Is marriage possible

My counsellor post me this question when I met her yesterday.

I looked at money and told her possible. But I know money is the root of all evil and wants is a endless well. 

So in the natural, nothing is possible. 

Those ancient lovers most didn’t work out.

My friend ask if I will choose ex again. 

Now after 12 years, whatsoever feeling that I might have for him is totally gone. Also, my girl has grown up. So her factor also gone. 

Plus they both blocked me fully from their lives. How to have any feelings for them?

Anyway those ancient lovers had one common factor. God is not in their lives. So they had to go by human efforts.

It’s like what current opposition doing to me; be it spiritual attack or human effort, it will only lead to end in a dead end. 

So is it still possible?

Well, I don’t know what will happen eventually. 

But I know I have thousand year of job to do for the LORD. 

And all Christians will renewed in youth, corrupt become incorruptible, mortal will become immortality. 

And GOD is LOVE and I am HIS Beloved. 

What will happen is not within my control, nor my feelings or whatsoever. 

I cast this relationship with the families and friends and those involved to YOUR NAILED PIERCED HAND. LORD JESUS, there is nothing that I could do and there is nothing they could do. We are all impossible. 

However, in YOU, LORD, YOU will work all things out for YOUR GOODNESS; for YOUR NAME Sake. YOU are I AM and in YOU, nothing is I M Possible. 

Thank You, LORD JESUS. 

Btw, thank you. My centre management wasn’t disturbed. From my understanding lately, many are leaving. 

My Centre

The centre where I live, there was a lady that would scold all the members staying here and specially me. 

When I cooked for the members to enjoy food, she will say I don’t ‘listen’ to her. 

She even said I’lured’ others to eat my food. 

When I don’t cook, she scolded I don’t care about certain of her people here. 

She got stronger and even scolded the councillors, Health care workers, she laughed at a married staffs here about how the man like his fat wife because of her status. 

Who ever she encountered she scolded. 

She used dirty unclean sexual words that drew the ugliness of sex, sexual organs and even condemned us having many dirty men against me. 

She just scolded and scolded that we who stayed the same level with her did not get our peace. 

For our sake for our mental health, centre had been asking her to discharge but she refused but just be a nuisance to everyone. 

To counter her nasty scolding, one member on the radio loudly to drown her voice. 

It’s a on going fighting. She imagined and talked loudly that one members was flirting with the HCA male staff where the member just sat near the counter. 

That member gave her a slap for demeaning her. 

All in all, she has the ability to scold at the top of her voice from day break to the night. 

For our sake, centre managed to find a loophole to discharge her. 

However, her people here became not happy. One shot a email to the top MP in this GRC where the centre is. 

The councillor, who was in charged of her is promoting. 

The Residential manger is asked to quit for helping us to find peaceful life. 

I was terrified so much by her scolding that even after she left, everyday I passed by the chair she sat to scold loudly, she is like still there. 

My mental health was affected so much by her even though I choose to ignore her scolding but just live under the scolding, condemnation. 

It was this week, after she left for 2 weeks that I feel better. 

But the GRC did something for the member who complained about the centre who removed this mental terror. 

There are movements in the staff office. Her councillor is going to promote to take over the residential manager place. 

The Residential manager was told to leave for bringing peace for the sick members here. 

I am speechless at what the people of this GRC could do to a mental health centre. It’s as if we should not get better and moved into the society; we should be condemned and live under terror. 

The centre should not do the right thing to promote health to us. But should let terror to demeaning our lives. 

I am speechless. 

One thing I noticed about the people they sent to live here. They all scolded sexual organs in their distress. 

Are they a group of lowly people that don’t know how to express their anger in none sexual way?

Anyway, guess these are the true selves of this group of people. 

Hiaz