Look Over The Fence

I like to thank you for the second encounter!!! You did not know what effect it had on me!!!

Previously, as I looked to self, looking at my history, many a time, when I was letting my mind wonder and thinking about my future, I was thinking that of all situations, going back to ex and let the family reunited again might be the best solution!!!

As by this decision I won't have a bad record as everything is back to previous.

The image of being divorced and having a daughter, even though she is not under my care and control is not easy to carry!!!

Each time I walked up the counter, being addressed as my girl's mother, and knowing you were watching me from behind, it was like all the bad feelings I had for being a divorcée, was washed away layers by layers!!!

It was like the lady whom laid on her back to earn her 1 year salary to buy that perfume to pour on Lord Jesus!!! As she anointed Lord Jesus for His Eventual Burial, her sins were being washed away!!!

It has a purifying effect on me!!! All my guilt of the divorce status was eventually cleared away fully!!! Glory Glory!!!

Based on the service guy asking me to stand on a certain position and even when I sent only my daughter but he wanted me to be there, I know he got his instructions from someone behind me.

The fact that you enjoyed me gives me the confidence I need to walk out of that fence that trapped me!!! That's why I said it's not about what others mind or not. But if you mind!!!

I don't know eventually we will be together or not, but at this point in time, I just want to say, Thank you!!!

That Look

Two Sunday ago, the man that freezed into eternity, looking at me for about a good 10 seconds of his precious time, I was clueless and my mind was blank as I looked at him.

It was not exactly anger nor unhappy!!! But that look produced lots of question marks in me. What have I done???

If I by not doing anything consciously can caused something to happen, was it my fault???

I had been clueless and cast it aside as I don't understand.

Today, Lord revealed the behind scenes to me!!!

Frankly, looking at them from afar, they and me are world apart!!! We have no business with each other at all!!!

But, this man from their brotherhood, has an effect on me. That could only happens by the Grace of The Lord!!! Nothing I do can cause anything!!! It's All His Plan, not me!!! I don't even know him!!!

By giving me that look, in a way he is Honouring me unintentionally!!! But it is not a welcome thingy!!! I do not appreciate it!!! The fault is not mine to pick!!!

But I appreciate the man for thinking highly of me!!! This also by the Grace of The Lord!!! Not that I deserve it!!!

It could only happen when The Lord lifts me up and give me a new Platform to stand on and restored my Youth to that of compatibility. Even so it is still by the Grace of The Lord.

For it is true I was married once and I do have a daughter!!! This is part of the History of my Life and it cannot be deny!!!

It's just like Ruth and Boaz, everything is permissible but if it is Good? This, Time will tell!!!

At this point, I am not making any decision how the 2 Paths ahead of me, which would I take in the End!!! Even though Lord has point the Way!

When the Time is ripe, we shall see!!! Glory Glory!!! Amen Amen!!!