And the next 2 days I was put under observation.

Also through how Mr New Man drove and his emotion, Lord explained that as True Love. I know nothing about him yet he did all that just to meet me. The whole process is sweet and I still find it sweet when I recalled it. Never in my life have anybody (this refers only to the other 2 men in my life) do anything special for me except Mr New Man. I don't know if it will result in something or that is the end of it. But Mr New Man, thank you for the experience!!! God blessed you!!!

This also lead me to think of Jesus! Even before I knew Him, He died for me at the Cross and removed all my sins, indignation and transgression. Now I am made the Righteousness of GOD in Christ Jesus and Heaven is my home!!! Glory to Jesus!!!

Lord then let me know ex learnt how to please women by saying what they want to hear and do what they wanted to keep them happy and he gets his way. This is not true love, it just do for short period of time and after that, it's emptiness!!!

Why I was addicted to internet was because, after the honeymoon, when back home, he faced the pc all day! I was forced to face my pc all day too. (Lord transformed me to fellowship with Him whole day instead!!! Glory to Jesus!!!) If I had any question, he will turn to me and answer, otherwise, he faced his pc again.

When we cross path at home, he would do blocking the way and hugging. If he wanted some sex, he would be pulling/pushing me into the room and do it. It's all about him and him. I gave him total freedom, to look at girls on the road, to serve porno in my presence. But all these did not keep him happy. He was unfaithful in the dark, when I was obedient to him.

After I know Christ and was not listening to him fully, to let him have his way all the time, he threaten me to choose Christ or him. On the 2nd year, he decided that was enough and openly date other younger girls.

Between telling me how many percent love me and how many percent don't love me, Lord told me that he wanted the divorce and Lord prepared me for it in May and the actual process started in July that year! By Jan 2010, the divorce was finalised.

Lord let me see the difference between true love and no real love so that I could tell them apart. He said when He prosper me, ex would do a U-turn for the money sake and I am to reject him.

Anyway, having gone through the pain of having to choose Christ or man, I decided that my next man, if I am going to marry again, must be a Christian and knows about Jesus loves him. I do not want a war about Jesus at home and I don't want devil to use him to quarrel with me!

I could not forgo Christ because He is using me for His Coming Back and I have given my life for His Purpose. So, the man in my life must understand this and let me put Christ and His Commandment first.

Of course, in private life at home, then the man will be the head of the household. This is the thought of my heart, so I need a very understanding man to be my husband.

Having said all these, Mr New man, thank you for this experience, even though it just a less than 30mins drive. I treasured your free give of love and if there is any future to it, let's talk it in the future! God Bless you!!!

Abba Father, I thank You for a precious lesson of Love. I could now see clearly and now I know put through the fire of time, true love remains while lies exposed. Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!